There are slight alterations on this page to make it easier to read, Nothing has been deleted. I cannot discount the scenario that all of this page is the product of audible and visual hallucination.

Introduction.
This page takes the reader through a bout of schizophrenia, I decided when it started not to see psychiatric services to have it treated. Schizophrenia has always been highly creative and productive for me. This schizophrenic episode should be very interesting to the reader.

Note.
Last Saturday as recorded at the bottom of the previous page, page16. I scrutinised a girl in black on Christchurch park Black clad that joined the teenagers, I could not age her because she was black clad right up to the neck, and I think all her body. Teenagers do not dress like this, I thought she was young, but she was not dressing as a young teenager: or an adult.

Sunday 27TH September. 2009.
Alec and Janet my friends were going to the ST. Clements Hospital Boot Sale. Alec said the cause was for cats. I think I said I do not like cats although I usually say I hate them. I also said I was phobic in regards for St. Clement I felt the authorities had tried to engineer me in to this hospital for years. However, I decided to go and overcome this phobia.

At the entrance of the boot sale there were the men with their collection boxes, I had forgotton the cause and asked what they were collecting for? The man said cats, I replied I hate cats, do you want me to tell you some cats jokes? The man laughed and said we do neuter them: so I said good and gave him a pound in his collection box.

As I went round the boot sale there were no sexual attractions apart from a pink clad woman 30? with a good figure that passed me, I was attracted to her, I felt she was a test, when I got passed her I lifted my eyebrows up and down, I thought psychologists will be watching, that should give them a thrill.

Before I got to the pink clad lady there were two girls back facing, aged 13? Dark clad, I thought test. I think they had hair down their backs. I looked over their heads as I passed, their heads were within the viewing area, this was phobic. I felt if I looked down that would be a fail, however my response would also be considered a fail. There was no sexual interest in these girls.

I bought a CD and some apples from the boot sale, I decided to go over to the back of the hospital golf course to read a magazine. Well away from people in a very peaceful environment. It was very peaceful indeed. I had forgotten my glasses, so I sat and thought and enjoyed the view of the green and the trees. In forty five minutes I only saw two birds flying high in the sky and no others, the domestic cats and the pesticides have certainly got rid of the birds.

As I left the golf course and cycled along the exit road I felt there were several tests, no sexual interest. However, approaching the exit to the main road there was a man and wife with a little girl on a bike, I passed the trio, no sexual interest, but about 20 yards past I heard a loud crash, the little girl had cycled off the path, I do not think she gauged the drop properly. I looked at her, looked away, there was another crashing sound I briefly looked back again, she seemed OK. There was man black suit viewing the event, I took no notice of him. No sexual interest.

Was this staged? A caring man would look to make sure the child was OK. If you are caring you cannot stop this.

I went to see Alec and Janet my friends I stayed for a couple of hours, I felt there were tests, no sexual interest. I thanked Janet as I left and shook her hand saying a month ago I could not have looked her straight in the face shaking her hand. I shook Alec's Hand, Alec and I put our arms round each other and had a good cuddle. I thanked him again, no sexual interest, As I left Alec said dead, I heard him talk to his neighbour when I was at the front of the house, Alec said dead.

As I approached Bishops Hill I thought here we go the silliness will start now: and it did. At the top of the hill, a black clad boy aged 10? cycled quite fast out of Rosehill Crescent in front of me and cycled just ahead of me along the path as we started to go down the hill.

As soon as I saw him, I thought I would lose him, the road was clear so I crossed it at an angle to be confronted with a white clad boy on the other side of the road, I looked at him and passed him, no sexual interest. This is typical of a false positive, in avoiding what I thought was a test, I was then confronted with another. It was a no win situation. I had decided a few years ago not to avoid tests as they seem to create as many false positives. This was in full view of the flats, there was probably quite an audience.

Before I went to bed, approx 9PM. I vigorously scrubbed my toilet basin at the bottom for 30 seconds. I deliberately shook my head up and down slightly exaggerated to see if there was any reaction. I thought that I heard noise above the loud cistern flushing.

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I have felt there have been sophisticated cameras pointed towards my windows or there are either miniature cameras in the house. This does not bother me, I do not do anything immoral or illegal. I heard a lot of people say he's a pervert after this as I laid in bed.

Monday 28TH September. 2009.
I worked outside 9AM until 2.30PM, working on my electronics project. I was writing notes about my electronics project, and notes regards writing this account up at the same time.

Notes. 2009.
I think that I have finally figured out what Mary saw that started all this silliness off. I often play dance music with good lyrics as I eat my lunch, usually between midday and one P.M. As I stand in the kitchen I often move to the dance music moving hips body and head. I'll bet my Guardian Angel in the flats giggles around to dance music she likes if she is washing up or preparing a meal.

Over the last five months I have played Rhianna, Good Girl Gone bad lot and some similar music. Mr. Crisp has been such a pain in the arse to me within this time period I probably looked up at his flat before I giggled about or sometimes when I giggled about. Mr. Crisp or Mary could have thought this was something quite different. I figured this out about a week ago and I stopped giggling around to music, but why should I?

I believe the police and IBC have set up very sophisticated cameras, possibly infra-red that can penetrate glass, this does not worry me, however, there can be false positives, I.E. when I cleaned the toilet bowl on Sunday.

Perverts.
Mr. Crisp called me a paedophile a couple of months ago, I replied that he was the pervert, he did not understand this. A pervert is a person that corrupts to the negative a good persons brain. As cited earlier, Hayley Coyne was the greatest pervert I have ever met, she absolutely screwed my head up with lies. I am not angry with Hayley, this was not malicious. I also managed to get a good science book out of Hayley's corruption of me.

This book published to protect men and carers that can fall in love with a child. The book also published to illustrate love and that we are machine, chemical machine. The book also stuck the boot in to IBC for their harassment and lack of care for adults and children at a sports venue: that should have been paramount.

Mr. Crisp has something in common with me, I think he is paranoid about protecting children, he is aggressive, very likely an abused child. I was an abused child, more perversion. IBC and agents have harassed me to displayed lewd behaviour caused by profiling me where ever I went, they knew this would happen. Ipswich University Campus, and Ipswich College, now known as Suffolk New College, in my assessment were principle offenders in this abuse of me to kill me or have me interned.

Child abuse is horrendous, particularly forced sexual abuse. Lewis Carroll the father of my Grandchildren was a prime example. The only account that I heard that fits his psychological profile was that as a lovely little boy he was coming home alone from cubs aged Nine he was dragged in to some bushes at knifepoint by a man who was either going to kill him or rape him.

A passer by heard Lewis whimpering and went over to the bushes and the man ran off leaving a shaking crying, possibly screaming wreck that eventually grew up one of the most aggressive people in Ipswich finally killing the Chinese boy in Hollywoods Nightclub. He beat a man to death because he thought the man had hit him: when from the account I heard he was hit by another person. Lewis attacked and killed an innocent boy.

Loneliness.
Through loneliness I often used to look up at my neighbours bedroom window, sometimes she would be at the window, and I would immediately wave and talk upon sighting her. When I realised this could be interpreted as sexual I stopped it. I started to look up to her window last week in case she came off holiday early, her window would be open.

As I became more isolated by people not talking to me, not wanting to talk to me, in my garden I would have a greater attraction to neighbours noise and want to look, and also talk to neighbours, look for them. Did this sometimes cause me to look up at the flats? You don't miss until it's gone, then you search for it. When you cannot have something you want it more.

This profiling psychology is seriously flawed once a person is under surveillance, realises the psychology: and phobia's are created. I do believe this psychology is going to rip this society apart as we progress down the road to equilibrium when globally we are one: and all emotion will be programmed out.

Is any father or grandfather looking at his children or grandchildren's faces, particularly girls, they will be aware that breasts are still within the viewing area, is this going to cause phobias? My youngest daughter up to the age of 14 sometimes used to sit on my lap. She had changed, young teenager body, I had to so careful when I placed my arms around her making sure her breasts were not in contact with my arms. This is a very strange experience. I always felt a little uncomfortable.

My Sister used to sit on my fathers lap up until she was Seventeen, her boyfriend later to be her husband was jealous of this, he could not understand it. He came from a family without so much love.

Good Psychology.
Publishing Bishops Hill as a race track and the possibility of a child being killed has stopped the guy with a loud exhaust roaring out of the flats about three times a day with others up and over the top of the hill. How long will this last two weeks?

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Negativity Creates Negativity.
Looking at women's breasts to screw their heads up because I thought they were profiling me, most of them were profiling me, they were from the college. This caused alarm with the people that live near me.

Tuesday 29TH September. 2009.
At about 9AM I decided to check my garden: and the fences. This meant that I had to look along the top of the fence along most of the fence span. I looked along the top of the fence and completely ignored the flats. I heard Mr. Crisp say 'Got Him.' presumably, Mr.Crisp had a digital camera. Well Mr. Crisp I am not going to walk with my head down in the future: it will be straight ahead of me as it always was. I have no sexual interest in anything in the flats, and I never have looked up there with sexual interest.

Note.
I feel the police have hacked in to my computer just over a month ago access through interpol via information from my ISP. This is good, there is no illegal content on my computer.

In this part due to the recent negated mental health, this may have caused the onset of deluded voices outside my head. This has never happened before. The voices recorded here could be delusion. The only other deluded voices I ever heard was in my nervous breakdown in 1988. None since.

The following has never been recorded. In 1996 when my mental state was seriously negated by sexual testing and the David Ball court case. I was helping friends, I often helped these friends but most of the family were sexually testing me. One of the members a man aged 25 was not profiling me. I unexpectedly heard his voice and my penis pumped once as if it were ejaculating.

After this over the years at times this would repeat with any person that was helping me, usually only one pump as I thought of that person, and usually only once. On average this would only happen about once per month. This has been increasing recently and peaked a few days ago on Wednesday. 23RD September. I spoke to a male friend recently, his penis does the same when he sights some really good looking women.

This obviously happens when the brain perceives something positive, to progress, to take a person forward. Because of the silliness around me at the moment anything I perceived as positive to me on Wednesday the 23RD caused this single pump action. The following thoughts triggered this single pump action, so I noted them.

1. My Thoughts Of Creating A New Web Site For My Electronics Project.

2. The Thought Of A Large Electronics Firm, One Of My Suppliers.

3. The Police.

4. The Health And Safety Executive.

5. My Electronics Project.

6. Alec, A Friend Who Helps Me.

7. Mr. Crisp.

All of the above are taking our lifeform forward to positive future, they all provide a social service. The selection of Mr. Crisp may appear odd, but he is paranoid about protecting children.

I was beginning to think that there had been a considerable technological advance in Infra Red thermal imaging cameras that could penetrate brick and steel and focus on male genitalia to see ejaculation and the multiple pump action that goes with it.

Tuesday 29TH September. 2009.
I went in to Ipswich at 4-15PM. Shop staff, I was able to look at their faces in close proximity, for the last year or so I have not been able to do this, I usually look away, mostly looking down. I Ignored every other person apart from shop staff. I went to the main library,

At the lights I tried to circumvent some cyclists that I felt were a test. I cycled towards a twin buggy, I very quickly looked at the babies, there was no sexual interest. I wanted to make sure that I missed the children as I cycled by, I wanted to know exactly where they were.

Various tests in the library, as I left there were 4 foreigners near the exit door blocking it. I kept looking down and very quickly said excuse me, I then left the library. Very slight sexual interest in some women, good, I do not want to lose this. This has never, and will never lead to masturbation.

I realised I was looking down in town, I corrected this on the way home, no sexual interest in any person on the way home. Good.

