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Copyright (C) Anthony William Johns. Years 2002 To 2007.
34 Bishops Hill. Ipswich. Suffolk. IP3 8EN.
Link: Sexual interests in adult pony tails to sexual
interest in children's pony tails.
Monday. 22nd December 2003.
This test was un-recorded, may not be this day, however,
it was about this time, as I walked to the paper shop along
Wellesley Road, There was a child aged 12 ? standing profile on
the edge of the path displaying a pony tail hair style. I walked
towards her taking no notice of her or the spotters.
There was no aroused sexual interest.
Thursday. 1st January. 2004. 4PM,
I was at Dianne's, I had spent the day there. At
4PM Dianne stated would I go and get some sugar, I expected tests,
signals can be easily sent from a mobile phone, I would not be
aware of this. As I left the house, I passed a figure coming out
of a house, I did not look, I voice said " hello Tony, It was
Paul Friatt, the builder, I replied, I said hello. I walked on
crossing the road to the paper shop. As I approached the shop
there were three children, girls, two with pony tails, aged 10 ?
8? 10 ? that I passed. These girls followed me in to the coop
shop, there was no display of sexual interest in these girls,
there was no sexual arousal interest for these children.
Sunday. 4th January. 2004.
There were two tests at Dianne's, she brushed
her face and mouth, I looked away, such activity: I define as a
tease, looking away, stops the incrementing of any sexual
interest.
Thursday. 8th January. 2004.
Went skating with, Martin, Chris, Kirsty. This was not
a good night. The manager Paul and under manager Jamie, The test
was: would I look at a 13 ? 15? year old child as she came
towards me ? The child had a good figure and a low cut top
displaying good cleavage and nice shape breasts. The child
could have easily been a young woman.
A 2003 Scientific Reference
New Scientist 24Th May 2003 Page 44. Why older men are attracted
to young woman. Why young woman are attracted to older men. It is
taboo to have sex with such a child for reasons as explained in
my book The Cess Pool And The Secret Armies. However, this does
not stop the sexual attraction of looking at such a child. I
looked at this girl for about a second as she came towards me.
I certainly wish that I was aged 15 and was the psychological
profile that this girl was looking for.
Martin and Chris set up test after test with single skaters entering in succession on the rink to see if had interest. This went on for much of the evening, there was a group of about eight people interested in this saga, Alan, Steve, Kirsty, Tony, Jo, her sister, and a few others, this completely spoilt my evening making me unhappy. I felt Martin was the ringleader in this activity, it fits his peer profile, This made me psychopathic on Friday 9th and Saturday the 10th fantasising for about five hours of killing Martin with a crow bar as he walked up his mothers, ( my neighbours ), garden.
The above shows the poor mental state that can easily be induced by the harassment of continuous realised sexual psychological profiling. I lost about three hours productive work Friday and Saturday because of induced poor mental state.
Saturday. 10th January. 2004.
I went to the library, there was a black
clad bottoms test near the library, I ignored this, there was
a test on the return journey with three pubescent children
in Fore St. I looked at the girl whose back was facing me,
particularly her hair style, it was blond curly, neat near
the middle, and the exterior, but scruffy near the cranium:
I thought that this was unusual. Jail Bait, nice figure.
Social Services, Vigilante.
Sunday. 11th January. 2004.
Went Swimming at Colchester with Lynton.
I felt that there was a test there with a girl aged 10 ?
with a two piece grey costume, she kept coming near me. I
looked at her once in the face to see her reaction, she did
not come near me any more. I felt that there were tests with
black swimming costumed boys, I had no sexual interest in
these boys, I displayed no interest.
I felt there was a test as I walked past the seated viewing area, there was a woman standing, I felt she was a psychology profiler, I ignored her, and I ignored the black clad man with his back to me standing near by.
I felt there was a test with a family as we were sitting in the refectory area, I took no notice, as we were leaving the refectory there was a seated ethnic woman with a man, I looked at the man as I passed. As we walked through the exit, we ran the gauntlet of three men and a woman standing facing us at the side, I briefly looked at all the men as we passed.
I look predominantly at men, I am concerned for violence, I am always ready for it, ready to defend myself. I look more at stocky men and tall men. Black cladding to me displayed by men: is synonymous with aggression.
Monday. 12th January. 2004.
I went for a hair cut, and then walked on to
Rosehill Coop, There was a test as I left the store, a male
with his back to me, the spotter looking over his shoulder, I
realised that this was a test after I had passed the couple,
I did not fail the test by looking at the back of the male.
At point I saw Pat my Neighbour, I spoke to Pat, I then left
the store, I did wonder later if Pat was part of the testing.
Monday. 12th January. 2004. 3-15PM.
Went over Holliwells park for a walk,
sat in the bowling green seated area for about ten minutes. As
I left the House to walk North towards the duck ponds, there
was a woman and a man standing on the path talking to each
other, the woman was facing me, the man was facing away. The
woman acquired my interest as I approached her, she was wearing
unusual black attire that I at first parried to a quakers
outfit, I considered: was this a modern version of such
attire. Police.
As I passed the couple I tried to see the outline of the much taller mans face, I could not see his face from such an angle. When I was 50 feet away from them I looked back, they were still there, at 100 feet they had gone. I have used the park in the afternoon quite often lately, the profilers will now be aware of it, I am a bit wary of using the park.
Another wasted day !!! I think ?
Link: Child To Adult. Sexual interest link.
Friday. 16th January. 2004. 9 AM.
Clifford Road School. There was a test in
Melville Road with a 7 ? year old female child in a car, the back
of her head was facing me, It was blond scruffy, similar to the
pubescent child in Fore ST. On Saturday 10TH. I took no notice,
there was no sexual interest. I felt that this was a comparative
test for the test in Fore ST.
Sunday. 18th January. 2004. 2PM.
I went swimming with Michelle at Colchester. I
did not feel there were any tests at the pool, Michelle and I
fooled about a lot, she is a very fun loving child, I was throwing
her over my head, pirouetting around with her in my arms, in the
smaller pool she often sat on my lap as we fooled about. She is
my real Surrogate Daughter, and I am her surrogate father, the
relationship is very good. One of the pool attendants kept looking
at us, she thought that our behaviour was odd, I ignored this.
I am very lucky to have such a relationship with my granddaughter. My granddaughter has no real father, he is not on the scene, I have no child daughter, my granddaughter is my surrogate daughter. The relationship is very special, we are very close: I love my granddaughter very much.
As we left the pool, drove up the access drive, there was a black clad woman sitting in a car on the left, the car had it's lights on. She was making a gun sign to her neck, at the same time there was a black clad man walking towards her car, he was holding his ear lobe, this annoyed me very much, I am not sexually interested in my granddaughter, we just love each other very much. I felt that this was the police. More Harassment ! Bunch of Wankers !
Friday. 23rd January. 2004. 8PM.
At Foxhall News, A 25 year old black clad
woman walked in to Foxhall news as I was leaving, she turned her
head displaying a black pony tail, she was quite good looking, I
looked at her face: and she brushed the side of her face.
Link: Sexual Link. Is there a link between the interest in
the colour black, and pony tails, in adults to children ?
Saturday 24th January. 2004. 5:30 PM.
I left my daughters, as I approached Foxhall
News walking down Wellesley on the opposite side to the shop,
I noticed two well dressed men on the opposite side of the road,
I saw these men out of the corner of my eye, I thought here we
go, test. Again out of the corner of my eye I saw a 10 ? year old
black child, with a white coat on: with a pony tail, walking
towards me, I took no notice of her, she passed in front of me,
she was as black as the ace of spades. There was no sexual
interest. This was a reciprocative test for the evening before.
Calculated guess ? police.
Sunday. 25th January. 2004. 5PM.
Rosehill Coop, as I left the store and approached
Felixtowe road, there was a slender black clad child with a pony
tail, aged about, 10 walking across my path. She got about 30
feet in front of me, she kept looking over her shoulder at me, I
felt that she was frightened of me, I was not happy with this so
I crossed the road to get away from her. This frightened aspect
was very disappointing. There was no sexual interest in this
child.
