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Copyright (C) Anthony William Johns. Years 2002 To 2008.
34 Bishops Hill. Ipswich. Suffolk. IP3 8EN.
Notes.
You will again see here how a brain when corrupted by abuse, in
it's search for eternal life for itself and it's species: adapts
as always to find stability: in comfort and care for different
age groups. I.E. The abuse was coming from people in the age
band of 12 to 60, so the brain adapted to care for, to protect in
a paranoiac fashion, to get support from lower ages and higher
ages, this is young children and elderly people.
This also increased the sexual interest in this higher and lower age group. The brain was so corrupted in the it can be seen that eventually it searched as well for stability in new colours in attire for attraction. This follows the same pattern as already published in many of my books: where, when the brain is corrupted by a fault as above where interests change and the brain adapts to interest in different ages, colours, hairstyles, etc. Please feel free to read my reference book on the brain covering most mental impairment conditions titled - The Brain: Natures Own Computer. The foreword is written by a qualified psychologist, the site is found here -
exact-psychology.comYou saw in part 10 and you will see in this part, part 11 how on two occasions, I assess that I have been poisoned, My internet publications have upset most people in this town and further afield, these are many religious groups, ethnic groups, local and UK government and government agencies. This has made me paranoid in the respect of being killed. Harassment by local people, principally in sexual testing that has been going on for 11 years, dramatically increasing in the last two years, the links are below to the sites that upset most people, this sites home page is first.
ipswichswimmingpools.comThe site below highlights the corporate skulduggery of James Hehir, C.E.O. Of Ipswich Borough Council. Hehir is also on the board of Ipswich University College. This college is near my house and near Ipswich Docks where I walk most days. I assess that Hehir has set an army of psychologists on me from the college to test and assess me in local shops and on the streets knowing that their antics could drive me to suicide or the local mental hospital.
These psychologists also knew that my sexual interests would be driven down to young children. This adaptation could be verified by psychology testing: and published extensively locally. In my assessment this army of psychologists and shopkeepers and staff, has mostly been dishonest in their information: that I have failed tests. This is a very dirty business.
In my assessment, this mass of mostly false information of lewd behaviour, was being fed to the authorities, particularly the local mental hospital that I have severely criticised and ridiculed in a book and in text on this site. That in a false assessment of violence, or a claim of actual violence from me, as ostracised, I could be locked up in this mental hospital as a perverted risk to the public, or falsely assessed as before as delusional.
In regard of the the rest of the board at Ipswich University College, mostly professors from East Anglian Universities, I informed these professors of Hehir's corporate skulduggery and the publication of this site about a year ago-2007. They are happy that they are working with the crooked despot: James Hehir.
anobeisworthless.comThe book,'Surrogate Daughter', published on the, 'memetic1.com', web site below is a book that upsets many more people. The girl, the subject of the book, Miss Hayley Coyne, and the witnesses to harassment by Hehir's council mob are all named: as they were witnesses to this ordeal.
memetic1.comSo why do I go out of my way to upset and disgust so many people? The answer is simple. If they read my work then it converts them or starts to convert them to realising that we are mostly programmed from birth: and that we are just chemical, or as I term it: organic machine. Why do I want to do this? When converted, it helps people to be aware of their past and present mental state: and it can help people avoid some of the pitfalls of life.
Also, if all people on this planet arrived at the conclusion that they were chemical machine, all the brains may synchronise, people will then not be able to to tell lies: and they may be able to step out of the ageing program. This sounds far fetched? I have believed this since 1991, and evidence is now emerging from genetic determination that ageing is controlled by a gene or genes and with genetic manipulation ageing can be stopped. An article pertinent to this matter can be accessed from the link below.
Guardian.co.ukI hypothesise: that ageing may be able to be reversed under mind control. Please click on the link below to read this hypotheses.
The Armageddon.The first incident of poisoning in 2007 was triggered by a vending machine cola liquid put on the handle bars of my bike. This is very sticky and irritates, I thought that this was concentrated poison ivy or poison oak. Doctors and mental health experts were made aware of my concerns at Norwich University Hospital. I was assessed as not a risk to myself or the general public by a Mr. Richard West, a Psychiatrist, and head charge nurse at Hellesdon Hospital Norwich, and his fellow partner psychiatrist.
These mental health experts after explanation from me realised that my underlying problem was political harassment from the general public in Ipswich spurned on by the local hierarchy in local government departments including the local St. Clements mental hospital.
I opened a tin of worms with this book, particularly in the title calling Ipswich a cesspool. Why did I do this? Well, I never fitted in here. I went up against the local government, with truthful event, legally they have not been able to stop my publications. There was no support from local people to fight this local government to retain a much loved local lido pool at the time - 1995-2000. My publications since 2004 have turned this local government around, they are now in full support of the pool.
One of my books, Surrogate Daughter, is considered by some people as pornographic, disgusting, perverted, or just a science book, depending on the persons analyses of the content. Why did I publish this and all my books free on the internet? The reason is simple, Life on this planet is just organic machine, I want people to know this. The truth about what we are is important to the eventual stability of all people on this planet. Scientists now refer to this as chemical machine.
Evidence for this claim is here in the 2007 Channel Five Christmas lectures by The Royal Institution Of Great Britian. You can order a DVD from the Royal Institution of the lectures titled Back from the brink with Dr Hugh Montgomery, all five of the lectures, this costs only 6 GB pounds including postage and packaging,(9 GB pounds outside the UK), and it will be automatically sent to you. You will see in one of the lectures where Dr. Montgomery lectures about 200 children: stating all life on this planet is chemical machine.
Many psychiatrists that I have seen since 1991 could not understand my analyses and projection of life as organic machine in my books, consequently, they thought my belief systems were completely wrong: and analysed delusion. I was deluded in my nervous breakdown in 1988, however, I also developed Obsessive Compulsive Disorder in that I was deluded in to thinking my hands smelled. The recent poisoning events analyses and the feeling of sticky hands caused by a possible poisoning, or a chemical contact: could be a variant of OCD.
Scientists. One side believes that obsessive-compulsive behaviour is a psychological disorder; the other side thinks it has a neurological origin. A majority of researchers now believe in this neurological hypothesis. I believe that a psychological condition, a negative event or events causes this neurological condition. I believe that many people can recover from this mental impairment with positive psychological input: to cure the many people of this neuroses.
Depression isThe following conditions that are part of OCD pertinent to me, are as follows.
I am obsessed by my work, this is my life.
I cannot stop investigating and creating.
I get to as much perfection as I can achieve in many areas.
I often count steps as I walk up stairs, or walk from A to B.
Feeling overly responsible for the safety of others.
All of my publications share this need, a paranoia, to protect and project people: as with this site. I always put any projects on hold if a public safety project comes up to create and publish. I have been violent and very aggressive towards people that endanger the life of people and children. This can be seen in some of my projects in the prior links above: and below.
Public Explosion Danger. Protection Of Prostitutes. Stop Street Prostitution.The letter to the Rt Hon Gordon Brown P.M. 10 Downing St. London. SW1A 2AA. As published on the mystery-moments.com web site above, caused a letter response from the government. In that they are doing their utmost to kill street prostitution: to clean up the red light districts, curtailing the organised crime input, Stopping street prostitute murders.
In this section it can be seen because of my harassment from ethnic groups, I am now racist, and at times very racist. I was not like this between 1964 and 1992. Many people in this country are becoming racist, and a dear friend of mine thinks that there could be a civil war. This was predicted by Enoch Powell in his Rivers of Blood speech in 1968. I have noticed that ethnic groups are becoming bolder at being against homosexuality and other matters that the British are not so bothered about.
The British government need to tighten up security, increase phone tapping, and all other surveillance techniques fast: to avoid this possible blood bath.
The 1968 Rivers OfThere has been three major changes of mental state by me in the last 19 years.
1. I changed in the period of 1988 - 1992 from Creationism to Atheism.
2. I changed in 1999 to being informed that there was phenomenal mental impairment caused to many pubescent children by having sex with an older man. This often can cause lifetime mental impairment for the child. Before this, I could see nothing wrong with such activity: although I never entered in to sexual relations with a child.
3. Until recently, I was against sexual profiling, I have changed my mental state in this respect. I have been seriously mentally negated by sexual profiling since 1996, almost daily, for 11 years, as published on this site.
This changed my gender and age sexual interests. Sexual profiling will negate many peoples mental state, however, these people are in the minority: and profilers must be made aware, and data bases generated of people that by profiling are proved to have sexual interests in children.
These people that have not broken any laws need help, the worse thing to do is for people to hold their noses indicating homosexual interest awareness, or hold their ear lobes indicating paedophile interests, or verbally abuse these people. Causing mental impairment and often isolation, this increases sexual drive towards children. The victim is more likely to sexually assault or intercourse a child.
All people that have sexual interests in children are the product themselves of child or adult abuse: it is not fair to abuse these people again as adults because of their sexual interests: caused by earlier abuse. We need sexual profiling to identify the sex offenders.
The Tests Continue.
Friday 1st February 2008.
Sarah had arranged to come to my house at 1-15PM, she never
arrived. I had turned the heating up for her, Started work
early, completed all my work before 1-15 PM I was looking forward
to seeing Sarah. I telephoned Sarah at 1-45 PM, she was
socialising and drinking with Mick her stepfather. I told Sarah
that I would see her at 6PM. This event made me very annoyed,
Sarah had lied over a serious matter recently and other matters,
and had changed a lot of appointments lately at the last minute,
I was thinking of stopping the relationship.
