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Copyright (C) Anthony William Johns. Years 2002 To 2007.
34 Bishops Hill. Ipswich. Suffolk. IP3 8EN.
In the previous part of the book you saw how the psychologists, their antics, and their computer bugging capabilities, seriously negated the authors brain almost to destruction. By December 2002, the authors brain had recovered from the serious mental impairment, there was no sexual interest in children under the age of 13. This age group, 13 / 14 induced a low level of sexual interest.
There was never at any time an interest to commit sexual offences. The homosexual interest had gone, the sexual interest in the colour black in adults was still a bit prevalent: but far lessor than had been in 1996 to 1999. By stating that the peculiar interests had gone, these interests had obviously been reduced to a level below conscious awareness.
In this part of the book, because of the 2002 Reward publication, published on the internet in December 2002. In 2003 the psychologists return, the authors analyses of the psychology testing to retain credibility in 2003: corrupts the authors brain once again to perversion. From here on the author refers to the sexual psychological profilers as the pervert psychologists. These people are perverts, they corrupt good brains, they know how to do it: they are good at it. The realised failed psychology tests once again cause massive brain destability, and as seen in the previous parts of this book, this causes lewd / perverted interests.
This is a recurrent loop, any vulnerable person can be induced in to this loop, particularly, for political gain. As Stated, the author was and is very vulnerable, an easy target again for perversion. In this mind bending experience reloaded section of this book, as the return of the pervert psychologists corrupt the authors brain once again: not only is there a return to a perverted and suicidal mental state, a new mental state appears: this is extreme paranoia, this happens in the middle of the third quarter of the year 2003. By the start of the first quarter of the year 2004, the author had returned to a better not corrupted mental state.
Here is a list of points that are an issue in this part of the book.
1. The tests, as realised, went through all of my family and friends. Again, this is very extremely destabilising.
2. The test destability again corrupts the authors brain to perversion.
3. The computers are still bugged, the telephone is still monitored.
4. Paranoia was introduced at a level previously unknown, I had to stay with friends at Norwich, well away from Ipswich to avoid a nervous breakdown.
5. The police psychologists tried to link hair styles and colour sexual interests in adults to the same interests in children. Note the relevance of this is referred to in the analyses section.
6. Psychology tests are recorded again in this part of the book with the relevant proven result tables.
7. Many amateurs take part in the tests.
8. I tried to start an electronics business again, I went on various business courses to help start this business. I had to abandon starting this business in the middle of the year 2003. I was again seriously mentally negated by the pervert psychologists, I was again faced with fighting for my credibility.
9. I had to fail some tests to identify the testers, don't forget, that the testers often move immediately after a test.
10. A slight paedophile, homosexual: and an increased interest in the colour black returns in adults.
Notes. 1. There was no fantasy or desire for an actual sexual relationship.
Notes. 2. There were no offences committed.
11. The police, plenty of money on the table, there is a general election coming up, they are right up the backside of the crooked labour controlled Ipswich Borough Council. My assessment is that Ipswich police have been and were heavily involved in my sexual psychological profiling. There is no official police sexual psychology profiling unit in Ipswich.
Corruption: and corruption that harms life by the Ipswich police is published in the last part of this book. Ipswich police need need to put their own house in order before they start to harass a member of the public, that is not committing criminal offences: does not want to, and is not going to.
So I published the 2002 reward publication, as published in the latter part of the previous part of the book, I thought that this was the end of the matter, however: my problems were just beginning.
All the people that I analysed that were included in the psychological testing in 2003 are named in this book. Most of these people are friends, associates, relatives. If they disown me, and their friendships are destroyed, this will cause further very serious psychological damage, some of these people are very close relatives: that I currently heavily depend on. This could drive me to suicide.
To lose every friend, close relative support program that I have would be devastating, however, their activity negated my brain further destroying my credibility. I am unhappy with this and I do not want to see this happening to other people. I hope that my friends and relatives will appreciate this: and also, would not want to see such mental corruption to happen with other people.
At the beginning of the year 2003, the author thought that he was in very good mental health, he was certainly in a lot better mental health than he was in the years 1996 to 2000. The author was however very vulnerable, he did not realise this, his heterosexual pair bonded stability partner was still missing, he had not found a replacement. Unknown to the author his brain was still searching for this partner.
The corruption of many other relationships had also left a void. He was lonely, he works alone: and he does not often socialise. In January 2003, the pervert psychologists set up a male that they knew that I would have a slight sexual interest in, I was happy that I thought that such interests had gone. I fell into the trap, I had an interest in this male, this was the start of the down hill road of serious mental corruption.
