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Copyright (C) Anthony William Johns. Years 2002 To 2007.
34 Bishops Hill. Ipswich. Suffolk. IP3 8EN.
Note. There is reference to a child, Donna, in this part of the book. This is a reference to the earlier part of the book to the friends young daughter that came to my house, this was Donna. At the time: in my induced poor mental state, I had sexual feelings towards this young child. I however did not want to enter in to unlawful sexual activity with this child.
I was aware of the negativity, the mental impairment that can be induced to such a child with sexual activity, I did not want to hurt this child or any other child with any sexual activity. This was just very poor induced mental state at the time: induced by my mothers death and the antics principally of the police sexual psychological profilers.
Currently Donna is now aged 13, I see her almost daily as her aunt is now my girlfriend and lover, Donna lives with her aunt and her family. Her aunt satisfies my sexual desires: and my sexual interests for other people has dropped to a much lower level. There is now a very low level sexual interest for Donna, this level I feel is normal for such sexual interest, data gathered from the research that I carried out with adult male friends and their sexual feelings towards female child teenagers.
I would like to know, who advised my eldest daughter in 1996 to act in such a provocative manner towards me to help to seriously adapt / corrupt my mental state to a very suicidal and psychopathic program ? reducing the psychological sexual barrier.
I would like to know, who are the psychologists that set up the
series of tests at,
1. Ipswich Library.
2. Fore Street Post Office in Fore Street Ipswich.
3. The Foxhall News shop on Foxhall Road Ipswich ?
I would like to know, who were the two people in the car behind my house in October 1996 that were monitoring my computer data ? they published this data: endangering my life.
I would like to know, who was the psychologist that set up the tests at Joss and Phil's children's party ?
I would like to know anything about any tests that have been set up concerning me in Ipswich: and the political battle to destroy my credibility and me.
My introduction to the Suffolk constabulary was rather unfortunate. Shortly after I moved to Ipswich, I opened a HI-FI shop. One of my first customers was the local beat officer: he used a vehicle to patrol the area. He wanted extra discount off the goods that I was selling: and offered to give my shop extra attention if I sold him the goods cheap. I refused to do this: I was already operating on the minimum margin allowed by the manufacturer of the goods that I was selling as an agent. I did not want to upset the manufacturer by selling goods below the agreed terms.
The police officer left the shop: he flagged me down for speeding just over the speed limit a year later. He remembered me, and gave me a ticket for speeding. The speeding amount over the limit was so small that the police supporting agency in this country, the Crown Prosecution Service did not pursue the case.
A few years later I was running a television rental business. Payment was by prepayment coin meters. One of my customers broke in to the meter stealing the cash. Sometimes the police were interested in bringing a prosecution: mostly they were not interested. I filed a complaint with the Suffolk Constabulary, nothing happened, I followed up the complaint: this was the Felixtowe police station, still Suffolk Constabulary near Ipswich.
The police sergeant suggested that I went to see him: in conversation he stated that there was a problem. The guy that stole my money made gaming soldiers for war games, he was very good at this. He made war games soldiers for a local judge, therefore this man had immunity from prosecution. I was very annoyed at this statement and objected.
The police officer suggested that we went to the car park and he would inspect my vehicle: he suggested that he would find something wrong with it. He suggested perhaps I ought to leave. I left the police station: not very happy to say the least.
I collect all sorts of information from many differing sorts of people. In 1997. A police officer from the child support team was found selling ecstasy drugs tablets in a club in Ipswich, this club went in to receivership. The club was called Bar Extreme. The police officer was escorted off the premises and told not to return.
In a drugs bust in Ipswich a small amount of amphetamine and cannabis was seized. One of the police officers stated that the amphetamine ( street name speed ), was very good, ( top quality ), only half of the drugs got to court, my information is that this is very common. This is the perfect crime, the prosecuted person is never going to say there was more drugs seized than there was. It is rumoured that Ipswich Police Drug Squad: are one of the biggest drugs dealers in Ipswich.
This government has been good to Suffolk Constabulary. Suffolk Constabulary are currently asking for more support, ( money ), Ipswich Borough Council, Labour flagship council, equally corrupt, are the cash cow for Suffolk Constabulary: this web site is an embarrassment for the Labour Government, Ipswich Borough Council, and Ipswich Town. The police do not like this site, they are quite rightfully concerned that this site may cause social unrest, the site is not engineered to do this: this is unlawful.
Suffolk Constabulary and Ipswich Borough Council are very corrupt, and very cosy with each other, their buildings are so close, they are in bed with each other. I cannot see a scenario where Suffolk Constabulary will march in to I.B.C. rip the building apart and sort out the corruption. Suffolk Constabulary are more likely to crawl through the back door, cap in hand, begging: please give us some more money to waste.
There are six unsolved murders that have taken place over the last twenty years in Suffolk. I feel that Ipswich Police psychologists, had they turned their attention away from me in the last year: instead of mounting their brownie point cash collecting campaign, could well have solved one of these murders, taking a murderer off the streets. It is well known in England, If you want to murder somebody: do it in Suffolk, you will have a good chance of getting away with it !!!
I personally think Ipswich police have too much money, there is a band of police officers charging around on the streets sounding their alarms keeping up a high profile: appearing to be doing a lot of work, backed up by a high tier of dead wood, hierarchal officers, with feet firmly placed on desks. There is plenty of this sort of dead wood activity with local government agencies.
My assessment that crime has risen ten fold in the last twenty years is probably correct, most crime is not recorded, the police are not interested in property crime and petty assaults, and male to male teenage assaults. Ipswich Police have seriously harassed me, I feel that they should have spent more time on solving the major crime in this area. I am not very happy with Ipswich Police and their brownie points collection campaign.
I wrote to Suffolk Constabulary in the year 2000 regards the bugging of my house, car, etc. The reply from Suffolk Constabulary was that they were not involved, and to their knowledge no other agency was involved in such covert operation.
I also wrote to MI5 in the same year with similar content, the reply received, was they do not give out information, this may counter national security.
Never analyse the pervert psychologists: you have to fail tests to see their reaction, to confirm testing. This causes serious mental impairment with adults, this can develop a paedophile interest. Never assault a person that in your assessment is a pervert psychologist, the psychology testing will be denied,
If the assault is grievous bodily harm, upon judgement: you could find yourself judged as delusory: a serious risk to the public: indefinitely detained in a mental hospital. It is very difficult to build evidence for psychological testing, getting car numbers etc. In the last two years, I have only obtained evidence: to get a few people in to court.
Had I committed suicide, would there have been a party in the
club above the police station ? would I.B.C. hierarchal members
have been there ? the team of superior police psychologists ?
other invited psychologists ? Would the points raised in the local
newspaper publication be.
1. Paranoid Schizophrenic.
2. Long term mental illness.
3. Whilst in the care of the mental services.
4. That old cliche: he took his life whilst the balance of his mind
was disturbed.
Sorry lad's: that party never happened.
It is very mentally destabilising if a good friend does something that is supposed to be covert: that you have knowledge of that effects you, this is one of the major destabilities for brains. Imagine how destructive this is when this is multiplied through all your friends, I can tell you: it is very mentally destructive. This psychology testing to obtain my psychological profile, as can be seen in this book: has at times made me very ill, not delusory, very depressed, very mentally negated at times.
One very disturbing aspect is that when I was very mentally negated in August 2003, and thereafter that year, my assessment is that my friends at the roller skating rink, their interest, was to see the display of a freak show: this made me very unhappy at the time.
The verbal publication by people, friends etc. of the ten per cent of natural failed tests has been very mentally destructive: there is reference to this in the letters section, this is in Part-7, the last part of this book.
My closest friends and close relatives say that I have not suffered from delusion since I have lived in Bishops Hill, this is in the last eleven years. However, we agree that there has been periods of severe paranoia. This paranoia has been produced by the environmentally negative event since 1996. However, I have always been paranoid about preserving human life. The worst paranoia in my life as chronicled in this book: was in the summer of 2003. Unfortunately, due to the mental impairment induced by people since 1992, I am now not quite as caring for people as I was.
In my seriously corrupted, induced poor mental state, August 2003. The corruption caused by sexual psychology profiling: this not only causing extremely poor mental state linked to excess sensuality for every person and anything that moves. This profiling nearly caused me to fail two tests that in the year 2000 there would have been no chance of failing. Failure of these two tests in August 2003 would have very seriously impaired the mental state of myself, my eldest daughter, and my granddaughter.
Before the return of the sexual psychological profiling that started again in 2003, the following tests would have produced much lessor if no sexual interest. Remember, this is August 2003, the psychologists had severely mentally impaired me; I was close to a nervous breakdown, ( serious neural corruption ), the sensuality had risen to an extremely high level again.
Remember, If the following tests had failed for me, this would have been because of induced poor mental state by the psychology testing, induced adaptation: failure would have been a positive result for the psychologists, but because of the induced adaptation, this would have effectively caused the recording of a false positive.
Test 1. My granddaughter was sitting in front of the television watching a television program. I asked her to kiss me goodbye, I was about to leave to return home. I walked towards her, bent down to kiss her, as I approached her upturned face her bare right leg came in to view exposed up to her white briefs. White briefs had at the time become a particular attraction to me.
I controlled the induced sexual interest and did not look at her displayed leg and briefs: I looked her straight in the eyes, she looked at me, I kissed her, there was no sexual arousal from the kiss: there never is. I felt this was a test that I fortunately had passed, my granddaughter stood up as I was leaving, hugged me and gave me another kiss. This she usually does if I pass a test. I left the house, returned home. I was only sexually aroused in the brief moment her leg and briefs came in to view. This did not cause later fantasy or masturbation.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 02 Days.
I was mentally disturbed by the possibility of failing such a test: in such a poor mental state, this would have corrupted my granddaughters brain, my daughters brain, and the corruption to my brain could have induced suicide. If a psychologist set this test up, he / she must have been aware of the overall mental corruption that would have been imposed upon all the people involved. Had a failed test such as this driven me to suicide: this would have had a detrimental effect on my granddaughter that could have lasted for the rest of her life.