Saturday 2ND February 2008.
Sarah announced that she had not seen me much during the week,
and that she had told her sister that she was not going to
spend the weekend with her, she as spending it with me.
Sarah had not consulted me about this, but I decided to spend
the weekend with Sarah to see if our time together was good. I
had become very mistrusting of Sarah, she has been unfaithful in
the past.
Sarah, needs to take her medication for schizophrenia regularly: and definitely avoid alcohol. Sarah had not been taking her medication regularly, and had been drinking alcohol, she is an alcoholic. I could see by her eyes and her general behaviour that that Sarah was now schizophrenic.
Sunday 3rd February 2008.
We made love in the afternon, and listened to love songs in bed,
we often do this, we both love to listen to love songs. Sarah was
thirsty, she said I will make a cup of tea. In my assessment
Sarah was schizophrenic this day, she had not been taking her
medication recently. As Sarah walked around the bed with my cup
of tea she had one hand holding the handle on the cup, the other
hand and fingers were over the cup in such a position that she
could be dropping something in the cup. This concerned me.
We wanted to make love again, we refer to my penis as Goldie, I am not going to disclose too much as to reasons why. Goldie is a reference to a goldfish. I was just about to slide my penis in to Sarah's vagina, and I said it is time for Goldie's swim. Sarah replied I shall miss you Goldie. I queried this statement, Sarah said your penis is really hard, I shall miss it when it is not so hard.
I had taken Viagra, I do this on a Sunday. We refer to this and the Sunday sex session as the Sunday Service. This is our Sunday religious ceremony, this has more credibility than going to church. We make our. 'Sunday Service'. last as long as we can.
I was very concerned at Sarah's statement, the trust in her had gone over the last few weeks. I had cold drinks that I prepared for the rest of the day. I was very troubled and came to a decision that night to stop the relationship with Sarah.
Monday 4Th February 2008. 8AM
I do not sleep with Sarah, she snores very loud, I sleep in the
lounge on a settee. I awoke thought for a while, I then went in to
the bedroom where Sarah was sleeping, I was dressed ready to go.
I woke Sarah up and told her that I was stopping the
relationship. Sarah asked why? I said you keep letting me down,
you keep putting other people in preference to me.
I explained her hand over the cup and the Goldie incident: and stated that I thought that she could be poisoning me. I referred her to her sisters reference of such behaviour where Sarah's sister thought Sarah had try to poison her a few years earlier: when Sarah was schizophrenic. Sarah knew about this Incident. I then left Sarah's flat. As I approached Chantry High school, there was a girl in front of me aged 15? very good woman's figure, was it a test? she appeared to have a mirror in her hand in such a way that she could see me.
I have often seen this with other people. Was it a test? I briefly turned my head and looked at her bottom as I got close to her, she then concealed the mirror. I ignored all the younger children, there was no sexual interest in the black clad younger children. As I walked through Fore Street at about 9AM there were several tests including a young boy aged 8? that ran past me.
There was a black clad young boy that ran fast across a road in the distance in front of me. I looked at the boy, there was a very slight sexual interest. There was a tall black clad woman that photographed me turning my head to look at the boy with a movie camera. I do not want to have sex with children. This will never happen.
I wrote and posted 5 letters this day, this included a letter to Sarah's carers to attend a dental appointment on the coming Wednesday and to care for her that day because there may be excessive bleeding and a letter to Sarah explaining why I had stopped the relationship.
Tuesday 5Th February 2008. 8PM
My youngest daughter telephoned from London to say that my eldest
daughter was in hospital with a kidney problem. My youngest
daughter was very displeased that her mother had texed her about
this issue, I think she was delayed this day in checking her
texts.
Wednesday 6Th February 2008.
My lips and hands were sticky again, my fingers were bright red,
this triggered the poisoning paranoia again. I suspected that the
poisoner, or poisoners, if they existed?. where poisoning me from
a shop. The shop that I do my daily shopping from is Sainsbury's
in Upper Brook St. Ipswich. There has been a lot of psychology
tests, and downright lies from staff in this testing to discredit
me: and verbal and gesture abuse.
This has been going on for months: and a lot of hassle from staff in this shop for months. Please refer to notes further on as to how such a large store with organised staff could poison a person that they disliked and thought that was an extreme pervert after tests: and that this person was an extreme risk to children. Or, just for political reasons the staff wanted the person dead.
Note.
It is interesting that I gave Sarah up, no person would be
visiting my house, and the effects of a poison, or an industrial
cleaning agent: that would irritate and make my hands and lips
red and sticky, this causing paranoia, should start right at
this time.
Wednesday 6Th February 2008. Continued.
I had arranged with my youngest daughter to see my eldest
daughter in hospital this afternoon. I was paranoid about
being poisoned, I did some work, the hospital visiting
hours were 3 to 4 pm. The time was just after mid day. I had
lunch and shut down the computers.
I needed groceries, and I wanted to get my eldest daughter some flowers, I went in to Ipswich. I bought a card, then went to Sainsbury's and bought flowers and groceries. Outside the store there was the usual gaggle of young people that often set up sexual testing there. One of the girls photographed me, I saw this, she saw me look and said, Oh, Shit. A boy stuck his foot out and tripped me up, I glared at him, he was laughing. I refrained from hitting him. I bought milk, apples, bread, I buy these items most days, same wrapped apples, same bread, ( Allinson Wholemeal ), and green topped semi skimmed milk.
I paid for the flowers in Sainsbury's at the till in customers services near the shop entrance Lower Brook St. A young blond hair girl that had served me before as I stood in front of her brushed her hair in a sexual gesture that I have seen hundreds of times before. I ignored this stupidity, and held my nose as a return gesture, indicating that the girl stinks. Some staff nearby laughed, this often happens.
I boy joined us, he said to the girl, it wont be long now. I felt the staff in the shop had organised themselves, and could be poisoning me. So I looked at the boy and said, it might be longer than you think. I then left the store with the receipt for the flowers.
1. This could or could not have been a relevent conversation.
2. The boy could have meant that without friends and family support, and all the testing hassle, plus poisoning paranoia, I could be soon in a mental hospital.
3. The boy could have made the statement to make me more paranoid.
4. The boy could have meant that he knew that I was being poisoned, be ill, or soon die from the slow effect of prolonged build up of poisoning that he knew about.
The receipt registered Sweetheart Roses 1.99, Cash tendered, 2.00 Change 0.01, I then noticed a code on the bottom of the receipt listing transaction time and other codes that presumably identifies the girl and the till. I wish that I had noticed these codes months ago because I could have detailed all the identities of the people that were ridiculing, harassing, and abusing me: and what they were doing. This with the full knowledge of management that monitor the surveillance cameras that are everywhere in this store.
The details at the bottom of this flower transaction receipt are as follows,
C0187 #0236 13:55:59 6FEB 2008
S00755 R106
I was very very troubled by all the events this day, primarily, eldest daughter, poisoning, increase in being photographed, I cycled on to a zebra crossing without looking for traffic, I then spotted a stationary vehicle close by, I realised what had happened, I had different shoes on, I lost my balance and fell off my bike. I apologised to the driver of the car, and cycled home.
When I got home I went to unpack my groceries, falling off my bike had ruptured the 4 pint bottle of milk, milk was everywhere in the bag covering most of the items in the bag. I proceeded to clean up the bag and the affected items, I needed to take the bag to the hospital, this is a back pack that I use on my back on my bike.
I noticed a large black crayon mark placed across the bottle, was this milk poisoned? I emptied the milk down the sink, and disposed of the bottle. I walked to Mr. Patel's shop in Fore Street and bought some more milk. I binned all the perishable food from Sainsbury's, this amounted to about eight pounds cash value worth of food. The milk from Mr. Patel's shop tasted nicer than the milk recently bought from Sainsbury's.
I then realised that I was very unshaven: and scruffy. So I tidied myself up and then realised that it was getting late to attend the hospital. My youngest daughter telephoned me, we discussed the situation, and because my eldest daughter was estranged from me I suggested to my youngest daughter who was travelling up to Ipswich to visit her sister, that we both went to the hospital together.
I met my youngest daughter with her children, my grandchildren, at my house at about 5:30 PM. We talked for a while, then we all left my house and went to the hospital. My eldest daughter was very ill, kidneys failure, severe infection, however, she was pleased to see me. I offered a kidney, if it was a match, if my eldest daughter needed it. I felt there was a test as we were about to leave the hospital. My daughter dropped me off from her car at my house, I went to bed.
Thursday 7Th February 2008.
At 9 AM I went to Ipswich Crown court to see a mitigation and
penalty in Court 4. The defendant who had pleaded guilty at an
earlier hearing was a Mr. Stephen Barker, an X Ipswich Borough
Council conservative party leader who had altered a will of a
friend to his benefit of 190 thousand pounds, the fraud had
obviously been discovered.
I had Stephen Barkers address on file, I had written to him in September 2002 about my harassment and a public safety issue. Of course there was no response. So I wrote to Barker again at his home on the 2ND of January 2008 to ask if he had knowledge of serious corruption at IBC, if yes, then perhaps he had been corrupted by IBC antics, if there was serious fraud at IBC. Perhaps he would state this in court, it might lessen his sentence.