Lets see how such a male could be set up to attract my interest. There are many interests that are sub conscious, individually they are not realised, collectively they emerge as conscious interest: the programs add together to become a conscious interest. This is an incrementing psychological pair bond algorithm. Program A, + Program B, Etc. Such interests are sub conscious / just conscious, these could be,
1. Hair style.
2. Clothes Style.
3. Age.
4. Body Build.
5. Unusual behaviour, Different.
6. Mutual sports interest.
The pervert psychologists knew that I probably would be interested in the following,
1. A pony tail hair style very similar to the pony tail hair style of the last 14 year old child that wanted to have oral sex with me in 1996.
2. The pervert psychologists knew that I had a preference for white shirts, or white sports tops, and black trousers, or black sports bottoms.
3. If a homosexual interest was to be aroused: the peak of the age group interest would probably be 25 to 30 years of age.
4. The body build would have to be similar to my own or smaller, I do not want to be dominated.
5. If the person could display unusual behaviour, this would attract my interest.
6. I would probably show an interest in friendship: If the person had a similar sports interest.
I was Roller Skating in a reasonably happy state of mind in the evening in January 2003 when I noticed a new rink steward. He was standing in one of the two entrances that allow skaters on to the rink. He was adopting a very unusual pose. He was standing upright, but his head was slightly turned facing skaters that were going away from him. As I skated towards this steward he stood motionless, rather like a prize peacock on display. At times he would stand in the other rink entrance: adopting the same display. I was later to find out this mans name was Graham.
Graham at the time had a pony tail hair style, very similar to the pony tail of the girl that wanted to have oral sex with me. Graham was wearing a white shirt and black trousers, aged 25. his weight and build is similar to mine. Graham of course is a roller skater. This display that was programmed in to my brain every 30 seconds as I passed Graham, as I skated round the rink.
Sexual Interest, 1.5 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
I only skate on one evening every two weeks, as I attended the rink over a period of nine months, most of the times that I attended Graham would be doing his job as rink steward, and for 25 per cent of the evening would stand displaying his unusual pose. I would often study Graham as I skated around the rink, I could not understand his behaviour, over a period of time I thought that he was interested in me and was offering a display to interest me.
Over the nine month period to the middle of the third quarter of the year 2003, as my mental state was deteriorating with very increased tests at the rink, on the streets, in the Foxhall News shop: and with relatives, as had happened before: As my mental state deteriorated, the sexual interests increased: the need to hold and cuddle somebody increased.
As well as the sexual increase interest in Graham, there was a greater desire to increase the friendship with Jo, an 18 year old girl / woman ? at the rink that I was also becoming more attracted too. I did not want to intercourse Graham, I have never wanted to intercourse a male, there just seemed to be an incremented sexual and general interest towards Graham as my mental state deteriorated, and in my assessment his interest in me also seemed to increment.
I never approached Graham, or ever talked to him, I never fantasised about him either, I thought that it was just an unusual attraction. As of late August 2003: In my deteriorated mental state sexual interest in Graham had risen slightly,
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Had Graham been female, I would have soon befriended a good looking female with such attire, hair style: such a female that seemed very interested in me. By the end of the year 2003 , better mental stability had returned, I realised that Graham had been set up to discredit me: any sexual interest in Graham had gone.
The reds, as I refer to them, the phenomenal local support for the Labour party: retaliated after the 2002 reward publication. I felt they retaliated by publishing locally near were I live, and at the skating rink, published by word of mouth, that I was a pervert. As published in the earlier part of this book, I had fantasised using brain imagery in 1996 of a fourteen year old child that had offered me sex, the bugged / monitored / published, pony tail fantasy, the publication of this event had stopped the David Ball court case. I felt that this old fantasy event was now re:published extensively to discredit me. And also that I was fantasising using recalled brain imagery from the input of people and children where ever I went, this of course was not so, not true.
There was a link from this site, as there still is, to my science site: that also upsets a lot of people, some people will see the book Surrogate Daughter as perverted. My books upset most sectors of this society, tough, that's the way it is. I do not think it is perverted to fantasise with a reference to 14 year old attractive pubescent children that offer you sex, the restraint of not having sexual contact is the important issue. The publication of the book Surrogate Daughter, may have a negative effect on the subject girl, but I feel that men should have the knowledge of how a pristine male brain can be seriously negated almost to suicide by innocent stupid lies from the company of a child that such a person can easily mix socially with.
There has been a very serious interest by psychologists verifying my published adapted brain program in their testing of me since December 2002, History repeats itself, this has seriously negated my mental state, this part of this book now chronicles this new further serious mental corruption. Pony tails hair styles form a great part of the psychological testing, the flaunting of this hair style by many people to me in my poor mental state, knowing the model that often smiles at you and wants you to have interest: this increases the interest and sexual interest in such displays in adults and pubescent children. ( " Here Is Your Love, Come And Get It ").