Friday. 30th January. 2004. 3.30 PM
At Clifford Road School, I went to collect my
granddaughter. As I was standing on the playground a pretty 9?
year old child walked towards me, I looked at her, when I
looked away I saw the spotter with his daughter as he stood up.
This annoyed me a bit, I was not sexually interested in the
child, she was just nice to look at. Nice Child !
Monday 2nd February. 2004.
In the mid Afternoon. Went to Fore ST. Post Office, as
I walked past the east window, I could see a person on the floor,
blond pony tail pointing towards me. I took no notice of this.
I eventually realised that the girl on the floor was Lisa.
Janet served me, My bag was on the floor near the window, lisa
took up a position near my bag, I had to put my head near her
bottom as I picked up my bag, I did not look at her bottom.
When I stood up we spoke, exchanged pleasantries, for about 5 seconds, Lisa stood profile, blond hair, pony tail. I was not sexually aroused by Lisa. I left the shop.
Tuesday 3rd February. 2004. 5PM
When I went to my eldest daughters, I felt that
there were tests there with my grandson, leaning over the table
as I walked in to the room, white top - black trousers, there
was no sexual interest. My daughter brushed her hair and put her
hands in the air, I felt that this was a test. I did not fail
any tests, there were no sexual interests. My assessment is
that my daughter tests me about once weekly with her personal
tests.
Thursday 5th February. 2004. 2:30PM.
I went to Asda shopping, I was very happy, saw
a good looking female aged 25 ? on route, nice arse, nice
pony tail. In the store, I very nicely dressed woman aged at
about 25 ? walked towards me with a push chair, there were two
children, again well dressed, in the push chair. The boy to
the right aged 1 was asleep, the girl to the left aged 2 ? may
have been asleep.
The girl had lovely light blond hair, and a very nice pony tail, I looked at the pair in the push chair, I thought nice hair, nice pony tail: I was not sexually interested in the children in any way, nice woman, nice kids. Shortly after this a black clad woman stood near me holding her ear lobe. I looked at the woman, I was not pleased, the woman with the children was in the distance looking at me, I looked at her and held my nose.
This upset me so much, that I left the store without putting my groceries in bags, I had to go back to get bags to package the goods. There was no indication of any other person, having knowledge of the incident, my analyses is that the black clad woman, was store security, she had spotted me on camera entering the store.
I was so angry, I nearly went in to a psychopathic rage, as I returned down Norwich Road to town, I wanted to mow down adults on the path, with such a heavy car I probably could have killed 20 people before I was shot, I very nearly did lose it at one point, I am glad that this did not happen. I was very annoyed for the rest of the afternoon.
With the adult corruption again for the last 12 months, I feel that this has incremented the need to look at children, young children under the age of 10, there is a slight sexual interest in this age group, this was not there a year ago. This sexual interest extends to about three per cent of such viewed children.
There is no question, in that I would never touch a child sexually in this age group, I never place my self deliberately near this age group, there is no sexual fantasy for this age group, there never has been. When I am relaxed, as I was in the Asda store today, I find well dressed good looking children very pleasant to look at. Although I was very psychopathic for half an hour, this tailed off in to depression the next day: and annoyance that these people will not let me enjoy my life.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 05 Points.
Days Affected. 1.5 days.
I felt there were links, blond pony tail Fore St. Daughter, Asda. Lisa and the fore ST. shop staff probably lied about their account of my actions there, I am not liked there, there is also a heavy IBC link. I went skating with Chris, Kirsty and her mate. In the car near Colchester Chris kept brushing his face, ears chin, I could see this out of the corner of my eye, this went on for about a minute, there was no sexual interest, I did not look at Chris, he sighed as he stopped doing this.
I ignored every person on the rink, I spoke only to a few friends, there were about three young sexy teenagers on the rink, I thought it would be prudent not to show any interest in these girls. There were some people up in the bar, I did think there could be a psychology interest. There were a few tests, I ignored these. The rink closes at 10PM.
At 9-30PM I was sitting in the corner of the ground floor seated area. I very tall black clad man aged about 30 walked past the skate serving counter towards me. There were not many people on the rink, I had not seen this man before, this was half an hour before closing, this was unusual. I watched him walk away from me. There was no sexual interest. Shortly after this a lot of tall male and female men and women, who I had not seen, started to skate. This was very unusual, I can never remember seeing a party arrive so late to skate.
Upon the return Journey, Chris stated the party of people were up in the bar. I had quite a fast skate all night, I enjoyed the night. In casual conversation with Lucy, ( Cafe Staff ), she was happy, she was getting a car. I asked her what sort of car was she getting ? she replied a yellow one, I loved that reply, " love you Lucy."
Saturday. 7th February. 2004. 2PM.
I went to the library, there was a black clad man
outside the library, facing the library wall as I passed him, I
ignored him, however, I felt that this was a test. When I passed
him I turned my head slightly as I entered the door way, looked
at him, and held my nose, he was not pleased.
As I entered the library, there were a lot of black males in the seated reading area. This is unusual, I ignored these males, apart from one 30 year old that loudly used his mobile phone, I was annoyed with this.
Two girl children came in, from their giggling voices, I did not look at them, I would say they were aged 10. They sat down on the far left side near the window, after a few seconds I looked up ahead of me, to see a librarian, close to the front of me, slightly bent forward, she was the spotter, she moved towards and behind me when I spotted her.
There were some happy very young children near the lift, I ignored these children, normally I would have looked, I like to look at happy children, there is no sexual interest. An unusually attractive 25 year old woman came and sat opposite me, I liked her, unusual, unusual dress, unusual hair style, see was sorting through lots of envelopes, unusual. I left the library, no tests on the way home.
Sexual Interest, in the woman, 03 Points.In the evening, I went to my eldest daughters, as I walked up Cavendish ST. It was dark, I did not see or hear any children. Suddenly I heard children, I turned my head, surprise the children were in the Jehovas compound, I then looked away, the children were safe. There was no sexual interest.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.Sunday 8th February. 2004. I stayed At Home.
Monday 9th February. 2004. 3PM.
I Went over Holliwells park, there has not been so
much testing there since I typed in to my computer that a female
in the park: that I believed was a police officer, had dress that
resembled a quaker.
Upon my return in the park, walking towards the Bishops Hill gate, about half way along the long straight walking towards the gate there is a bench seat on the right, I spotted a woman there, black clad, that I felt had been used in previous tests, this woman is aged about 60, she usually has a dog, I had seen her standing against a tree in a prior test, this was so unusual that at that time I had asked her if she was well, she replied yes.
The woman was looking away from me, her head was tilted, she appeared as I approached her to be star gazing, however, it was daylight. When I got level with her I stopped studying her, at this point I felt that she could see me, I passed her, I thought it would have been a nice gesture to thank me, for the prior occasion that I had enquired in to her well being. She did not speak.
Sexual Interest, 01 Points.I turned left, and started to walk towards my house, there was a black clad boy aged 12 ? sitting on the low wall that is the perimeter for the block of flats, It was cold, he did not have a coat on, I thought unusual, as I approached I could see that he had something on his lap, this eventually turned out to be his coat, I looked away as soon as I saw this, I felt that this was a further test.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.As I looked back in the direction of the footpath, I could see a black clad young woman approaching me, as she got closer, I could see that she was extremely pretty, with beautiful blond curly hair, kiss curls down her face. She was aged about 25, I looked at her intently, she was doing the zombie walk.
Sexual Interest, 05 Points.As I passed this woman, I could see a black clad male aged about 25 ? I looked at him briefly, he was smiling, almost a grin, I then turned left to the steps to my house and walked up them, the man would have seen me look at the boy and the woman. All the people were well dressed, this could have been the police, which agency ? difficult to judge.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Tuesday 10th February. 2004.
I stayed at home all day and night.
Wednesday. 11th February. 2004.
I went to the library, no discernable tests. Called to
see David Miles, No Tests, we have resumed the friendship.
Thursday. 12th February. 2004. 2PM.
I telephoned David Miles, said that I would call
to see him to pick up some paper work, to try to resolve his
computer problem. I stated on the telephone that I would leave
in 10 minutes to call and see him. With knowledge of this by
telephone tap: tests can be quickly set up.