Test 2. August 2003. In Cliff lane, I had to walk around the rear of my eldest daughters car, I had just taken my granddaughter over Holliwells Park. As I walked around the rear of the car a man close to me bent over the boot of his car nearby displaying his bottom, I was slightly sexually interested, I nearly failed this test by moving my eyes to look at his bottom. I believe the spotter was in this man's car.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 02 Days.
The mental corruption was caused: as I was concerned at nearly failing this test. There was no sexual interest in this sort of male imagery in December 2002.
December 2003. My mental state is still poor, there is sexual interest in children, this is at a much lower level than August 2003.
February 2004. Induced poor mental state caused an interest to emerge in children's legs at intermittent times in certain poses.
When I researched the local paper at the library this month, February 2004, there was a displayed image of a child sitting on a kitchen work top with her skirt just above knee level, her father was standing beside her. The image caused sexual interest, I was very annoyed, I did not expect this, this was the highest sexual interest for any of the images viewed in these newspapers for this day.
I slammed my fist on the table, swearing, I was very annoyed, I did not expect sexual interest for such an image, the child was aged about six. Legs are predominantly the interest in female children at the moment. There has been a lot of testing this month, There has been induced depression and anger: this causes an increase in sensuality. I am generally in a poor mental state, writing this book that is a depressing chronology does not help my mental state either.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.
Mental Corruption, 05 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Day. Plus extreme anger at the time.
April 2004. The extreme mental corruption endured in the first quarter of 2004 has increased sensuality for all genders and ages.
Every stability program had been seriously corrupted before my mother died. This corruption increased sensuality because most of the testing was of a sexually provocative nature. My mother was the last positive stability program. Her death caused the emergence of extreme paedophile interest: the purity of mother, was replaced by a sexual interest in the purity of children. Brains, although very complex: are very easy to corrupt in adaptation this way: most brains can be very easily corrupted.
I do find it slightly amusing that my eldest daughter that caused the greatest corruption: now continuously analyses the corrupted mental state that in the most part she created, this keeps up a low level of sensuality for her that otherwise by now would be much lessor. I am concerned that the psychological damage is permanent: however, I feel that if the psychology testing completely stops, my brain will return to some level of average sexual normality.
I am hoping that my eldest daughter will read this book, and that we can agree the content: and that we can move forward with an even stronger relationship.
Many sexual psychological profilers, can only practise their art, they have few other arts, for many this provides good capital income, these people cannot do anything else. If this book is published in paper: and is popular, I expect to be psychologically analysed in public places for the rest of my life.
The homosexual and paedophile interests were caused by the psychology testing that caused mental negation started in 1996. The psychological tests that have confirmed these induced interests, are effectively: all false positives. How much of this data collected from the general public, and stored on data bases: is this false positive, induced, incorrect data ? Quite a lot I would think. This is a flawed science in this respect in it's current form.
A close female friend of mine, in her early thirties, we were talking about pubescent children interest, stated to me, you ought to see the boys as they come out of the school, I find them very attractive. A conversation with a man on the rink, was similar, most of the people that I have spoke to about this agree, that pubescent children are very sexually attractive. But we all agree: that sexual behaviour with children is taboo. Marketing men know this, and often use pubescent children in advertisements, sexual interest sells the products.
A slightly elevated paedophile interest for me, could have been started by the very serious bullying at school on the playground that I endured for five years as a child. Obviously I was bullied by equal and greater age children: this caused me as an adult to be a loner, I did not often mix socially with equal aged or older adults. Most of my masturbation has been of imagery of fantasy, not actual, but headless pubescent children. Sports venues were never used to collect imagery for masturbation.
In realisation of sexual psychological profiling, this weakens the weak, therefore this profiling business strengthens the strong: I do not believe that this is the way forward for our species.
Upon publication of this book, I feel that a lot of under the desk files in Ipswich are going to go in to the shredder.
Loners. Loners, and any person different in this society are looked down upon. A problem that loners have to face is that when you venture on to the streets your senses are heightened to a greater level than people that work in a social environment. This not only makes you more vulnerable when you enter public places: this also makes you more vulnerable to abuse. However, loneliness, and depression, are two stable mental states.
Perversion: and the personal analyses of perversion, is just personal. Many people will see my publication of the book Surrogate Daughter, as perverted. I just see the book as a science book. There has been a hate campaign in Ipswich to brand me as a pervert, to destroy my credibility: to give credibility to Ipswich Borough Council, and other agencies, if matters come to a court case.
We are all different, I see the religions as false, and as
such a perverted projection, particularly,
1. The Jehovas Witnesses, that globally have let thousands of
people die: where a blood transfusion would have saved them.
2. Catholicism. Where upon recent instruction from the Vatican, the publication in Africa: that condoms are not effective against AIDS. This publication is contrary to the scientific evidence, and a million extra people in Africa are now infected by AIDS because of this.
Of the five books that I have written, four of the books were created from evidence of serious negativity: upon reflection, this is disappointing for me. I am also very disappointed that I did not achieve my objective in 2003 to start the electronics business. I had high hopes in 2003 to start this business. This is another book that I have not enjoyed writing, that I did not want to write !
This book has taken about twice as long as it should have done to write, this is because of poor induced mental state by the pervert psychologists. Much of the book has had to be re:written. The whole original format has been seriously adapted, this has taken a lot of time. My average time spent writing this book per working day at five hours over the year, thirty hours per week. This is plus two hours or more resting per day, thinking, making notes for this book.
In mid February to mid March 2004, I tried to produce an accounting system for my induced sexual interests at this time. This involved studying images in newspapers, and on the streets, and whilst travelling in a car to try to build up an assessment of the points system as used in this book for viewed body parts to record my sexual interests at the time.
The thinking behind this was that a video could be produced whilst travelling in a car using a wide angle camera to visually record event with a commentary of the sexual interest of named body parts and people as I passed them.
This exercise was negative for me in that over the month this exercise increased the level of sensuality for adults and children as time progressed. I am currently trying to program out my investigative interest that is linked to psychological profiling tests, and I am trying to decrease the level of sensuality to a normal level. What ever that is for a single person that wants love ? and this person is petrified of any new pair bonds developing: in case in fault they corrupt.
For me, with peculiar to my brain program, images that sexually interest, the interest is lessor when viewing the images again after a short time period.
22nd Day of March 2004. I am angry, very angry at the loss of credibility in 2003 and 2004. I am also angry that I could not start the electronics business: that I wanted to start. I am angered to a lessor degree that I had to write this book, I did not want to do this. The anger had rescinded by Mid April 2004.
I intend this summer - 2004 to try to get my books published in paper, unfortunately non fiction books are not as popular as they were: and there is less academic material published now on television.
To conclude this final analyses, I see sexual psychological profiling as horrendous. There are many seriously mentally impaired people that do not want to enter in to any sexual pair bonding relationship for fear of further mental impairment: and these people most certainly do not want to enter in to harmful to the victim unlawful sexual activity. However, these people cannot stop looking with sexual desire at certain live images, why should these people be sexually psychologically profiled and the tabulated resultant negative data published ?
Throughout this book the differing percentage of my sexual desires for certain images is published. Sexual psychological profiling does not currently account for such percentage assessment of sexual desire.
Knowing that a relative or friend has lied to you, and this lie has had a negative projection as far as you are concerned, this is very mentally destabilising. Knowing that a relative or friend has been part of sexual psychological profiling that has involved tests on you that has negated your mental state is as equally destabilising. Knowing that all your friends and relatives were involved in such testing is very mentally negating for me: this has caused serious depression and suicidal mental states for me.
I have been particularly depressed as I near the completion of this book, I have had to read this book several times to adapt and check for mistakes near this completion: this has been very depressing for me. I may be wrong, but in my current mental state, obviously I now cannot trust anybody, the knowledge of this: adds to the already induced depressive mental state.
I want to publish this book in paper, so my friends and relatives can see the results of their profiling labours. If I commit suicide, I want them to know that collectively that they helped induce many of the published phobias and peculiar sexual interests that caused my unhappiness and suicide.
I can see a parallel with Marie Curie, I have investigated an unknown material, I did not know that this was a dangerous thing to do, the investigation of this unknown material has made me very unwell: and could lead to my early death.
Ipswich is a cesspool, a den of inequity. A lot of ignorance, A lot of violence, A lot of drugs: and the violence associated with the drugs dealing. There is no University, no Abbey, No Cathedral, No Castles, No Airport, No outstanding architecture.
The Broom Hill lido pool has now been shut: this is an outstanding piece of 20th century Art Deco architecture, and the pool is loved by the local people. Ipswich Airport was closed: although there was fierce opposition to this. Ipswich Borough Council closed both these major facilities for cash gain to spend on other stupid projects: all of this is for great gain by their friends, the developers.
I.B.C agents stated that Ipswich airport had little use, this was true, because I.B.C. would not allow the development of the airport. Ipswich is currently serviced by five distant airports. Norwich, Luton, Gatwick, Heath Row, Stanstead. Upon research I discovered that eighteen per cent of people that use Norwich Airport come from Suffolk. That's a lot of people for just one of the airports that serve Suffolk. Ipswich airport could have been a very successful business.
This town is run by greedy pigs that have no care for the town, they have raped and plundered the town over the years. All I.B.C. are interested in is, build more houses, get more money, get more power. Any person that goes up against them, as I have, runs in to serious harassment and mental impairment.
Colchester, Cambridge, Norwich have airports and progressive councils. Colchester is noted for it's architectural features. Colchester Council supports the 20C society, this national society promotes the retention of interesting 20th century architecture. Colchester council also has a literary officer to promote literature creation in the area.
Ipswich is an academic wasteland: governed and controlled by greedy corrupt pigs. For a indication of Ipswich culture look at a picture of the tractor boy. It must be on the internet. There is a very strong nightclub culture in Ipswich, there is a lot of associated violence, very little is published, the police are not very interested in this violence.