Barkers barrister was brilliant, he explained that the 190 thousand pound advantage to Barker was not driven by greed, and that he had acted on the wishes of his friend. This created a quite different scenario. Barker did not get a custodial sentence, he received a 240 hour unpaid work order. I left the court quite surprised at the penalty. No doubt, my letter to Mr. Barker had been published extensively locally.
Friday 8Th - Saturday 9Th February 2008.
I tried to work, but I was depressed and worried about my
eldest daughter. I have several projects running, I did not
feel like working. I sat around or laid in bed concerned
about recent events: and that I had possibly been poisoned.
Sunday 10Th. February. 2008.
I went to the boot sale at Portman Road at 9-30 Am, there were
children everywhere, I was not unduly attracted to children,
however, I failed two tests. 1. I was slightly attracted to a
long haired back facing black clad 9? year old girl about 15
feet away as I looked up. 2. I was attracted to a pink clad girl,
8? year old back facing about 25 feet away as I looked up.
This was a slight sexual attraction with the long haired child, but the pink clad child was similar in sexual attraction, but I looked at her longer to see if it was a test. Such sexual urges with children many men have, but like most men, this is kept strictly under control. I do not want sex with children. There was a further test with a pink clad child in Ipswich town centre when I went there, child aged 13? I looked, there was a slight sexual attraction, I also looked longer to see if it was a test. I assessed that it was a test.
I went home and typed up a letter and posted it, I then returned home and had lunch. After lunch I went to Mr Patel's Newsagents shop Fore St. On the return journey as I walked up Bishops Hill to my house at about 3.30 PM after buying milk at Mr. Patel's shop. About 50 yards ahead on the other side of the road there was three adults and a child aged 3? pink clad back facing me legs apart, I looked, was it a test? And failed the test.
These people were stationary, the child was in front, back facing, legs apart, two other people male female adults, presumably parents, were in front of the child, back facing me. Another person, a man, was forward facing me just in front of the forward facing pair: presumably with a video zoom camera. When the trio moved on the man, with the camera? walked off ahead with something in a bag. For me to sight such unusual behaviour: this would attract my attention. There was no sexual interest in this child.
Since Wednesday, my hands have been red and sticky, slight headache tummy ache and lower muscles, difficulty in urinating, not much flow. I could have been injured falling off my bike. During this period I further tightened up the security in my house. At about 4 PM I decided to go and see Sarah.
As I cycled towards Sarah's flat, Sarah was up the window, I waved, she waved back, she welcomed me in the flat. I explained that one of my daughters was ill in hospital, and this was why I had not been to see her. We discussed the poisoning paranoia. The idea had been placed in my mind by her sister Denese three years ago when Sarah had been very seriously mentally ill, this mental illness had also destabilised her sister, and her sister thought that Sarah was trying to poison her.
According to the sister, Sarah's carers or psychiatric nurse wanted Denese blood tested to see the situation. Denese would not allow this to protect Sarah. This has always been in my mind. Was Sarah a poisoner? I explained to Sarah that she had not been taking her medication regularly, and was drinking alcohol in large volumes. This had made her schizophrenic, I knew this, and I was concerned at to what level she had become schizophrenic.
When I thought she had dropped something in my tea, and then said, I shall miss you Goldie, I thought that she was trying to poison me. Sarah admitted that in speech a lot of the time she was not making sense. I then added I was concerned at the time that she could have been untruthfully told something very negative about me. Sarah is paranoid and very jealous of boyfriends being with another woman, and with schizophrenia, had she tried to poison me? We discussed other matters and that she could be an OCD sufferer. I asked Sarah to run her finger lightly over my hand to my fingers to see if they were sticky. Sarah agreed that my fingers were more sticky at the finger pads.
Sarah said her mother thought that she had OCD as Sarah always says one thing and does another, forgets appointments when something else becomes a priority. Sarah and I agreed that her mental health had deteriorated in the last couple of months. I stayed at Sarah's flat Sunday night and Monday until midday As I left Sarah's flat there was a man talking on a mobile phone on the other side of the road, I heard him say, he is on the move. There was a white Ipswich Borough Council van nearby.
Tuesday February 12TH. My Birthday, Disastrous
My Sister and Sarah telephoned early to wish me a happy
birthday. 12PM. A gas inspector called at the house about a gas
mains problem. He could smell gas in the house, we agreed to
shut off the gas until it was checked. An inspection team
called an hour later and found a leaking pipe on the gas
entry to the gas meter. The metal flexible pipe was replaced,
and the gas supply restored. I felt there was a test in my
garden, back facing man using a mobile phone, I looked to
see if it was a test and I failed it. No sexual interest.
When the gas inspection men were in my kitchen, we discussed the gas leak, I said that I occasionally suffered from schizophrenia. I had been under a lot of pressure lately, and this sort of pressure for me can cause schizophrenia. Although I could smell gas, I considered that it could be schizophrenia. I am glad that the gas leak was real: discounting any delusion.
During the morning I had slight stomach ache, sticky fingers, Fingers were extra sticky after 5 hours typing with my fingerless woolly gloves on. Still sticky after lunch and washing my hands at 1.30PM. I washed my hair, the tackiness went. I went and saw Joss and Dave, I had a cup of coffee, Joss cut my hair, we discussed the current situation, I said there was a cell of about 50 people that are intimidating me, connected to IBC and the Suffolk College. Everybody agreed that they were trying to isolate me and drive me to need help from doctors or the psychiatric services: or just drive me to suicide.
We discussed my books, David said that I should take them off the internet, and then approach publishers. I would get a better chance of getting published. I cannot take the books off the internet for legal reasons, they are my defence: if there is litigation. On the way to Josse's house there were several tests, I failed a few looking to see if they were tests. I took all the towels this day and washing up cloths and most clothes to the laundrette, and had them washed and dried. I left Josse's and then went to see Sarah as arranged.
Sarah had drunk one and a half bottles of White Lightning alcohol, this drink is now called White Star, this drink is cheap and garbage. Many alcoholics drink this crap. This has replaced methylated spirit drinking. I was very annoyed that Sarah was drunk, and killing herself, she is only 33 years old, and already has a liver problem brought about by alcohol abuse. I had a couple of cups of coffee with Sarah, Sarah wanted sex.
Sarah was giggling around, moving her legs continuously, every few seconds she kept saying "Oh Babe, Oh Babe ". I've never seen her this hot, this was extreme, this went on for about 10 minutes, I was getting annoyed that she was so drunk, it was my birthday, what a bloody mess this day had turned in to. I refused to have sex with Sarah in such a state, it felt like I was taking advantage of her, I have never seen her this high, she wanted sex with me so badly.
I was also concerned that she could damage either of us if we had sex, I usually let her ride me. I lay on the bed, Sarah straddles me, knees bent on the bed riding my upright penis vigoursly, I was concerned that she could fall off the bed, or if she started head banging, this she does when she now gets to trance multi-orgasmic climax. I was afraid that she could cause a brain haemorrhage, with the massive alcohol consumption: and this new extreme displayed level of sexual arousal.
Head BangingSarah and I argued, I said that I was not prepared to watch her deteriorate with alcohol, she was becoming very paranoid at being alone lately. I said if she carried on like this that I would stop the relationship. Sarah said that I did not love her, I swore at her, called her a cunt, said that I was leaving and left and came home. As I cycled near the railway station I was photographed again by a man. Sarah phoned me later and apologised for her behaviour. There is more about this event in another analyses section in Part12 of this book.
I have had muscle pains and pain this day from small red spots that have appeared on my body. My face irritated after I touched it, I scratch the small red spots. I noticed with the recent psychological pressure that I am slightly dyslexic, this happens when I am under serious pressure. This shows up in my handwriting. Today, I wrote an M as W and a T as S.
Wednesday 13Th February 2008.
I started work at 8AM typing up these notes. After a little while
I felt my bottom was wet, I do not know if I had passed wind.
Upon inspection this was a fatty light brown mucus, this mucus
also stained my pants. I cleaned my bottom and changed my pants.
About half hour later my bottom was wet again,this time I had
passed some small sticky fibrous excrement, and I had had no
indication of passing it. This concerned me. I also did not feel
hungry, this was unusual.
At 10-45 I wanted to go to the toilet. The stool was very soft, I caught it in a piece of paper kitchen towel to inspect it, it easily bent, there was no blood. I had a change of food the evening before, I ate 2 rounds of bread, an apple, and some ready brek cereal. This may have caused this problem.
At 12:30PM My neighbour Pat came to see me, she was concerned for my health, I told her that I felt that I had come in to contact with an industrial chemical, and that this was reminiscent of when I though I had been poisoned the previous year. Pat suggested it could be something in the kitchen. I agreed this with Pat. I said I was OK, things are working out with my girlfriend and daughters. I had received birthday cards from my 2 children and 4 grandchildren.
My blood pressure went to dangerous levels last week, I have recorded the readings for the last 8 days, I will presently see my G.P. about this. The readings and reasons that caused the high readings are pasted below.
File Blood-P.TXT 2008 Blood Pressure. Etc.
No friends loner. Estranged Daughter and grandchildren.
THU 31 01 08 I stopped a 23 year relationship with a friend.
Mon 04 02 08 I stopped relationship with girlfriend again.
Tue 05 02 08 Estranged daughter in hospital Kidney failure.
Wed 06 02 08 I went to see estranged daughter, offered a
kidney if useful.
Also, other problems this week,
1. Problems with credit card company, card expiry soon.
2. Ongoing council dispute over a fence ownership.
Wed 06 02 08 10pm Sys 195 Dia 111
Heart when normal misses beat every 21.