I cycled down Bishops Hill about 15 minutes after the phone call, surprise, surprise, there was a black clad man with his back to me at the bus stop on the opposite side of the road near the roundabout at the bottom of Bishops Hill, I looked in the direction of this man when I was level with him, to see if there was anything else interesting in the bus shelter, there was nothing of interest, so I quickly looked away. Looking towards the man and away from him was about one second.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.As I looked away from the black clad man, I could see two very young women walking together along the path towards the college away from the bus shelter. The very young woman on the away side, away from the road was black clad, fantastic hour glass figure, her figure hugging black top and her tight denim jeans that appeared to have tassels, displayed a nice shape leg.
She turned her head, looked at me, and started to laugh, she was beautiful, I reciprocated, I could not resist it, we looked at each other laughing at each other for about 5 seconds as I passed her on my push bike. I knew there would be no sexual interest on the part of the girl, I knew that she was part of a psychology test.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.I was amused by the event all the way to David's Miles flat. I was still laughing: even when I was with David.
I left David's, and I went to the library, I felt there were two tests in the library. 1. A man bent over near me, displaying his brown clad bottom, I was not interested in this, I held my nose.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.There was a man positioned in a door way as I walked from one room to another, returning to the reading room from the reference room. This man was stretched across part of the door way, his legs were apart, his arms were apart, there was no sexual interest.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Thursday 12th February. 2004. Continued.
There was a test in Foxhall news with a black man.
Friday 13th February. 2004.
I stayed at home all day: very depressed.
Saturday. 14th February. 2004.
I had arranged to pick up Lynton at 2PM to take him
Go Karting, I left my house punctually at 1:45 as I walked
along Devonshire Road to turn right in to Gladstone Road, there
was a man in the garden, 2 Gladstone Road. Near where I was
walking, I quickly looked at him, he was looking at me, I quickly
looked away.
At the same house, around the corner, there was a black clad man with his back to me, standing at the front door, I did not look directly at him, I held my nose as I passed him. On the other side of the road a black clad 30 ? year old woman was walking towards me, I did not look directly at her.
At the Foxhall News shop there were two cars parked near the shop with hazard lights on, I went in to the shop, there were two very young black clad children on the floor, I looked at them to make sure we did not collide, I then stood behind a short haired blond woman, there was another woman in front, none of the woman and the children were well dressed, there is video in the shop, there was no sexual interest in the children in the shop. There was however, very slight sexual interest in the short haired blond woman.
Sexual Interest, 01 Points.I went Go Karting with Lynton, he enjoyed himself, I enjoyed watching the Go Karting, there were no tests at the Go Kart centre. I returned home at 6PM. I returned to my eldest daughters at 8PM. There was a black man standing in a garden near the Foxhall News shop, I ignored him.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Sunday. 15th February. 2004.
I passed my neighbour pat's house at 3PM, one of her
granddaughters aged 12 ? was sitting near a chair with her back
to me displaying a pony tail, I put my hand up as I usually do,
for the other people in the room, I immediately looked away.
When the children left, they were noisy, I thought that I could
hear abuse, shouting pervert wanker etc. There was no sexual
interest.
Monday 16th February. 2004.
This was quite a depressing day, I typed up
these notes from 07 02 04 to 16 02 04.
Tuesday. 17th February. 2004.
There was a black man, athletic build, running along
Foxhall road from East to West past Foxhall News when I arrived
at the shop after leaving my daughters to return home, 6PM ?
there was no generated sexual interest, I did not show any
interest.
Wednesday 18th February. 2004.
I went to the Coop shop near Gladstone Road, as I passed
the window, I could see my eldest daughter in the shop, I entered
the shop and immediately spoke to her. As we stood at the check
out, my eldest daughter turned her head profile close in front
of me, she said that she was looking for a particular type of jam.
I felt that this was a test, I looked at her head, there was no
sexual interest.
At my Daughters house, I felt there were two tests with my daughter on one occasion holding her hand on her head, on another occasion brushing her hair. Sometimes I look at my daughter to try to ascertain, is this a test ? if she is holding her hand on her head: she immediately drops her hand. When I left my daughters house to return home, there were some teenage children on the corner of Gladstone Road and Foxhall Road, one of the girls was away from the gathering. I ignored these children, as the children went out of sight, one of the boys said: didn't work. This implied to me: that I did not look at the children.
Thursday. 19th February. 2004.
Went skating with Chris, Kirsty, Emma. Emma is my
neighbour Pats granddaughter. It was a good night, good skate,
I felt there was a group of psychologists in the bar. Towards
the end of the night, I quickly looked at two white clad
children dancing on a podium as quickly I passed, three
spectators alongside the rink held their ears: interesting.
At the end of the night, I started to slow down, a white clad child on the rink in view of the bar was looking at me as I approached her, I looked at the child. A woman that was in the bar walked forward to scrutinise me, I was pleased that this woman identified her self.
I circled the rink again, as I further slowed down, skating towards the bar, I was sexually attracted to a girl with the body build of a 16 year old, sporting a black strap across her back similar to a bra strap, I think that she had a black clad bottom, I looked at her pink skin shapely waist and bra strap as I approached her, this was a very pleasing sight.
A lot of people in the bar were very pleased when this happened, they danced, they had not danced prior, dancing: displaying happiness, as they moved around each other laughing and smiling, this puzzled me, why ? Sexual interest in the bra strap girl,
Sexual Interest, 06 Points.On the return journey in the car, Chris kept moving about a lot, at times massaging his genital area, I considered, could this be testing ? It was a very good night, really good skate, I was however very puzzled as to the reaction in the bar by the psychologists, at my display of the viewing of the black bra clad girl. This puzzled and depressed me the next day, why the excitement amongst the psychologists, was the black bra strap girl that I was attracted to much younger than my body assessment ? age of 16.
Was this a 13 year old child ? I could not work the next day, I was depressed and puzzled, I felt that the psychologists would not show happiness: to an event that would be in my favour. I however did a bit of internet research between 8 and 10 PM. This was positive, a good result, I found Fotosearch.com, this site sells art work pertinent to the brain.
Mental Corruption, 05 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
Link: Sexual Link. Interest in black attire in adults to
black swimwear on a child.
Note. The psychopathy caused by adults recently, since Christmas, has caused a low level sexual interest to appear in children of a low age. This is highlighted in further notation.
Sunday. 22nd February. 2004.
I Went swimming with Michelle at Felixtowe, we had a good
time, there was one girl aged about 10 black swimming costume that
kept looking at me, I felt this was a test, I ignored her. When I
got out of the pool to leave, walking in the pool area past the
cafeteria, this 10 year old girl was slowly walking towards
me, I felt that this was a test. As the girl approached me,
looking at me: she did not look happy, she had her arms folded
across her chest trying to cover up as much of her top as she
could, she looked very uncomfortable.
I was annoyed, always a test, I ogled her, made sure that she was aware that I was ogling her, I wanted to make her feel as unhappy as I could, this was bullying on my part, negativity creates negativity, A person bullied: always turns in to the bully, I forcefully psychologically abused this child. There were no other tests that I could see, I returned home. This girl test kept me very slightly annoyed.
I went to bed at 7:30 pm, I intended to rest for a while then get up and read for a while. I woke up in the middle of the night, I started to think about the girl at the pool, produced brain imagery for her. I started to get an erection, I was not happy with this, this is the first time this has happened with such a young child, I stopped thinking of her, the erection went away.
Monday. 23rd February. 2004.
When I got up, having breakfast, my thoughts returned
to the child at the pool, I started to fantasise having sex with
her, deliberately hurting her. Penetrating her as hard as I could
to hurt her as much as possible. This sort of thought has never
happened before. Such thoughts lasted for about 15 seconds.
In the last month, I have retaliated against some of the testing, holding my nose at the testers, making rude gestures with my hands, this has upset me, I have never upset people, I have been more angered, this has decreased the sexual interest in adults, and increased the sexual interest in children again. Until today, I have never had sexual fantasy for pre-pubescent children or have ever wanted to hurt them. I currently hate and want to hurt any person that I analyse is taking part in this psychological testing. I have now been made psychopathic by this testing.