In 2003 there was televised program in the U.K. pertinent to the
subject, Is life machine - life is machine. I have been trying to
get a video copy of this program: to no avail. Upon enquiries to
television companies, their reference systems are,
1. For program controller.
2. Producers name.
3. Program title.
I have none of this information. As yet, I have not been able to sight this televised program. I need the above information, or to sight any published data pertinent to this subject. Please Help !!!
As expected, not much help. I wrote to Mr. Clive Simms. Forensic Psychologist at the St. Clements Mental Hospital Ipswich. In December 2003. I wanted confirmation of the existence of 1. Sexual Psychological Profiling. 2. The correct forensic analyses titles for certain tests, and any published reference help that he could supply pertinent to such testing to help with this book. Pertinent edited paragraphs from the letter are published below.
There has been a considerable hate campaign against me for
seven years. For four of these years I have been the subject of
very severe field sexual psychological profiling. I became so ill
because of this, I eventually failed every test to get rid of
these mostly amateur idiots.
I have failed thousands of tests to investigate this art, and I
have nearly finished the book detailing the un-professionalism
of all the agencies, including the police.
The objectives of the book are,
1. To reduce violent crime and the associated misery and cost to
the state associated with this.
2. To reduce paedophile crime and the associated misery and cost
to the state associated with this.
3. To reduce the incidence of amateur sexual psychological
profiling leading to realisation of this by the victim,
resulting in violence by the victim to the tester, resulting in
the denial of testing by the tester, resulting in the victim
being wrongfully detained indefinitely in a mental hospital
as violently delusional.
4. To lobby for the licensing of people, professionals, that can
only practise the art of field sexual psychological profiling.
Any publication of analysed results to the general public to be
unlawful. Severe penalties imposed.
5. To make it unlawful for any not licensed person to carry out
field sexual psychological testing, with severe penalty
imposition.
6. The overall objective is to clean up this very dirty amateur
profession, and ask the question, does this art currently
reduce criminal activity ?
It,s time that I got to the point of writing to you. There are
sexual profiling tests where I need to know, what these tests are
called ? and where can I research this art ? I have detailed
typical tests of my interest below. I have searched the internet,
I could not find the relevant information there.
TEST 1.
The tester moves the palm of his hand with his fingers
symmetrically extended slowly down his face from his ear to
his chin.
The victim shows interest by turning his head to look at the
testers face.
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The tester moves his fingers slowly across his mouth.
The victim shows interest by turning his head to look at the
testers face.
TEST 2
The tester slowly moves his hand up to touch his ear, he then
places his hand back near his waist or back on the table. Five
to ten seconds later the tester repeats this movement touching
his chin, again dropping his hand down. Five to ten seconds
later in similar fashion the tester touches his cheek, again
dropping his hand down. This test can be carried out in any
order of the above with five to ten second intervals between
movements.
The victim fails the test by a nerve in the victims face giving
pain, the pain can be a low level irritation, or a high level
pain, similar to having a long hair pulled out of the face.
Depending upon the level of pain the victim will touch his
face where the pain is, moving slow for an irritant, moving fast
for severe pain. If the victim is in a poor mental state, knows
this is a test, he cannot fight it, the nerves will react, he
has to respond, he has to fail the test.
TEST 3.
The tester is seated, he moves his hand across his lower thigh
across his knee cap.
The victim who is seated near him fails the test by making a
body movement, the author considers this as a reciprocative body
language movement, the victim has to move, he cannot control this
reciprocative body movement.
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The tester is seated, he has one foot on the floor, the other
foot is above the floor, this foot he moves by slowly circling
his leg rotating the foot slowly through 360 degrees in about a
12 inch movement, usually the tester will make two or three
slow circular movements with his foot.
The victim who is seated near him fails the test by making a
body movement, the author considers this as a reciprocative body
language movement, the victim has to move, he cannot control this
reciprocative body movement.
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The tester is seated, he has one foot on the floor, the other
foot is above the floor, the foot above the floor he moves
backwards and forwards in a slow swinging action.
The victim who is seated near him fails the test by making a
body movement, the author considers this as a reciprocative body
language movement, the victim has to move, he cannot control this
reciprocative body movement.
Test 4.
Relatives, Sisters, Daughters, Etc.
Sexual interest should be blocked as far as close relatives are
concerned, Sisters Daughters Etc. The psychological protection
barrier for relatives should be in place and sexual interest
blocked. Occasionally this protection is corrupted, and in
such instance the tester who is the relative, will brush his /
her face or hair. The victim who does not want the corruption of
the low level sexual interest increased by such circumstance:
looks away.
The book that I am currently writing also looks at how such low
level psychological sexual interest stimulation by many persons
can be used in public places to change a victims sexual interest
to a new interest in older or younger partners, also: change to
different gender interest, or change to a paedophile interest.
This unethical covert practise can be carried out for political
character assassination, upon the published tabulated results of
employed professional psychologists versed in the art of setting
up tests to ascertain such interests.
I am hoping that you can help me,
I am,
YOURS SINCERELY
TONY JOHNS
I received a reply from Clive Simms dated 8th January 2004. This was as expected: useless. The reply was so short that I copy the reply in full below.
Dear Mr. Johns.
Thank you for your letter of the 17th December 2003, which I have
acknowledged. As far as I am aware all profilers who are employed
by statutory services are adequately trained.
Yours Sincerely.
C.A.Simms.
Consultant Forensic Psychologist.
Specialist in Clinical Neuropsychology
I felt that Clive Simms could have helped me a lot more, if he did not have the knowledge that I wanted, I felt that he: could have pointed me in the right direction to obtain it. He is well acquainted with the police: and was probably advised not to help me. Also, he probably has direct computer access to police psychology data bases.
If any person reading this book can help with the above, I would certainly appreciate: the knowledge.
Below is a fantasy dream, it illustrates my current mental state. As the dream is a fantasy: it has no scientific value. If you are a scientist reading this book, and only interested in fact, please fast forward to the credits and the scientific references sections and interesting links sections. This is effectively the end of this book, however, there is further reading after the short fantasy referred to above: in the tests section. The assessment for all the perceived pertinent tests 2003 - 2004, follow the reference section.
Below is typical of a bad dream that I could easily experience as I awake, at any time. It's mid August 2003
I am crawling through a mine field, it's dirty, there is rubbish everywhere, I come across a cesspool, there is a big sign on the side of this cesspool,
I find myself crawling through this mine field, what a mess, how did I get here ? this is crazy, I don't believe this, oh mother help me, this cannot be the end. I look across the pool, through the mist, I can see something, it looks like a diving board, a spring diving board. I don't believe that I am seeing this, It must be a visual hallucination, I close my eyes, I slowly open them again, the diving board is still there, It's beautiful, I crawl around the cesspool.
The diving board looks pristine, I crawl on the board, there is a small notice on the side of the board, Ipswich Borough Council Contracts. This small notice makes me extremely concerned for safety. I check the pressure bearings at the fixed end of the board by jiggling about, there is no movement, The board looks very well fixed in to the dirt, the board is good, it feels good. I stand up walk to the end of the board, I have always lived on the edge, I like the competition.
I start to bounce up and down, this is good, this is fun, I haven't been on a diving board for a long time, this is great. I slip off the end of the board, hit my head on the board and fall straight in to the cesspool, It's smelly, It's dirty, its horrible, I seem to be falling, picking up speed, this is frightening, suddenly I slow down and land on the edge of the top of a very tall building, there is abseiling equipment, and an instructor, I start to slowly abseil down the side of the building, I pass a large sign, Ipswich Borough Council H.Q.
I start to slowly pass the top office, there are a few people in there, they are all sitting at their desks arms folded sleeping with their feet up on the desks. There is a sign on the wall stating: if any person gets in your way screw their head up. I travel further down the building, the next office has people practising their putting shots, ( golf ).
The next office, there is a guy reading a newspaper, I asked him what he was doing ? he replied he was looking after the office for his boss, the head of leisure services. Where is your boss I asked ? he replied, he has gone up to the golf course, he is always there with his mates sorting out and signing contracts. He further added, he is doing well, he has lots of nice friends, I am hoping to get his job when he retires.
I pass a few more offices, there is nobody in them, I assume that they are all at the golf clubs or in private clubs somewhere.
The next office I come to there is a guy working at his desk, I ask what he is doing, I asked if he was in good mental health ? he replied, that he was fine. He then stated, that his goal in life is to block pave Ipswich, all of it, the project is going well, I he said, I am earning a fortune from back-handers, life is great, I have bought a run down farm, I am getting the boys to refurbish it, he added, you won't see any of that crap block-paving on my farm, I don't want my lovely farm to resemble Ipswich.
The next office has some guys playing violins, the quality of the playing is horrendous, I have never heard a din like it, I ask what's going on, the guy replied, can't you see ! we are practising our playing: when we are expert, we can go upstairs, they are all expert fiddlers up there.
I get to the next office, there is a notice on the wall, Broom Hill Swimming Pool Closed, Now That's A Result, there is nobody in the office, I pass a lot more empty offices and get to the street, I pass through the pavement, it's getting darker, I am becoming concerned.
Suddenly things get brighter, I find myself falling to turf, It's a golf course, I think, I hope I am not hoping to meet I.B.C. hierarchy here, I don't like them. There is a sign post, just like countryside sign posts. The signs say Colchester, Norwich, Cambridge, there is an icon of an aeroplane depicting airports on each sign, I like aeroplanes, perhaps there is hope for me yet.
I look around, there is nobody on this golf course, the sun has just started to rise, it's warm, it must be mid summer, It's early morning, it must be about 5 am, the place looks familiar, I recognise the golf course and the trees in the distance, It's St. Clements Mental Hospital Golf Course, I am in St. Clements again, Oh No, this hospital is gross, I do not want to be here.
I start to walk across the golf course, I notice a corpse hanging in a tree, then I notice another tree, another corpse. There are binoculars hanging around my neck, I use these binoculars, in the distance, more trees, more hanging corpses. I notice one corpse has got a letter in his hand, I look at the rest, they have all got letters in their hands.
I read the letter on the first corpse.