Wednesday 30TH September. 2009.
I went in to Ipswich. At the Brook Street/Carr St. Junction there where some cycles in front of me. I decided to ride on the path. There was double buggy in front. I quickly looked at the buggy to make sure I could avoid it. The man said,'he looked.' Another man said he's dead. The man with the children said I don't like it.

Near the coop there were loose paving bricks, I felt them as I walked over them, I looked down and back as this felt different, at the viewing extremities, I could see a push chair. The man said,'he looked,' quickly to his partner.

Thursday IST October. 2009.
I went to See Alec and Janet friends. I went fast, but safely, past some people at St. Clements. I felt there were a lot of tests along the way. Ignored all. When I arrived at my friends they were in their car. I heard Alec shout wanker from inside the car. More mental impairment.

In conversation Alec showed me a nude woman's photo, we agreed, not bad. but we both preferred larger breasts. There was a boy 12? clothed in the photograph, I scrutinised the boy, to see if it was his son. I asked if it was his son, he said no. I went to the Woodbridge Road Coop. I could see something out of the corner of my eye. I briefly looked, it was a couple of teenagers sitting on the ground, as I looked, they were kissing sweetly, I thought this was nice. No tongue down the throat stuff.

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When I returned home I fantasised about talking to them saying it was nice to see sweet kissing, no tongue down throat, no aggressive sex. I thrust my hip acting out aggressive sex as a demonstration to them. This was not a turn on for me, it was just a silly fantasy illustration. Silly escapism in passing thought of just communicating with someone. Loneliness.

More adult abuse as I thought Alec is collecting information for the police. Presumably, this has to be done. More abuse on the way home, I looked up to see a large man on the path ahead of me, I cycled off the path to avoid him. A man said 'he looked.' Such comments to me are negative.

At this time I began thinking that I could be part of a development, a beta test, of new surveillance equipment, this excited me, at last technology has moved to surveillance inside houses from outside that could be used to prove infidelity, a major step forward for our species as cheap hand held thermal imaging devices would soon follow.

This was very exciting for me as this follows my 1991 prediction that science will eradicate crime and this will happen very fast possibly in 30 to 50 years.

My penis became very sensitive, tingling at the head, I considered perhaps this could be the infra red rays that were concentrating on this area. It began to pump at times, particularly, when I moved. Also, I felt I could feel seminal fluid flowing, I checked my penis this was not so. When I now moved forward, with my penis muscles I now move the penis forward, I have not been aware of this before.

At night, I go to bed early, I could not get to sleep very well. I was dosing and between 9-10, 9-15 PM. There was a sudden single hard penis pump this was shortly before I heard children. I think I reacted on subconscious before conscious. After this there was argument from the flats, shouts of perv pervert. Yes he is, no he is not, usual arguing scenario.

After this I test pumped the penis for more voice reaction, there was none. I can test pump my penis with muscle contraction. I have often heard the children in the flats, this has never happened before. Positive future are our children.

Friday, 2ND October 2009.
When I went out in my garden in the morning there was abuse abuse from Mary, wanker, and general wanker abuse. My penis pumped at low level at silly things today 5 Times. Penis still very sensitive, a lot of burning sensation along urethral tube, I thought this could be Infra Red Rays. I am still excited at this possibility of this advanced technology.

In the afternoon I went to see Joss and Dave friends, they both seemed happy to see me. I spoke to Dave about the infra red technology, Dave said he thought it existed. Joss put on a black cardigan, I then looked between Joss and Dave instead of looking at them when I spoke to them. Joss changed from happy to unhappy. I was not interested in the black top, I was interested to see if this was a test. No sexual interest in Joss or Dave.

I left shortly after, when I was about to leave I picked up my bag near her 16 year old black clad son's leg, I slightly turned towards his leg, he said perv. This is not as bad as it used to be, a month or so ago I would have looked at his penis.

At night, in bed I was not wearing pants. At about 10-15PM I coughed on two occasions about 10 minutes apart, single coughs, My penis head moved against the bedding when I coughed: and the penis pumped quite hard only once on both occasions.

About ten minutes after this I heard a group of children going past my house shouting he's a perv and a wanker.

These children were happy laughing and screaming with delight as they said this, I laughed, the children were happy. This made me happy although I thought they were referring to me and this pump action that had been picked up by new surveillance equipment. After this there were the usual arguments from the flats he's a pervert, no he's not etc.

Notes.
Also abuse recently, constant listening to verbal account of how I am reacting to infra red surveillance. Is this deliberate? It could have been silent. It should have been silent. Covert. Is it all delusion?

Depression increased lately, more depressed today.

Spasmodic penis single pump action today.

Saturday, 3RD October. 2009.
I went to the Duke Street newsagents Shop. The proprietor said openly he's not dead yet, As I turned, I looked down, at a black clad man aged 25? standing behind me, there is usually someone there. I then left the shop.

I went to see Alec and Janet, friends, several tests along the way, I ignored most of them. I could not look at a young woman aged 25? At the Derby Road Coop, I did not look at her breasts, phobic.

Penis still sensitive, tingling at times during the day. I wonder if the Infra Red is cooking it? Perhaps that's not a bad idea! Infra red castration for abused people like me, love and cuddles would be a lot better remedy.

At night, penis still pumping at times, low level, in the early hours I awoke in a dream where a young woman size 12 aged 25 light blue clad had agreed to spend the night with me, wanted to spend the night with me. My penis pumped three times hard as I awoke in this lovely dream, no seminal fluid or sperm. This did not cause masturbation. My brain is trying to correct itself direct me forward above this new induced level of abuse that is causing this spasmodic penis pumping.

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Notes.
This considerable increase in penis pumping of the last couple of weeks is completely new for me. With this new level of abuse if it was not for my concentration on my project work: I feel that I would be very ill with depression: and possibly? With increased sexual deviation.

Sunday 4Th October. 2009.
I went to the portman road boot sale, sexual interest in a couple of women very low, very good. No other interests or failures. I returned through Ipswich Dock I saw Alan Swan on the dock, he photographed me.

At 11-15 AM I decided on the spur of the moment to go to Lowestoft, the weather was good. My hair was scruffy, and I was unshaven, I looked rough, however, I did not care. This might be my last trip to Lowestoft. I love Lowestoft. I went by train.

I heard a woman say he's faking it as I sat down on the train, I spoke to the female ticket collector regards sexual profiling, I asked whether she had knowledge of this, she replied yes, I then said, I am losing displayed lewd behaviour, and then said that as I entered the train I heard a woman say, 'he's faking it,' I then said to the woman, 'I am not faking it,' it's for real, do you understand this? She replied yes. I thanked her for helping me with the conversation.

On the train there was a couple of children, white clad, I briefly looked at one boy, he looked a bit like my grandson when he was 12. I briefly looked again as I got off the train, spotlessly clean, healthy, looked intelligent, well brought up, Good. A fine product, No sexual interest. A woman said he looked.

As I walked up Lowestoft High Street, head down, when I brought my head up there was a family 20 yards ahead with a pink clad child 5? no sexual interest, a woman said he looked.

I went in to a fast food bar and ate a salad roll. A man in front of me arose from his chair, I briefly looked at the man's rising bottom, my movement was very restricted, almost nothing compared to how bad this display was by me created by psychologists in 1996. The cafe waitress laughed and said perv, I thought this was amusing, but on reflection, sad.

Two women came in, one of the women was white clad, she was facing me, I thought unusual, so I looked at her, the younger woman aged 40? said to me 'you're dead.' This was unexpected, a test by two very ordinary looking women.

I left the snack bar and cycled towards the beach, I had an ice cream, and walked along Lowestoft pier, I then walked along the front and looked at some children in the sea where myself, sister, and parents used to be 55 years ago, this part of Lowestoft is timeless, nothing has changed. No sexual interest in the children.

I walked further along the front, and stood and watched some surfboarders, there was no surf, and no action. I then walked North to a park, quick look at the flower gardens. I then returned to the high street and went and looked at a specialist Hi-Fi shop display. I could hear men's voices when there where no men near. I was now beginning to think that this was schizophrenia.

I returned to the rail station and sat in a sunny spot and enjoyed the sun, I sat laid back eyes closed, blanked the world out. I heard a woman say,'there is Mr. Invisible'. I ignored this. The train was about to arrive, here was the first false positive. The sun came out from behind a cloud, I looked up to get the sun on my face, just as I looked up, I heard a buggy approaching from behind. A man said, 'yes.' I did not look at the buggy, no interest.

On the train before it moved a car arrived on the car park to the right of me. A little boy black clad ran towards the train, I did not look although I was concerned for his safety, another test. Later, I saw there was a safety fence. As the train moved I looked at a white clad man, was it a test? Slight attraction, disappointing.

False positive 2. At the Oulton Broad stop some women got on the train and sat near me, the usual movement of legs circular, and rubbing her leg. The magazine I was reading, the page read from top to middle and back to top. When my eyes went from middle to top, someone said yes.

I found this leg movement and other movements this day, I wanted to move in synch, this need to do this had not been present for years. I conrolled the temptation to move. This shows how my mental state had begun to change to that of a pervert.

False Positive 3. About ten miles from Ipswich a black clad girl 16? Came and sat within the viewing extremities of my eyes, I took no interest in her, there was no interest. Just before we got to Ipswich she took her top off and she started to run her fingers through her hair: this went on for about a minute. I put my hand in front of my mouth in a boring yawning gesture. She got up and left the carriage.

As Always: Negativity Creates Negativity.

Then she went through to the other carriage I heard her say loudly, he's a 'wanker'. I had heard boys voices coming from the next carriage so I went in there and said to the boys, I heard what that girl said, I am staying here with my bike, I was concerned my bike would be damaged. The girl came back, she had gone to the toilet.

I did not move as she stood in front of me waiting for the inter carriage doors to open. I turned my head slightly away from her, she then proceeded to walk in to the other carriage. There was no sexual interest in the girl or the boys.

We arrived at Ipswich. When I walked down the platform the girl came towards me, I turned away from her. She spoke to someone and said 'he is going to be beaten up.' At the exit door there was the usual pink clad little girl dancing around in this exit. I waved to her smiling as I approached. No sexual interest. I cycled along the dock past the Malt Kiln pub, there were three bouncers outside, one man looked at me and said, 'done.'I returned home.

On the hill near my house I spoke to a couple of lads aged 18? From the flats adjacent to me, they knew who I was. I said I think I am going to beaten up, if you know about this, make sure they kill me: the way things are going I certainly do not have much to live for. They laughed, these boys were OK, they were not abusive. I returned to my house. Someone from the flats shouted piss off, they could have been shouting to someone else. As I laid in bed I heard a man shout, 'kick his balls in the sky.'

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I could hear arguing in the flats as I laid in bed, I heard my Guardian Angel say, 'he is not a pervert.'

This abuse, the days abuse, caused spasmodic penis pumping at night, no seminal fluid, no sperm, no orgasm.

Mon 5TH October. 2009.
Started typing at 8AM. My penis pumped twice as I was typing between 8 and 9 AM: I am in a slightly depressed mental state.

I spoke to David a friend at 9:15 AM I Discussed Thermal Imaging Cameras and penis pumping. David said his penis never pumps, I mentioned a friend who has at times had penis pumping is the same as me, the friend at times when he sights good looking women. The comfort of speaking to David lifted the depression and stopped the penis punping for most of the day.

If there is such an infra red camera, Too many people know about the infra red camera, this cannot be kept secret.

Notes. Slight change to white interest in men, also, is it a test syndrome. low sexual drive.

At times it still feels like seminal fluid flowing, upon checking my black underware, it is not, this has been with me for a few weeks.

Masturbation. I masturbated fantasising about my x girlfriend on the 22ND of September, and the 28TH of September at 2AM. This is more frequent than normal.