Poisoning paranoia returned.
Heart seemed erratic, missing beats, about every seventh,
heavy intermittent pumping. 15 beats fast then slow.
Expensive boots Machine. Heart so erratic, machine would
not work. Felt cold shivering. Very thirsty all day,
Difficulty urinating wed night. Lips and hands very
sticky, tacky, would not wash off. Bright Red fingers
Regards Poisoning, could be contact with commercial
cleaning agent, or domestic toxic agent. I live alone,
house very secure.
Are there any symptomatic known illnesses?
Wed 06 02 08 11pm Sys 179 Dia 97
Thu 07 02 08 8am Sys 130 Dia 84
Thu 07 02 08 6pm sys 160 Dia 84
Fri 08 02 08 3AM Sys 145 Dia 88
Fri 08 02 08 5AM Sys 150 Dia 100 -P 82
Fri 08 02 08 8am sys 145 Dia 91
Fri 08 02 08 2pm sys 175 Dia 93 - P95
Fri 08 02 08 4pm sys 141 Dia 81 - P85 After relaxing bath.
Fri 08 02 08 9pm Sys 162 Dia 91 - P75
Sat 09 02 08 12pm Sys 159 Dia 93 - P59
Sat 09 02 08 6pm Sys 168 Dia 91 - P72
Sun 10 02 08 6AM Sys 114 Dia 74 - P68 Started work at 6:30AM
Sun 10 02 08 1pm sys 182 Dia 97 - P80 Before Lunch.
Sun 10 02 08 2pm sys 181 Dia 88 - P88 After Lunch.
Mon 11 02 08 2pm sys 132 Dia 79 - P87 After morning with girlfriend.
Mon 11 02 08 4pm sys 152 Dia 88 - P73 After anger attack.
Mon 11 02 08 8pm sys 149 Dia 91 - P67 After Meal
Tue 12 02 08 8PM Sys 118 Dia 76- P84
Tue 12 02 08 2PM Sys 164 Dia 89 - P94 After meal, heart slows after
every third beat.
Wed 13 02 08 8PM Sys 159 Dia 89 - P69
Thu 14 02 08 9AM Sys 177 Dia 93 - P69 After 3 hours work.
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Notes.
I have not published anything on the internet since February
2007, and the last published dated event was February 23rd
2007. I published then that I had an interest in the sound of
women's high heels. After I published I felt embarrassed of
this issue, I felt people were looking at me, and did not
publicly respond to this attraction: although the attraction
was still there.
I still have phobia problems in close proximity to people, I often look down when I shake hands, or look away, or look down from woman's faces and focus on women's breasts. I am still attracted to anything different in attire, however, I often control the attention, and do not follow with sight the often transient attraction.
I have been near children in happiness for most of my life, I still have a feeling of comfort when I am near children, I am happy when I am near children.
When angry now 2008, because of troublesome people, I often wish they were dead, this is in anger. I also swear about ethnics in this country, this is because I have had harassment from ethnics and all local groups of people in the last few years. When not angry, this condition is not present.
As stated in this current publication, I have reverted to a certain extent to the colour interest in black, pink is now added, the interest is at the same level if not greater than black. Pink and black together creates quite an interest. None of this was evident before 1996 when the street, shop, and sports venue testing started. I am attracted to other colours blues, reds. These interests I often conceal: if I can.
I thought that I would live to age 84, who knows I might do, with modern drugs to combat my chronic illness. I thought that I would never marry again, I might marry Sarah. I was surprised that one pint of Stella booze daily for a few months knocked out my medication causing serious delusion last year. Was my assessment last year of poisoning delusion? I do not know.
Paranoia.
If I can be destroyed, this stops my internet publications, and it
is very likely that people may plagiarise my work, get their hands
on my Intellectual art and publications.
I am paranoid about being stitched up by the local psychiatric services in respect of mental illness, I do not know the legal situation, If they could get me in to a mental hospital, administer the wrong drugs, or give me prolonged electrical treatment, ECT, this would destroy my brain, I would never come out of this mental hospital. I do not put this past the local authorities to engineer this.
In a mental hospital, you have no legal stature, neither do any of the patents in there, the staff, and what they say or record are the law, they can untruthfully record that are violent, a risk to the public, or suicidal, or not eating or drinking, being a risk to ones self: and keep you in there. I do not discount the scenario that a person could be wilfully killed by drug inducement by staff in a mental hospital. The death certificate would say natural causes. There would be no autopsy.
I also do not discount the scenario where I could be arrested by the police on a false filed complaint, the police could say I was of such a poor mental state that I need to be taken to a mental hospital. Or a similar situation could occur: if I was in a general hospital. Psychiatrists, psychologists, can easily be called to attend a patient, and take that patient to a mental hospital.
Conspired Supermarket Poisoning.
It is easy to poison a selected person by conspiritual staff at a
supermarket. The poisoned milk is marked with a felt tip or
crayon and placed in the rack as the first one to reach from the
direction the victim is walking. A member of staff stands in front
of the poisoned milk container to be told by another member of
staff that the victim is nearing the milk that he buys every day.
Just before the victim gets to the milk rack the shop member moves to the side checking that the victim takes the right milk container. The poison can be weed killer, pesticide, industrial cleaner, or any of the hundreds of poisons that are easily available today.
My girlfriend has witnessed recently, February 2008, that when I walk through Ipswich, about every fourth person holds their nose or ear as they approach me. This together with occasional verbal abuse is just abuse from adults: that drives sexual interests and general interests towards children. A high incidence of being photographed when out walking is also very mentally destabilising: and makes a person paranoid.
Shops change, a year ago Sainsbury's Ipswich was better value than my local coop. Sainsbury's are still a bit cheaper, however, Sainsbury's apples are polished, do they polish these apples with pledge furniture polish? The apples are often not well washed, the apples are dirty and treated with chemicals to prolong shelf life. Currently, coop apples although slightly more expensive seem fresher, cleaner, much more taste, nutritious.
Ultimately,
all of this harassment is to drive me to suicide, I have no
desire to commit suicide.
Such Adult abuse to a person and the effect of transference of sexual interests to children is well chronicled on this site in earlier 2007 publications. I would like to have a pound cash for every time I have heard a person say yes stitching me up in the last year, saying that I am looking at a child or an adults bottom. Or a person holding their hand up dishonestly, indicating a failed test. This would fund an electrical project of mine to an estimated 1500 pounds = 7000 Dollars.
Thursday. 14TH February 2008.
Valentine's day. This went well, I saw Sarah in the afternoon, I
bought Sarah a red rose and a meal, we made love, it was good.
Friday 15TH February 2008.
I telephoned Sarah at 5:30PM, I asked if she was on her own, she
replied yes, I said that I would see her at 7PM that night. I
was looking forward to seeing Sarah. When I arrived on time as
usual, the loud mouth horrible girl was there. I went in the
bedroom and tried to listen to some music, I was very angry.
I could not listen to music properly, the loud mouth could be
heard above the music with the door shut.
I told Sarah about this, and that I was very unhappy, I wanted time with her. I knew the loud mouth would stay late, I go to bed at 10PM, 11PM. At the latest. I needed to be up early the next day to start work. I told Sarah, I was very unhappy: and that I was going to come back to my house. I left at 9PM. and returned home. I invited Sarah to come to my house the next day at 1PM after I had finished work.
Saturday. 16TH February 2008.
I worked in the morning, Sarah had arranged to come and see me in
the afternoon. I blanked out looking forward to seeing her
because she had let me down so much recently when I looked
forward to seeing her: and this had caused me so much anger
and disappointment. I thought perhaps blanking her out would
avoid this anger and disappointment.
Sarah arrived at 1PM. However, I felt she was not going to arrive and did not look forward to seeing her, we made love when I eventually relaxed some time later, I was angry at times with Sarah for the rest of the day.
Sunday. 17TH February 2008.
I was still angry with Sarah, I occasionally had thoughts of
hurting her, at one time I had a kettle full of boiling water,
the thought entered my head of pouring the water over her bare
feet. I of course as always refrained from such behaviour.
The mental impairment from Sarah from the last few weeks has
taken it's toll. I was not sexually aroused this day. Sarah
wanted sex, I could not provide sex, even if she massaged my
penis, I could not get erect. However, I had earlier bought a
CD and two video tapes that I knew Sarah liked to offer support
for her at the boot sale.
Monday. 18TH February 2008. 8:30AM.
I walked from Ipswich town centre to my house, my overall sex
drive and interest in women has dropped dramatically since the
level it was at on Friday last. This is the imposed
psychological damage to me from Sarah, (psychologically induced
sexual impotence ). I saw my G.P. today, Dr. Jones, we discussed
the recent induced paranoia, and I showed Dr.Jones the blood
pressure chart published above. Dr. Jones said that my blood
pressure changes were normal considering the stress that I was
under at the time.
Tuesday. 19TH February 2008.
I worked from 7AM to 4PM, I had arraged to see Sarah at 5PM.
Sarah telephoned me a 4:20PM and changed the arrangements as
usual. I had a bath. I noticed the hot water brought out red
blotches on my skin, and there were a lot of red spots on my
body. The red blotches showed up more on the skin areas that
had been damaged over the years by sunlight. There were also
raised red areas that looked like gnat bites, these areas
could have been gnat bites. However, gnats are not normally
present this time of the year.