My wife is a psychiatrist, she goes mental when she loses it,
I lost all our money and our house, I was an investor in Ipswich
Town football club, I lost the lot. She went mental, right off
her head, screamed at me, swearing and shouting, I thought that
she was going to kill me. She ordered me out of the house, told me
she was divorcing me, how did I get it so wrong, I used to joke
that my assessments had more credibility than hers.
I read the letter on the second corpse.
I loved Ipswich airport, I nearly died when it closed, it was my
life, I was always up there, helping with the planes, always
something to do, I still can't believe that Ipswich Council shut
that airport. I lost my wife recently, I had a nervous breakdown,
I read the letter on the third corpse.
I was president of a bowls club in Ipswich, the council put the
ground rent up 700 per cent from 700 pounds per year to 7000
pounds per year, the club could not afford that, the club was
my life, bowling with my mates was all I had to look forward too
every year, it kept me going, it was my life.
I notice a body on the ground, there is blood gushing like a
fountain from his stomach, the man is still alive, he
talks,
" I've only got about a minute left, let me die. I am a head teacher, major maths, I loved my job, my wife died five years ago, it all went down hill after that. The books would not balance at the school, I went through the books again and again, they tallied, the fiddle was not at the school. The fiddle was at the council, they insisted the fiddle was at the school, I said call in the police, they would not let me call in the police the whole thing got me down, the school was so short of money, this had never happened before. "
I am not a homosexual, I have never been interested in that way in the children. I started to look at the boys, they became sexually attractive to me, this had never happened before. You will think this is crazy, I feel that this interest was induced: I don't know how they did it, I am sure this was induced. The kids knew this, as I walked past them they would call me names behind my back, pervert, queer, nonce, bender: this depressed me, made me very ill.
I was telling one of the nurses, I told her that I was glad that I was off the heavy drugs, these drugs had forced my tongue hard out of the side of my mouth, I could hardly talk, I said that I was glad that this had stopped. She asked if I could get my tongue up my nose, I tried to get my tongue up my nose, shortly after this I realised that she was ridiculing me, and also being disgusting: the nurses don't seem to care, nobody seems to care.
I start falling again, I find myself at a bus stop on Nacton Road, I listen intently to a conversation, I now always listen to any conversation, are they talking about me ? The woman is talking about the council tax, she says, " I am paying 84 pounds a month, there is nothing in Ipswich: where does all the money go ? you go to other towns, they have got such wonderful facilities. Where does all the money go? There is nothing here. I can't understand it. "
I turn and listen to another conversation. Two boys talking, " I used to do a paper round, It paid for me to go to Broom Hill for the summer holiday. We don't have much money, It was my summer holiday, I like sunbathing and diving. I got in with the wrong crowd this summer: there was nothing to do, went breaking in to houses and stealing cars. I am now off to the probation office: I doubt that I will get a good job now, my life is a mess, I lost all my honest friends.
I start falling again, I pass a woman in a black suit holding a placard above her head, I don't bother to read the placard, I know who she is. I finally get to the bottom of the cesspool, it looks familiar, bear cans, fast food rubbish, crisp packets, spent condoms. I sit and ponder, I cannot believe that I am here, this is not real. I should have checked that diving board, this was stupid, the end of the diving boards surface was worn: I should have checked it. I.B.C management have killed me.
I move some of the mud away with my hands, there appears to be some sort of mosaic plastic flooring, perhaps there is hope, this looks good, something clean. Upon further inspection I find that it is just plastic expired phone cards, there must be millions of them: I should have known. I look around in despair. I suddenly sight a control panel, there is a key, and a large red button: I turn the key and hit the button so hard that I break my wrist: this is the end.
Program Halt, Program Installed.
My sincere apologies go out to Steven Connor, it looks as though the soul hovers just above the skin, Re: an article in Scientific American February 2004. " Digital Soul ". Steven's step brother Richard Cranium sadly passed on, but as often happens from a negative event a positive event follows thereafter.
Investigative Scientist Steven: was at the cremation. This was a sad occasion for all that were present. Fortunately Steven had his camera with him and sent me this picture below. Often as happens when a cremation takes place the wood nearest the flames from above burns away the top of the coffin, the body quickly heats up and the gas expansion causes the deceased to sit bolt upright. Displayed below is a picture of the erect Richard.
For those people that have not witnessed a cremation, the gases build up can be clearly seen, this happens before the flash point, and the gases can be clearly seen swirling around Richard's head: but most important, the soul is clearly seen in the image around Richard's head. If you look very carefully at the soul you can clearly see the ones and the zeroes: the unequivocal proof that souls are digital. This image has forced me to re: investigate creationalism, and I felt that I just had to stop work for a minute, kneel down on the floor, in reverence, and pray for Steven and Richard.
I am glad that the events since 1996 as chronicled in this book, have not caused me to: enter in to delusory mental states, lose the plot, or lose my sense of humour.
1. Foremost. Thanks to my eldest daughter Dianne for your help that has been considerable over the years, we have helped each other as much as we could: taking in to consideration the unusual circumstance of our lives. Thanks for providing two wonderful grandchildren, and for giving them as much love and care as you can in very difficult circumstance. Love you all lots.
2. My youngest daughter Clair and husband and family in Scotland, love you Lots.
3. My sister and her friends at Norwich, thanks for averting another Serious Neural Corruption, ( Nervous Breakdown ), in the summer of 2003. Love You Lots.
4. Derby Road Surgery in Ipswich, and the Seven Doctors that have helped me professionally and considerably over the years. Thanks, for your professionalism, and care, and on occasions, the considerable time spent with me, to help me.
5. Norwich Hellesdon Medical Practise. Dr.Z.Barber. ( Locum ). You spent a lot of time with me, 14th August, 2003 19th August, 2003. Thanks, for your professionalism, and care.
6. There are some people in Ipswich, that remain anonymous, they have helped me, you know who you are, thanks for your help, particularly: in Y 2003 - Y 2004.
7. Thanks to Norwich Samaritans, and the jo@samaritans.org help line.
8. Thanks to the professionalism of the skating rink that I have used for 25 years, I have never seen anything unsafe at the rinks managed by the proprietor. The current management, the managers, that I see, and have only known me for two years, Paul and Jamie. Thanks for letting me use the rink, The psychologists I feel sure have appraised you of every fault that they have induced in me. In the 25 years that I have used the rink, there was only one person on one occasion that has aroused fantasy masturbation in private at my home. This was a female, not a member of staff, the girl sexually teased me. My very poor mental state of August 2003 caused this masturbation.
9. Thanks to Dan the computer engineer, no involvement in tests by you when I saw you at a friends, and in your shop.
10. Thanks to Pat my neighbour, for your friendship, help, and good neighbourliness for the past 12 years.
11. Thanks to Martin and Chris, I hope that this book does not sever our friendship. If I does, " That's Life ".
12. Thanks to Steve, Alan, Joe, Tony, at the rink for your friendliness.
13. Thanks to Joss Phil and family for your support, I hope that this book does not sever our friendship.
14. Thanks to Denese, Graham, and family for your friendship.
15. My heart goes out to, ( no it does not, or I would be dead ), to the hard working mostly unprofessional field psychology sexual profilers that helped me write this book.
16. Last but not least, David Miles. Thanks for your help David that was considerable, 1988 - 1997. I have now resumed the friendship with David Miles.
New Scientist. 18 October 2003. Page 19. Rejection Really Does Hurt. Social Exclusion Hurts.
New Scientist. 17 November 2001. Page 6. Worldly Wise. Intelligence Depends Upon The Environment.
New Scientist. 30 November 2002. Page 34. A Reference To Data Genetically Carried Forward In Song Birds Appearing In Personal Memory, Referred To As The Aspect Of: The Hard Wired Program.
Bill Bryson, A Short History Of Nearly Everything. ISBN
Dr. Susan Blackmore. The Meme Machine, ISBN
Dr. Richard Dawkins. The Selfish Gene. ISBN
Paul Ekman. Emotions Revealed. ISBN-0-297-60757-X
Daniel Dennett. Consciousness Explained. ISBN
Daniel Dennett. Freedom Evolves. ISBN
Daniel Dennett. The Minds Eye. ISBN
http:// www.memetic1.com - Book Mark this site,
Victor Nathan. The Nervous System. 18615 60079.
New Scientist. 24th May. Page 38. Human Nature / Free Will. Laying The Ghost In The Machine.
Daniel Wegner. The Illusion Of Conscious Will. ISBN ----- -----
New Scientist. 10 May 2003. Page 46. Sex, Brains Robots and Buddhism: looking for free will.
New Scientist. 17 May 2003. Page 46. Breaking Out Of The Straight Jacket. Mental Illness Is Not A Biological Disease.
Daniele Nettle. Strong Imagination - ISBN 0-19-850706-2.
http://www.memetic1.com/mental.asp - An analyses for mental illness.
New Scientist. 22nd November 2003. P34 Legal Killers, W.H.O. Report on street drugs.
New Scientist. 24th May 2003. Page 49. Sara Blaffey Hrdy. Human Nature. Read the Last Column On Page 49.
New Scientist. 04th Oct 2003. Page 51. Spy In The Sky. Intelligent Pedestrian Surveillance Software.
New Scientist. 20th March 2004. Page 38. Bad Or Mad. People With antisocial Personality Disorders Can Still Chose Not To Offend.
Richard Dawkins, The Selfish Gene. ISBN 0-19-286092-5.
Quote 1. Page V from the Preface to the 1976 edition.
" We are survival machines-robot vehicles blindly programmed to preserve the selfish molecules known as genes. "
Authors note, for Quote 1. We are robotic in our hard wired program to practise replication or to replicate. Fortunately, currently for our species, most people decide to have children. The genes are now passed forward in planned replication.
Quote 2. Page 2. " The argument of this book, is that we and other animals, are machines created by our genes."
The Book Of Skin. By Steven Connor. ISBN 1861891938. This book is referred to in this publication to highlight that which in the authors opinion: Steven is not in the real world. An assessment that the soul hovers just above the skin is in my opinion serious delusion. Steven could just be very clever, he probably knows the book is rubbish, however from his choice of subject matter: he stands to make a million pounds, " Nice One ".