This part of the book highlights the programmed logarithmic deterioration of the authors mental state from January to mid August 2003, by this intensive field psychology testing. The author estimates that he was one month away from a nervous breakdown in mid, August 2003, by this new induced negative input. By this time the recurring nightmares of throat blockage had returned, together with shaking of the hands with slight body movement: loss of sleep: and the return of the negative dreams, the dirty head returns.
Fortunately the nervous breakdown, ( serious neural corruption, requiring hospitalisation, ) never happened, there was good support from my sister who now lives in Norwich, and her friends in Norwich, who are aware of my harassed situation in Ipswich. The author stayed, rested in Norwich for a week, and away from the harassment, he made a full recovery.
In June / July 2003 As the authors brain became further corrupted by this psychology testing and analyses, the psychological damage by people, remembered by the brain as faces, the interest in peoples faces was in decline. With such mental corruption the brain searches for a new stability program: the backs of heads become more attractive, the backs of people become more attractive, vaginal sexual interest from the rear becomes a greater attraction with females.
In my new corrupted / negated mental state, the interest in adult faces fades, However, I was still looking at young pretty adult faces with a sexual interest, I was looking at many females, faces, and heads to ascertain tests. I was looking at black clad males and aggressive looking males, the colour black in adult males: I see as synonymous with violence. I was concerned for violence, I knew that I was upsetting many people. These viewings, fears, failing tests, accentuated the interest again in the backs of people, and the backs of heads. There now appeared a new considerable interest in the backs of heads.
My sexual interests changed, as you would expect with such a corruption. If I was suddenly confronted with the back of a female, or walked up to the rear of a female, if the female had a nice bottom or good figure: I would immediately look up to the back of the head, if there was a pony tail display, or a neat bun display in dark or black hair on adults this would be an additional pleasing sight to me. This was the first time this interest had ever appeared.
Because of the new adult corruption, bottoms, ( posteriors ), become more attractive. Focus on breasts become a greater attraction. These body parts become a priority attraction in interest as the interest in faces, people, the stability of normality in the personality of people fades. This was exacerbated by an induced slowly increasing psychopathic and paranoid mental state. This new induced mental state is easily tabulated by the perverted field psychology testers / testing, natural failed tests, and failed tests are published, gesticulation from people arises, verbal abuse from people rises, adding further to the mental destability.
With such corruption, the brain searches for the prior equity, happiness. Brains always search for equity, compatible brain program parity. The brain now looks intensely for areas where it can please people, the author knows that people want him to have a homosexual interest, this increases the authors desire to please people by looking at males, males genital areas, males bottoms, unisex pony tails, young children's displays: this needed restraint to control this new urge.
People have wanted the author to have an interest in pony tail hair styles. Many sexual poses by people, predominantly male, have increased this peculiar interest: together with the greater need to see the backs of people, this has increased the attraction, the need to look at pony tails hair styles over the last six months, showing a greater increase in the latter two months as my mental state deteriorated, July - August 2003, I could not control looking at dark attire with good displayed pony tails. At the skating rink, Graham, appearing to want to attract my interest with a good display of a pony tail, programmed this interest further in to my brain.
This newly acquired psychologists observation of my new interest in pony tail hair styles has pleased many local people, they are very happy. They wanted to link the personal pony tail fantasy masturbation as published by local covert computer bugging by agents in 1996, to the current new induced interest in 2003.
The above induced interest in pony tails highlights the adaptation in the change of induced sexual interest that can be imposed upon a deteriorating poor state corrupted brain. I feel that stable brains in good stability programs, ( not searching for a replacement love program ), would be more difficult to adapt by such induced input. I feel that corrupted brains can be easily adapted by many come and get it sexual display inputs that are almost subliminal.
All of this mental corruption causes a further adaptation, the author / victim, starts to look at male faces more as the fear of aggression from passing people in the street increases. The whole prior stability mental program is now adapted to serious fault, often, as the corruption is from adults, a paedophile interest can now start, and this new interest can again be determined by field psychology testing and locally published. This causes distress, anger: psychopathy. This is / can be, a recurrent loop.
In 1996, the Authors brain was adapted to a homosexual interest. There has been no homosexual fantasy or sexual contact. Since January 2003, with this new mental corruption there has been a slight increase in homosexuality interest, and a greater increase in heterosexuality and a slight induced paedophile interest, this is all as expected with such, this sort of serious brain corruption. This follows the usual pattern for such a corrupted brain, you want love, you want the replacement of the lost stabilising love programs.
The author does not want to enter in to sexual contact in any of these areas, and is satisfied with his current weekly masturbation of a 1992 installed brain program: recalled brain imagery. This is Holly, Re: Surrogate Daughter, a published book. There is no head on this girl, the head as always was eventually found to be useless to him, it took until 1994 for the head to completely fade away on this girl. I still love this girl, she is currently aged 25, I know that I will love her more: if ever I see her again. I do not want a heterosexual bonding relationship with this girl, I cannot see how it would ever work.