I had recently changed my fruit diet, now introducing the consumption of three bananas a day. Prior to this I had only consumed apples for 15 years. Was the skin problem caused by a change of diet? Was this a bacterial problem from Sarah? Was this the effect of a toxin, a poison? I saw Sarah later in the evening, there was no sexual arousal from me. My skin irritated, I kept scratching.
Wednesday. 20TH February 2008.
I slept with Sarah overnight, Sarah wanted sex this morning, I
was not interested, I explained that she had killed my sexual
drive through the constant abuse of me, and I did not know
whether it would return. I knew that the love for Sarah had
mostly gone. At 10.45AM this morning Sarah telephoned me and
said that she wanted to stop the relationship. I was surprised.
I decided to go and see Sarah at 5PM to see what reaction I would obtain from Sarah and others who would be with her. I also wanted to pick up some groceries From Sarah's flat that I had left there, otherwise, Mick Sarah's stepfather, the thief, would probably steal them. The front door was open, so I walked upstairs and saw Sarah and the people who were there. I said to Sarah that I had not called to cause trouble, I had called to pick up my groceries, and to see her.
We talked alone for a while, and I left the flat on good terms with Sarah wishing that she had a good evening at the valentines dance, and that I would telephone her the next day. Regards my skin eruption. I pondered as to what it could be? I had a bath using a whole pack of sea salt, ( 500 Grams ), this a natural antibiotic. The next day the skin eruption had gone.
When I make love to Sarah, she does suffer from vaginal bacterial infections, I always wash my penis in a salt solution to kill any bacteria, We had made love the previous Saturday, I had forgotten to wash after this: and I did not have a wash or bath until the Tuesday, by then my penis was itching. Because water prices have increased over the last few years, I now bath every 3 days to keep down costs, I am not overweight, hardly ever sweat, never have bacterial problems, so I never smell.
Some people will be appalled at this regime, however, I do not like chemical input from bath soaps and shampoos, And the immune system remains stronger having such a regime. Sarah at times suffers from thrush, and alcohol abuse would also affect the correct flushing of her body: and allow build up of urethra and vaginal bacteria. This appeared to be the problem.
Thursday 21St February 2008.
The skin eruptions had cleared up, when I had a bath the red skin
blotches did not appear and most of the spots had gone including
the gnat bit type spots. One of my toes had a nervous twitch and
kept moving up and down, I could not control this. I flannel
washed my penis in a solution of salt the evening before and
this morning. In the afternoon my skin seemed scaly, flaky,
particularly on the penis. I talked to Sarah a couple of times
this day, I arranged to see her the next day.
After using the computers, keyboards, mice, and obviously touching the desks, my hands were red and sticky, but most noticeable was where the wrist on the hand that I use the most for the mouse and keyboard irritated: and the wrist was very shiny, a sheen was over the wrist. I do not polish the desks or computer parts.
Friday 22ND February 2008.
I wore builders protective gloves on my hands when I used my
computers, at the end of the day my skin was not so sticky, and
not so shiny with less irritation. This afternoon there was a
clear discharge from two sore areas on the opposite sides of the
penis near the head, this irritated. I washed the penis with a
salt solution. I considered, had a chemical, an irritant, from
the plastic gloves, this collected from the keyboards, mouse,
and desk, had this caused the skin eruption on the penis that I
had handled with the gloves?
later that day the penis sores had closed, the red areas were less. I worked until 4PM and saw Sarah as arranged at 5PM. I discussed the whole issue with Sarah in front of Mick her step father, Sarah insisted that she had not had any other lovers apart from me. I believed her, this made me happy. Sarah was on a period, but wanted sex, I was sexually aroused by her now, and made love to Sarah with a condom on.
Unfortunately, the way I let Sarah make love to me to give her the maximum satisfaction, after about an hour my penis gets a little soft, and unfortunately the condom came off. We both washed immediately, and with great difficulty forcing my fingers as hard as I could in to Sarah's vagina, I could just reach the condom: and I was able to remove it. Sarah was very relieved in that the condom did not have to be surgically removed.
Saturday 23RD February 2008.
I obtained Sarah's medication for her at 9AM and gave it to her,
this was futile, she did not take her medication, later in the
day, she was intoxicated, and she was concerned to take the
medication. I was annoyed at this. Getting the med's for her
made me late for work, and created other problems for me this
morning, she does appear to be a no hoper.
I apologised to Sarah for asking the question again, I asked her whether she had been with any other person for sex: she said no. The sores are still closed. Before I started work today I washed my keyboards mouse and desk with white spirit, and then dried the cleaned areas. By the end of the day my hands are not so sticky, and there is very little sheen. There has also been less face irritation where I touch my face, and a lot less body irritation. I have arranged to see Sarah tonight.
Sunday 24TH February 2008.
At 8:20 Am I walked from Sarah's flat to the bus stop near the
junction of Mallard way and Hawthorn Drive, to go to the
Portman Road Boot sale, I go to this sale regularly on a Sunday
morning. Two female children and two male children approached
and went in to a house near by. I looked, I thought unusual,
children this time of the morning, on a Sunday morning, was
it a test?
On the bus there were two children sitting behind the drivers seat, I ignored these children. A woman standing near by said perfect. When I stood up to get off the bus at Portman Road, the children were in front of me, I looked down as usual, not at the children, the woman said yes. As I got off the bus, there was a long haired child in front of me with parents, I quickly walked past the trio. There was no sexual interest.
At the boot sale I felt there was a lot of tests with children, mostly pink clad. I failed one test with an 8? year old pink clad child. A woman near by said about time too. I came home and worked until midday then I went up to view my loft to see if a person had left evidence of crawling across my loft to gain access to my house some how? I am only aware of one loft entry hatch, was there another? There was no sign of a person crawling across the dirty six inch layer of glass wool. The chimney stack is very large and mostly blocks access from my neighbour Pat's.
At 1-40PM I cycled through the docks to go to Sarah's as arranged. Always tests there, I felt it was the police this day. There was a trio of red clad people approaching. I psychologically blanked these people. There were 3 back facing men further on, I very briefly glanced at the men, was it a test? I heard a man amongst the group of red clad people say yes. There was a very slight sexual interest in the black clad backs.
My main sexual interests in the colours red blue and green, are usually for individuals, nearly all female, I still have a sexual interest in black clad young women, a lot more than young men, however, I hide most of my interests as much as I can, and I am now concentrating on white clad women and trying to blank out pink, particularly pink clad children. The adapted sexual interest towards children, I feel is permanent because of the induced adult abuse to me of the last 11 years. As stated on numerous occasions, I do not want to sexually assault or hurt children.
I went to see Sarah at her flat as arranged at 2PM for lunch, the food that I had prior supplied. Sarah was not there. I was hungry so I went to the Hawthorn Drive shops and bought a snack bar and some fruit. I ate this on a seat at the shops. I was photographed there. I returned to Sarah's flat, 2-20PM, she was still not there, I decided to return home to work.
As I approached Gippeswyk park on Gippeswyk Road there was an adult football team there and there was also a couple of black clad people in a walk way to the right as I came round the bend. I briefly looked at the people, I did not realise this walk way was there. I looked away from the football team and looked at a green area of the park. As I approached the team a man walked across the road in front of me and put his hand up to people behind me: and then climbed over the fence in front of me near the football team.
When I returned home, my neighbour Pat was outside a neighbours house. She was red clad, we talked for a while, she made reference to an Ipswich organisation called the Breathe Easy Club. Had Pat knowledge of the publication of part 10 the previous part of this book Wednesday last, and was re:assuring me? This indicates as to how I now try to analyse everything.
I cannot now behave in such a manner that was normal for me in 1996. In 1996, I might have stopped for a few minutes to look at the football team, I looked away from the football team because I thought any person watching me, as there always appears to be, would interpret this as sexual interest. This proves that accurate sexual testing cannot produce accurate results in many test situations where the victim is aware of observation.
Monday 25TH February 2008.
I went to the sexual health clinic at Ipswich Hospital. I saw
Dr. M King. She stated that scaly skin is usually an indication
of thrush: that I had got from Sarah. The staff took a urethral
test, urine sample test, and blood test, for serious disease
analyses. I wrote and thanked DR. King for her and her staffs
professionalism re: 0825.TXT .
The letter 0823.TXT pasted below, I took to the hospital, DR. M King read all of the letter before she offered advice and blood and urine samples were taken for tests.
A.W.JOHNS.
34 BISHOPS HILL,
IPSWICH.
SUFFOLK.
IP38EN.
Girlfriend,
Miss Sarah XXXXXXXXXX
XX XXXXXXXXXX
Ipswich.
Suffolk.
IP2 9LY
TO, THE SEXUAL HEALTH CLINIC,
HEATH ROAD HOSPITAL.
IPSWICH. SUFFOLK.
DATED 24 02 2008
REF \08\0823.TXT
YOUR REF.EE2643
T 01473 281769
Dear Sirs,
I have many enemies, many people would like to see me dead, I
write and publish very controversial books on the internet
that upset very many people. I am by-polar, however, in my
assessment, I am currently in very good mental health, and
this self assessment has been very accurate for 20 years.
It is unlikely with modern forensic science analyses that I would
be killed by violence linked to political or religious parties.
However, I am paranoid about being poisoned. This being in many
cases more difficult to detect, particularly, if one is left with
conditions that could cause fast spreading cancers, or internal
damage: dramatically shortening ones life: some time after the
poison is introduced.