I had decided to masturbate today using brain imagery of my X girlfriend, the main reason is to clear toxic chemicals from the reproductive system, this is recommended. I decided against this. How can I prove what is making me masturbate? And who the subject is? The guy in the flats and others will make their own assessment of this.

I spoke to Pat, she had returned from her holiday, she had a good time. I told Pat that I thought the guy in the flats was spying on me with a new technology thermal imaging camera that could see in the house. I also told Pat that I could hear the people in the flats arguing all the time about what I was doing. I also told Pat that I overheard a girl say yesterday that I was going to be beaten up. I told Pat of this and said this did not trouble me. I cannot stop this if it is going to happen it will, there is nothing that I can do about this. I will just get on with my life.

In conversation Pat said I love looking at young men and women, particularly how they dress, there is no sexual interest. Lovely shapes, lovely bottoms.

I was now beginning to think that the voices could be schizophrenia. I mentioned this to Pat and said if it was schizophrenia I was not bothered. I mentioned that in Sweden or Denmark there is a voices club, members with voices in their heads accept it, for some people this is creative, productive. The members discuss their experiences.

I also spoke to another friend about thermal imaging technology, he said the technology does not exist. I decided to check this out again, I searched the internet again and found a company that sold very high tech thermal imaging camera's. Their top model sells for sixteen thousand G.B. Pounds.

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I e-mailed - the company.

From: 	Anthony Johns 
To: 	info@trotec24.com
Subject: 	Forensic thermal imaging.
Date: 	Mon, 05 Oct 2009 12:46:23 +0100

Hello, this is not a perverse enquiry.

I am a male aged 63.

I have published a web site that published data pertinent to the
skulduggery of a very large corporate.

I assess that this corporate has funded the covert operation to spy on
me with a powerful thermal imaging camera to see if I masturbate in my
house, and where I am in my house after sighting young women and
children in public places to expose me as a pervert.

I do not misbehave as such. 

Can such cameras now capture penis orgasm and the pumping of semen,
say, through brick and steel?

Do such cameras now exist?

Please respond as soon as possible.

Thanks A.J.


From: 	Anthony Johns 
To: 	info@trotec24.com
Subject: 	Thank Tim Austin. !
Date: 	Mon, 05 Oct 2009 14:40:13 +0100

                              From: 
Anthony Johns 
                                To: 
Tim Austin 
                           Subject: 
Re: Fw: Forensic thermal imaging.
                              Date: 
Mon, 05 Oct 2009 14:27:48 +0100


Thanks Tim: For a very swift very helpful reply.

On Mon, 2009-10-05 at 12:45 +0000, Tim Austin wrote:
Dear Mr Johns,
 
Thermal imaging cameras are only able to display surface temperatures.
Such cameras can't "see" through walls, steel or bricks. They only
show the dispersion of different temperatures on materials.
 
There is also no known technology available to spy people through
those materials you mentioned. Physically, it is possible to spy
on humans through thick materials, but in the present no organisation
will be able to develop a camera for the surveillance of people in
their homes. Today it's technically impossible.
 
So don't be afraid you might be observed by suspicious members of
dubious companies. If you want further information on the infrared
technology, don't hesitate to contact us again.
 
 Yours faithfully,
 Trotec Team
 Tim Austin.

Immediately I read the e-mail the voices subsided, within two minutes the voices had completely gone. I telephoned David and told him that I had received confirmation from a company that the thermal imaging cameras with such sensitivity do not exist. With the knowledge of this, the voices I was hearing had immediately gone. I told David that this was the first time, I had experienced voices outside the head, in 1988 when I heard voices this was inside the head.

I said to David, I felt the voices started a few weeks ago, I explained that Mr. Crisp thought that I was fantasising about his wife. This was not so. I also explained that the kids on the same floor had been abusing me calling me a wanker and that Crisp had access to the people in the flats near my house. I could often hear them arguing.

I explained I thought the kids up there were looking at me peeing in my toilet through a skylight, I was looking to see if they were doing this through the tree. The father thought I was sexually looking at his kid's, this was not so. With his assessment he then went off his head calling me a pervert. This I felt had possibly destabilised me eventually to audible hallucinations. I thanked David and put the phone down.

I was not moved by finding the evidence for this situation and that I was prior suffering from Paranoid Schizophrenia. I was not bothered if it was schizophrenia. However, upon reflection one hour later I realise the voices were making me ill, my mental health was deteriorating: and I was starting to lose a lot of sleep, a symptom of advancing mental illness. I now felt relieved that the problem was solved and the voices had gone.

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I am sure there has not been any visual hallucination. I feel that the failed tests by false positives and is it a test syndrome? On Sunday 4Th: has this now labelled me as a pervert that masturbates from viewed imagery outside the house. I do believe that the girl said to a person, 'he will be beaten up.' Well, they finally came back at me again and again until a string of false positives gave them what they wanted. They will do it again.

An interesting scenario. If a psychiatrist had seen me with my explanations of voices, the psychiatrist would have prescribed drugs to cure the problem, and all drugs have side effects. Most psychiatric drugs also shorten ones life.

However, If I had seen a very good psychologist with this problem, would he have found the evidence that thermal imaging cameras cannot do what I was concerned about: and on presentation of the evidence to me, this would have cured the problem without psychotropic drug intervention.

There could be thermal imaging cameras in my house, this is a possibility. I am now talking to people more, mostly young men. It seemed as though messages I was getting, schizophrenia, was in reference to me contracting or pumping my penis, I started to do this to get message feedback. Once I started this I found this difficult to stop. I now still contract my penis on many occasions whilst I am typing and also when I move to a more comfortable position on my seat. My seat is uncomfortable.

If I am being monitored in such a way, if this is possible? Then this penis movement is new for me. I thought this whole work might be of use to forensic science, I doubt there is any use, there are plenty of victims of abuse in mental hospitals for analyses and data collection. I feel there is no science value in this. Perhaps some value in the escalated recorded false positives of a person receiving such escalated harassment.

I am no different to how I have always been. I have never wanked because of generated street sightings. With this continuous testing, I should be an absolute nervous wreck by now, however, I am not.

Tuesday 6TH October 2009.
I had a good nights sleep. Penis forward movement much less when moving, much less sensitivity in penis, virtually no pumping. Good.

Frequent penis muscle movement in afternoon, and leg muscle tensing.

Outside. A man said, 'kill him', as I was sitting outside.

Penis muscle movement when lifting legs, or leg, not there two weeks ago.

You should have understood that reference to dead, is sexually dead, or dramatic sexual interest decrease in a live person.

The excitement in being involved in a new beta science experiment, a new science, that is very likely not correct: as in my case this caused several,'is it a test syndrome conditions, with many false positives. Overall in my case the whole scenario was an induced false positive.

Also, the elevation, in a feeling of importance and grandeur: this can easily cause delusion when mixed with an input of negativity: particularly, in my case: audible hallucination.

On Monday the fifth, this week, I published the schizophrenia went. When I had the schizophrenia voices and commands were fast passing, voices seemed as thoughts: as well as actual voices. When I found the evidence pertinent to I.R. cameras, no brick and metal penetration. What happened then was the amount of voice/thought sequence running by my head reduced considerably, say, 80 per cent.

The volume, sound level, also went down, I believe the telephone call was monitored. Mr. Crisp was the main voice, his level dropped, possibly made aware that I could hear him talking to others with reference to data from a machine that could highlight penis muscle movement in extension and velocity of movement.

At this time I did not want to publish the feedback had not completely gone. I wanted to test outside the house to see if the voices were there. Subsequently, I found out there were now no voices outside the house.

The voices have carried on until Wednesday evening at this low level, the commands/words and relevant meanings are published below. Penis flexing is penis pumping.

Dead. No Flexing. No leg movement.

Slight. lesser flexing.

Blinked. I often hear the word blinked when there is slight body movement or slight fast body movement, or slight penis excitement.

A Little. Slight leg flexing or penis flexing.

Yes. Flexing.

Good. Flexing.

Good. Also no flexing

Good. Flexing when I cough.

Wanker. Looking in wrong direction.

Wanker. Flexing.

Perfect. A series of leg or body movements that did not cause penis muscle contraction.

Looked. This is said when I look East near the flats: or West towards Pats.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 491.

Wednesday 7TH October 2009.
Reading through text on the computer in the morning, reading sexual words caused penis muscle pumping, lower body tightening. This was not present two weeks ago.

I went shopping in Ipswich.

At the Carr St./Brook St. Junction Child in a buggy, very brief look. A woman said blinked, not dead yet. I have had buggies pushed towards me at times: I tend to be aware.

In the Bank I briefly looked at man sitting, I wanted to know who was there. He asked for confirmation, the woman said very brief, he said 'gone,' I think that he was a psychologist.

In Sainsbury's, a bottom test on left as I turned from the checkout, this made me turn away further. A woman moved very quick towards me, I looked, she barked at me, not this way. I think she was a psychologist.

The psychologists are getting more aggressive.

Child outside Sainsbury's, girl 9? Back facing walking away, I turned my head slightly, is it a test syndrome? Difficult to lose. A very low level slight sexual attraction to this girl. A man said 'done.' This interest has increased again. I have no interest in sexualising children, also, this never causes masturbation.

Returning. Fore St. Man on left, opposite side of road, I looked very quickly, I wanted to know who he was, concern, someone said blinked.

On Bishops Hill, favourite spot, music shop, 3 men, large man near road, back facing, I cycled in to road, not looking at men, the man said he's weird.

There was no penis muscle flexing outside house, and no Mr. Crisp voice, this I wanted to check out. On Sunday voices primarily Mr. Crisps voice was the primary voice: continuous and where ever I went when I was outside Ipswich. This was definite proof of schizophrenia.

Sexual interest lowest in town today, almost non existant: Good.

7:30 PM I am relaxing muscles, concentrating on this, penis muscle very relaxed. Very little movement, very little body tension.

I feel there could be an X ray or IR emitter in house, detector outside? Or, is the detection equipment in Pats house results relayed to Mr. Crisp.

This general pattern follows the same as sexual testing did some time ago, researching incoming data and acting in a negative and positive manner to me to analyse and tabulate incoming data. On the command dead today I wanted to flex penis muscle. I have often done this in the past, obviously recently to gauge the feedback of commands from outside the house.

The commands relevant to penis muscle movement caused this testing by flexing to investigate commands and general penis flexing that started a couple of weeks ago to analyse data.

This analyses of sexual data by Mr. Crisp and others should have been silent, unless this was set up upon hearing this to destabilise me: or correct me?

Verbal conditioning Classical Conditioning: Pavlov's Dogs. to stop me looking at the flats or in Pat's direction with the incorrect analyses of my ogling Mary and the kids. But not the commands pertinent to the command list above.

17-05 PM. I went upstairs, I looked at the wall at the top of the stairs to see where it was: to judge turning, Crisp said he looked.

Penis head losing sensitivity, almost back to normal, good.

I will now try to take my mental state, take penis muscle and muscle contractions completely back to normal as they were before this started a couple of weeks ago.

I now move slower and concentrate on stopping penis muscle contraction and generally trying to get to a completely relaxed state.

I feel this whole scenario could have been set up because of my highly investigative brain, new science causing excitement. Only one slight penis muscle contraction with verbal accompaniment would set off an increase in investigation of such contractions in increased penis muscle movement and general muscle movement in analyses, excitement, new science investigation, this causing an incorrect analyses of sexual deviation.

I mentioned to Alec last week, ( in these notes ), that I like large breasts. In 1992 this was not so much of an attraction. A recent hot loving and cuddly girlfriend with large breasts? You would be attracted to large breasts now if this was you. The brain is plastic, very likely, this could happen a lot quicker.