My negative thoughts about the pre-pubescent child upset me for the day, I was annoyed and depressed that I had got myself in to such a poor mental state with these psychology testers. Also, I could have been wrong, perhaps this was not a test with this girl, perhaps she was an abused child, sexually abused by an older male. I realised that if this was so: then I added to this abuse. I realised that I could have further abused an innocent child, this made me very unhappy.
Sexual Interest, 05 Points for two very short time periods.
Mental Corruption, 04 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
In the afternoon I went in to Ipswich, upon my return journey I passed Jack Whites music shop. As I approached the shop a pony tailed child 14 ? came out of the shop carrying a box supported by an older male, father ? there was no sexual interest, I did not show any interest in the girl.
In the evening, 7PM ? I went to my eldest daughters. As I
approached the fish and chip shop on Wellesley Road three people
came out of the shop quickly walking in different directions.
1. Was an age 25 ? year old male black clad.
2. Was a black clad equal age female.
3. Was a blond haired woman. They all looked at me as I
passed them.
1. I looked at his face for about a half second.
2. similar.
3. A full second.
Upon reflection, I felt the test was stupid and bizarre.
Tuesday 24th February. 2004. 8pm ?
I felt there was a test at my eldest daughters, my
reflection can be seen in a small picture hanging on the east wall
in the lounge. My eldest daughter was leaning over away from me,
looking at the picture, as I left the room. I looked at her because
I felt her stature was odd: then I saw the small picture frame on
the wall. I then left the house.
As I walked down Wellesley road on the even number side: when I got to the low numbers a black clad woman stepped out of her car and stood facing the rear window on the path, I looked at her head for about a second: as I passed her. There was no sexual interest. I felt this was a test, I cannot stop looking at these people to ascertain, is this a test ? This activity is very addictive.
I returned to my daughters at 9am the following morning, I felt the same woman walked to the front of her car as I approached. She looked directly at me, I looked back for about a second.
The following highlights my current mental state, the psychologists annoy me with the stupidity of their tests, they know my brain has been seriously corrupted, they know by their analysis that my brain program is somewhat changed since 1996. I had decided to go and visit my sister in Norwich for the weekend, this was discussed by telephone, therefore this data would have been transmitted to the psychologists.
Although I have enough evidence, I carry on the analyses of my assessment of sexual psychology profiling to retain my credibility. I carry on looking for testing, this of course produces absolutely false analyses by the psychologists.
Friday 27th February. 2004. 2PM.
I entered Ipswich station with my push bike, as I
looked towards the counter I sight a man sitting on a chair
behind a 25 ? year old ethnic ? woman. The man was looking at me.
The woman had her hair tied at the back: and the hair flairs out
considerably a few inches from the back of her head.
I had not seen this hair style before, I looked at it for about one second, this was an unusual sight, I thought what a mess. I later thought that the hair style was as attractive as the plan view of a very dead bunch of flowers in a vase. There was no sexual attraction.
The train arrived late, when I just got on the platform. I put my push bike in the appropriate compartment and walked through the corridor to the passenger compartment. As I entered the compartment there was a well dressed shirt and tie man standing in the isle just ahead of me. He then moved towards me, I stood at a chair to let him pass. He passed me and sat down behind me. I took no notice of him, sat down behind him, facing away from him. I took no more notice of him, I was not sexually attracted towards him. At Norwich I left the train, I felt that there were no further tests.
Note. The man on the train. At the height of my mental impairment December 1996. And August 2003. I would have had a sexual interest in this man at a low level, also, I was so isolated and lonely at this time: I would have wanted to sit facing this man for comfort.
Saturday 28th February. 2004.
I went with my sister to Asda in Norwich, I felt that
there was a test with a black child in the shop, I took no
interest / there was no sexual interest. As we left the store,
there was a middle aged couple walking towards us. The man was
holding his nose, the woman was laughing. I did not know what to
make of this, this did not annoy me. At my sisters this day there
were no tests.
Sunday 29th February. 2004. 3PM.
At my sisters when I was reading near her, ( she
was also reading ) She kept moving her hand up to her shoulders
and head, with the normal break of about 30 seconds between
movements. I could just see her hand out of the corner of my
eye, I displayed no interest in this, there was however the
desire to look to please.
My sister put her hand to her eye brow: and held her hand there for about ten seconds, there was no reaction from me. My sister sighed as she put her hand down, there were no further movements. This was the only testing over the whole period that I stayed with my sister: that I was aware of.
Monday. 1st March. 2004.
I Returned to Ipswich, left the station at 11:30 as I
cycled along the path, along commercial road, towards the old
B & Q building a woman was walking towards me with a push chair,
when she was about twenty feet away from me, she stopped. As
usual for me, for safety reasons, I dismounted, and walked towards
her. She saw me and turned her head away displaying a pony tail
hair style. I carried on walking towards her and thanked her as
I passed her. I showed no undue attention towards the pony tail.
There was very little sexually aroused interest.
As I cycled through the dock, a young woman with a good figure was walking ahead of me through a small gap in two parallel spaced long lorries I followed her, I was quite close to her, as I walked behind her. When we had passed the lorries I quickly mounted my bike and cycled past her not showing any interest in her.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
As I approached the cafe facing the ships in the dock I noticed a very young, 13 ? - 18 ? very lightly clad, just wearing a blue summer tee shirt girl / young woman, small or no breasts, very slim, skinny, standing outside the cafe with other people. She moved towards her push bike: I turned my head when I was parallel to her, looked at her for about a second. I thought she could be a child, all the children should be at school today, this was puzzling. It was much to cold to wear such attire, I felt that this was definitely a test. I was sexually attracted to this girl. I returned home. 11:40 AM.
Sexual Interest, 05 Points.I went to Fore Street post office at 12 Noon. As I approached the post office there were two black clad people coming out of the door, one of the people was elderly, I scrutinised these two people. I eventually entered the shop, I turned right to put my bag on the table, I do not normally do this. As I started to walk towards the table I saw a black suited man in the shadows at 2 O'clock. I stopped looked at him for about a second, then turned away from the table, and placed my bag on the window sill.
I collected my dole money, Lucy served me, she seemed very happy, I left the shop, walking just past Fore Street baths a 30 year old woman came towards me, I looked at her, and stopped to let her pass. She went in to the pub, this could be the Lord Nelson. I walked to the coop shop near Gladstone road, there was a young manager / assistant. White shirt, black trousers bending over displaying his bottom near the fruit and vegetable area, I nearly always buy fruit when I am in this shop, I ignored this young man. There was no sexual interest in the people at the Fore Street post office, or the Coop shop. I returned home.
At home I was very annoyed, it was only an hour and a half since I arrived in Ipswich, I was in a refreshed good mode when I arrived, I think that I thwarted the plan: what ever it was, at the Fore Street post office. The anger had somewhat rescinded by three O'clock when I finished typing up these notes.
In my current adapted mental state, I was very sexually interested in the skinny / slim girl at the cafe, had I not thought that this was a test: I would have looked at her longer. Goodness knows what her age was. I now have considerable sexual interest in very young skinny teenage girls. This does not cause masturbation. If they are pretty, I find them very attractive. I do not want sex with such children, this would corrupt them: I do not want to do this. This is a serious adaptation in my sexual desires since 1996.
Currently, a really good looking young skinny teenage child, nicely dressed, lightly dressed tee shirt and jeans, small adult breasts, a little very conservative make up, looking happy, intelligent, and beautiful: may arouse me to,
Sexual Interest, 06 Points.
Days Affected. Whilst Viewing.
There are many such images in sports venues, there is just so much: this does not unduly arouse me at sports venues. I love my sport, I go to sports venues for the sport. It is very rare that such image viewing will later cause masturbation. Ratio 1:1000.
Note. An afterthought at home. The girl at the cafe. One of the other people sitting near her could have had a video camera on his lap to record the event, this I have no knowledge of.
Monday. 1st March. 2004.