Since Wednesday the 6th of February this year I have been
concerned about the possibility of a toxic substance entering my
person orally or via my skin. There has been many unusual
symptoms. Since Saturday the 16th of February, when I made love
to my girlfriend, there has been further unusual symptoms.
Symptomatic of a serious intestinal or urinary tract infection.
My girlfriend insists she has not had any other lovers since last
August: and she was sexually tested, this prompted by her carers,
I believe, last September.
Timeline.
From 01 12 07, a few very small itchy spots on body.
From the 6th Feb, to 24th Feb, regards poisoning.
6th. My lips and hands were sticky, my fingers were bright red,
mouth very dry I am very thirsty.
Sunday 10th. Since Wednesday, my hands have been red and sticky,
slight headache tummy ache and lower muscles ache, difficulty in
urinating, not much flow. I could have been injured when I fell
off off my bike on the 6th.
Tuesday 12TH. During the morning I had slight stomach ache,
sticky fingers, fingers were extra sticky after 5 hours typing
with my fingerless woolly gloves on. Still sticky after lunch
and washing my hands at 1.30PM.
I have had muscle pains and pain this day from small red spots
that have appeared on my body. My face irritates after I touch
it, I scratch the small red spots.
Saturday 16TH Made love to Sarah, we are not getting on well
at the moment, I forgot to wash after sex, I usually wash in a
salt solution.
Tuesday 19TH At 4PM, my penis was itchy, I then realised that I
had not bathed since the 16TH, and I had not washed after sex on
the 16TH. I had a bath. I noticed the hot water brought out red
blotches on my skin, and there were a lot of red spots on my
body. The red blotches showed up more on the skin areas that had
been damaged over the years by sunlight.
I had recently changed my fruit diet, now introducing the
consumption of three bananas a day. Prior to this I had only
consumed apples for years. Was the skin problem caused by a change
of diet? Was this a bacterial problem from Sarah? Was this the
effect of a toxin, a poison? I saw Sarah later in the evening. My
skin irritated, I kept scratching. I also noticed spots that were
identical to gnat bites,
Note. I now bath every 3 days to keep down costs, I am not
overweight, I hardly ever sweat, I never have bacterial problems,
so I never smell. Sarah at times suffers from thrush, and alcohol
abuse would also affect the correct flushing of her body: and
allow the build up of urethral and vaginal bacteria. Could this
be the problem?
Wednesday 20TH I pondered as to what the skin problems could
be? I had a bath in sea salt, using a whole pack of sea salt,(500
Grams), this a natural antibiotic. The next day the skin eruptions
had gone.
Thursday 21St February 2008.
The skin eruptions had cleared up, when I had a bath the red skin
blotches did not appear and most of the spots had gone including
the gnat bit type spots. I flannel washed my penis in a solution
of salt the evening before and this morning. In the afternoon my
skin seemed scaly, flaky, particularly on the penis.
After using the computers, keyboards, mice, and obviously touching
the desks, my hands were red and sticky, but most noticeable was
where the wrist on the hand that I use the most for the mouse and
keyboard irritated: and the wrist was very shiny, a sheen was
over the wrist. I do not polish the desks or computer parts.
Friday 22ND February 2008
I wore builders protective gloves on my hands when I used my
computers. At the end of the day my skin was not so sticky, and
not so shiny with less irritation. This afternoon there was a
clear discharge from two sore areas on the opposite sides of the
penis near the head, this irritated. I washed the penis with a
salt solution. I considered, had a chemical, an irritant, from
the plastic gloves, this collected from the keyboards, mouse,
and desk, had this caused the skin eruption on the penis that I
had handled with the gloves?
Later that day the penis sores had closed, the red areas were
less. I worked until 4PM and saw Sarah as arranged at 5PM. I
discussed the whole issue with Sarah in front of Mick her step
father, Sarah insisted that she had not had any other lovers
apart from me. I believed her, this made me happy. Sarah was
on a period, but wanted sex, I was sexually aroused by her now
and made love to Sarah with a condom on.
Saturday 23RD February 2008.
I apologised to Sarah for asking the question again, I asked her
whether she had been with any other person for sex: she said
no. The sores are still closed.
Saturday 24th February 2008.
Penis head pain, stings, stomach ache firm lower abdomen.
Bathed and washed twice this day in salt solution.
ABNORMALITIES AS FROM FEBRUARY 6TH.
Sticky sore hands, irritation where I touch my skin. skin seems
more sensitive to irritation if rubbed by me. Upper stomach ache
and pain after a meal. Lower stomach ache after a couple of hours
after a meal. Sometimes the pain seems to be a burning sensation.
are stomach intestines swollen, inflamed?
At times, finger pads very red, like a burn. skin shined as
though there was a film on the skin on the body, but more
noticeable on the hands. Lips very sticky, but not when I awake.
Cannot now slide in the bath as I used to when I wash my hair.
The skin now grips the bath. Hair now greasy, I am using the same
shampoo.
Press on skin with fingers, the skin irritates. There are at
times little pin pricks type pains on body, face, penis. Penis
head gives pain just before getting up out of a chair to go to
the toilet to urinate.
Unusual sex practise. Could this be the lower body problem?
My girlfriend is a nymphomaniac, I let her ride me on top of me,
with my penis at right angles to my body, she does this
vigorously until she is exhausted. Sometimes for two hours,
recently, one hour.
I thank you,
I am,
Yours Sincerely,
Tony Johns.
Notes.
I have been very mentally negated since the 6TH and as always:
infinite detail of memory for event is now coming back. There
are many symptoms the same as last year, these symptoms are
now added.
1. 6TH February. Mouth dry, very thirsty.
2. 23RD February. Small scratches on my hands and a red mark in the centre of my right hand small finger pad, very small, ( can only just be seen ), these injuries seem to be taking much longer to heal.
3. 27 February. Lower stomach hard, intestines swelled? seems worse in the early to late evening for the last 7 days. Is this the effect of a daily exposure to a toxic substance?
4. Skin dry for the last couple of weeks, confirmed by an NHS nurse, and a NHS Doctor. Sweat glands have not appeared to be working properly, I have not sweat-ed properly all over my body, however, this now appears to be returning to normal. Eczema now appeared: and confirmed by NHS nurse. Small red finger injury, not healing normally, seen by NHS Doctor.
5. Slight burn marks on fingers and hands after using computers, since the 6TH.
6 Could a contaminant be added to my bike handlebars every day: that would slowly seep through my wool gloves.
7. My girlfriend witnessed the blotches and penis discharges Friday last, and small red finger spot since the 6TH.
8. The clear discharges from sides of penis, as you would expect from a burn, a coloured discharge would probably be a bacterial problem.
9. 11-03-08. Skin very soft on fingers, If I lightly press a fingernail in to the finger pad skin it dents for a long time and easily marks or bruises, this has been apparent for a few weeks.
10. 11-03-08. Checked on the internet, skin blotches and wax / fat coming through skin, large intestine problems. These are all synonymous with heavy toxin / poison: input to a person.
Note.
Some of the symptoms above, nerve twitching in neck, and toe
twitching, pin pricks all over body, sweating wax, are
synonymous with pesticide poisoning, Please refer to the link
below, a University of Nebraska publication, and the excerpt
from this site link pasted below it.
Organochlorine Insecticides..
The U. S. Environmental Protection Agency has sharply curtailed the availability of many organochlorines because they are not readily biodegradable and persist in the environment. These materials affect the nervous system as stimulants or convulsants. Two organochlorine insecticides, lindane and methoxychlor, still have limited use.
Nausea and vomiting commonly occur soon after ingesting organochlorines. Other early signs and symptoms include: apprehension, excitability, dizziness, headache, disorientation, weakness, a tingling or pricking sensation on the skin, and muscle twitching. This is followed by loss of coordination, convulsions similar to epileptic seizures, and unconsciousness. When chemicals are absorbed through the skin, apprehension, twitching, tremors, confusion, and convulsions may be the first symptoms.
No specific antidotes are available for organochlorine poisoning. Remove contaminated clothing immediately, and then bathe and shampoo the person vigorously with soap and water to remove pesticide from the skin and hair. Persons assisting a victim should wear chemical resistant gloves and be careful to avoid becoming contaminated by the pesticide. If the pesticide has been ingested, empty the stomach as soon as possible by giving the conscious patient ipecac and water or by inserting a finger into the throat. Caution: Inhaling vomitus can be life- threatening. Timely emergency treatment is vital to survival.
Notes Continued.
Regards the above, I exhibited many symptoms of poisoning by
pesticide or insecticide ingestion or contact, If this was so,
many people would know about this. The truth will come out!
Unfortunately I had inhaled Natural Gas in my house for three
weeks: there could be long term effects from this.
Monday. 25TH February 2008 - Continued.
I could not urinate at the sexual health clinic, so I asked
for water, and said that I would go to the local shop and return,
I bought a litre of lemonade, and drank half of it. I returned
later to urinate at the hospital. In the afternoon my penis was
very red around the urine exit, I considered perhaps the lemonade
had made my urine very strong: and this had burnt the skin near
the exit.
Tuesday. 26TH February 2008.
I went in to Ipswich to pay a bill, as I passed Sainsbury's in
Upper Brook Street two red clad Wilkinson's girls came out of
Sainsbury's and walked beside me to the adjacent Wilkinson's
shop, there has been a lot of testing also in Wilkinson's. I
thought another bloody silly test, I ignored this pair, and
held my nose as I passed them.