My assessment is that most of the current psychology testing Jan - Aug 2003 is being carried out by amateurs, there may be a few professionals ? The objective that I feel seems to be to destabilise me, by the realised recorded lewd psychological adaptations. This realisation, causing mental negation: to program me to suicide.
I was reduced to such a poor mental state by 12-08-03, by my analyses of the psychology testing, also, made paranoid, in that I was likely to be attacked, because of as I envisaged, spread malicious rumour, that I was an active paedophile, and a risk to children: this is most certainly not the case.
Within the last week, August 2003, mostly amateur field psychologists have by blanket testing tried to capture my complete psychological profile. This was brought about by the publication of this site ipswichswimmingpools.com in May 2003, this publication really upset a lot of people. Unfortunately for me, the business that hosted the site ran in to financial difficulties, stopped trading: and the live publication of this site with this host for a while stopped.
This is now the middle part of this book that publishes the adaptation that can be so easily achieved again by such field psychological testing: negating a brain easily to suicide. And how a person can be deliberately programmed to death by such intentional event.
I feel that the roller skating rink management are aware of my induced unusual behaviour and some of the testing, some of the testing in my assessment was carried out by police officers. There is further evidence offered in this book as to how a person that realises that he is being tested cannot act normal, will fail many tests whilst mentally negated, whilst such realised testing is going on. I refer to this negated mental state whilst being aware of sexual psychology testing as, ( Realised Sexual Psychological Test Phobia ).
A roller skating rink is such a fantastic place to do sexual psychology profiling testing, particularly with a fast skater, the skater can pass the test point twice a minute, two test points can be set up on two different sides of the rink, this is four tests of passing per minute. Also, the negated brain skater will travel in the direction to colours and shapes of sexual interest, Hundreds of analysed tests can be tabulated from the activity of a fast roller skater for a couple of hours of skating. It would be very difficult to build such a comprehensive sexual psychological profile from tests on the streets.
As stated, a skating rink is very revealing of the skaters, the victims, adapted sexual interest psychological program. I currently skate looking well ahead on the rink to ascertain tests, to try to minimise the naturally occurring mentally destructive realised natural failures.
Other tests that can be set up on a skating rink, are, male female couples skating in pairs, how often do you pass the male ? how often do you pass the female ? how close do you skate to particular people ? If there is a man and child skating, do you pass near the child more times ? Do you seem to skate towards a clothing colour more often, do you skate near short skirts ? white legs ? brown legs ? men dressed in shorts, the permutations for observing sexual selection for a fast skater that has induced mental abnormalities are quite extensive.
I was also hoping to start a business in the summer of 2003, manufacturing a computer audio product. Another thwarted business venture by induced psychological harassment. The testing and negative event of 2003, again stopped me from starting a business. I attended several business courses in April / May, 2003 to support me. Because of the intensive psychology testing and other negating matters, this is now another scrapped / or put back business venture.
In early June 2003,
I had decided to give up, stop taking my medication, I started
taking this drug in 1997 for stress. Long term use of stellazine
can cause slight facial muscle movement spasm, I was concerned
about this problem developing. Anti psychotics are hard to stop
taking, they are very addictive. It is not recommended to stop
taking anti psychotics abruptly, this can induce heart seizures,
I was aware of this, although I was slightly stressed, I felt
that I needed to come off this drug.
I slowly reduced the drug and stopped taking it. I felt well, however, new very extreme stressful events and the dramatic increase in psychology testing because of my ipswichswimmingpools.com site publication: overpowered me. I eventually became so mentally negated, that I had to return to taking the drug.
Earlier I had written to Ipswich Labour M.P. Chris Mole at the House of Commons about the publication of this ipswichswimmingpools.com site, and I complained about Ipswich Borough Councils activities as published on this site. I wanted Chris Mole to investigate my claims, and take action: I must have been dreaming.
In early June 2003 this site was removed from all the search engine listings, Google, MSN, Alta Vista etc. The government had stopped the publication of this site on these search engines. I was not pleased with this action. I had hoped for an investigation by the government in to the allegations on this site of harassment by I.B.C of the author, other people, and the other serious matters, I did not expect a cover up, moves to inhibit publication.
1st July 2003.
The ipswichswimmingpools.com site was hacked, I felt that
there was a key-logger program either on the computer, or the
keyboards on my computers had key-logger transmitters in them,
however my e-mails could have been monitored by the government,
and the passwords to the site could then be dishonestly used.
A key-logger program transmits each key stroke that you make
on the keyboard to an agent, this can be set up on the internet
by an expert hacker, keystroke data is then transmitted over the
internet to a remote agent. Globally there are companies that
specialise in doing this sort of covert work.
There was a file added to the zipped down load file for this site by an agent. Ipswich Borough Councils legal department had a copy of this file, this was the only other copy. Of all the 6000 files on the authors computer, this was the only added file, this was the only file that could invite litigation for libel from an agency favoured by the government.