Back in Ipswich, after a relaxed weekend, there was
no stress over the weekend whilst I stayed at my sisters. The
stress returned by lunch time, I had to take stellazine
medication to control the incrementing stress.
Monday. 1st March. 2004.
7pm Left my house, I crossed bishops hill, as I
walked down the hill, past the bus stop, there was a 25? year
old pretty black clad woman walking up the hill towards me, she
looked at me smiling. I briefly looked back: I did not return
the smile. This is the second smile in seven years, very suspect.
As the woman passed a man came in to view, I briefly looked at
him, he did not look aggressive, I passed him, I turned in to
Cavendish St.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
In Cavendish St. Near 107 there was a bottoms test, A fat black, clad female bottom sticking out of a car, I took no notice of this. On the other side of the car the spotter was thin blond and quite pretty, I looked at her as I passed the car. I went to my eldest daughters.
Sexual Interest, in the blond woman, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
I stayed at my eldest daughters for about an hour, As I returned, when I passed Foxhall news, approaching the crossing, there was an off white clad 25 ? year old scruffy woman running across the crossing, she had large fairly nice shape breasts, the off white top put me off. As I crossed the road there was a man aged about 25 running along Foxhall road, he did not look aggressive, there was no interest in him.
Sexual Interest, bouncing breasts only, 04 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Tuesday. 2nd March 2004. 4PM.
I Telephoned my eldest daughter, arranged to see
her at 4PM. As I turned in to Cavendish St. there was a black
woman aged 25 ? with an extremely good figure, walking up
Cavendish St. Just ahead of me.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
As I approached Foxhall News, there were two girls sitting on the
window,
1. Black Hair, back facing me.
2. Blond hair, facing me.
The blond girl was pretty, she had a lot of make up on, my first impression was age 18 ? Upon further close scrutiny, I aged her at 14 ?
Sexual Interest, 03 Points. The blond girl.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Tuesday. 2nd March 2004. Continued.
As I returned to my house, 7PM, the woman at
number 30 Bishops Hill was black clad sitting in the window of
her house. I took no interest in her. She is attractive, very
slim, aged about 30.
Wednesday. 3rd March 2004. 4PM.
Went to the library. Called at Arnies Sarnies, to
buy an ice cream, I currently often call there. As usual, I ate
the ice cream on the other side of the road. I looked up at
the windows above the shop, there were soft toys all over
the windows, these looked nice, I stood thinking, a bit puzzled
at the display, however, I like such soft toy displays.
Suddenly a child stood up, she could have been working at a computer, black haired, the child had a nice pony tail, she looked at me from the window, I looked back for about a second: I was surprised at seeing her, I then looked away. I do not think the child was happy: she may have thought that I had been looking at her, this was not the case, this disappointed me. I do not feel that this was a test.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, Disappointment for a while.
In the library, one test, male bottom, I held my nose, pissed off with these wankers. Looked at several mags, journals, looked at a swimming mag, I normally read some of the editorial. I was busy, it was late, I just looked at the pictures. There was an attractive girl swimmer, aged 18 ? I liked her face, Her shoulders were very strong, good body, her legs were not displayed. I was particularly attracted to her head and shoulders. This was a major attraction: I studied the image closely to ascertain interest: the shoulders were predominant.
If the girl had been tanned, and a better looker, my sexual interest could have reached 10. I have found published pictures of Karen Pickering, the local swimmer in the past: just as sexually interesting. There is never any fantasy or masturbation.
Sexual Interest, 07 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
I went to my eldest daughters at 7PM ? There was a black jogger running down Cavendish ST. towards me opposite 107, I briefly looked at him, he did not look aggressive. There was no sexual interest in this man.
Thursday. 4th March 2004.
Went skating with Chris, I was a bit apprehensive, I
felt that this was not going to be a good night. How right I was.
As I was skating I kept away from children, particularly
young teenage females. This made me skate past boys more,
the psychologists would have analysed this as homosexual
behaviour, you cannot win.
I skated past one boy aged about ten, he was really going for it, arms and legs everywhere, he was skating quite fast, just how I used to skate: the reminiscence made me laugh. I was laughing looking at him as I passed him. Later in the evening there was a test in the cafeteria, with a black clad boy, sitting with his back to me, I took no interest, there was no sexual interest in these male children at the rink.
This was entrapment ? Late in the evening, I was sitting in the cafeteria, I group of children formed about 15 feet in front of me, these children were in the age group 13 -16 they were all smiling, looking at a person that I could not see: sitting behind a pillar. I assumed the person behind the pillar was an adult, this adult was taking a photograph.
The children that appeared to be posing for the photograph, were all smiling, happy, this made me happy, I smiled at them. There was no flash from a camera. The person that I assumed was taking the photograph moved, her back came in to view, she was bent over the table, as she moved along the table in to the gangway. With the fixed assumption that this was an adult, I looked at her bottom, her bottom was just within the parameters for my personal sexual attraction. When she stood up, I then looked up at her head, at this point I then realised that this was a child, this confused me.
I looked at the child's head for a short while then looked away. I do not know how old this child was, at a guess, 9 to 11 years of age. Upon realisation that this was a child: the sexual interest declined. I then looked towards the rink, I then saw val's husband look away, look towards the disco control center: he then held his nose, and put his hand up in the air as a signal. Presumably the signal was to the management, Paul, and Jamie. There was probably video recording apparatus in the group of children: this was recording the whole scene.
When I returned to skating, there was a group of friends standing viewing the rink, as I passed them I could hear shouts of pervert. This upset me very much: I passed Chris, he was holding his ear lobe. I was very unhappy for the rest of the evening. I was also videoed for the rest of the evening. The end of the evening was in about 45 Minutes, I finished skating very unhappy: about 15 minutes early. On one occasion as I passed the abusive group, I held my nose to retaliate.
This test, if it was a test: was very mentally destructive to me. Remember, this bottoms interest in females, then looking at the back of heads started in July 2003. Induced by the psychology testing.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points. Whilst I was viewing the child's bottom, this child: that I thought was an adult.
Mental Corruption, 08 Points.
Days Affected. 03 Days.
Friday. 5th March 2004.
The skating rink event caused extreme psychopathy,and a severe
fear attack as I awoke, and another fear attack at a lessor level
when I awoke again from a snooze later in the day. Another two
slight fear attacks on Saturday, and one lessor attack on Sunday.
Friday. 5th March 2004.
No Tests.
Saturday. 6th March 2004.
In the afternoon, I went swimming at Felixtowe with
Michelle my granddaughter. We entered the pool at 2:30 PM. I
was surprised to find lane swimming in operation: so I swam in
the lane for a while, my arms are weak, I was not swimming so
strongly. I saw three people in the viewing area that could be
psychologists. I let Michelle swim with her friends, this was
prime time for her, she enjoyed herself very much.
After about an hour, I sat in a chair on the pool side where I could see Michelle, a black clad child aged 10 ? stood near me for a while: then she sat near me while a man checked what were supposed to be injuries on her legs, I took no notice of this. I felt there were other tests with other girls: I took no notice of this either.
There was no sexual interest in the girl that stood near me, however there was an element of sexual interest in a child aged about 12 ? very slim, small breasts, nice dark red 2 piece slender costume. There was no fantasy at the time or later, this is usual for me. I would think that twenty per cent of single men would have such a small element of sexual interest in such a child, different colour bathing wear, hair styles, I may be wrong.
I feel that my interest in such children is exacerbated by my current poor mental state. The psychologists would not have picked up this interest, It was well hidden. As previously stated, many times: such interests do not create fantasy, or masturbation, also, I have no interest in entering in to sexual activity with such a child. This is just induced poor mental state: induced by the psychologists, their testing, and my analyses.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.When the girl was having her legs checked, I turned to look at the spotters, one of the spotters had turned her chair to look in my direction. I was sexually attracted to several woman at the pool, at about the same level. At no time was I aware of blood flowing in to my penis. This only ever happened once with a girl in 1993 that blew my mind with the level of gymnastic and artistic art that she portrayed as she dived from a five metre diving board for the first time.