New Scientist. 11 Oct 2003. Page 19. Can Gays Become Straight With Therapy ?
New Scientist. 11 Oct 2003. Page 42. Can Pleasure Be Unconscious ?
New Scientist. 20 / 27 Dec 2003. Page 62. Be Happy. Proof That Negativity Creates Negativity.
New Scientist. 27 July 2002. Page 63. Psychiatry Is Deep In Crises. What Will It Take To Sort It Out, Asks Bob Johnson ?
New Scientist. 02 Nov 2002. Page 26. Psychiatry. Brain Teaser. Experts In Psychiatry Disagree.
New Scientist. 29 Mar 2003. Page 44. Gay Men. Environmentally programmed.
New Scientist. 24 May 2003. Page 44. Why Older Men Are Attracted To Young Women, And The Reverse.
New Scientist. 14th Feb 2004. Page 23. Lies Data. Truth is the first casualty of phone chat.
New Scientist. 14 Feb 2004. Page 40. Dumped. 1. Romantic love appears to be a drive as powerful as hunger. No wonder people around the world live and die for love. 2. Can sexual interest percentage level be tabulated by Functional MRI ? Rage is not good for your health: it elevates blood pressure, places stress on the heart and suppresses the immune system. Broken hearted lovers can expire from heart attacks or strokes caused by their depression.
New Scientist. 17 Jan 2004. Page 44. The In Crowd. Same Sex Relationships Are Not A Biological Dead End. In humans, moreover, homosexuality is much too common for it to be considered a genetic aberration.
New Scientist. 31 Jan 2004. Page 40. In The Realm Of Your Senses. We have wondered whether other people see, smell and touch the world in the same way we do. Now there are some real clues to the answer, says Richard Hollingham.
New Scientist. 07 Feb. 2004. Page 44. Interview. James K. Tumwine. James has been heavily criticised and persecuted for his publications. " Quote," from the article. Somebody was telling me recently that if you don't get in to trouble for publishing that story, then it wasn't a good story.
New Scientist. 07 Feb 2004. Page 48. An Island Of No Importance. This is a good look at the skulduggery of successive British Governments.
New Scientist. 14 Feb 2004. Page 32. Do Fruit Flies Dream Of Electric Bananas ? 1. What you pay attention to defines how you experience the world from moment to moment. 2. When the fly watches the stripe, it ignores everything else. "Suppression is the hall mark of attention".
New Scientist. 13th March 2004. Page 32. Parapsychology Special. No definitive scientific proof for E.S.P. or any paranormal behaviour.
New Scientist. 24th April 2004. Page 46. Interview. We hold these freedoms to be self evident. A reference to brain fingerprinting by analyses of the P300 wave. Page 47, middle paragraph.
Scientific American. September. 2003. Page 54. Mind Readers. Brain Fingerprinting. J. Peter Rosenfield, of Northwestern University in the 1980's found that lying elicited the P300 brain wave.
Scientific American. January 2004. Page 38. Decoding Schizophrenia. By Daniel C. Javit and Joseph T. Coyle.
Scientific American. September 2003. Pages 26 - 60 A brain extravaganza covering many brain disciplines, a thirty page treat.
Psychology Review. Vol 10. Number 4. April 2004. Page 26
Schizophrenia. Destiny In Your Genes. A negative input
triggers schizophrenia in people with a genetic imbalance.
To the end of this part of this book, Part-5, and to the end of the next part of the book, Part-6, are the recorded psychology tests: these tests were recorded between late June 2003 and to Mid April 2004. The tests highlight the actions taken by people set up to do the tests: and highlights the activity taken by the spotters, ( the psychologists ). Some tests were deliberately failed to identify friends that were part of this testing process.
The identification of friends taking part is very mentally destructive and causes induced suicidal mental states: and adapts the brain to the negative with induced sensuality.
There is a letters section added, this is in Part-7. The letters section will highlight the letters sent out after this book is published on the internet in April 2004. The responses to the letters will be published.
Hereon is a chronology of the months, June 2003, to mid April 2004. These tests that chronicle the further mental impairment of the summer of 2003 and the first quarter of 2004. My analyses 12 04 04 is that these tests are still going on. This sort of continuous testing has been very mentally destructive since 1996. These notes are created to typify the effect of many of the months continuous testing to obtain my complete psychological profile, and resultant induced poor mental health by the analyses of such testing to search for links: and to retain credibility.
My psychological profile was being obtained by psychologists because I had published that the practise of Sexual Psychological Profiling in it's current state of easy test detection by the victim: and the publication of failed tests to the public by the profilers creates adaptation for the victim. The adaptation is always negative, the adaptation then becomes a recorded false positive with further analysed testing. This science in it's current state is flawed: and should be outlawed.
There was so much testing that I could not record all of the assessed tests: therefore the following is in my assessment about ten to fifteen per cent of the assessed tests. There has been so much testing that to record it, this would have been a full time Job. These notes are evolutionary, and the format for displaying mental impairment gets better as the reader progresses through the notes.
Links that were tried to be made of sexual interests in adults as a comparable link with children: explanations are offered, or a small explanation is a header to the test, such a header as a sample is displayed below.
Link: Sexual link. Is there a homosexuality interest ?
Thursday. 19 June 2003.
Went skating with Chris, Martin, and Kirsty.
No observable tests. I shook hands with John, I asked him if
he was O.K. He had just lost one of his best friends Don, a
skater on the rink, Don, sad for all of us had recently died.
John had black shorts on. The fast skaters on the rink
nearly all wear shorts, I often follow such a fast skater,
this is good fun weaving in and out of people, the
psychologists think that this is a homosexual interest, well,
they do not often get it right. Often there are trains of up to
five people in line doing this, this is good fun.
Link: The interest below in skin colour: the same question
is asked by three different people. 1. Friends Child. 2. Sister.
3. Granddaughter.
Sunday. 22nd June 2003.
Michelle my Granddaughter was the first
to arrive down the stairs in the morning. She asked for a
cuddle and came and laid on top of me as she always does and
we had a cuddle. Michelle asked what colour skin did I like ?
I often see things in black and white, I said black. A couple
of weeks later I mentioned the event and told her the exact
colour brown that I like.
The following week there were tests by the black children that live at 32 Devonshire Rd, a girl aged 10 ? and her sister aged 14 ? the tests took place on Devonshire Road, I walk on this Road most days at about 6 P.M.
Thursday. 26th June 2003
I went to the library. There was Psychological testing
with a black man aged mid twenties, and a late teens dark
skinned girl. The psychologist sat behind me, black suit,
police ? he was unhappy, sighed, that I displayed no interest
in the black man.
Friday. 27th June 2003.
I went to the library. The psychological testing
ensued, the female ( social services ? ) psychologist was seated
near the entrance door. I behaved normal as it is for me now
to do.
Saturday. 28th June 2003.
I went to see Denese my X girlfriend, Sam's Birthday,
Donna her daughter did not jump in to my arms and hug me as
usual, Donna seemed psychopathic, unstable, not the girl that I
had seen a few weeks ago. Denese was not so friendly.
Saturday. 28th June 2003.
I went to see Denese my ex girlfriend, I told Pat my neighbour
that I was going. I felt that there were tests with Donna her 12
year old daughter, Donna shaped her hair in to a pony tail and
asked if it was the right length. Donna stood at one time alone
in the kitchen facing the wall with her back to me.
Donna was dressed in a see through top with black bra underneath with an orange short skirt, I felt that S.S. were supervising a test, Donna seemed very angry, psychopathic. Donna asked what skin colour did I like ? I looked at her, and then her arms, put my finger on her forearm that was coloured brown by the sun, and said, that colour. Denese invited me round for dinner the next day.
Sunday. 29th June 2003.
I had previously launched
ipswichswimmingpools.com with the reward page that highlights
the flawed field psychology testing. I had sent links to
several sport organisations. I went to Asda, shopping, there
seemed to be a lot of unhappy people there milling around me.
As I tried to leave the car park several females placed their
cars so that I could easily hit the cars, they were in blind
spots. As I left Asda I was hemmed in between two Land Rovers.
Michelle, my Granddaughter seemed extra emotional this day, she
also asked me what skin colour I liked, I thought that this
was unusual.
Between the first day of July to date, 9th July, most of the testing between my house and Wellesley road has been carried out by poorly dressed people and children, this is a local social services psychologist clutching at straws.
Sunday. 29th June 2003.
Went to Denese's, for Dinner, took a bottle of wine. After the
meal Graham, Denese, Sam, Jamie were in the kitchen. Sam was
soaked playing in the garden. Denese undressed him, I thought
that this was an ideal time to stop the kids coming around my
house.
I was concerned that they would bring other children to my house that were crooked. When Denese was looking at me, I dropped my eyes and looked at Sam's penis and posterior for a few seconds, Denese saw this. Shortly after this I said that I was leaving, I left, I came home. I was unhappy at what had happened, I should have told Denese straight that I did not want her children to come to my house and why.
There was also another reason, Donna was in a poor mental state, I was in a deteriorating mental state because of all the psychology testing. I was concerned that in my poor mental state, and Donna's poor mental state, my sensuality had risen. I was concerned that if Donna came to my house, that Donna and I could have entered in to inappropriate sexual behaviour.
Tuesday. 1st July 2003.
My Ipswich Swimming pools site was hacked, the
details are posted in the ipswichswimmingpools.com/news directory.
This event made me very confused and depressed for the month,
not angry. I am not an I.T.C. security engineer, I had to
get help to increase the security, this problem took most of
the month in a poor mental state to resolve.
In the first week of July, there were a lot of tests on the route that I walk daily to my daughter Dianne's House. I felt this was Social Services linked, the people were poorly dressed, in my assessment, two of the houses, 107 Cavendish Street, and 32 Devonshire Road are problem families, S.S. have an interest in these families. Tests were primarily set up with their children.
There were also several tests set up from 2 Gladstone Road involving the male occupant aged about thirty and an equal age associate, the tests here were to see if there was a homosexual interest. There were also tests outside the Foxhall newsagents with poorly dressed black clad males and children. Again a feel that this was S.S. clutching at straws.