Pleased. No Voices outside house today as I assessed this would be, Schizophrenia gone. Sleep was good last night, relaxing, returning to normal. Winner!!!

I love the advancement in this science of abnormal sexual activity detection. If it is so, or is all this just schizophrenia? Interesting.

An additive cause of this recent mental destability is my assessment of the escalated testing where ever I go in public places. My assessment of all recent friends testing and analyses of me, particularly, conversations with my friend Alec plus of course the abuse.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 492.

Yesterday, I was able to bring the muscle contractions under control by relaxing my penis and making sure it is fully relaxed and extending low in my pants, Also relaxing my body particularly: the lower part.

Things changed quite dramatically yesterday evening, I went to bed early. I laid in bed relaxed and thinking, I heard Crisp say he's dead, it's gone, how?

At8:45PM. I heard some kids go past the house saying he's dead, they were happy, good! They seemed to be talking to neighbours.

Later, I started to get pin prick irritation all over the body. This is just like a light pin prick on the skin re:occurring every minute of so, sometimes less at the peak of intensity. This killed the relaxed body state that I had achieved and all the penis and body retractions came back. They eventually settled down to a lesser state within a few hours.

This pin pricking sensation happened once before at the start of the severe muscle movement: and the dramatic increased penis head sensitivity about a week ago.

I was able to get about seven hours sleep, this was good sleep. I awoke at 7AM relaxed.

Thursday October 8TH.
Temperament. Quite good today, quite happy, this has been a good science project, interesting and rewarding: if in my assessment muscle movement and general movement detection, if by remote equipment, is now available, this is a major step forward for our species. Fantastic!

Muscle retraction and tension in legs very low today, very slight.

Penis muscle tensioning gone when coughing today.

I am getting as relaxed as I can today.

I have worked on a complex electronics project, analysing and modifying a complex printed circuit board that resolved a design problem: whilst analysing these behavioural changes, making notes, and updating for this web page.

At 2:45PM I started to think about me ex girlfriend I felt the blood start to flow in to my penis, so I stopped thinking about her.

At 3:20PM I heard a man say dead. Mr. Crisp said how? You are about to find out Mr. Crisp: When You Read This Analyses Of Cause And Correction.

At 4:08PM. Resting in bed. I fantasised, Sarah, we were married, and she liked dressing up in her wedding dress, and for me to undress her. My penis pumped at a low level once. Crisp said, 'there,' a man said he is dead.

Slight sexual interest in girl9? Yesterday, this would not have happened two weeks ago, this had gone. The recent abuse and blanking out most women and men has I feel caused this. No fantasy, and no desire to touch such a child. This attraction I feel will soon go.

If this is all schizophrenia correcting me, although I doubt this. Then if this is new? Perhaps this is the way forward in live audible messages to correct this sort of induced psychological condition: rather than drugs?

If this is new then perhaps a forensic psychologist would like to write a relevant paper, permission granted, citing these notes as analyses. Particularly, if this can omit drug treatment that may be the only way at the present to correct such an impaired psychology.

If this work is a scientific advance: then this is another advance, another project for me born out of an induced and corrected schizophrenic mental state.

Friday 9TH October. 2009.
The following is from poor written notes on a paper notepad, the recorded date and times may not be correct for today, the event below may have been on the previous day - Thursday.

7-10PM. I was sitting reading a computer monitor, I wanted to urinate. I held on until the last moment. I felt the bladder releasing the urine so I instantly closed the urethra with my penis muscle very hard and ran East in to my toilet 15 feet away. I heard a car door slam shut shortly after closing the urethra and a man shout ' pervert, he's a pervert, I told you he was a pervert.'

9:30.PM. I was in bed resting. My skin pricked lightly all over my body for 10 minutes. I was facing East. I had warm thoughts for Pat my neighbour, not consciously sexual. Pat and her family are the only people that speak to me. My penis muscle lightly pumped twice. I heard yes.

Saturday 10TH October. 2009.
My Sister Telephoned at 10:30PM. In conversation she mentioned the number of birds in a tree, all different tits, she must have said tits 10 times. I thought there was more tits in that tree than there are on a cat walk. However, I declined to say this.

I went out during the day, the little boy aged4? Who lives at number 30 was on the swing in the front garden. As I approached I put my hand up as a good will gesture. When I got near him he said, ' they are all out to get you.' I laughed at this throughout the day, I was not bothered at this statement.

9:30 PM. I laid in bed facing East I was thinking of Pat, she has been good to me, slight pin pricks on skin. Considering my odd behaviour over the years she is another angel. My penis pumped lightly twice, and then again a short while after. I could hear men's voices from Pat's house. I then heard a man say, there it goes again, 'we are going to fucking destroy him.' My analyses of this was that the neighbours were there observing a radio linked monitor: they had thought the penis contractions were caused by the little boy. This was not so.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 493

I was not bothered about the voice above, what will happen will happen. At this point I seriously considering that all the voices were just Paranoid Schizophrenia, delayed, and appearing in conscious.

Sunday 11TH October. 2009.
When I awoke I felt horny, bearing in mind that I thought this whole new event of the last 16 days was Schizophrenia, I decided to masturbate. I Fantasised about my X girlfriend, it was a very enjoyable experience. The nervous system settled down after this, and I became very relaxed, and the voices had gone for the rest of the morning apart from at 11AM voices arguing, gone, how?

Monday 12TH October. 2009.
6:45PM. I heard, 'that's 40. Done.' Presumably this was 40 recordings of body movement to noise or penis muscle movement or nervous system electrical signals picked up in one day. This being a confirmation number for a pervert.

I often hear the word blinked when there is slight body movement or slight fast body movement, or slight penis excitement.

17-02PM. I had settled down to read my e-mails and the news. The transmitted recordings had obviously stopped, I heard gone now, pervert. These audible commands do not bother me, I am now coming to the conclusion that this is probably all schizophrenia, it causes a bit of depression at times: but no anger.

The following follows a set pattern, anything new I will investigate, I cannot stop this.

The night before I heard a loud car go past my house, my penis pumped once, I heard the response yes. Today when I heard noises this also caused a similar response, recognition of this appeared to make me want to increase this new event, I wanted to respond for investigation.

This repeated for almost any noise and carried on for the morning until my responses in repetition were fully recorded and recognised by me as definite event. By the end of the day I was beginning to control this new response and there was less or no reaction from me

In the afternoon I carried on working on my electronics project. There was a problem that I thought was death to this project, I was wound up anyway, very tense. One mistake as I work on this very complicated piece of equipment can cause a lot of damage that can take hours to repair. The unit was fully powered up to full output: and worked well for the first set of tests.

I was moving around the house fast, getting out of a chair fast, generally moving fast. This caused a lot of penis muscle movement as the penis head rubbed against my pants. The penis head now seemed to have increased in sensitivity whilst hyped and stressed. I did not care about this, I wanted to get on with my work.

19:40PM Up until this time I often heard gone now, how? or wankers gone now, how? Also in the evening, I heard my favourite woman. my 'Guardian Angel'? Say how? How can he be gone?

Tuesday 13TH October. 2009.
Audible commands less than yesterday volume level dropped to about 30 decibels. Traffic noise and other noises causing no or very little body response today. Commands heard blinked, yes, dead. How?

10:20Am went to my bin in the garden, I heard 'how? He's perfect.'

11AM. Still a slight reaction to noise, car noise, a man whistling.

Penis contracting less today, but still primarily as I face East and West, West towards Pat and Family, East towards the Flats, primarily presumably my Guardian Angel, if she exists for me than against me? However, I feel the primary cause of this is it's a reaction as I face people, wanting to embrace people, not for sex, but for love, comfort.

The conclusion at this stage it looks as though this whole scenario of the last 18 days is in full part wholly a bout of paranoid schizophrenia causing audible hallucinations: such is quite common for such an induced negated mental state.

Penis head still a bit sensitive, this was not so 18 days ago, or before. When I stand up fast from sitting, my penis head brushes against my pants, causing excitement and slight penis muscle movement. This also happens when I move fast.

I often hear the word blinked when there is slight body movement or slight fast body movement, or slight penis excitement.

Still slight body movement to some vehicle noise. Remember, this only started a few days ago.

I close the urethra with my penis muscle after using the toilet, I have often heard, 'that's one'.

The pin pricking I can now control, I found that when it started I scratched the area: it just started somewhere else and you needed to scratch again. If you restrain from scratching, another nerve might fire off, but I found if I did not scratch the areas, the nerve end firings, the pin pricks stopped and allowed me to get to sleep.

If such equipment exists to monitor muscle movement, nervous system reactions, the people this has been given too are not ideal. From the feedback I get these are amateurs, particularly in the transmission of their loud voices that has caused this latest destability. Unless: this is deliberate.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 494.

My temperament very relaxed I am not upset by this recent event, more interested in getting a conclusion. Disappointed at the periods of depression. However, if this equipment exists: what a fantastic scientific advance!!! The thought of such a scientific advance still excites me. I am also a bit exited with my electronics project, it looks good!!!

From: 	Anthony Johns 
To: 	suzanne.wyard@smhp.nhs.co.uk
Subject: 	Thanks!
Date: 	Thu, 15 Oct 2009 11:44:06 +0100


To Suzanne Wyard. Community Psychiatric Nurse.
Annexed to Derby Road Surgery Ipswich.

Hello Suzanne,

thanks for contacting me by telephone today.

We discussed for the first time a recent bout of Schizophrenia, voices
outside the head, very interesting for me, as the last bout of audible
hallucinations were inside my head in 1998.

We discussed this in infinite detail, in that this appeared to be a bout
of hypersensitivity coupled to neighbour abuse that started these voices
20 days ago.

The voices now rescinding to a level of about 20 decibels from 60 DB
when they started.

We discussed the accompanying physical symptoms that were penis head
sensitivity abnormal, ( very sensitive), and when the penis head moved
against my pants this caused penis muscle contraction. Any sudden
movement also caused muscle contraction, and muscle contraction also
happened on numerous occasions without prompting.

Also, my body moved to any noise between 20DB and 100 DB in sync with
the noise for a few days, this has also gone.

Also, for a few days eye movement, blinking, to noise at any level, this
has now almost gone.

This has become a project: that people may be interested in reading,
this e-mail and a full account is published here.

http://www.ipswichswimmingpools.com/5-part17.htm

I stated that I am in good physical health, and in my assessment in good
mental health, temperament very good, has been for the last 20 days: and
before. No anger, no thoughts of violence. no voices promoting such
unlawful activity. I am also working on a very complex electronics
project. I will send you details of this as agreed by the weekend.
( multi-talented, I work on up to three projects at the same time.)

You asked if I wanted to speak to a psychiatrist, the answer was
Definitely No. On a scale of one to ten I have depression at level 1.
( lowest). The last psychiatrist I saw, DR. Dowse Essex, 2003, this
meeting was very unsuccessful and resulted in a depression level, level
10. This lasted for a month: and made me bed ridden for a month as
published in this diary.

I think you are aware that because of my political publications the
local NHS psychiatric services are keen to assess me again as not compos
mentis. I assess that you as part of this machinery are keen to get me
assessed in negative manner to void my publications. This does not make
me angry. Just a further element of competition in my competitive
psyche, that brings my science projects to fruition!!!

Please refer a psychiatrist to my notes about the, interesting to me,
rescinding current mental excursion. ( I do not see this as negative ).
the notes published on the link above.

Please restrict any further communication to e-mail only, I thank you
for contacting me today.

Yours Sincerely A.J.

P.S. My Agents made aware of this publication.

Tuesday. 13TH October. 2009. Continued.