At 6PM we returned to Ipswich, as I approached Foxhall News, I could see the profile of two black clad girls, walking silhouetted against the white fluorescent light towards the door of the shop. Both these girls I aged at 16, they were tall, both girls had the pony tail shaped outline that I have become attracted to since the summer of 2003. I looked at the girls for about two seconds. Three people then got out of two cars that were parked outside the shop and walked towards the shop. I went to my eldest daughters: then returned home.
Sunday. 7th March 2004.
Woke up at 8PM. I could not bother to get up and start
work. My work this morning is typing up these test notes dated
from 01 03 04. to Today 07 03 04. I knew that doing this work
would be depressing: I would certainly wish to be doing
something else, something more constructive, however, I typed
up the notes.
Thursday's event at the rink certainly upset the week, this has upset me for three days, very angry, depressed, a lot of thoughts of killing people induced since Thursday. If I lose the roller skating rink, get banned, and my life is not worth living: this could cause me to kill people and myself. I hope that this never happens. Today, 7th, I laid in bed between 8 and 9AM thinking, there were no positive thoughts.
I went with my granddaughter over Holliwells park in the afternoon to feed the ducks, there were no tests on the park, this was prime time. There was one black clad tall female that walked past us as we left the park to get ice creams, the tall female and I briefly looked at each other.
We returned to my Daughters house, I stayed there until my Daughter returned two hours later. I read and dozed. I left my daughters house, as I walked down Wellesley Road, there was two men coming towards me, One of the men said hello, I replied, I said hello, I realised that the man who spoke was retarded, brain damaged. The other man said to the man that spoke to me, he's a pervert. I usually get called a pervert at least once a day.
When I got home, I was still angry because of Thursdays event, I laid in bed for about half an hour, all I could think of was killing people: so I decided to get up and finish typing these notes. I am stressed, I will go to bed as soon as I have finished typing.
Monday. 8th March 2004.
Did not sleep well, woke up at 1AM, stressed,
and very angry. Did some electronic design for 2 hours, as a
focal point to reduce anger. The anger returned after I completed
the work. Went back to bed, awoke shortly after, throat blockage
dream. Started work at 9AM, I did not want to work, however, I
did not want to waste the day. Finished typing up these notes.
Tuesday. 9th March 2004.
Thoughts of killing people when I did not
work. One fear attack this day.
Wednesday. 10th March 2004.
Still very angry, thoughts of killing people,
three hours work. One fear attack this day.
Thursday. 10th March 2004.
Thoughts of killing people, when I did not
work. Went to Grahams Plumbing, there was a slight sexual
attraction to a males bottom, this is the first time since the
year 2000. This highlights the recent corruption to my brain.
This disappointed me. One slight fear attack this day.
Friday. 11th March 2004.
Thoughts of killing for about half the time that
I was not working. 6PM I telephoned my eldest daughter, I said
that I was then leaving to see her. I walked to my eldest
daughters, there was a black clad female at the door of 2
Gladstone Road, her back was facing me, I felt that this was a
test, I did not look at this woman. As I passed her, a little boy
aged 5? appeared from a passage way on the opposite side of the
road, this was unusual, I moved my eyes to look at him, he stood
on the edge of the path way near the road, I then looked away.
Twelve years ago, such a child I would have approached without a parent present, asked him if he was ok, and I would have took him to his house to make sure that he was safe. This sort of activity has long gone. At my daughters, in an advert on the T.V. A baby was lifted in to a mothers arms, there was a sexual attraction towards the babies pink skin at about level two. So this anomaly has now returned, again, not present since Y 2000.
After seeing my daughter, I went to the coop shop. When I left the coop there was a black clad man outside the coop shop sitting in his car, he looked at me, I looked back for a second, then walked on. As I turned the corner at the bottom of Devonshire Road, I was faced with a man, his back was towards me, standing by a car in Cavendish St. near the Jehovas Hall. I briefly looked at him, it was dark, raining, there were no people around. I wanted to see what was happening, I am always ready for violence.
Link: Sexual Link. To a child.
I think that this was a follow up to, info of me skating near males on Thursday 4th, there was also a male child test on the rink. There was no sexual arousal in any of the tests today, I thought the tests today as usual were quite stupid. Tests always the same people, mostly same houses. Amateurs
Note. My assessment of the above tests this week is that they are wholly pathetic, this is indicative of ninety per cent of the tests that I have observed since last Christmas.
Saturday. 13th March 2004.
Woke up with a serious fear attack. I have
been however: slightly less angry, and at some small times,
during the day: happy.
Sunday. 14th March 2004.
Decided not to work on the book, installed
layo my dos electronics p.c.b.- c.a.d. program on my old
computer. The anger is rescinding. In the afternoon I took Lynton
to his archery class, There were pubescent children male female at
this class: I felt dirty, mentally unclean. I felt that I should
not be there mixing with these children. This is the first time
that I have felt dirty mixing with children since 1993. This
highlights the imposition of the current mental corruption.
Monday. 15th March 2004.
I am less angered today because of the events
that happened on the 4th at the rink: I am returning to normal.
I left the house at 10-45 to go to the post office and the
dentists. There was a disabled man that I helped get in to the
post office. There were no apparent tests, I did not expect
any. As I left the post office Janet the proprietor very clearly
shouted pervert: this upset me all the way to the dentists.
Left the dentists in High St. at about 11:45, I felt that there was a test near the dentists: a red clad woman, I briefly looked at her as I passed., I felt that there were two spotters coming towards me.
There was another test as I approached Carr St. Black clad scruffy pony tail woman with her back to me, white clad woman near her looking at me. I briefly looked at the white clad woman as I passed, I thought that I would look at white for a change: she laughed when I looked at her. These people involved in these tests, some were poorly dressed. I think this scruff bag lot was social services psychologists. I returned home, smiled and waved as I passed the Fore St. post office.
Monday 15th March 2004.
4-45 PM near Ruskin Road post office, on Foxhall
Road. I was walking west along Foxhall Road on the opposite side
of the road to the Post Office. This girl was coming towards me,
she was brazen, smoking a cigarette. I looked at her, she pushed
her chest out when I looked at her, she had a good figure, age
16 ? I laughed. I could not stop laughing: she looked an absolute
control freak, This is the first girl to push her chest out at me
in about 30 years: I could not stop laughing. The spotter, female,
age 50 ? was on the other side of the road walking with a note
book. Pathetic.
Tuesday 16th March 2004.
Went to my Eldest Daughters at 9:30 AM, Kim
Friatt was at her door, there was a very large black clad bottom,
a woman bent over in front of Kim, there was no sexual interest.
I thought this bottom was reminiscent of a demolition ball, I
felt that this bottom should be on the end of a crane: and with
the assumed weight of the body, this would make a good demolition
instrument. I waved at Kim there was no return acknowledgement.
At 6PM this day there was a test in the Duke St. Paper shop with
a child, there was no sexual interest.
Wednesday. 17th March 2004.
Mid day, on Felixtowe Road I was walking
west approaching Nacton Road. The spotter turned to walk west
when she saw me approaching. There was a black boy aged 18? on
the left at the bus stop, there was a 16 ? year old girl sitting
on the opposite side of the road. The girl was quite attractive,
I looked at the girl.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Thursday. 18th March 2004.
Went skating with Martin, Chris, Kirsty, it was
a reasonable night, possibly three psychologists, one psychologist
in the bar: two on the ground floor. There was only two tests. 1.
Martin and Chris were the spotters as a group of teenagers ran
along the side of the rink. I took no notice of these children.
There was a black clad good build figure short skirt leggy young
teenager that I was attracted too, I did not display any
attraction.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
2. There was a test with a black clad male age 25 ? I looked at him, the sexual attraction was very low.
Sexual Interest, 02 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
There were not many people using the rink, I had a reasonable skate, I was a little bit depressed. Val and Paul were not there. I wanted to speak to Val and Paul.
As I walked out of the front door to leave the rink, the leggy sexy teenager was standing with her back to me about ten feet outside the door, I took no notice of her at all, I just turned and walked away. The spotter was sitting in a car, white top attire: in full view of me and the girl.
Friday. 19th March 2004.