If litigation ensued, I would lose the right to litigate against James He-hir, the Chief Executive of I.B.C., the worst state scenario was that a judge could order my computing machines impounded, I could have been banned from using the internet. This new event destabilised me considerably. It made me very angry, paranoid and distressed.
On the 27th of July,
a program came in to my main computer
through the fax program, I was concerned about this event, the
next day I searched the fax program for the file, I eventually
found it, I could not understand what the file was, I did not
want to copy it to save it, as I was very suspicious of the file,
I deleted it, I should have copied it to a floppy and kept it.
This file was a computer killing program, I did not know this at
the time, this program eventually killed two of my three
computing machines.
30-07-03 Wed.
My eldest daughter went on holiday for a
week, I do not think that I went out until the Thursday.
31-07-03 Thurs.
Went skating with friends, Martin, Chris, Martins girlfriend, and
Martins young teenage daughter. There was testing with
male ponytails, I was slightly attracted to these. There
was a long test with Steve, a fellow roller skater,
Steve had black shorts on bending over, with an observer.
I was not interested in Steve's bottom.
Steve was bent over for so long, I would think that he
endured an aching back. I felt that there was so much
testing on the rink that after an hours skating I was
very stressed, normally, I am relaxed. There was a group
of observers in the bar, when they left, they did not look
happy. I felt these observers were professionals. I felt
that I had passed all the tests.
With hindsight, I was in such a poor mental state, this had made me more attracted to teenage children again. I was attracted to my friend Martins Daughter, aged 14, she had a red dress on, red, a dark colour, is one of my primary colours for sexual attraction. This was noticed by Martin, and a test was set up. I looked at the girl for about a second, I think Martin and his family interpreted this as a fail. I think this test publication caused an element of psychological damage for the child, and she sat in the front of the car on the return journey. I was disappointed that the child had endured an element of psychological damage on my account. Psychological testing often causes mental corruption for many parties. There was no sexual fantasy or masturbation for this girl.
Don't forget, my brain is seriously corrupted at this time, sensuality has seriously increased, the adult program is seriously corrupted, this exacerbated my sexual interests in this child: and other children.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 02 Days.
My attraction for dark colours I feel is only part sexual, the percentage of sexual attraction I cannot access, However when the interest crossed to flat chested children ten weeks after my mother died, she died in Dec 1997, then driven down to a lower age by the interest by psychology testers that realised this new attraction, they abused me. I felt that this abuse drove the interest down through the whole range of ages, down to babies. In mid 1998, the attraction was at its highest, and for a 12 year old girl then the attraction was extreme, much higher than it is today. There was never any recall fantasy imagery of these children, and obviously no corresponding masturbation.
There have been no offences committed: or the interest to do so.
I think that I also found Martins daughter attractive to look at because I like Martin, and his daughter is intelligent. And I nice personality girl. However, I do not feel that I would have looked at this girl with so much attraction before my mother died, or before the rink mental destruction of 1988, I feel that I would not have had such attraction for this girl late 2002, but the recent mental destruction to July 2003, has increased the need to hold, cuddle, a person for needed stability.
There is also a higher natural incidence to cuddle or hug a close friends daughter, there is often flirtation with uncles, or surrogate uncles in this age group. There was no flirtation from Martins Daughter.
01-08-03 Friday.
I worked in the morning, then by prior
arrangement, in the afternoon I went to see my sister at Norwich
for the weekend, for a short break. I thought that I would be
away from the psychology testing.
I arrived at Ipswich train station, I felt that there were tests there, I deliberately failed one test on the Ipswich platform, I looked at an attractive woman who was brushing her blond hair. I was pleased to get away from Ipswich, I was very stressed with the recent events of this summer, and the recent phenomenal escalation of the field psychology testing.
02-08-03 Saturday.
At my sisters, I noticed as I was drinking a
cup of tea, my hand was shaking, I had not seen this since 1996.
Went with my sister to Norwich Asda. I felt there were several
tests there, some with children and adults. In Asda I failed a
test by deliberately looking at two children that were together,
the woman held her ear lobe, I failed the test again, the woman
held her ear lobe again. This confirmed testing in the store.
There seemed to be tests where ever we went Saturday and Sunday.
Primarily, Asda, and Earlham park.
When we returned to my sisters house on the Saturday, a man that was in black shorts that I spotted in an unusual position at a house near by, was now in grey shorts, bent over, as we approached him. I was not interested in his bottom and I did not look. On the Sunday a man that lives opposite was pointing his black clad bottom towards my sisters house. I noticed this as I passed through the lounge. I was not interested in viewing his bottom and looked away.