I passed a shop with bright yellow attire on a woman's manakin. I was attracted to this, this has not happened before. It seems that different bright colours that I have been attracted to recently, but only on different genders, some children and adults, only of a particular age shape or build, usually a single person: that I feel is not a test. Is this my abused brain searching for any image that is new for stability?
I called at Mr. Patel's Newsagents shop in Fore Street to collect my magazines on my return journey from the centre of Ipswich. His daughter was pink clad, surprise, surprise, always a test in this shop. I ignored her.
Wednesday. 27TH February 2008.
I used my computers between 8AM and 12Noon, my finger pads had
slight burns, or so I thought. The skin seemed very dry on my
hands, and my skin irritated on my hands and as usual lately,
where I touched my face. I had called in to Jessop's camera shop
the day before to see if they had an image intensifier,
( Microscope ), that could magnify the very small spot on my
finger that has been there for three weeks, and capture this
image to a digital format. I wanted to inspect and record the
image in detail. Jessop's said, Ipswich Hospital was probably
the only such place to get such an image.
I went to Ipswich Hospital in the afternoon, this was a no brainer. I went to the Accident And Emergency centre, I saw a nurse, I outlined the details for my visit, and the details on this site. And that I had assaulted the leader of Ipswich Borough Council over a public safety issue, and that I did not want to see any person from St. Clements Mental Hospital.
I had been stitched up there as psychotic, my psychiatrist was in Essex. Essex NHS Mental health services was better than St. Clements. I said that I had no faith in St. Clements. I unfortunately did not mention that this violence incident was 11 years ago, no violence since. The nurse took me through to the A&E assessment area, and wanted me to wait in a small room. I would not wait in a small room: that I felt could be locked, I waited to see a doctor in a public area, A&E reception.
I heard the nurse shout, 'he's violent', get security down here. I saw a Dr. Emily, female aged 25-30, probably the latter: it takes a long time to qualify such status. We where in a cubicle, security guards were called and stood the other side of a curtain. I was very paranoid and concerned being in the hospital, particularly: when I outlined the reason for my visit. Two doctors and a social worker could easily see me detained in St. Clements mental hospital: just where the principles of this town want to get me.
Dr. Emily stated that I was very hyped, I told DR. Emily that I did not want to see any person from St. Clements, all I wanted was an intensified image of the small red wound that had been on my right hand little finger. this wound witnessed by my girlfriend for two weeks: and this wound had not healed. Dr. Emily examined my hands, she could see the very small red spot, she stated that my hands were very dry, unfortunately, the minor skin burns had gone by now, and could not be seen by either of us.
Dr. Emily asked if I had thoughts of self harm? I said no, and stated that I did not want to harm others, and that I am the correct weight for my height. I am in good physical health. Dr. Emily stated that to her knowledge there was no such image intensifier in the hospital, she was unaware as to where I could get this work done.
Dr. Emily stated she wanted a second opinion from another doctor, I said yes, and then thought about it more, I felt the second opinion was for my mental health, I could soon be in St. Clements. I spoke to DR. Emily and said that I had changed my mind, she could not legally detain me: and I left, and I took a deep breath in the fresh air outside, the paranoia and hype immediately went, I returned home a lot happier.
Dr. Emily and the staff were friendly, professional, unfortunately there is violence from attendees that go to A&E, I appreciate the doctors and nurses concern, I have no cause for complaint.
Note.
I have no faith in the St. Clements, mental hospital. The links
between the hierarchy of this hospital to Ipswich Borough Council
and the political coercion is a problem for me: as already
highlighted in the books published on this site. Also, St.
Clements a few years ago mismanaged their funds, and 3 million
pounds that could have helped improve mental health in this area:
was clawed back by the government.
There has always been problems at this hospital, with lack of care, causing high suicide rate. My sudden discharge from this hospital, as highlighted in my books, was quite devastating for me. A recent publication pertinent to this matter can be found on the link below.
Recent: St. ClementsMy mental stability anti-psychotic is an old drug, this now very dated drug is being replaced by newer drugs. It is always trial and error with a new drug, every persons genetic make up is different. All people experience different side effects from prescribed drugs. I was asked by a psychiatrist in 2003 to try a new drug risperadone, also known as risperdal. The side effects for me were dizziness, loss of balance, I kept colliding with furniture and walls, on many occasions I nearly fell over, and as I laid down in the bath, the room appeared to rotate. My girlfriend has tried risperadone, the drug made her so dizzy she fell over injuring her knees. I am very reluctant to change my drugs if they work.
Thursday 28TH February 2008.
Stomach very tight at end of day, my girlfriend agreed this, we
agreed that the stress recently could have caused Irritable
Bowel Syndrome, IBS.I Had a bath, skin extra red, particularly
on shoe contact areas. Skin on back did not easily slide along
the bottom of the bath, unusual. Stomach ache yesterday and
today after eating apples, unusual. Started wearing protective
polythene gloves daily n the house, to provide protection, if
there is a chemical on the keyboards?
Friday February 29TH 2008.
9AM. Small pile bleed, constipated at start of stool, and then
stool very soft, Could be IBS. 11AM Slight stomach sickness,
slightly dizzy night before and today, this could be overwork,
currently working 10 hour days, and very stressed. Skin itches
when pressure is applied to the skin, or heated slightly.
Hands better, stomach ache less.
Saturday 1ST March 2008.
Lips not so sticky, hands shiny, and very sticky when I remove
plastic gloves twice daily, the gloves are replaced with new
ones, every few hours. Skin itches if I apply pressure to it,
when pulling trousers up. Tummy pains deep, and near the tummy
surface.
Sunday 2ND March 2008.
At the boot sale, I turned slightly, is it a test syndrome?,
to look at a boy 5? bending over. The man on the stall said,
' he really is a perv'. This upset me a bit. My Granddaughters
birthday, she is 15. I went to see her, her mother was polite.
My Grandson was not very friendly, my Granddaughter was pleased
with her card and cash present, My Granddaughter appeared Gothic,
she said she had got Gothic angels as one of her presents, she
was pleased with this. I was a bit concerned about this.
I went down Bishops Hill, from memory, lunchtime, A group of three girls approached me in Fore Hamlet, One girl was pink clad, I knew it was a test, I ignored them. On the other side of the road, a girl, thin, 14? black clad, appeared from behind a van, I looked, she was looking at me, a man nearby held his hand up. The man went in to the house 25 or 27 Fore Hamlet, there are often tests from this house.
Stomach very tight at 7PM, I went to the Minor Injuries Unit Riverside Clinic 2 Landseer Road, Ipswich, IP3 0AZ With Sarah My girlfriend I wanted my stomach checked. I went with Sarah as a witness to agree that I only talked about my stomach, I was paranoid that a doctor would stitch me up regards my mental state, however, I did not think that this centre was computer linked to Ipswich hospital. This unit was very busy, there was a long wait, so we did not stay.
Monday 3RD March 2008.
No observable tests this day. I handled my penis with gloves
after 4 hours computer work, this left red areas, after an hour.
at 8-30PM stomach still tight, Tummy tight at the end of the day.
IBS? poison? swelled intestines? stomach is alright usually in the
mornings.
I removed plastic gloves after 2 and 3 hour work sessions, hands very shiny and sticky on both occasions. no asthma this day, I did not need to use asthma inhalers this day, no phlegm generated, this has only happened twice in the last 30 years.
Tuesday 4TH March 2008.
I worked all day, Sarah came to see me at 5:30 pm, I had just had
a bath and this had got rid of the stress. We had a good evening,
and Sarah stayed overnight.
Wednesday 5TH March 2008.
At Chantry Post Office, I had gloves on, It was hot, I took them
off, my hands has sweat-ed, the emission was very sticky, Sarah
felt my hands and agreed: that my hands were very sticky.
I took Sarah to an NHS clinic on Hawthorn Drive to have a tooth
extracted, I was stressed, I felt the clinic would be full of
tests with babies and young children I expected to be stitched
up.
I had a slight panic attack as we entered the clinic. I read some books and ignored all the usual rituals, I could hear people saying things to their children like, pull your pants up, time to get undressed, pink looks nice on her etc, I ignored all this silliness. A 13? year old child, approached me, for a moment I thought it was my granddaughter, I looked, there another test with this 13 year old girl as we left. There was very little sexual attraction.
Was I stitched up? I heard plenty of people say yes, and some say no. I felt the dentists receptionist stitched me up saying that I looked at the dentists bottom. Did the dentist stitch me up? Do not know. The dentist was concerned to do the work, and referred Sarah for hospital treatment. Prior arrangements had been made on my phone, they knew where I was going. When we arrived, Sarah witnessed a man approaching me holding his nose.
Thursday 6TH March 2008.
I went to Rosehill Coop at 6PM, I was photographed by a police
officer. I went and saw Sarah later at the bus station it was
very quiet, I wondered where the psychologists were. I looked
at the back of a girls head, then another girl, then a girl in
high heels, this brought them out from hiding, some boys walked
abut holding up their hands. On the bus a boy 16? sat near
and opposite me, he stuck his foot out, Was it a test? my
inquisitiveness always gets the better of me, after a while I
briefly looked at his foot.
He then got so exited he then jiggled around in his seat, I
ignored all this, he asked me the time? I said that I did not
have a watch, he then called me a wanker, I was amused by this.