There was a test near Clifford Road School, A
child getting out of a car. I took no notice of this test. I Went
in to Ipswich Town to the Bank and I.B.C. It was rough weather,
too rough for the psychologists: I did not detect any tests. I
was depressed this day: went to bed for 5 Hours.
Sunday. 21st March 2004.
11 AM. Rose Hill Coop, good looking woman 20 ?
nice posterior, I looked at her bottom for about a second. I went
to the store again in the afternoon, as I left the store several
people were lined up with their backs facing me. They obviously
wanted me to look at a posterior. I quickly said excuse me, and
hurriedly walked past.
Monday. 22nd March 2004. 2 - 4 PM.
Went to Ipswich Library. Sat reading as usual, no real
attractions, distractions. What I thought was a female, black clad,
walked past me and sat opposite, this was a man aged about 50. Was
this a test ? I looked at the mans face, studied him for about ten
seconds, was this a test ?
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
A minute later the black clad female that was sitting near me stood up and left, I am sure that she was a psychology tester, she was good, at least she waited a minute.
As I got dressed in my scruffy old clothes to leave the library, one of the staff, held her nose as she looked directly at me, I was not pleased with this, this woman has been involved in testing for some time. Throughout the afternoon she had been walking in and out of the reading area rearranging books, this was unusual, I of course studied her.
Sexual Interest, 02 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 1 hour.
Monday 22nd March. 2004. Continued. 5:30 PM.
A black clad woman near the
delicatessen opposite Foxhall News was bending over just as the
woman proprietor of Foxhall News, also black clad, walked towards
me. I looked at the proprietor for about a second. The woman
bending over had a nice posterior. I however did not look at
this posterior.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Wednesday. 24th March 2004.
Went to Asda shopping, there was a woman blocking the entrance, I
sternly said excuse me, as I passed this woman there was another
woman standing holding her nose, I held my nose as I looked at
her. This did not upset me. There were no observed tests.
Thursday. 25th March 2004. 7PM
I went to the college library to do some research, I had told my
eldest daughter by telephone that I was going there. As I left
the library at 8:30PM I felt there was a test, I had to pass a
male and female, they had their backs to me using a photocopier.
I purposely looked at the woman's bottom, was there a spotter ? the spotter moved and almost ran out of the library ahead of me. He was presumably off to the psychology department to spread the news: and collect his brownie point.
Sunday. 28th March 2004.
I Went to Denese and Grahams for dinner, Donna her Daughter was
Displaying a pony tail. Denese was displaying a short pony tail.
At dinner I was asked if I was racist ? In the kitchen I felt
Denese was the spotter whilst Graham bent over in front of me,
I did not look at Grahams posterior, I think Denese said no to
Graham, when I did not look.
Denese"s sister was present, she currently suffers from mental illness, and is schizophrenic, I talked to her for some time, and I think that I helped her understand her illness.
Monday. 29th March 2004.
Went To the college library at 7:30 PM, By phone to my daughter,
I said that I was going out, this is currently where I go.
Near the library, I had to walk on the path round a gradual
bend, there was a young teenager walking with her boyfriend.
They quickly came in to view, walking towards me, the girl was attractive, I was attracted to her. I then looked at the boy a bit longer, in case he got annoyed that I was ogling his girl friend.
Sexual Interest, Only in the girl, 03 Points.As I approached the rear of the library, There was a woman standing with her back to me displaying a pony tail. I thought here we go, test. The woman turned, and paired with a male and walked towards me.
I looked at the woman, she was attractive, the couple passed me, the spotter was in the car park, she moved, and walked out of the car park towards the college. There was group of females further on with some children, I approached these people, I looked at the heads of the adults. I passed these people and there was a group of adults on the steps.
As I approached these adults, I looked at a large male, I was concerned for aggression, he yawned, I quickly looked away, and walked in to the library. There was no sexual interest in this male, there was slight sexual interest in the female group, there was a greater sexual interest, about level three, in the female that was walking with the man. There was no sexual interest in the children.
I left the library at 9PM, as I approached the rear door of the building there were two teenagers 16 ? talking, one girl had a pony tail displayed for me to pass, I ignored this, and walked on: I returned home.
Tuesday 30th March 2004.
Went to the Fore St. post office. Janet was there, there were no
tests there either. When I returned, I crossed the road near
Grimwade St. A female aged 20 ? stood beside me, we had an
opportunity to cross the road, she quickly moved ahead of me,
she had a very good figure, and a nice pony tail.
I thought test, near the college, nice one. So I quickly got ahead of her, and walked on ahead of her. I seem to have had most of the sexual mental defects: I did not want to add stalker to the list. I probably got marked down as a homosexual on this test, never mind. The girl did look good from the rear.
She might have got to level five, if I thought that this was not a test.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
When I arrived at the Duke St. shop to buy my ice cream, Roger a man that I know, black clad, long coat, was standing in the door way, the friendship went to fault some time ago because he stole a pint of milk off my doorstep. He admitted this, and I terminated the relationship in the respect that I would not allow him in my house again. I however still talk to him when I see him on the street, he wanted to call at my house about a year ago to fully resume the friendship, I would not allow this. If people that I help rob me, they are not allowed to enter my house again.
I briefly spoke to this Roger, then I went and sat down away from him. After eating my ice cream, I then returned home.
At 3:30 PM I went to Clifford Road School to collect my granddaughter. When I got to the playground I could see my granddaughter playing with some younger children, she was very happy, she loves babies, younger children. I watched her for about five minutes, I did not want to disturb her, she was just extremely happy, playing. I enjoyed watching her very happy.
When I entered the playground I had spoken to a woman named Carol, she may now be married and her surname used to be Fellingham. Her partner is Les, he did not speak. She always looks young, she is happy and having a good life, my assessment without much data, I may be wrong. She loves children and is fortunate, she always has a child with her when I see her.
I spoke to Carol, just before I left the playground, she made a remark about my hanging around. One assumes she thought that I waited on the playground for a different reason: no doubt all the mothers on the playground thought this too. This is typical of transmitted false positive data.
When we left the school there was a test on the path in Tennison Road, as we walked along it with a child aged 10 ? standing near the school wall with her back towards the path, I ignored this child, there was no sexual interest, the spotter was thirty yards further on, she moved when I got close to her.
Wednesday. 31st March 2004.
I had decided this day to stop recording tests, I felt happy,
this was a celebration day, no more recording of boring tests.
I later changed my mind and decided to carry on recording tests.
Ipswich is dead in my head, dead as can be, I have had it with this town: and the stupidity that goes on here. My grandchildren are fast approaching an age where I can be of no more use to them. I have to get a life, there is no life here for me, there never will be. I have plans for the future, these remain unpublished.
Thank goodness this book is almost finished, this has been a depressing book to write: and the saga of the last year has kept me in very poor mental health. I am now beginning to return to reasonable health, I can now work a bit longer each day.
The next section takes us up to April 4th, I did not expect to record new data so quick. April 4th produced a serious adaptation to my mental state. The build up to this is recorded, I am mostly ignoring tests, this is difficult and it is disappointing that my dislike for Ipswich people is now so great.
Remember, I do not often go out, the routes are nearly always the same, the telephone is tapped, I only walk short distances, tests are always set up: this psychological testing negatively interferes with the quality of my life making me dislike the area and the people.
Thursday. 1st April 2004.
I went to Ipswich library at 3PM. I sat near the window, this
window overlooks the street. As I sat reading I saw a mans
black trousers approach the window out of the corner of my eye.
When he reached the window some children started to make some
noise outside. The time was five minutes past three, the
children should be in school. I briefly looked at the children,
when I looked back at my reading desk, the black trousers moved
away. There was no sexual interest in the children.
At about 4pm some more children were making a noise outside, the man in front of me looked at the children for quite some time, I wondered why, I briefly looked at the children, they were ethnic, perhaps the man in front of me was racist, that was why he looked so long. There was no sexual interest in the children from me.
Friday. 2nd April 2004.