On one occasion as I entered my sisters garage in a poor mental state, her elevated airing linen stand was right near the car, I looked up at this puzzled, I felt that it was never usually there, My sister is very methodical, as to where she places everything. The side that I was looking at had a lot of hanging cloths, this looked odd, I could not easily recognise what they were. Later, as I entered the garage from the road, I quickly looked up at the stand, it was displaying underwear, this was in full view of the neighbours, I thought, strange: for my sister to display her underwear to the neighbours. I queried this with my sister, we agreed that the linen stand was in its normal position, normally placed near the car.
My sister talked of Homosexuality and lesbianism and her acceptability of it as long as it was not displayed in front of her. She asked what skin colour did I like ? I replied the colour of her tanned arms. My sister assured me that my stay at my Junior school for six years was a mixed school, my stay there was so negative, severely abused, bullied, that I have no recollection of girls being at this school. My memory is of an all boy school. My sisters nerves were bad, her hands on occasion were shaking.
On one occasion my sister asked if I minded doing the gardening that I was doing, I replied, you are working, I will carry on working. One of my sisters friends asked me to come to my sisters birthday party on Sat 9th of August. I declined the offer, she offered to pay, I declined the offer by phone on the 8th of August. I currently like to see my sister about every 8 weeks, familiarity could breed contempt. Also, this current arrangement fits my budget. I hope to see more of my sister next year, if my finances improve.
Of the visitors discussions, we briefly discussed evolution, religion, the mechanists, organic machine, one of the visitors as she left said, "stay cool." All the visitors were nice people that I now know fairly well. I can now appreciate why my sister wanted to move back to this Norwich estate. There is phenomenal interactive support on the estate between the caring intelligent people that live there. My sister was smoking about twice the amount of cigarettes that she normally does. I thought that this was unusual, however, I did not criticize this, my sister could have been offended.
I felt there was a test on Sunday, 3rd of August as I left my sisters to return home. On the return route, on the cycle way near my sisters house, a woman was walking towards me as I cycled towards her. She was attractive, I smiled at her, she was annoyed. The black shorts clad man cycling behind her, I ignored. I felt there was another test on Riverside Road as I approached Thorpe station. A seated man, white shirt, with black shorts on stood up as I approached him, I looked away, and looked at the observers that were seated near by.
I felt there were several tests as I approached and passed through Thorpe Station. I was slightly attracted to one male outside the station in light shorts, I looked at him, father figure friendly looking male aged about 35, the other tests with males in the station I did not look at, there was no sexual interest. A slight sexual interest in certain, secure, family type, muscular males has been increasing, this follows the pattern of the induced mental corruption of 1996.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. Whilst viewed.
The return journey on the train was not good, I stayed with my push bike, there was an unruly drunk near by. I was not happy that the news that I was a homosexual had reached friends and family at Norwich. These family and friends have no knowledge that my induced homosexual interest started in 1996, and was environmentally induced as always: and that there has never been any sexual contact with males, and no sexual fantasy masturbation thinking of males. I felt that there could be knowledge of a paedophile interest. This is just more induced mental corruption for me, culminating in a poorer mental state.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 04 Points.
Days Affected. 04 Days.
Got off the train at Ipswich, walked along the platform, turned in to the reception area, the exit door to the street was half blocked by a black male aged 15 to 25, His back was facing me, there was a black spotter, I did not look directly at either male. As I passed through the exit door there were some black people sitting and standing near a small wall to the right, I quickly looked at the single black girls face, aged about 25, she was pretty, and then passed straight on. I thought, welcome home !
There did not seem to be any obvious tests as I cycled from Ipswich station to my home.
I felt that the psychologists have transmitted information that I masturbate using imagery of the high percentage of people that I am attracted to in public places in my current perverted mental state, induced by the hate campaign, this is definitely not the case. My concern for this data transmission has recently dramatically increased the paranoia level at being harmed whilst on the streets.
This is my current assessment of the psychology tests in August 2003. These tests were carried out in relatives houses, friends houses, by friends, in businesses, and on the streets in Ipswich. This is a part publication of noted tests of the month. This section highlights the phenomenal mental corruption that can be induced by the realisation, and the analyses of such psychology testing as it is happening.
When one is functioning under such severe realised test conditions, such adversity, one suffers differing levels of depression from slight to unhappy whilst being tested. One cannot function with normality and often displays unusual behaviour, often projecting a negative image. There is alertness: but one feels that one is walking and living / thinking in a slight dream, this is because the test situation is not natural.
You cannot talk to people and socialise as you normally would under such test conditions. The worst case scenario is that you appear to be a zombie moving from person to person in mixed company whilst socialising. You do not talk to people and socialise as you would normally do. This awareness of testing and the failure of tests to identify the tester and the realisation of such testing is very mentally destructive.