The boy left the bus at the stop where I got off, he seemed
in a hurry to get home to phone people with info: to collect his
brownie point? At Sarah's when I took my socks off, they were
very shiny, greasy, wax where I had sweat-ed, I showed Sarah the
socks, she agreed this was very unusual, my feet were blackened
very sticky in places, very dirty, unusual. At first I thought
my toes were gangrenous. I had only bathed two days before,
Sarah witnessed this, Sarah and I had a good night.
Friday 7TH March 2008.
8. AM. I had a bath, my hair was greasy, I could not easily slide
in the bath, this is unusual. I left Sarah's flat at 9-15AM. On
the bus there was the usual stitch up with children, I heard yes
a lot as the children passed me, and, 'he's a pervert', I had not
looked at the children. This did not bother me. As I passed
Sainsbury's shop in Upper Brook Street, there was abuse from
the College idiots outside, I gave them a wanker gesture, I
should not have done this. Wind was easily trapped in my stomach
today causing pain. Stomach swollen.
1:15PM I left to go to my sisters in Norwich. When I entered Ipswich Rail station, I bent down in the queue to see the clock that was hidden behind a steel shutter. I had to look up at the clock bending over. I man said perv and walked off. If these people had a brain: they might occasionally get it right. As I cycled through Norwich to my sisters, two people put their hands up as I passed them, one person was a woman with a push chair, I did not look at anybody.
At my sisters over the weekend, every time I looked at her she said yes, this must have happened 30 times. Often she bent over in front of me, I looked down to the ground, when I looked up she said yes. I went to Asda on Sunday morning, at the check out there was a black clad boy 9? dancing about. I as always ignored this silliness. The check out woman held her nose as I left. There were a few more tests with children as I left the store, I was not annoyed by this, there was no sexual interest in my sister or the children. I was also not annoyed by my sisters behaviour.
2PM. At Norwich station, for my return a black clad man opened the train door for me: then walked off, presumably he was glad to see me return to Ipswich. On the train there was the usual silliness with children. No sexual interest, I returned home. As I approached Jack Whites Music shop 92 Fore Hamlet at the bottom of Bishops Hill, I cold see some people looking in the shop window. I could see there was dog at the heel of one of the people looking in the window.
I scrutinised the dog as I approached, a viscous dog can force a person cycling along a path to go in to the road in to the oncoming traffic. When I got very near the people I could see that the dog was not viscous, I looked up to make sure that I avoided the people, surprise, surprise, the nearest person was a girl aged 14? with a pony tail, the spotter was walking towards us, this annoyed me. At 5PM I went to see Sarah, we made love, My penis was very red all over where pressure had been applied to it in Sarah's vagina.
Monday 10TH March 2008.
I made love to Sarah twice, My penis was brilliant red all over
this time. I returned home. It had stopped raining, the sun came
out, I passed two men walking together, one of the men said it is
definitely drying up, I wondered if he was referring to me, was
the toxin now drying me up? My skin is drying up. I went and saw
Pat my neighbour to see how her kitchen refurb was going. She
asked if I was allright twice? I said that I was fine. I worked
all day,
I researched poisons on the internet, I read that skin rashes are common with toxins being pushed out through the skin and fat / wax discharge from pores are common with heavy toxin pollution. Not so much stomach pain and fat coming throughthe pores today. Stomach still very swelled. My bladder seems restricted today with lower stomach swelling. My skin still goes red when pressure is applied to it.
Tuesday 11 March 2008.
Red injury on right hand smallest finger, a little spot, still
has not healed. I have not worn protective gloves today, the
first time I have not worn protective gloves for over a week. My
fingers are sticky, particularly after handling the telephone.
I may be wrong, I have drunk my normal amount of tea, however,
I do not seem to be urinating, directly after drinking, as I have
done lately. My lower stomach is still swollen.
After six hours typing without gloves, my fingers now irritate just above the finger pads: the same as before I started wearing the gloves. at lunch time, after washing my hands, the finger pads felt sticky again. After lunch, I started wearing gloves again when working. I cannot go to the Doctors, or the hospital without proof of poisoning, otherwise, I feel that I will be referred to the local mental hospital.
I worked 11 hours today, with only a few small breaks. I felt very stressed, The weekend at my sisters had not really been relaxing and positive, there was a negative event, a return communication from her that was very negative. I decided to take a blood pressure reading at 5PM, this was not very good.
Tue 11 03 08 5pm Sys 186 Dia 107 - P 101
I was concerned at these readings, particularly the pulse at 101 beats per minute. I went to see Sarah, we had a relaxing night, all the figures had dropped by the end of the night
Wednesday 12 March 2008.
I had stayed at Sarah's overnight, I had a bath when I got up,
I stayed for a while with Sarah, I was relaxed. I took a further
blood pressure reading at 8:30AM. The readings are below.
Wed 12 03 08 8:30AM Sys 144 Dia 90 - P 92.
I felt a bit dizzy this morning, my head feels tight, slight pains in temple and top of head, and my face aches. This for me is indicative of stress. After 2 hours work at 12PM. I took another blood pressure reading.
Wed 12 03 08 12PM Sys 168 Dia 98 - P 66.
I was glad the pulse rate was normal before a meal
I had discussed with Sarah earlier in the morning, all the symptoms of poisoning that had happened since I had been subjected to a poison on the 5TH or 6TH of February that looks as though it could be an Organochlorine Insecticide. The effects are listed below. The paragraph below relates to a test that happened today.
We washed our hands with the same amount of soap and rinsed off the soap and dried them. Five minutes later we immersed our hands in hot water for a few minutes. We then took our hands out of this hot water and I asked Sarah to run her finger pad along the inside of her index finger to feel the resistance, and then repeat this action running her finger along the underside of my index finger. Sarah agreed that her finger pad easily slipped over her skin but not over my skin. This to me indicated high wax emission from my skin
I told Sarah around the sixth day of February that I felt pin pricks all over my body. After making love I stated that I was not sweating.
Sarah agrees that I have lost weight, since the 6TH February. My shoulder bones are now exposed, and some of my upper stomach fat has gone.
Sarah has witnessed a very small red spot on my right hand little finger, that could be a very small wound: that has not healed for four weeks, but now appears to be finally healing.
I have told Sarah for a month or more of my stomach ache, my lower stomach is swollen, very hard, is this large intestine swelling?
A few days ago, with an interval of washing my feet in the bath of 48 hours, my feet were black on the toes, I had not been gardening or in excessive dirt for months. This black fat or wax reluctantly washed off.
I now cannot now easily slide down a bath, there seems to be resistance, as much as you would expect from a wax emission along my back and bottom.
Sarah witnessed red blotches on skin on Friday 8TH February, these blotches appeared the previous day, I also told Sarah that my hands and lips were sticky this week.
My weight over the last 2 months.
13 01 08 - - 10 Stone -- 2 Pounds.
23 02 08 - - 09 Stone -- 6 Pounds
12 03 08 - - 09 Stone -- 10 Pounds.
Regards my girlfriend Sarah,
I have used a lot of psychological analyses, and effective
analyses of erogenous zones. Very effectively used by me with the
psychology of finding out the words and mixture of words that
excite Sarah whilst climaxing. This gives her a level of
multi-orgasmic sex far above any level that she had previously
achieved before the start of this year, 2008. I enjoy satisfying
Sarah, and watching her enjoying my body at this new level.
Sarah now gets to trance in this mode and can orgasm at extremely high level at 40 to 60 times per hour. Sarah was frightened at first of achieving this level of orgasm: that she had never experienced, so we gradually worked up to it. Now Sarah is used to this level she wants a lot of sex from me. I have awoken a sleeping giant, Sarah is 33, I am 62, and I let Sarah do most of the work in our sex sessions: because of my age. As of 14-03-08 we are now very close, and we both love each other very much.
This next part updated 26-04-08 looks at the continuation of tests between 24-03-08 and 26-04-08. After the last publication of the home page and parts 10-11 in mid March most of the testing has stopped. However, there has been abuse. I am very concerned at being attacked in Ipswich.
The police today are highly intelligent individuals, however, there is always the odd one that is crass. In this part you will see how I mostly ignore tests unless I am concerned for my welfare. This crass police officer is always on my case.
Monday 24Th March 2008.
I went to Asda with Sarah. As we walked through the tinned
vegetable area, there was a black clad boy curled up on a
bottom shelf amongst the groceries, I looked, it was so
unusual. The spotters standing near by said yes. What a stupid
test, any caring person would look at such a child to see if the
child was OK. These sort of tests set up by amateurs, the general
public, are a concern: particularly if people are being abused or
assaulted on the assessment of such pathetic testing.
Wednesday 26Th March 2008.
As I cycled through the docks there was a man bent over out of
the side of a van, this is not unusual, always tests here. I
took no notice, no sexual interest. However, when I got level
with the van,this van was unusual for tests, I turned my head
towards the van to see it was a British Telecom van. A BT van
has not been used in tests before. When I turned my head a man
in the distance outside the old customs house put his hand up,
this was not a surprise, always tests there.
Monday 31st March 2008.
I was walking in town in an area where there were not many
people. A tall man walked towards me with his partner, and a 3?
year old pink clad female child holding the mans hand nearest to
me. I thought, here we go test, I did not look. There was no
sexual interest. As the Trio passed me the little girl said,
"Daddy that man just winked at me", I laughed all the way home,
although I was also annoyed. Nice One. I of course did not wink
at the child, more police stupidity.
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