Notes. My eyes blinking. Blinks, this happened I believe in 1996 for a while when my sexual interests increased. When I try to control the sexual interest by not looking at the person I am attracted too this causes single or multiple eye blinks as this strains the eyes,

Nerves Firing. I think that started when my major adaptations started, ( after the 24TH September ), however, there was a period with my X girlfriend when I was very stressed when this nerve firing was present.

This log proves how plastic the brain is in respect of change.

The feeling of the slight centre of attention to begin with from the 24TH September. This, to a minor extent I feel is adding to my sexual responses.

Recent Isolation and concern that every person around me is now acting in a covert manner in respect of me. This has added to my mental impairment: causing added tension.

I was Reading the news. 6:40PM. I Scoffed at a news article, this caused rapid breathing out and tummy wobble, I heard that's one. So this was recorded as a sexual thing.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 495.

When I pass wind, ( anus ), this also registers as sexual, ( That's One ).

6:43PM. I looked at a girl 14 with a pony tail to judge interest, the interest was very low, good. I Heard 'He looked.' is my computer screen monitored by Crisp and Co, I hope so. There is nothing on screen that is immoral or unlawful.

9:40PM. I heard Perfect, that's another one gone. This voice was when I stopped turning my head to traffic noise and other noises.

I had difficulty in sleeping after this, traffic noise caused responses in movement.

Wednesday 14TH October 2009.
5:08AM I woke up in fantasy of a woman, X business customer, facing west, as I awoke erect there was one pump in fantasy, there was a noise from Pat's a man said allright, after this, a woman said perfect.

A lot of blinks today at noise.

More voices below.

5:15AM Penis Contraction, 'that's Another.'

cheering the wankers dead.

He's gone how?

he definitely was one

Black guy, we've got him as a pervert so why bother.

8:15PM He's definitely gone, he's a perv not a wanker.

Penis sensitivity almost gone only a few penis muscle contractions up until 7:45PM.

Noise reaction went today.

I must have heard dead 50 times today as I moved, this means no registration on the monitoring equipment.

I watched a film about the Broomhill Pool a link was sent to me. This was disappointing because there was a slight sexual attraction to a boy. I was also sexually attracted to the woman diver. The Film

I spoke to guy at 36 in the car park, I mentioned schizophrenia 5PM? He was not working on cars, he had a clip board, I think this is part of the surveillance of me: with sophisticated equipment.

At about 8PM I went in to my back garden and shouted I know you are there, You have a problem, you keep losing something, ( meaning they could not understand my changes of mental state affecting their monitoring equipment ), sometimes dead, sometimes not.

Thursday 15TH October 2009.
I am now beginning to consider, is the monitoring equipment on line, and linked to interested parties?

Suzanne Wyard telephoned me at 10? AM. Suzanne Wyard is a Community Psychiatric Nurse. The reference and the reference letter is published above.

We discussed psychotropic drugs that shorten life, I said I did not want them: if I can avoid them.

Body movement to noise still slight today.

I went to bed at 9PM, and I could not sleep, the traffic noise caused body muscle movement, eye blinking, nerves firing, and at one time multiple penis muscle movement that I did not control, I just let it get on with however many pumps it wanted to do.

This situation was created from the continuous feedback from the flats as to what was happening to me, particularly, the voice of Mr. Crisp saying yes or wanker every time I moved or my penis muscle moved. This was particularly distressing and stressed me considerably. There was no orgasm, no sexual desire, and no ejaculation.

There was at times argument,'he's a wanker, no he's not, he's a pervert, no he's not.' the usual scenario. This arguing goes on most nights.

Between midnight and 12:25AM I typed up these notes, I was very relaxed, I heard Crisp say on numerous occasions, 'he's dead, gone, how?' This meaning my nervous system had settled, no eye blinks, no muscle movement. Within this time period the voices had settled down, no reaction from me, no voices.

I am usually tense now by the end of the day.

I wrote to a company recently stating that I do not do anything immoral: how can I qualify this? Society has made me what I am. I started off with a blank slate same as you, considered as normal up to 1992. I was then corrupted by a pervert, and every person that has adapted my mental state, seen to the negative by many, is and was a pervert. So these are the people that are immoral and perverts. I just published the adaptations caused by these people, the event: that most people will see as immoral.

Voices are actual people, Mary, MR. crisp, Shawn's Son: and others on the car park behind my house. Black guy Dell, if this is his name, + his partner and children. A lot of the vehicle noise i feel is fabricated, + dog barking, dog brought in van, car doors slamming, other doors slamming, other raised voices, people whistling.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 496.

The torrent of abuse still causes at times mental impairment.

Friday 16Th October 2009.
I woke up very relaxed at 6AM, I laid in bed relaxed until 7AM. I started work just after 7AM typing up these notes. It is now nearly 8AM, still relaxed, I can hear Mr.Crisp say he's dead, gone, how? Over and over again.

I have been very relaxed all day, very little penis muscle contraction, however it is not gone. The evening before, many contractions through stress has made me depressed today, I have not been able to work on my projects properly. Work output say 60 per cent per hour.

I went and laid down in the afternoon, I could hear Crisp shouting, with a man, Crisp was saying he's a wanker, the other guy was saying no he's not. Crisp said he was a wanker, it's gone. The other man said if it's gone: it does not matter.

At about 3PM I looked over my back fence and on to the car park, I spoke to Shawn, the father or father in law of the man I spoke to yesterday. He normally works on cars, has not worked on cars for a month. He was near his van with his son, could be his son in law? I mentioned my electronics project was working. As I finished the conversation he smiled and said dead.

I went in to town, I was attracted to a few women, no men, however, I did not ogle them. Upon returning a large breasted woman came towards me on majors corner. I lifted my eyebrows as I passed her in appreciation. I returned home at 4:30PM. I laid down and relaxed until 5:30PM. No contractions.

I heard children, slight reaction, not sexual, I have always loved children, not being with children is a great loss. A car hooted twice on Bishops Hill as I reacted, I think I opened my eyes.

At 5:30 PM I went on the computer until 7PM I could hear people arguing with Crisp, usual scenario, the black guy, ( named Dell )? was for me, he was saying he is not a wanker. I am fairly relaxed, although I am still moving quite a bit prompted by noise. Crisp is a real problem, I am concerned about him.

I am now satisfied that I am now not suffering from schizophrenia, the voices are real, the people are real, there is sophisticated surveillance equipment. There was Schizophrenia when I went to Lowestoft on Sunday the 4Th October, and about that time for a few days. Voices outside the head, Crisp and and others.

I had a meal in the kitchen, I could not stop penis movement against my trousers as I moved in the kitchen, this was recorded, this caused a voiced response. When I sat down at the computer again: of course the voices and penis movement went sitting with a stationary penis.

I spoke to Shawn's son, he had a clipboard near his van.

Saturday 17TH October. 2009.
I went and visited my friend Alec in the afternoon, several tests, did not fail any. Alec arrived in a black hat, I think this was significant, there was a penis pump earlier with him after I spoke to him on the phone. I heard him say one as I put the phone down.

In conversation Alec thought I made a remark with sexual connotation, this was not the case. Alec said your balls need putting on the floor and stamping on. This statement went over my head, but it did make me slightly unhappy for the rest of the day.

6PM. I read the news on Guardian On Line, there was a picture of a little girl aged 9? low top, I looked to see if there was reaction, there was shouts of pervert from flats, screen is monitored. This was a dangerous card to play. Slight sexual attraction, will it ever go? Or is the psychological damage to me of the last 13 years unrepairable? Not happy with this induced mental state. Very Angry!!

This also means my ex girlfriends nude pictures: that I sometimes look at have been viewed by other people. They could have been copied. No person apart from me has seen these pictures: or so I thought. I told her no other person would ever see them.

7:30PM I laid in bed, I moved and turned over 5 times, I heard, ' That's Another' presumable penis movement. I heard, 'that's 5' then there was the usual arguments from the flats, he's a wanker, he's a pervert etc. It sounded like Crisp went off his head banging his fist against the door.

I kept moving and blinking to noise, there was a scream, I opened and closed my eyes this was at 8:15PM. Some boys then shouted wanker and then went past my house chanting he's a wanker, that's another one, we will fix him, wanker, fix him.

Moving Head and blinking, the feedback I get is this is detrimental, tonight after moving my head a few times and blinking I heard, 'he's done. Wanker.'

I heard what are you going to do, the answer was, 'Kill Him.'

If my sexual and general interest in children, although a lot less than it was, ( no masturbation ), if this has not gone by Christmas. This is not a problem, I do not do anything illegal in respect of this. However I want to see this interest gone: I may try to get professional help for this. I will either write to Social Services or Suzanne Wyard CPN to see if there is any possible remedy.

Conclusion. I think there is monitoring equipment, the voices are real. I am not recording any more of this. I will just get on with my life: and concentrate on my project work. If this is audible hallucination: I feel that it will eventually disappear as the paranoia disappears.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 497.

Sunday 18Th October 2009.
Although I stated that this was the conclusion of this project, I knew this was not so because I had obtained information as to the type of machine that could be used with enhancing software that could detect very minor movement in a persons body: if the machine was portable. Detection is from a distance of 50 metres. Details of this machine is in an e-mail further down this diary.

As I become more isolated and abused by my assessment of all the negativity that is going on around me: particularly the last month. I have become more attracted to images of adult people and children on the screen of my computer, none of this has ever caused masturbation.

I now want to respond to noise, the same with eye flicker, this is my common investigation trait, this is the reappearance of, 'is it a test syndrome', I try to control this. This is difficult.

When I looked at the news tonight on Guardian on Line I deliberately looked at news images of men and women to see if there was a response. I heard Crisp say: 'that's another one,' as I kept looking at images.

I have had a very relaxed day today. My penis head is at the most less sensitive since this started a few weeks ago. I keep hearing Crisp and others say, 'he's dead', he's gone, how?' This analytical machine is in the hands of amateurs, and biased professionals.

This published above that I can hear is very mentally destructive, and as can be seen above this has caused considerable mental adaptation. This whole diary and the books, 'The Cesspool And The Secret Armies', and, 'The Fiddle', on this internet site is a correct chronicle proving the elasticity of my brain,'any brain,' in mental adaptation. My brain adaptations since early 1996.

A good psychologist will agree all this: and how the brain is very plastic in this respect of this sort of adaptation.

The penis pumps were not masturbation unless otherwise published in fantasy masturbation of my X girlfriend. She has been the only source of sexual gratification in the last two months: and before that as chronicled.

Allowing me to hear a running commentary on this testing has caused this chronicle of a massive deviation from my mental state as it was before the last quarter of September 2009.

Monday 19TH October. 2009.
8:30AM I went to the Duke Street newsagents shop, as I left I heard Crisp say he's going out we've got him. I ignored this and went out, there were no problems, I returned at 9AM.

My eyes were open, and I opened them as wide as I could when there was a noise, there was an audible response. It appears this machine even captures such small eye movement.

In the morning I heard a man talking, he said we are going to kill him, the other man said how? I did not hear the reply. I went outside there was a man talking to the second or third flat owner, he said 'he heard us.'

This was a bad day for blinking and body movement, working on the project, stressful. This brought on a headache, I went to bed after lunch, A plane went over, I blinked 10 times fast, I heard a voice acknowledge this. I eventually relaxed, I was very relaxed after a while: and the headache went.

My nervous system is generally worse, hands shaking when working.

In the afternoon the plane passed twice more, there was no blinking, and blinking and body movement did not start to return until late in the afternoon: when I was tired.

I am concerned about the idiots in the flats and the machine they have, however, I am stuck in the middle, there is nothing that I can do. IBC and Ipswich college, and the police? Have given this machine to a bunch of idiots.