The following is typical of the mental impairment induced to the tested individual by realised failed field psychology testing. In an arena where testing is realised, the tested individual cannot behave naturally, this is often very mentally destructive, and a completely different character mannerism display is displayed. This day I would think all available psychologists were on hand to try and capture my complete psychological profile, this is what has been happening, I would think this day 04-08-03 there was an empty psychology class room at the Ipswich College.
04-08-03 Monday,
I felt a lot better than the previous Friday.
The break with my sister had helped me. I ate breakfast, laid
down for a while, pondered, what would happen today, I had to
go in to Ipswich town to pick up some software.
I always go to Fore St.
Post office. As I passed Trinity Tyres, adjacent to the save
garage, now being redeveloped on Bishops Hill: I thought
game on, this is where the psychology testing usually starts.
I felt there were a few minor tests before I reached the Fore St. Post Office, There were some white clad men standing outside Fore Street Baths with their backs to me, I felt that they were pool attendants, I took no notice of these men. Just before the post office, I took a deep breath, and thought here we go. As I approached the post office there was a male, bare top, black shorts, standing near the road facing the post office. There is a group of I.B.C. contractors, locals, repairing the road. I did not look at the man facing the post office. As I entered the post office there were people everywhere.
As I walked in the door of the post office, there was a man, bare top, black shorts, sitting on the floor at position 4 O'clock, there was a black clad man standing on the stair way at position 1 O'clock, there was a queue in the direction to the counter at 9 O'clock with children, where ever I were to look this would be a failed test, I froze, my mind went blank, I just stood there behind a woman with nice hair. I am not sure if I had my eyes open, I could not turn round to face the window or I would be looking at the black clad tanned man outside. Failed Test.
I must have stood there for thirty seconds. The woman turned round, It was Janet the proprietor. I said," hello Janet, so it's you ". She replied, I cannot remember her reply. The woman at the counter Mrs. Brooks, Janet's Mother, said, " next please ", I was so mentally negated by the event that I had great difficulty transacting the business that I wanted to do. Mrs. Brooks was worried about the event, she stated, " I have always been polite when you come in ", I stated, " you have always been polite, no trouble to me ", I have never seen Mrs. Brooks involved in any psychology testing.
As I left the post office, Janet was talking to the man that was standing outside. I thanked her as I walked past, Janet replied softly, and said, " pervert ". I thought later, I bet the video was transcribed to digital, and e-mailed everywhere. They all had a good laugh.
I walked on to the computer shop, it was closed. I walked on through the town to the Buttermarket, I felt there was a lot of testing, there was about twenty black clad males that I passed, some I looked at, I am now concerned about aggression, this makes me look at more males. Many of the black clad males that I did not look directly at, were holding their noses as they passed the corners of my eyes, so were some woman. The Fore Street fiasco could have been easily transmitted by modern communication, mobile phone, to many people: a whole army could be kept informed, and instantly updated.
There was one test at the Princess street end of the Buttermarket with a child, I turned 45 Degrees to cross the road away from the child, the man standing near her stuck out his arm pointing across the road, I felt this is the army commander, the full army of psychologists are out again, they have not been fully active since 1996. The cesspool was really heaving. As I crossed the road, I now realised that I was walking towards a black trousered male. It was one of those no win tests, paedophile if you walk towards the child, homosexual, if you walk the other way towards the man. Perverts to the left. Queers to the right. I have seen hundreds of these sorts of tests. I felt that there was an element of testing on the return journey home.
Went to the Duke Street news agents, I managed to get past a black family in the shop and get served by a woman, I quickly left, I stood in the shop door way unwrapping the ice cream that I had just purchased. I was aware of a black child moving about in the window, I quickly left the shop.
The whole event of the day upset me so much that I went to bed in the afternoon, I was very stressed. I went over Holliwell,s park at 5pm to read a book, sat in the bowling green compound near the new club house, I could not find my reading glasses, I assumed that I had left them at home. Sat there quietly for about 45 minutes very unhappy.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 08 Points.
Days Affected. 05 Days.
As I returned to the Bishop Hill gate there was a park keeper that I know sitting on a bench along the park walk way, I spoke to him as I passed, I then looked away south across the park, there was a young man aged 16 ? bent over at right angles in a profile position, white top, black trousers, I was not interested, and quickly looked away. When I got home I could not find my reading glasses, I eventually found them in a different compartment in my back pack bag that I had taken over the park. I was so confused, my head was certainly now in a complete mess.
I called to see my neighbour Pat, in discussion I stated that I had nearly injured a child in a freak accident, roller skating, that I had informed Chris for a long time that I would rather skate Wednesdays, adult night, to ensure that an accident with a child does not occur. I mentioned to Pat that I had ordered a book where the psychiatrist describes mental disorders as programs, I wanted to know if there was reference to all life on this planet as machine.