Thursday. 3rd July 2003.
Went Skating Colchester, with Martin,
Chris, Kirsty sat next to me in the car, pony tail hair style,
I behaved normal, did not show any extra interest in any of the
people in the car, Kirsty kept looking behind, as if to look
for a following car. I felt there were tests on the rink,
Martin skated off the rink in an unusual manner, I looked at
his back as he skated away. I was thinking: that man used to
have great respect for me, later, as I approached Martin,
he danced / acted out running away.
Link: Sexual Link. Black attire adult to black attire child.
Thursday. 3rd July 2003.
Continued. I was in a poor mental state because of my site
hacking. I shook hands with Steve, he is the most friendly
person on the rink to me. We spoke for about a minute, Steve
was wearing black shorts. I saw Alan, I meant to speak to him,
he was not on the rink much, I did not speak to him. There was
a test that I deliberately failed, I often do this so the
tester can be identified. The tester concentrates on the test,
and at the point of failure the tester who has been previously
concentrating, then relaxes, moves. The test was with a very
attractive black clad woman. I deliberately ogled her, and then
ogled a black clad ten year old child that was sitting near her.
The results, were unexpected, a short while later there were shouts of pervert from a group of skating people comprising of Martin, Chris, Kirsty, Tony, Steve, Alan, all friends of mine. The group joined me at a table shortly after, I was not happy that my friends were involved in this test, they asked me if I was all-right ? I replied that my head was screwed up, and that I was not happy. Steve and Alan were smiling, Kirsty was grinning like a Cheshire cat. Chris stated Ipswich was not as bad as some areas in the country, I agreed this. This event severely stressed me out for about a week.
Sexual Interest, In the woman. 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 07 Points.
Days Affected. 7 Days.
The Dirty tricksters, the reds, the psychologists, are winning. I saw Martin Friday evening 04-07-03. He was driving his white camper van down Bishops Hill, he laughed when he saw me.
Sunday. 6th July 2003.
I Went to Bramford fishing with Lynton, behaved
normal, there was a test with 2 girls, and a man with black
shorts, I held my nose looking at the man bent over in the
black shorts, the psychologist looked away displeased.
I cannot move in this town without being observed or tested, the whole town has closed ranks.
Currently, I am slightly concerned at being attacked on the street, I try to memorise the faces of aggressive looking men, this means that I have to look at these men, a few of these men have held their noses as I pass them.
Thursday. 17th July 2003.
Went skating with Chris, Martin, Kirsty, and another
girl. I heard shouts of pervert, wanker, as I skated, this
sounded like Martin, I just ignored it as usual, however,
this made me angry. There was a group of people that appeared
to be observing me from the upstairs bar. I was angry and
less caring than usual of the children that use the rink, I
must remember to be more caring in future. I skated very
fast, like a maniac, I skated so fast that the pressure on one
of my toe nails blackened it, and my left leg muscle still
hurt ten days later.
Friday. 18th July 2003.
I cut the grass at my house, I noticed Pat my neighbour
with her back to me cleaning her window, I felt that this was a
test, she could see me in the reflection. I quickly walked up to
her and immediately spoke to her, we exchanged pleasantries.
Pat said that she was cleaning specks off the window. With a
test, one-2-one with a friend, there is usually an offered
explanation as to what they are doing.
Sunday. 20th July 2003.
Went shopping to Asda, 12 O-clock. I felt there was a
test in Chevalier Street with a black clad man, I very
occasionally still fail tests in my poor adapted mental state,
I was attracted to this man, looked at him, and failed this
test.
As I went up Norwich Road there was a child aged about 10-12 sitting in a bay window with her back towards me, she had very attractive, beautiful long blonde hair, I looked at her as I passed, about 200 yards past this girl there was a woman standing on the left hand side of the road with a right hand finger, shaped like a gun, pointing in to the side of her neck, this is the sign that is commonly made to a paedophile. I looked at the woman, I remained expressionless as I passed her.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.When I got to Asda, I had difficulty parking. In Asda there seemed to be women always in my way, I had to ask sternly on one occasion for these women to move. As I went to leave the store and the car park there seemed to be angry women everywhere. As I went to move the car I was blocked in, in such a way that I could have easily hit a car with a woman in it. As I left Asda there was a Land Rover vehicle in front and behind close to me, escorting me. The vehicles followed me down Norwich Road. My analyses of this was that the shit had finally hit the fan regards my ipswichswimmingpools.com site, particularly the reward page. Nice One.
Monday. 21st July 2003.
Walked in to town, to Nat West, As I walked through
Tacket St. to Upper Orwell St., there was a group of men and
woman in suits walking along the path on the other side of the
road. One man and a woman had fingers pointing to their necks
in the classic gun position. I looked at them holding my nose.
Further down the road there was a group of black men on the
path talking, I had to walk in the road to pass them, one of
the men said he did not look, he said this as I passed them.
I then realised that the black suits group was probably the
police.
Tuesday. 22nd July 2003.
Went to Dianne's as usual in the evening, I sat in a
chair near Michelle. Michelle had her school clothes on.
Michelle started to move her legs rhythmically. I immediately
thought police test. Lynton came in the room, black underpants
on and stood in front of me. Lynton moved about a bit. Dianne
came in the room, black clad top, bent over, moved about,
switched the hoover on bending over, Dianne stated that the day
had been hot, this was why she was hoovering at night. Dianne
brought me a cup of tea, bent right over, her breasts nearly fell
out, she remarked upon this. I thought there could be a pin
camera in the room, I did not look for it as I expected this
camera to be most up to date, it would be disguised, and
would not be easily seen. I did not fail any of the tests. For
a few days I was very stressed after this.
Sunday. 27th July 2003.
Went swimming at Felixtowe in the afternoon with
Michelle. There were a couple of tests with black shorts with
men. I went to the toilet, there was a man urinating, he seemed
to be deliberately displaying his penis, I ignored this.
In the changing rooms after the swim, as I changed I noticed
something out of the corner of my eye moving upwards, I looked,
to see an equal aged man pulling up his pants as he was facing
me, I quickly looked away, the tester always reacts, he started
whistling and carried on whistling. I thought this a very
stupid test, in a male changing room, if you look up
you are bound to see penises or posteriors. This was one
of the most amateurish tests that I have seen to date.
On the return journey, as we entered Nacton Road there was a Land Rover parked in an unusual position, I remembered the Land Rovers at Asda, I looked, there was an equal aged man that started to brush his hair as he was standing alongside the vehicle, this made me laugh, what a bunch of idiots, obviously hierarchal I.B.C. Croonies.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.Conclusions,
For the first part of this month I kept waking with recurring nightmares, this was stress / anxiety. I have been very stressed this month with the psychological damage that I have received.
I think that the test on the rink with the black clad woman and child was the police.
I am out of favour with the police, they do not like the I.B.C. site publication.
There seems to be a display of penises since I deliberately failed the test at Denese's.
I am recognised on sight by about ten per cent of the people that I pass on the routes that I use.
I am disliked by every agency in this town, they do not like to see negative Ipswich published.
In the computer crash in the middle of the summer 2003 I lost a file that had the infinite detail of tests that were carried out between the end of July 2003 to the 24th of October 2003. However, most of the important tests had been transferred to this book and have been published in previous parts of this book. We pick up the trail again starting with tests on the 24th October 2003. Some of the tests are duplicated.
Note. In July when I saw my sister she asked what skin colour did I like, I replied light brown, the colour of her forearm.
Friday. 17 October 2003. 10 03. 9 AM.
Outside the school entrance in Woodville Road.
I was walking towards the school gates, A man very quickly
jumped out of his car when I was very near it. I felt it was a
test, he moved too fast, there was a very young child aged 6 ?
sitting in the car, displaying a pony tail. I failed the
test by looking at the child to see if it was a test, there
was no sexual interest in the child.
The failure of the above test made me depressed, I did not work this day.
Friday. 17 October 2003. 8 PM.
In the Foxhall News shop. There was a muscular,
black man with a black vest and black trousers on aged 25 ? I
was not interested in him. A shop assistant displayed the back
of her head, nice bun.
Saturday 18 October 2003. 12.30PM.
I was returning to my eldest daughters house
after taking Michelle to the park, I was interested to see if any
tests were set up as only my daughter knew that I was likely to
travel this route about this time.
There was a girl, very young, sitting on a wall with an older boy between her legs, they were kissing, this was on Foxhall Road near Alan road. The girl could have been 11 years old, they are getting younger. I was not sexually aroused by this display.
Link: Sexual Link. Pony tails, adults to children. Also
linked from the bugging pony tail fantasy publication in
1996.
At the bus stop near Foxhall News, there was a child with a pony tail, I looked at the child to identify the spotter, he was in a Land Rover outside the Foxhall road shop, however, the spotter could have been in the shop, there was no sexual interest in the child.
I left my eldest daughters at 1 PM. I passed Foxhall news, as I turned the corner outside Foxhall news, I then sighted a child outside the tattoo shop, her back was facing me, she had a pony tail, she was massaging the back of her head and the pony tail with her hands, I took no notice, there was no sexual interest.
Link: Sexual link. Pony Tails: to young child.
Sunday. 19 October 2003.
I went skating with Michelle at the Colchester
skating rink. Arrived there at 3PM. I skated for about an hour,
I did not identify any positive psychology tests. I skated fairly
slow, because there were many children on the rink, I was quite
happy, I always am when I am skating, I love skating. I was
relaxed, skating in the normal anticlockwise direction. I had
just turned the corner and was skating down the long straight,
in the direction of the cafeteria.
There were some people in front of me, I could not see over the top of them, I was approaching these people, there was a clear space to the right of these people along the barrier. This barrier separates a public area from the rink. As I skated past the obstructing people, I child aged 10 ? came quickly in to view, her back was facing me, she was standing, stationary. She had a white top on and was displaying a pony tail, her hair was dark in colour, this could have been very dark brown hair.