I wore tighter pants today to stop my penis head moving in my pants causing muscle pumping and false positives. This reduced the false positives by 30%

When I told Shawn and his son I had audible hallucinations, Crisp was obviously made aware of this. I spoke to Pat my neighbour, I think it was Friday last, we had a quick happy conversation as usual, I get on with Pat very well, I have had a good relationship with Pat since I moved in to this house in 1991. Pat told me that after I had returned to my house, Crisp shouted to Pat 'don't have anything to do with him he's mad!'

I went and saw Pat again today, her door was open, she was in the hall talking on the telephone to Martin her son. She soon joined me, she was not worried about me. We talked for about 10 minutes, I showed her an exercise to help with her balance. Pat followed me outside and we talked and joked further.

I said to Pat if you were hearing voices and you could cope with it, would you go and see a psychiatrist. Pats reply was 'no, not after what they did to my Aunt.' As I was talking to Pat outside my house I heard Crisp say to Dell: go down there and bash him, Crisp could have meant any person, perhaps it is schizophrenia, ( voices ), it does not bother me.

You cannot tell a lot of people that you are going to kill somebody, that's absurd.

If this testing had been absolutely covert, the results would have been perfect over the last 24 days: no symptoms of a nervous system that I believe are synonymous with a pervert.

5PM. A man said he's Perfect, Crisp said we are going to kill him, he wanked over a little girl, so we are going to kill him anyway. An argument followed between the two men, a loud voice said,'if you kill him, he,s won'.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 498.

5:30PM. I became tired, started to blink a lot, move to noise, so I went to bed and relaxed.

At 6:10 I heard a lot of men go past in a car cheering and shouting 'that,s another one done'. I laughed, it is good this is happening, all the perv's are being programmed out, all the wankers, 'people who masturbate from what they see on the streets' are being located and data based. This does need to be addressed as we perfect the people on this planet.

I am becoming a nervous wreck listening out for cars, planes, whistles, doors slamming, and any noise that comes my way.

9:40PM Crisp went off his head, banging his fist, the I want him dead scenario, he's a wanker, no he's not etc.

9:40PM. Car hooted, A man outside the front of my house, he's a perv not a wanker, he seemed to tell the neighbours this.

During the night as I turned in bed, blinked ,there was the usual response. My penis pumped a lot, I did not try to control it, this was not masturbation, I could hear shouting of wanker, pervert: and general abuse.

Tuesday 20Th October 2009.
I laid in until 8:45AM. I started work at 9AM. It is now 10:40 AM. I have been quite relaxed. I hear voices of 'he's gone' meaning very little eye movement or body movement to noise.

By Sunday last I had decided to call on help to try to determine, was this just voices? I had researched the internet and had found an x-ray machine that with specialist enhancing software, this machine could detect minute body movements, So I sent the folowing e-mail to Twelve British national newspapers. A specimen e-mail is pasted below.

From: 	Anthony Johns 
To: 	talkback@the-sun.co.uk
Subject: 	Serious Skulduggery!!!
Date: 	Sun, 18 Oct 2009 12:27:44 +0100


     A.W.JOHNS,
     34 BISHOPS HILL,
     IPSWICH,
     SUFFOLK 
     IP38EN.

     /09/0956.TXT

     Good Story?

     e-mail? Phone, house monitored. Please do not contact me until
     after your investigation. Please do not contact the police, they
     may be involved in this.

     Contact details found here -
     http://www.ipswichswimmingpools.com/contact.htm

     You will need to find the evidence for your story: how to easily
     find this evidence is highlighted further on.

     Councils can now find and prove cohabiting intercoursing couples
     with a sophisticated machine.  Private detectives can absolutely
     prove infidelity. However, such use may be illegal.

     The machine is Backscatter, details here-
     http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Backscatter_X-ray

     I have fought Ipswich Borough Council, because they harassed me
     and others: and endangered lives.

     http://www.ipswichswimmingpools.com/

     The backscatter machine scans 50 metres. You should be able to pick
     up signals in the road outside my house and around my house with a
     gamma ray or suitable detector.

     Details of the effect of the mental impairment of me by the use of
     this machine by violent people is published below. Read from
     Monday 28Th September 2009 on this web page.

     http://www.ipswichswimmingpools.com/5-part17.htm

     Please help? My life is in danger. Can you get a signal scan guy
     here today with a suitable investigation machine, they are
     monitoring me 24/7

     Please contact me after your investigation by phone, any time, day
     or night. 01473 281769


     I thank you,

     I am,

     Yours Sincerely,

     Anthony W. Johns.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 499.

Tuesday 20TH October. 2009.
Pat's son Martin came to see me this week to look at my electronics project. We discussed this is detail. Martin was very impressed with the complexity of the design: and the quality of the reproduced sound.

The following event recordings carry on in the same manner as before with new notes added at the end.

3:20PM. I deliberately pumped my penis muscle twice, once facing Pat's, ( West) and once facing South, I pumped in quick succession, they all shouted he's a wanker, pervert.

5:45PM. Bummer. I tried to do a handstand against a door, the plan was in a handstand position I would give my penis muscle 10 quick pumps as though I had ejaculated. This would throw a spanner in the works. Crisp said, 'what's he doing, he's warped.' My arms are weak now, I could not hold the handstand. Pity, that would have been a good laugh for years: if I survive for years?

6:15PM. A cultured voice arrived, I heard them talking, it was all explained, the incorrect first and second assessment of me penis pumping plus the penis pump today at 3:20PM. It least Crisp was truthful in explaining his incorrect assessments.

7:15PM Another cultured voice was heard, the man said he is a perv, not a wanker. I assume this man left. After this Crisp went off his head as usual, I could hear him shouting very loud.

There followed a lot of discussion with women as they observed me moving about. From what I heard they said he is not a wanker. They said we are pulling out: and I think they left. Who were they?

8:15PM. I heard Crisp say, they've gone, they say he's dead, he's a wanker. I feel my life is in danger.

8:30PM. I heard he's a perv you can't kill him. Also, I heard another one dead.

There must be people that often flex their penis muscle to keep it strong, this practise as a false positive recorded on a machine is another concern.

Wednesday 21ST October. 2009.
6.10AM. By this time through the night there were 3 penis pumps, and one blinking, I heard a voice say, 'that,s 4.

At 6.30 AM. I heard two more digits were added, 'that's 6, for my leg muscle flexes.

There were voices throughout the morning, I was quite relaxed, I heard 'he's gone indicating' no more recorded incidents.

10AM I went in to town, the previous day there had been a failed test with a pink clad push chair, there two more today, these were false positives. In Mc'donald's I did follow a girls head as she moved, there were 4 observers. This was a fail. The only one for some time.

In the afternoon I became stressed, the body movements returned to noise, the eye flicker to noise returned.

1:30PM. I went to see Pat my neighbour, I asked her to sit in her car to see if she could hear voices when I pumped my penis. Pat, agreed to this she sat in her car, window open. I stood near my sink in the kitchen I did one penis pump facing East and 2 Pumps facing South, and then 4. pumps facing South. All in quick succession.

After this I heard that's 4, he's gone, wanker, that's anther one done.

3:54PM I looked West and then gave another penis pump, a voice, 'that's another one hooray.' 2 minutes later, I moved, pumped, Crisp, 'another one', another voice, 'that's when he moves'. the voices now coming from the flats, third balcony.

The above destabilised me, made me very nervous, the eye flicker and movement to noise became a lot worse.

Crisp and another man still arguing, Crisp wants to kill me, the other man is against this, the arguing continues until 15:12PM. Repeated again and again when I moved, he's a wanker, how? The how in my assessment refers to the fact that I have stopped looking at people in the streets. How? is also asked by a woman.

4:31. Arguing setled down. I went to my bins twice, as I walked there was slight penis muscle movement recording, the woman said 'look: that's when he moves.'

I telephoned my sister, I usually do on a Wednesday, I told her that I was schizophrenic, and had been for the last month. I said that I was coping with it: I did not want to see psychiatrists.

My sister had a nervous breakdown 6 years ago, she was most certainly not satisfied with psychiatric services. I asked my sister if she had voices and was coping with it, would she see a psychiatrist? The answer was no.

Later, there were further shouts from the flats of he's a wanker: and a pervert,'that's good we've got him. There were similar shouts from children, and similar shouts from the front of my house.

Penis pumps mostly East and West, I still think this is just towards people. North and South there are no people or friendly interest. I felt this is also an element of is it a test syndrome? This came to the fore when I started to hear voices when I faced East or West. Of course none of this penis pumping scenario, eye flicker, body movement, was present before the voices started a month ago.

5PM. I heard Pat telling a person how I staged the penis pumps in the afternoon, later I heard the information repeated from the flats, saying, 'he knows, he staged it, he's cleaver.'

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 500.

I heard voices coming from my neighbour Pat's in the evening these seemed to relate to me, the conversation was negative. A man said he is warped, I looked out of my front window to see if the people were out of the front of the house, there was nobody there. There was a vehicle outside my back gates indicating Pat had visitors. I noted the index number. P342 PDX The voices came from Pat's throughout the night as they had a week or so before.

I heard voices coming from the flats, 'he is still a perv', a man said I will bash him tomorrow.

I did some further research regards backscatter, this is published Here.

I found another article in the Sun newspaper: It's true if it is in the Sun????? The Sun Article.

I feel the police are well aware of this publication. I feel they are not concerned as to whether I am attacked or killed. I think the police need to come and have a chat with Mr. Crisp and his friends.

Thursday 22ND October 2009.
10AM. When I brought up the Sun article above today to check the link in this page, very briefly, I heard he's looking at it again. If my screen is monitored, this is a concern: as my credit card details were entered on line yesterday evening when I extended the rental of some of my internet domains.

Pin Pricks, nerves firing, gone for at least five days.

Relaxed today, penis a lot less sensitive, only minor pumps.

11:25PM. I turned towards Pat's I could not stop testing, 'is it a test syndrome.' I had no control over this at the time, my penis pumped a bit, the voice said, 'he blinked' this is the first time towards Pat's that I have not been able to control today.

4PM. I had a chat with Shawn and his son, I told him that the pervert aspect was induced by the testing. I had heard it: and it caused the symptoms of a pervert. I said the machine was backscatter: or a variant of it.

I further explained what had happened, Shawn agreed that what I had said was relevant, he had knowledge of what was going on. I said I was concerned about Crisp, he said enjoy your evening, I wished him the same. By this I interpreted that there would be no trouble. I hope so.

I then heard over and over again to visitors to the car park, there have been plenty. 'He's not a wanker, he's a perv.'

I finished the construction of my electronics project, The Valfet Audio Power Amplifier. The first stage listening test were good as expected. There is further electronics work to be developed around this project: now I have arrived at this first part stage.

D.C. Carpenter called at 6:02PM One of the flats had been burgled, had I seen anything? I did not answer the gate. A well dressed man with a clipboard walked away. Suspicious.

6:05PM. Pat Rang, as Pat put the phone down I heard her say to someone 5 dead. Presumably 5 Blinks. When I blinked she often said yes.

7PM. Crisp. He's a wanker, I,ll have him coshed. Arguments and tests after this, all I kept hearing was he's dead, he's gone meaning this was the best day so far for passed tests. Crisp, he's a wanker, other guy, no he is not. This was continuous up until 7:20PM.

I was sent a circular e-mail from Broomhill.org with a reference link to an Evening Star article pertinent to the Broomhill film that was uploaded to U-Tube recently. I did not watch the film again. I only watched it the once. I am not happy at being sexually attracted to the teenage boy that was on the film. This is very disappointing not being able to watch this film as a normal person with normal sexual interests as my interests were in 1992: and up to 1996. Evening Star Article. Evening Star Article.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 501.