8 PM. I usually walk to my daughters at this time on a Friday.
As I walked up Cavendish Street near Devonshire Road, there was a
male and female couple in their thirties on the other side of the
road embracing. I am concerned for violence in this area, it is
isolated. I briefly looked at the couple when I was near them,
the woman was looking at me.
A man mid twenties, walked around the corner from Devonshire Road, he had a white top on, black trousers, I quickly looked at his face, then looked down, as we passed his hand went up presumably to hold his nose. There was no sexual interest in any of these people.
Saturday. 3rd April 2004.
I went swimming with Michelle at Felixtowe, there were not many
people in the pool. The swimming instructor that had previously
inspected a girls legs when I was last at the pool, as a test,
was there teaching as usual. I did not take interest in any
person there. The swimming instructor mentioned, he's gone brain
dead at the moment, I think that he was referring to me.
There was girl sitting on the pool side at the deepest end of the competition pool, I very quickly looked at her, I looked at her so quick, I could not accurately assess her age. I aged her at 14 to 18, she had a very good figure. I saw her dive later, she was very good, my assessment, professionally taught.
I just ignored her, at one point I turned facing her, she smiled at me, I just ignored this, a good looking, good figure girl at such an age: smiling at me, this was sick humour, always the tests: it never stops, this annoyed me. This stopped any sexual interest in this girl.
As I left the changing room, there was crowd of people I could not see any spotters, there was a child, aged 12, blue jeans, nice figure back facing me. I was relaxed, there was a slight sexual interest: remember I do not want sex with children, also, I do not fantasise because of children that I see. This is just a screwed up head, screwed up by the psychologists since 1996. I do not frequent areas where such children are to sight them.
Sunday. 4th April 2004.
I stayed at home all day, at 5 PM. I went over Holliwells Park
to sit by the bowling green to read. After about half an hour I
heard children making unusual noises near the north entrance, I
looked, I heard an adult say yes, there was no sexual interest
in the children.
After the person had said yes, I had a quick thought of displaying my penis to the children to screw their heads up: to get back at them, as I felt that this was a test. I quickly dismissed this thought. I left the park at 6:15 PM. And returned home.
I woke up at about 11 PM. I decided to masturbate, I was not sexually aroused, I just wanted to remove the old sperm, it has been about a week since I masturbated, I now masturbate weekly to get rid of old sperm: this reduces the chance of getting prostrate cancer.
It took longer to get an erection, I fantasised of having anal sex with Holly, this has never happened before, I have never fantasised having anal sex with a female. This highlights the mental corruption that has been induced since Christmas. On Monday I did not find this new sexual event disappointing, I know that my brain has been seriously corrupted since Christmas. I am not going to let the knowledge of such new adaptation upset me.
Monday. 5th April 2004.
I felt there were many tests this day, I have decided to publish
all of them. I went to Rose Hill coop, I spoke to an assistant
there, she told me that I could get cheap Easter cards at
Wilkinsons store in Ipswich. At Wilkinsons check out I stood near
two ethnic woman, brown skin, one of these woman I scrutinised,
she was attractive.
Link: Sexual Link. A test set up to link the black
attraction to children.
Ahead of me there was a black child aged 10 ? she had her back to me, she had long pretty, very neat symmetrical braids, she was also wearing a black dress, I looked at her for about 5 seconds, I thought that she looked very nice. There was no sexual attraction.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.I was called a pervert as I left the shop by a man. Upon my return in Fore St. near the post office, a very attractive blond woman walked past me, she was wearing light coloured clothing. She had what looked like very nice firm breasts, a pleasing sight.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.Still on Fore Street, at the junction of Grimwade Street, on the south side of the road, I was riding my bike on the path, A woman was coming towards me with a tanned skin 5 ? year old child. I dismounted, I looked at the woman, she was doing the Zombie walk. There was slight sexual interest in this 25 ? year old woman. No sexual interest in the child. When I was level with the woman I could then see the 50 ? year old black clad spotter close by.
I went to the paper shop in Duke Street. There were children outside there was no sexual interest in the 10 ? year old papergirl that was standing outside the shop.
At 6PM. I went to my Eldest Daughters, Outside 29 Devonshire Road a woman aged 25 ? bent over in the doorway of a car, she had a very good figure, nice tight tartan skirt She stood up when I was near her, I looked at her, she did not look at me, I wanted to smile at her, I fancied her, nice posterior.
Sexual Interest, 05 Points.As I approached 2 Gladstone Road, two men were talking in the garden, I did not look at them, I held my nose as I passed them, they stopped talking.
As I passed Paul Friat's van, I could see a black figure out of the corner of my eye, I assumed that this was male, I took no notice, there was no sexual interest.
Link: Sexual Link. I took no notice of the attractive female
at the Felixtowe pool, the psychologists assessment: homosexual.
At my daughters I felt there was a homosexuality test with my grandson aged 13. He asked me to look under a terracotta cover at something unusual, when we stood up my daughter had one knee bent, her leg stuck out behind her, this is a sign for the presence of a homosexual. This upset me.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 10 minutes.
When I returned home, I could see a black figure out of the corner of my eye at 2 Gladstone Road. I did not look, there was no sexual interest.
As I turned left to leave Cavendish street, to walk up Bishops Hill, I sighted Roger a man I know, he was black clad, I looked three times to see if he saw me. Had roger seen me I would have put my hand up in the air for a moment as a friendly gesture.
As I walked up the hill, a slim man 25 ? walked across the road, I decided to cross the road to miss passing him., I did not look at him, there was no sexual interest. Further on, I realised that a figure was walking across the road towards me, I thought it was the man doubling back, why ? I am wary, I looked: it was an attractive female aged 20 ? with a lovely dark pony tail high on her head. I could see the pony tail above her head as she faced me looking down.
This was the sighting of a new to me image profile, new images excite, different, front facing, good figure, nice face, looking down, an oral sex position, displaying a nice pony tail. I felt that this woman was a police psychologist.
Sexual Interest, 10 Points: for a few seconds.Note. I feel that all of this recent psychology testing activity has stemmed from not taking an interest in the attractive female diver at the Felixtowe Leisure Centre. However, the children are on holiday for the Easter period, all the sexual psychology profilers will be working.
Friday. 9th April 2004.
I went to the Rose Hill coop shop at 1:30PM on my way to Denese's
for dinner. At the check out there was a child aged about 9 ? at
the left hand side of me. The child moved to the right of me, I
turned facing the child to leave the shop, the child smiled at
me, I smiled back, there was no sexual interest in the child.
As I left the store I heard shouts of pervert.
Mental Corruption, 05 Points.
Days Affected - One Hour.
I stayed at Denese's until 9PM. As I left it was a warm evening, Donna, Denese's 13 year old daughter was sitting in a drive way on the concrete opposite. Donna was black clad, she might have been wearing a black dress. I remained on the opposite side of the road: I asked Donna if she was ok, she replied yes, I wished Donna a happy birthday. Donna asked if I was walking home, I said yes it was a nice night, I would enjoy the walk, I then walked away from Donna.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. Whilst viewing and cuddling.
Note. I can never envisage a scenario where I would sexualise Donna, however: for the moment she is a child: I do not sexualise children, we play and fool about a bit, A bit of mutual flirting, typical child, likes fun, I like her, that's as far as it will ever go.
The ambient temperature is rising, the weather is temperate, the children are on the schools holiday: the sexual psychological profilers wake up from their hibernation; it's time for action.
Wednesday. 14th April 2004.
I went to Felixtowe by train with my grandchildren, as we got off
the train at Felixtowe, as we walked up the carriage there was a
girl child, large breasts, red dress, aged 14 ? that I passed, I
looked at her, I was attracted to her, the spotter, or mother,
was sitting so she could see me.
At Felixtowe, there was a girl dancing on a dance machine aged 15, Fantastic figure, poor clothing, the clothing killed the interest a bit.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.When we returned to the rail station, there was girl 14 ? sitting on a seat with a soft toy on her lap. She sat there for some time, she eventually joined her mother, there was no sexual interest in this child, I think the toy psychologically made her a young child, this curtailed any sexual interest.
This afternoon was very positive, I had a good time with my grandchildren, the weather was good, there were no real problems: good result !!!
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