I immediately thought test, I froze looking at the girl, ( induced psychological test phobia ), she was still stationary. I lost balance a bit and put out my right hand towards the barrier for stability. I kept my right hand out as an indicator that I was leaving the rink, I proceeded down the rink to the cafeteria exit, still with my hand out, and I proceeded to the cafeteria and purchased a drink.
As I passed the girl after failing the test, Paul the manager, and Jamie the under manager quickly moved away from their very well positioned viewing places. I felt that there was a bit of psychology testing after this with adults, I ignored most of this. This event made me slightly unhappy, however, I was skating, I really enjoy this and I was not going to let this as it appeared, a failed test, spoil my afternoon. I was not unduly sexually attracted to any of the children on the rink.
I noticed Michelle at one stage was sitting crying on the rink, I went to her asked what the problem was, she stated that she had fell over, Jamie the under manager approached us and asked what I was doing ? I replied my granddaughter had fell over, she had hurt her bottom, we were about to leave the rink. Jamie stated, if there were any problems, ( presumably relating to the injury ), do not hesitate to go and see him, I thanked him, and skated off the rink with my granddaughter.
About 30 minutes later, Jamie approached me as I was sitting, resting, and said my granddaughter was sitting alone, she was unhappy her back was hurting. Michelle stated her back hurts if she tries to skate fast. I asked her if she wanted to leave, she replied no. I decided to teach her to skate backwards, this was very slow movement for her back. She was happy with this, we left the rink at 5:45PM. I said goodbye to Paul the manager, as we left. We had an ice cream as usual at the garage on our return journey.
Note. Michelle was knocked over by a girl skating in the wrong direction. I was knocked over by another girl skating in the wrong direction. In the last three months, I have been knocked over three times by children aged 10 -14 skating in the wrong direction.
Monday. 20 October 2003.
Before I awoke I had a negative dream, I man that I did
not know faced me and told me that he had some bad news for me.
He said "I am sorry your granddaughter is dead. I then awoke. This
is the first negative dream for a few weeks. Some of the prior
dreams recently have been quite positive. I got up early to start
work, took a bath, laid in the bath for 2 hours depressed at the
test event of the day before. After bathing went and laid in bed
depressed at the test event of the day before, 12:30PM. Started
typing up notes for yesterday, and today, I have decided to go to
the library to do some research, to try and salvage something from
the day. I wonder what tests and tricks will be at the library ?
It is now 2:00PM - 20-10-03.
Monday. 20 October 2003. 9:00 PM.
I went to bed, I soon went to sleep, I awoke
after a short while, bad recurrent throat blockage dream, the
dream made me sit on the side of the bed trying to clear my
throat. After a few seconds, I then realised that this was just
another bad dream. I eventually went to sleep after about an hour.
I cannot remember the last time I had a recurrent throat blockage
dream, this must be at least eight weeks ago. This Sunday skating
rink event has certainly upset me.
Tuesday. 21 October 2003.
I awoke at 8AM, laid in bed unhappy, I did not feel like
starting work, however, I made myself start work. Started work at
9:30AM. Started by adding relevant data to these notes. I was
happy whilst I was working, but became unhappy because of Sundays
event when I stopped working.
Wednesday. 22 October 2003.
The day was similar to the day before. I went to my
eldest daughters, I discussed Sundays event, my Daughter became
very angry shouting, " I thought that you had got over this
testing business ". She stated there could have been tests at
her house, Dianne stated, " that she wears pony tails, so does
my granddaughter. My granddaughter overheard the conversation and
Joined us. My granddaughter had undone her hair that was platted
a few moments earlier.
I thought that my daughters outburst was unusual, I thought a more sympathetic mode would have prevailed. I did not expect my granddaughter to let her hair down, why she did this I do not know.
The ipswichswimmingpools.com site went live again in the middle of October. It had been shut down for two months while I changed I.S.P. I expected an increase in field psychology testing, nothing much happened until,
Saturday. 1st November 2003.
I left my house to go to the Coop shop and the Foxhall Newsagents
Shop at 7-P.M. As I walked up Gladstone Road, there were two
bottoms tests, people bent over in to cars displaying their
bottoms. Both these people were black clad, this was one male and
one female, the female was bent crouching just inside the car
door, displaying her rear view and a bun hair style. I obviously
saw these people as I approached them, I was not interested
sexually in these people.
I turned the corner at Foxhall Road, about thirty yards on, as I approached the coop door, parked on the other side of the road was a car with a black clad woman with a good figure and a nice pony tail hair style facing the rear of the car, I aged her at about 25. I liked what I saw, and I looked at this young woman for about two seconds. I realised this was probably a test, however, I was not unduly perturbed at this. I did have sexual interest in the woman's image, and the table is displayed below.
Sexual Interest, 05 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. 00 Days.
I left the coop shop and walked across Foxhall Road to the Foxhall Newsagents. As I approached the shop, on the corner, there was a man with his bottom sticking out of the car, I ignored this display and went in to the shop. At the check out there was a man standing profile in front of me, I stood looking at the man as I was waiting, I could have looked at the girl who was serving, however, I do not like this girl. Eventually, I realised that the man I was looking at was wearing blue shorts, eventually I got served, and left the shop. I felt that I was marked down for the testing, the man in the shop, as well as a false report for the man outside. There would not be much truth in the published results. I returned home unhappy, had a quick read, and then went to bed depressed.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 04 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
Sunday. 2nd November 2003.
I went swimming at Colchester Leisure Centre with Lynton. I did
not see any testing there, however, I was a bit more interested
in my perception of nice breasts there, this I put down to the
induced recent poor mental state. I had a good time swimming with
Lynton, we returned to Ipswich, the weather was miserable, the
psychology testers were probably watching television.
Monday. 3rd November 2003.
I started work at 9 am, I finished work at 4PM, left the house
and went to my daughters. In Gladstone Road a woman aged about
25, black clad, nice dark hair pony tail came out of a house,
crossed in front of me on the path, she walked across the road
to the short cut alley way that comes out near the coop shop.
She looked hard, ( harsh, demanding ), I was not very interested
in her, sometimes there is interest, sometimes there is not.
I went to my eldest daughters, Michelle let me in to the house, as I walked in to the lounge, I looked in to the kitchen looking for my daughter, surprise, there was a boy that I know aged 8 ? dark clad with his back towards me, legs slightly apart. I knew that this was a test, so I went and sat down, after a few seconds I shouted " hello " to my daughter, she replied, " hello Dad " after a few minutes my daughter entered the room with the child. This test made me very depressed, I stayed for about 20 minutes, I did not say much, I was not very happy, quite angry.
Normally, when I enter the house if this boy is present I speak to him, the situation has always been normal, there has never been any sexual interest in the boy, I like him, he is a very nice intelligent well behaved child.
I realised that I had not purchased any grass seed to refurbish my lawn, there has been a drought, recently it is raining more, I need to plant seed to try to restore the lawn. I asked my daughter if I could borrow the car to go and collect some grass seed, she replied yes, but please call in to the doctors surgery to leave a letter there.
Link: Sexual Link. From Janet Fore Street Post Office,
( her hair display ), and others to this child ).
I collected the grass seed, parked the car at the surgery, walked towards the surgery door, you have to turn a corner to face the surgery door. As I turned the corner, faced the glass door, I could see a child aged 7 ? her back was facing me, she had long blond hair reaching quite a way down, fanned out across her back. I immediately looked away from the child, never looked towards the child again, delivered the letter, and then left the surgery. This was a failed test, It was not natural to quickly look away from the child.
I returned to my daughters house, sat down for a while, Michelle
started moving about, brushing her hair, taking unusual poses,
at one time she opened her legs, and over the top of her trousers
placed both hands, the palms across her vulva, I looked at her,
I did not say anything. I had no sexual interest in any of the
children for any of the testing that was displayed.
1. I could not act normal with the boy child, as soon as I saw
that this was a test.
2. The same with the girl child at the
doctors surgery.
3. The same with my Granddaughter.
All of this behaviour comes under the heading of,
Realised Sexual Psychological Test Phobia.
As I left my daughters house I walked towards the coop shop with my eldest daughter and Michelle, I said goodbye. As my daughter distanced her self, I thought in that in Michelle's hearing range, that my Daughter said pervert. However, I cannot be sure that she said this.
Note. The Doctors Surgery test was the one that I had been waiting for, this is the first time since my analyses has been going on where there was no telephone link between my daughter and a test. The conversation with my daughter of where I was going was a personal conversation in her house. Only my daughter knew that I was going to the surgery.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 04 Points.
Days Affected. 02 Days.
The mental corruption is not as high as readers might expect, the reason for this is the phenomenal mental corruption that has been endured from my daughter over the years, and my grandchildren recently.
Note. Although there was a test at the Doctors Surgery, this does not mean that the surgery staff had any knowledge of this. A psychologist can walk in to a Doctors waiting room with a child and sit down, this would be normal behaviour and not be noticed as odd by anybody. The look out for my arrival could have been in a car in the car park, in mobile phone communication with the person in the surgery.
I cannot now chronicle every test, there are so many, I only now chronicle tests that are harassing, and important.
Monday. 3rd November 2003.
I had eaten a bag of K.F.C. potato chips the
night before, with no bread, and I ate an apple for desert. I had
a pain in my stomach just above the navel all this day, this was
reminiscent of a stomach ulcer pain that I had suffered from a
stomach ulcer in my mid twenties, I know what the pain feels like.
Stomach ulcers are primarily caused by stress. I am not happy with
this physical disorder caused by my assessment of serious negative
input to my brain this year.
I was on holiday at my youngest daughters in Scotland 13th November to the 20th. Returned to Ipswich 21 Nov.
I only felt that there was two tests whilst on holiday, one test at the shop near my daughters with a black clad pony tail girl, I looked at the girl to spot the spotter, John, my Son in law entered the shop whilst I was looking at the girl, he could have been an observer.
Two. I was sitting in the lounge at my daughter Clare's house watching television, my granddaughter Lorna came in to the room and at a short distance from me starting playing about, undoing and re:doing her pony tail, I could see this out of the corner of my eye, I took no notice of this. After about a minute I quickly turned around to see if there was a spotter, my sister was sitting near the door, just in view of me. There was no sexual arousal of interest by me in what my granddaughter was doing with her hair.