The back facing Boy 10? walking up the stairs in the video above. This was the boy that I was attracted too. There was a greater attraction to the bikini clad woman diver. Unusual video this, video above, unusual shots, who is going to put in a film, I boy walking up stairs on his own? If the pool was so crowded why was there no other people in this shot. Recent specially adapted film? The texts that came up were unusual, rather modern and professional for a home shot film. Circa 1930's.

The noisy turbo prop aeroplane that came over my house a few days ago, not heard of before or since. The hierarchy of this town could arrange such a plane trip. interesting!

I feel sure that my brain can be repaired with psychology, love, friends, stability. However, this is not going to happen for me. The proof of this is further on in a telephone conversation with Miss Jemma Hughes.

Friday 23RD October. 2009.
I went in to Ipswich to deliver a letter to the police, This followed a monitored phone conversationthere with my friend Alec stating where I was going. There was a bottoms test in Fore street from the back of a car, usual place outside the post office. I ignored this, there was no no sexual interest.

3PM. I went to the police station, teenage girl outside. There was some really aggressive big men in there, when I turned round one of the large men had a boy by his side. I walked straight past the boy without looking. When I left, the girl was outside, unusual, I looked at her, felt sorry for her, also, is it a test syndrome? There was no realised sexual interest. I realised that I failed the test and shook my head in disbelief. I then left for home, Nice Set Up: Police.

     A.W.JOHNS,            DELIVERED BY HAND. 23 10 09.
     34 BISHOPS HILL,
     IPSWICH,
     SUFFOLK 
     IP38EN.

     23 10 09
     /09/0957.TXT

     Suffolk Constabulary.
     Civic Drive
     Ipswich.

     Dear Sir,s,

     please read attached paperwork concerning a backscatter machine
     product. In my assessment such a machine has been used on me in
     my house for 28 days.

     This event has caused me considerable mental impairment,
     particularly from the accompanying abuse from a Mr. Crisp who
     lives at number 66 in the adjacent flats.

     Such use of a machine was verified by a neighbour Shawn who
     lives at number 34 in the flats.

     Mr. Crisp is loud mouthed: and when I observe web pages he
     describes part of the content that I am viewing.

     This is not a concern to me: as I do not view illegal content.
     However, my credit card details were entered this week on screen.
     This is is a concern to me for possible fraudulent use.

     Mr. Crisp is violent, I am concerned for my safety.

     If you can locate this machine, if such use is illegal, I wish to
     get this matter in to criminal court, although I feel my life will
     be endangered by doing so.

     I want to know where this machine is: and who funded this, Such a
     machine can cost up to fifty thousand pounds or more.

     A full account of all of this is published on line here -

     www.ipswichswimmingpools.com/5-part17.htm

     Safety Issue. 28 days of use 24 hours per day is 8 times over the
     upper limit of safety for x-ray radiation from a backscatter
     machine.


     I thank you,

     I am,

     Yours Sincerely,

     Anthony W. Johns.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 502.

Friday 5:50PM. Crisp mentioned the police visit, he said referring to a mans name. He looked at his daughter, he's dead, they've got it on police video. he's dead. I went outside and shouted the police want me dead, I exposed their drugs fiddle on this site: and that corruption is wide spread throughout the police force. Someone said He heard you. I said I am not worried about being killed, I do not have much to live for. I returned to my house.

The voices I heard in the evening and before midnight were primarily Mr. Crisp and others, Crisp was shouting I am going to kill him, shoot him when he is in the kitchen tonight from the garden. This was repeated in argument for a couple of hours. At about midnight I called the police, I explained my concerns, I also said that I can suffer from Schizophrenia, I am taking all my medication, this could be schizophrenia. would they please come and see me to check this out.

The police came and saw me, with a back up firearms squad, the odd thing was I feel sure they could have scanned my back garden electronically: and checked the car park before I went in to my kitchen to let the police in to my garden. Perhaps they did?

I explained the schizophrenia possibility. I asked the police if I was registered with anything sexually negative to my induced mental state of the last 13 years: they said no: they checked with the police data base.

They asked, did I want them to go and see Mr. Crisp, I said no, he is violent and noisy, If I am schizophrenic: this will only antagonise him. The police explained that with the schizophrenic aspect it would be difficult to get a warrant to go in and search for a gun in Crisps flat. The police left, they seemed concerned for my safety?

Notes.
There are 20% false positives from body movements.

Looking at pictures on screen, is it a test syndrome? I always study such images to gauge sexual interest. I always get audible feedback when I am doing this: hearing voices.

Saturday 24Th October. 2009.
Notes.
If I am killed this will spoil a good system. However, If this technology exists, it is very good, but somebody will soon be killed if this technology exists: by the use of it.

With a killing the privacy groups will all clamp down on such surveillance equipment: it's use will be stopped, this is a pity. This system, if it exists, needs to be monitored by appointed government agents: who perhaps inform people in the locality of the wankers of children.

These defective unfortunate, child wankers, not me, people that cannot be cured with the street psychology mechanism already in place. These people mostly isolated need respect and friendliness from people in the neighbourhood: and obviously monitoring. Many of them with respect and friendliness I feel will soon return to normal, many of the wankers can and will be cured.

I feel 20 people are aware that Crisp could kill me, Shawn, his son, many people in the flats. I believe that they have knowledge that Crisp has a gun: and is likely to use it. 20 people need to go to jail if I am killed by Mr. Crisp.

Is this my schizophrenia? he keeps raging, he keeps saying He's mine He's a pervert, I want him dead and gone, he's mine, I found him. I am going to kill him. People are heard disagreeing saying you can't kill him, you can't shoot him. he's not a wanker.

2PM there was a lot of car noise and car door slamming from the car park I looked over my fence at the car park there were about 6 people from the flats making the noise. The slamming doors, revving up engines, dog barking to command from top flat.

Is this noise, voices, arguing, just psychology, to destabilise me, I am now very nervous of noise from the flats. I did discuss the Audible Hallucination aspect with the police last night. I will find out soon if I get shot. I hope that I do not get shot.

Saturday 24TH October 2009. As of today I change my will, I leave all my intellectual property, all my books, and the content of my internet sites to.

From: 	Anthony Johns 
To: 	gmhughesxx@xxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: 	Intellectual Property.
Date: 	Sat, 24 Oct 2009 17:21:43 +0100

Hello Gemma,

I have decided to leave my intellectual property to you as discussed on
the telephone today.

The sites and the books are here, please down load the lot, you will be
disappointed at some of what you read but most of my work is directed at
people so they understand that life is chemical machine to hopefully
steer towards this perfecting our planet.

http://www.exact-psychology.com/arm.htm

The content of the link below may be disappointing to you, but overall
you will see that my death, if it happens, may produce systems that are
beneficial to the forward projection of our species. My wish to leave my
intellectual property to you is on this page.

http://www.ipswichswimmingpools.com/5-part17.htm

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 503.

Gemma, A full list of my sites.

ipswichswimmingpools.com

mechanist.org

valfet.com

mentalconception.com

mentalconception.org

anobeisworthless.com

ime-safe.com

mystery-moments.com

imesafe.com

exact-psychology.com

memetic1.com

The internet publications of all my sites and, books and work: must remain as free down loads. Any paper books Gemma produces from my work the profit is hers. If this is millions of pounds please only take a small amount for your self. Please give any surplus money to my favourite charity Great Ormond Street Hospital for Children, or any charity of your choosing.

Please meet Miss Hayley Coyne, if she will see you? If she needs help, please help her as much as you can. I saw Hayley as the absolute truth, she saw me as parity, she lied to capture me and corrupted me: but she still became a science project, a science prodigy. If she has gone off the rails: and I am killed please point her back to me. What she saw was absolution, she had to join it, she could not help the way she went about it.

The above internet domains also become Jemma's property in the event of my death.

Similar arguments from Pat's next door in the morning. Her husband? her daughter. Similar comments, he's a wanker, no he's not etc. If she and her family know that I am going to be killed: this is disappointing. Jehovah's Witnesses are supposed to protect life.

Gemma 3:15PM. All defects went for a while thereafter. no penis pumps, no eye flicker, The warmth of talking to a person that I love. Not love sexual, a very decent respectful young woman.

3:45PM. Crisp. He's a wanker, he looked at a little girl and then went to bed and wanked.I am going to shoot him. Note. I did not wank, my notes cover this scenario.

I telephoned Alec, my friend at Kesgrave, he said he would call in the morning to take me to a boot sale.

After this, I heard Crisp say repeatedly in argument, I will kill him tomorrow. When he leaves the house: he's dead.

Kate Melua kept me company with music, her love songs, the love portrayed in her music settled my nerves down a lot. Very little eye flicker to noise and less body movement.

I have heard 4 gun shots since last night. Mr Crisp, or somebody is playing with a gun. It sounds like a 2.2 rifle.

Notes.

Don't Lose Sight Of The Prize

Life As Chemical Machine!

Could Lead To This: I Hope So.

Which Is Why I Published

This Book Surrogate Daughter.

To Enlighten People To The Fact That Life Is Chemical Machine.

To Bring Them To This

A Hypotheses For The Christian Armageddon.

Sunday 25Th October. 2009.
I decided to go out for the afternoon, I decided to go to Asda to do some shopping. On the way I passed plenty of aggressive looking men. I now do not look at men, I am not concerned about being attacked or killed, to die for me is now academic.

In the store I failed no tests, however, as I left the store I was attracted to a pink clad baby in a push chair, this was not sexual. I feel the associative link in this attraction to this colour and babies is my grandaughter Danielle when she was a baby. Possibly also my youngest daughter.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 504.

When I passed Whitehouse park upon returning, I briefly looked at the children's play area, nothing sexual, further on, I found a place where I could look at the trees with no children in view. I liked the view, I looked at the trees and the view for about a minute. I love park views of trees and long expanses of grass.

Below are 4 photographs taken in Holliwells perk from a selected 12 photographs. I could only get 4 to work in an internet page. All these photographs face East. Of the 12 photographs only one faces North.

Up until recently I have not liked to view or be near people because of my mental corruption. For the last 18 years the primary concern has been the projection of our lifeform. I have never been a socialite. In social intercourse this is usually a competition of who is going to buy the most expensive trinkets of planet destruction.

You will note in the pictures below, there are no people.

I felt these 12 photographs had some relevance, so I researched the internet for,'Biblical facing East,' this proved to be very positive. Just 12. 12 Very Positive ++++++++++++

I was attracted to a woman's back of head, short hairstyle, in Norwich Road as I cycled past just before Sherrington Road. I turned in to Sherrington Road, I then went and checked the gate at the Broomhill swimming pool to make sure it was locked.

I stopped at the Coop shop near the exit from Sherrington Road, I spoke to the sales woman, asked her where the goods I wanted were. When I returned I said to the woman, if you know who I am, I am so corrupted by people, Ipswich people have caused this very poor induced mental state over the last 13 years.

As I left a man said we are going to burn him, this does not worry me. As I passed Princess Street in to Commercial Road there were people near by. A woman said we are finished with him, I am handing him over to you. I returned home, Usual voices from the flats, usual statements. Voice persist from Pat's next door similar content.

Crisp was saying I am going to shoot him, I gave Crisp several good targets inside and outside the house. He never shot me. I decided to talk to the Jehovah's next door, I spoke quite loud I cannot remember what I said, however, it was something very similar to this.

I said that I was perfect in 1991. And I wrote a hypotheses for the Christian Armageddon, it is published on my exact-psychology.com web site. I then went on to highlight some parts of the text that make up in simplicity the Armageddon. I also stated we have evolved differently in to different communes, karate communes, music communes, Church Communes: and many more. These communes are locked in compatible brain program.