Lorna was not so friendly this time, Harry was a lot more friendlier, I cuddled Harry a lot, he often came and sat near me putting his arms around me. There was no sexual interest in the children, or any children whilst I was on holiday, I was very relaxed. I could not observe much testing.
Monday 24Th November 2003.
I went to Fore Street Post office,
there was a bottoms test there, black clad
male, I ignored this. I went to my eldest daughters, I was greeted
by Lynton at the door, white top, black trousers, I immediately
thought test, the pattern for this is Lynton is normally out of
his school clothes, and upstairs on the computer. We went in
to the lounge, Lynton sat down, Dianne was seated, there was a
program about dogs on the television. Lynton would not normally
be interested in this.
My eldest daughter remarked the lights were bright, I thought this is how it would be if there was a pin camera in the room. The television content changed to a beach scene, men in black shorts, children in swimming costumes playing in the sea, I did not take much interest in this, my daughter was displaying a pony tail, she presented this in front of me, I was not interested in this, she then left the room and came back in to the room with her hair let down, I did not look at the display, Lynton was still looking at the crap on T.V.
Michelle came down the stairs displaying a crimped hair style, her hair fanned across her back, I asked who did her hair style, she replied Mummy. There was a bit of moving about by every person in the room, I took no notice of this. After about an hour, I left.
The return from the holiday was not a good week, I returned to have to pay a bill, ( invoice ), that I had overlooked. This made me very short of money. My water heater did not shut down, a pipe burst, steam gushed in to the kitchen, I turned off the gas supply and the water supplies, I fell over running to turn off the water supply outside the house and hurt my back.
About a gallon of water gushed in to the kitchen making the house damp. A length of guttering fell down at the front of the house, I had to fix this, a base unit cupboard door hinge has failed in the kitchen. I also felt that my internet site and computer had been hacked. All of this agitated my stomach ulcer.
Thursday. 27th November.
Went roller skating with Chris and Martin.
There were adults there with video cameras, the only children that
I thought were unusual was an 8 ? year old black boy, and a 12 ?
year old white boy wearing a black vest, shoulders and arms exposed
skating on the rink. I purposely avoided these children, there was
no sexual interest, but I knew that there was video evidence
being collected of me skating on the rink.
After about half an hour I was approaching the black vest child, I had to pass close by him, this happens, you cannot skate all night avoiding a person, sometimes you have to pass close to them. I was swearing and cursing as I had to approach this child. The man that was recording me with the video camera recorded this event, he left shortly after, so did the black vested child.
There were girls dancing, elevated on the seating podiums along side the rink, normally I would like to see the children dancing enjoying themselves, I like to look at people enjoying themselves. I did not look at these children dancing, I did not take undue interest in any children. I only had slight sexual interest in children, females that were displaying good adult shape body figures, with good shape breasts. I do not want to have sex with children or anybody else, as always, there was no sexual fantasy masturbation generated from the child or adult imagery.
I spoke to Steve in the cafeteria, I explained that the psychological testing everywhere had made me ill this year, I explained that I had mostly got over the attraction for the black colour. Note. This has returned this year at a lessor level with the new induced mental corruption.
I explained to Steve that I was in a poor mental state, I now hated Ipswich and I now hated most of the people. I stated that I have been abused and tortured over a long period of time by many people in Ipswich, It is not surprising that I hate the place. Note. This paragraph had to be edited: to avoid legal problems.
There were tests on the rink with black clad adults and children, There were tests with people bending over the pool table, I ignored all this silliness, there was no sexual interest, I feel that most people on the rink are aware of the psychological testing, and that skating can be engineered to make me skate near more children. It's an area for interest by and for the amateurs, it's a freak show.
Saturday. 29 November. 2003.
I went to my eldest daughters, there
were pony tail tests by Dianne, I had gone there to do some
electrical work, the testing negated my mental state, when I left
I forgot my glasses, journals, magazines that I had collected from
the newsagents to read. Fortunately I had spare reading glasses
and I found other material to read or I would have gone to bed at
seven o'clock. Negativity always creates negativity. Dianne walked
with me to the Foxhall news agents shop, a black man came out of the
shop looking at me, I stared back at him, there was no sexual
interest.
Sunday. 30th November. 2003.
I went to Asda, there was no telephone confirmation for this, I
felt that there were numerous tests with children, four of the
tests,
1. A 10 ? year old child stared at me as I entered the store,
I stared back.
2. A test 18 ? year old female and male black clad, the female
was sporting a nice pony tail, I briefly looked at the female.
3. A beautiful long blond haired female child aged 5 ? at the
check out.
4. A female child aged 9 ? short skirt, boots, back facing me
as we left the store, my granddaughter was guiding the trolley
as we went near this child.
There was no sexual interest in the children. On the return
Journey there could have been a test with a black boy, I looked
at him as I approached the zebra crossing, I always look at
children near crossings.
Sunday. 30th November. 2003.
In the afternoon, I went to the
leisure swimming pool at Colchester with Michelle, we used all
the swimming facilities, I went on the rapids with Michelle
about twenty times, this was good fun. There is a lot of
touching and bumping in to people on the rapids and on one
occasion a 20 ? year old woman ran her hand across my trunks
touching my penis. In an authoritative voice I said that's
not allowed, the woman laughed, so did I.
I was not aware of any touching of children by me that could be considered improper, on route, and in the water tank, I always put my hands in the air as soon as I can. It was a good afternoon, if there was any testing, I did not see it, however, there could be observers in the seated area. As I left the pool area, I passed the manager, I thanked him for our visit.
Link: Sexual Link. Black clad adult: to black clad child.
I left Dianne's to return home at 9 P.M. I passed Paul Friatt black Clad with his wife Kim standing in his house door way, I said good night. When I was nearly home, as I turned the corner from Cavendish Street to Bishops Hill, I could see a young boy aged 12 ? standing on the corner of Myrtle Road. I looked across the road because this was unusual, it was so late. There was no sexual interest in Paul, Kim, or 12 year old boy.
I walked up the hill on the opposite side of the road to the, boy, when I was well past him I looked back to see spotters, I then saw the boy getting in to a car. There was of course no sexual interest in this boy.
Typing up this latest account from the start of the holiday has taken five hours, this has wasted my day, annoyed and depressed me.
Thursday. 11th December 2003.
I contacted the samaritans at Norwich this day, the
profiling and another matter that I am not prepared to record
made me very suicidal. I am not prepared to record this matter
although there is nothing unlawful in the content, I feel that
there are people that want me dead, they want me to commit
suicide: and knowledge of this matter is ammunition to them. The
samaritans, and their e-mail service helped me.
Saturday. 13-December 2003.
At my sisters. My sister was black clad, and I feel
that she performed the following tests.
1. As I sat near her she kept touching her chin, cheek, ears,
allowing a thirty second interval between actions.
2. Similar time intervals, then touching her elbows, brushing her
arms, and fore arms.
I felt that to do such tests my sister would have had to be
instructed by a forensic psychologist. This testing did not
annoy me.
Tuesday. 16-December 2003.
In Ipswich I Went to the bank. As I passed John Olivers Hair
dressing poodle parlour at 29a ? Fore St. there was a woman
with a rather poor figure standing with her back towards me.
I looked at the woman as I felt this was a test, I wanted to
fail it, to see if further linked / related testing happened
that day.
As I came out of the bank, walking towards the banks front, door: there was a black clad woman at 10 O'clock, standing, facing a child on the opposite side of the door way. The child at 2 O'clock, was black clad and facing the wall, the child could not see me. I estimated the child's age at 4, the child appeared to have an older child's black coat draped across her back, It looked a bit like a cape / cloak, I thought for a moment, bat girl, I must be in Gotham City.
The child could not see me approaching, I had to look at the child in case the child moved: I would have fell over the child hurting the child and myself if the child had moved. I was very angry at this stupid test, I had to look, at the child, this could have been video recorded, circulated in the area near my house where I walk, to use in the hate campaign: to endanger my life.
Link: Sexual Link. From the poodle parlour: back test.
Later that day in the afternoon, as I left my house, there was a middle aged woman, red clad, bent over a pram, the spotters, one of them aged 16, ethnic, brown skin, were a bit further down the hill. I did not look at the bent over woman, there was no interest, however, I felt this test was linked to the John Olivers Display. I also felt that as there was an ethnic involved, this was unlikely to be the police, my assessment: was Social Services / vigilante interest, connected to Foxhall News, Etc.
Thursday. 18-December 2003.
Went with Joss to the scrap yard to dispose of a
quantity of transformers that I had kept for six years to use to
start an electronics business, I now felt that the transformers
were not suitable to be sold in new equipment, so they were
scrapped, a retail value of six thousand pounds went to the tip
to realise for me: sixty five pounds, I paid eighty pounds for
them in an auction, such is life.
I like Joss, we had a good day, laughing and chatting, I mentioned the testing, I said that I was always under surveillance, always psychological profiling tests. I said they know where I am, I will point out the tests as we go round. This statement destabilised Joss, she was confused. I only saw one test, there was an Afro, dreadlocks, white suit, how unusual, standing on edge of the path as we came down Felixstowe road, he started to swing a leg, I thought nice one: such action makes you look in case he is walking off the path in front of the vehicle. I saw this out of the corner of my eye as we approached him. I showed no interest, there was no sexual interest. The spotters were a little further on, two women standing with push chairs. Social Services / vigilante.
At the time, I felt that the whole conversation with Joss was being transmitted / monitored, we discussed my minor sexual interest in the colour black, I did not state to Joss that I had no interest in black clad children. I stated that I liked watching the black clad profilers, women, and that I felt that I could differentiate between the police and amateur profilers. There were tests at my daughter Dianne's later that day, she danced about black clad, I took no interest. From memory, I do not think that I was annoyed. However, this testing depressed me the next day.
Below is the link to Part-6. Part-6 records the relevant listed tests from mid December 2003 to mid April 2004.
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