I said,' I am The Way The Truth And The Life', I cracked a code in the bible in 1991. This must have been very significant, particularly the year. This brought quite a reaction from next door, particularly, how did he know that? I then stated we need to bring the Armageddon forward to save this planet, to stop the cooking of this planet that will destroy life. The meek will inherit the earth.

After the Armageddon, the whole planet will be locked in compatible brain program, the gold and trinket worship will go away, all the gold crosses will go, the corporates and the governments will be gone, the fashion parades will be gone, the bloodshed and the tears will be gone, all people will look the same, there will be no pretty or ugly people that we assess in looks today.

Faces will adapt, they will change to all be the same, just all beautiful people, the body's will all adapt, the bone structures will change, all bodies will look identical. This will be possibly be a painful process, the survivors, the believers will be reborn. Born in to Gods Kingdom. Sexual drive will be no more, all celebate, all the pain will be gone. Suffer Little Children No More.

There will be no need for music and all the other communi-sing programs. The meek will inherit the earth. the believers will be one, at one with God. this higher intelligence, locked in compatible brain program, this is love, this is the love of God.

Those that believe, those turning to god, will be saved. There is no evidence for anything spiritual on this planet, Almighty God is a higher evolved intelligence that we have no comprehension for: for this level of intelligence.

A bilateral link will open to this extreme intelligence and other evolved machine intelligence throughout the universes. All locked in compatible brain program, this is love. This is the coming of the truth, they will witness the coming of the truth: the perfection so desired by our species. Made in his image, an organic, or evolved through this process to mechanical machine intelligence.

The Cesspool And The Secret Armies. Page 505.

My thinking of nothing spiritual on this planet has changed, it changed today, I thought that such a change would be frightening for me, this was not so. All my work all my books, my adaptations through induced fault, untruth, are exact in this book and my books.

I could easily hear all that was said around me today, I heard a voice from next door, a Jehovah's witness, I assess this was Ben, Debbie's son. I have never heard him speak before. He said he's Gods messenger, I had never heard this before: so I researched this on google, I was very surprised and shocked and tearful at what I found.

Ben told me he is the one, he is the messanger, I had no knowledge of this before he said it. I was perfect in 1991, I had mot lied for three years ,I just had my projects and my friends in sport plus good family support. Hayley absolutely corrupted me, I had found science on the poolside, science: the love of my life, compatible brain program, just put your arms round me, you have found the truth: the truth to project you.

In my analyses of life as machine, I went about if differently, I looked at myself as chemical machine, a chemical machine with it's sole purpose of looking for eternal life for itself and it's species, in everything it did: every day of its life in the most peculiar ways for most of the people on this planet.

When I researched the internet for data pertinent to the messenger, having found a reference I then searched for my Bible. The print is very small, very difficult for me to read. The magnifying glass appeared on my desk close by when I wanted to refer to my Bible. I have not been able to find this better glass magnifier for weeks.

I read Genesis 15-17 I cannot comprehend it yet, I need to read in again before I publish.

In the evening I could hear Debbie and Ben pleading to save me, saying he is the messenger don't kill him, please, please don't kill him. This went on for a long time. Arguing in the car park, arguing on the street.

Monday 26TH October 2009.
I could not stop my penis pumping throughout the night East and West. When I woke up, I had a penis erection, I felt a bit sexy thinking of Sarah. I tried to masturbate, Could not wank making love to Sarah in fantasy for the first time for a year. When I got up to work it still Pumped East to West.

This changed to North to South, North more than South. I researched North to South in Biblical meaning on the internet. This was very relevant in the struggles in the bible. I researched the significance of the North Star, 'The Star Of Bethlehem' turned out to be very relevant.

The pumping, this pointing with my penis changed throughout the day, and on one occasion it pointed in all directions. This was relevant God is all around us. I work facing North to the Bethlehem Star, I look forward to Christmas for the first time for a very long time.

If it is written that the messanger is killed to project his lifeform to eternal life then I must die. The killer will be exonerated in a court of law: and will walk a free man. The Jehovah's will support him: with others.

Does any of this make sense to people so versed in the work of God and Christ?

My two projects came together on the same day. This project and my Audio Power Amplifier Project. The power amplifier I am listening to today, it now has the bottom on it: and is out of it's harness keeping it inverted: and is sited for the first time today the right way up.

Tomorrow I will walk over the park that I love so much and face East and bow to the higher intelligence. If any person reading this can make sense of it: would you like to join me?
I Just Need A Little Help From My Friends.

Perhaps Pat and Colin the Park Keeper, Colin is a believer, a prodigy. We often talked of this. I said I believed but just saw God as a higher intelligence, I told Colin I believed in the Armageddon and it's relevance. I also said I only told the truth in that what I write, I told Colin 10 years ago that through corruption I was becoming sexually attracted to children. Colin could not get me legally removed from the park because I told him there was no fantasy in what I sight and no interest in illegal activity. I also told Pat this attraction and other people,

I do not hide the truth, I project it. Nobody understood me. How do you see this girl?
Young Gifted And Black?

A revelation,
Out Of Africa.

It's all going to get a bit crazy, a lot
Crazy.

The fighting and the killing and the associated misery
Will soon all be gone.

Interesting Reading. Professor Parker,
The Genesis Enigma.

Life is Chemical Machine!

References.

God's Messengers.

Daily Bible Study. North versus South.

The North Star, the star of Bethlehem.

The Valfet Audio Power Amplifier.

Thanks to One-Republic for providing the psalms that have helped me today to slowly return to the perfection of 1991.
Angel Of Mercy.

Thanks to Leona Lewis, Spirit. A believer. A prodigy for her psalms. Time and time again I have been cut open, I keep bleeding in love. Keep Bleeding In love. My Daughters, my grandchildren, my poor marriage that was my fault. I did not like the soft porn presentation of this video. However, the marketing men know what people want.
I Keep Bleeding In Love.

28TH October 2009.
All of the religions are not perfect, the original scribes are probably correct in many areas: however I feel different religions were started from people that had revelations from God as a correction mechanism.

I am satisfied that this higher intelligence can communicate in such a way: and that the Armageddon is not a bloody war. It is a conversion program, the one I analysed and wrote in 1991 as described again in this part of my diary.

I destroyed all the nude photographs of my ex girlfriend that were on my computers today, I told my ex girlfriend no other person would ever see them. They were overwritten then deleted: this is the only way to destroy files on a computer.

Trying to find the baby Jesus and kill him, made him more famous, to our way of thinking killing baby boys in a commune is unthinkable. I whole commune was made aware of the special purpose of this particular baby.

The power Amplifier project became a lesser project today - This Is The Project That Is The Way Forward.

On Monday last I decided not to walk in the park, I felt if I left to do this I would have been killed before I went on to the park. I went outside and looked East for Crisp to kill me: it never happened although he had threatened it.

Short Hypotheses and Notes.
If the religions were set up by God to appose each other, there would be a good reason. As explained in my first book they advanced science through war, why? I think it is because the planet is so vulnerable, a series of volcanoes could destroy us, these are unpredictable.

We need to be able to advance science in the first instance to predict volcanoes. Secondly, create an artificial biosphere to project life. Up until now this creation of an artificial biosphere has not been possible.

Asteroid collision is another possibility. We will soon have the science to say, in a thousand years or much less, to move an asteroid: or destroy it. Or, move this planet away from the collision course as an interim measure until we populate other planets if this is possible?

None of the people, the worshippers in the religions are perfect. But I feel that the religious order that is correct is the Jehovah's Witnesses, I did not join them because I did not believe in God. I will not join them physically because I still have sexual desires and I do not feel another partner is the way forward for me. I might change my mind, it is so flippy at the moment.

A psychopath, created through child abuse, I want to punch people in the face that bore me, and kick people in the head when they bend down in front of me, their head near my feet. I have never punched anybody that bore me, I have never kicked any person in the head. I have always controlled it. I have told my family and some of my friends of this.

The music piece below, is from the film Bilitis, this I believe is a film about two girls that evolved to have lesbian desires. The film I believe went a long way to show people the love generated between people that have evolved to be different. The accompanying music track used in the film is quite magnificent.

Bilitis.

29TH October. 2009.
Pointing to God in all directions, this is now stopping it was just for direction. God is all around us!

Body temperature sense has come up now I have the possibility of friends and God in the right church. I now do not feel as cold. The temperature is 15C and I am not cold. For the last four years I have been cold at this temperature.

I have not had food for 6 hours, I am not hungry, the binge eating is going. Without food for this period of time I normally feel very cold.

30TH October 2009.
The interest in black has rescinded quite a bit today, this I will monitor, I hope all the colours will eventually become more equal, preferably a prominence of white.

However, I feel there are no black people, or white people, just people.

15C. Body temperature sense still higher than it was.

3.35PM. Child, Boy, Dad, they are all gods children, you can't kill them, its wrong. How did you hear that?

6PM Pointing towards my prodigy.

It might seem harsh that the religions with all their faults were set up to oppose each other in bloody: wars through Gods communication, if this is correct? But in 2000 years the amount of people that died in these wars is very likely very much less than would have been if the pagan communes were left as they were: for a very much longer period.

Without this intervention we would not have a high standard of living and care in many parts of the world: soon to be all the world to a perfect standard.

There may be BNP supporters? that are promoting this, Fascists, for them killing is the way forward: this is HOLY incorrect.

Amnesty for the BNP killers, the people they killed are dead, they cannot come back. The killers were just defectively programmed. They must see the error of their ways. This is not the forward, killing people is not the way forward. We are all Gods children, all currently defectively programmed with different percentages of fault.

I sent out the e-mail below to most of the major religious groups in America today and all major political parties in the UK: and the American Government.

This is a copy of what you sent to info@elca.org.

From:   Anthony Johns 
To:     valfet@ntlworld.com
Subject:  BNP Killings.
Date:   Sat, 31 Oct 2009 18:51:28 +0000

Gods Children Must Never Be Killed. Check This Out.

Please check out the following with forensic Psychologists and forensic
psychiatrists.

In Ipswich Suffolk UK, the local mental hospital has a forensic
psychology department and a forensic psychiatry department. Tests are
conducted in the hospital with a mix of the two. Circular movements of
the feet, brushing legs, brushing face, brushing hand across hair by a
person close by the person being tested causes the victim to want to
make a reciprocating movement. If positive the victim will have to move
in sync.

Such reciprocating movement when observed means the victim is in a very
poor mental state induced by society and some testers and hospital staff
refer to this as an element of perversion.

In tests, there is eye flicker, blinking, to induced noise, and similar
body movement, the conclusion by the tester is that the victim is
perverted. Such victims are nearly all abused children that as they grow
up receive further abuse increasing this mental impairment. I feel love
and help, good support therapy can reverse this.

This knowledge from the local mental hospital has percolated in to the
public domain in Ipswich Suffolk England and from what I have observed
these assessed perverts are being killed. These are all Gods children
that have been defectively programmed: if you can relate to this
terminology.

The killers, if there are any: and I believe there are operating in a
group with political affiliation to a fascist organisation in England
known as the BNP, Some police officers are involved in this. How many
killings there have been in Ipswich I do not know. It is incorrect to
kill any people, we are all Gods children. If they cannot be healed:
they can be supervised 24/7/365

The nextgeneration because of a very fast decline in living standards in
the west: will produce more of these very unfortunate people. The
killing cannot go on.

Please bring this to the awareness of all pertinent groups in the US.
God be with you. Love Tony Johns.

A.W.Johns,
34 Bishops Hill,
Ipswich,
Suffolk,
England,
Europe.
IP3 8EN.

Sunday 1ST November 2009.
Temperature 15C I am still not wearing thermal underclothing. In the last four years I would have felt cold.

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