Pat stated with genetics most people know life is machine. I
said that I needed evidence to dispute the delusory aspect of
the last psychiatric report, the psychiatrist thought I had
completely lost the plot in this respect, this was the third
psychiatrist that I had seen that had no knowledge in this
area. I said, they haven't got a clue. Pat said, this is why
I would never see a psychiatrist, they often make mistakes. I
replied, the courts have to rely on such psychiatric experts
assessed reports. This is not good enough.
Note. The psychiatrists assessment of serious delusion was based on the following.
1. The psychiatrist was in keeping with the other two psychiatrists that I have seen, she could not relate to all life on this planet as being organic machine.
2. She did not believe that I.B.C. ran dangerous swimming pools.
3. She did not believe that I.B.C. management would harm a person to close an old swimming pool.
Note. Two people, that are in the real world, that I have spoken too about I.B.C. believe that the management would hurt somebody to close an old swimming pool.
At 8 O'clock I went to the coop shop on Foxhall Road, there was a test with a black clad male at the hairdressers opposite, I ignored this, the spotters were the check out girls at the coop. One of the girls held her ear when she served me.
There was a test at Foxhall News, Now there is a surprise ! Female test, male spotter, the girl had a good figure, aged about 25 white clothing, very nice large firm breasts, and very pretty face, blond pony tail. I failed the test, I liked her face and hair, nice pony tail, lovely breasts, I did not get much sleep that night, I was very mentally disturbed.
05-08-03 Tuesday.
I had Breakfast at 9. I laid in bed until 11 AM thinking
about the whole event, still angry, stressed. The negative thoughts
that crossed my mind are listed below,
1. Sneaking out in the middle of the night and damaging Janet's post office shop.
2. Committing suicide in the centre of Ipswich killing as many people as I can.
3. This day I hated Ipswich, I hated the people, I produced brain imagery and fantasised for pressing a large red button, this action destroyed the town and the people with a thermo - nuclear explosion.
Regards 1. I dismissed this idea, Janet's husband, and presumably business partner, may have no idea as to the event that happened, also, the way forward for me is not to commit any offences.
Regards 2. I quickly dismissed this idea as the anger rescinded. I have no outstanding offences to answer for, also, I have no intention of ever committing any offences. I also know that I could not kill innocent people.
Regards 3. I have endured so much mental corruption in this town by the stupid programming of local people, this has also caused phenomenal mental corruption further afield, I am now not very happy with the people in this town.
I know that I could not travel to hurt innocents, this is not in my nature, this was just poor induced mental state, I cannot hurt innocent people with violence.
I Had a bath, I usually bath in the afternoons, however I felt that a bath would relax me. I left to go to the computer shop at 12:45, to pick up some software, there were a few tests going to the shop, and a few on the return Journey. There were no tests in the computer shop.
On the return Journey, I called at the newsagents shop in Duke Street, there have been several tests there, as I approached the shop, three people were coming towards me, A bare topped man aged about sixty, a late teens black clad boy, and a skinny young teenage girl, all appeared poorly dressed, I did not show any interest in any of them. I entered the shop, selected my ice cream, walked up to the counter, lifted my head up, the male shop assistant who normally serves me had his head slightly profile displaying a pony tail, this was his first display of a pony tail, I did not know that he had this hairstyle. He turned his head back and served me.
There was a black bottom bend over test by the counter, I ignored this. As I turned to leave, a scruffy man said something that to me indicated that I had failed the test. This did not bother me, are any of these ordinary very politically motivated people involved in any of these tests ever going to tell the truth ? this I doubt very much !!
I was stressed and depressed after lunch, went to bed. I thought masturbation might help, I had not masturbated for two weeks. I now masturbate about once per week, a make my self do it, I think it is therapeutic, more enjoyable than jogging in the Park. It also reduces the chance of prostate cancer.
The masturbation reflected the greater mental destruction of the last 2 weeks. I have reverted to Holly over the last few months, never her face, that's long gone. I had difficulty manufacturing the assessed imagery of her white clothed upper body, breasts to shoulder line, it took me about five minutes to manufacture all the parts of her body below the neck line scanning her whole body in parts down to her knees, Any masturbation imagery of the five girls that I have used since 1992, I can normally turn up very quickly. I have never had a problem with this.
After ejaculation, most unusual imagery started, every time I closed my eyes, I would get an unusual image, these were predominantly clothed men, profile grey shorts and legs, or black vest top and shoulder. This has never happened before. This happened because men have recently offered so many poses where they wanted me to look at them in this attire. They wanted me to take interest, this could have induced a slight sexual interest. However, this could be a bean counting syndrome, if you count beans for a long time, as you go to sleep you will see beans, and in my poor mental state this has created this interest.
The imagery subsided, shortly after, there was a knock at the door, I dressed and went to the door, It was window cleaner David Livingstone. I invited him in, we both sat in the front lounge, I offered him a drink, he stated that he was on his way to Joss and Phil's children's party, he had come to give me a lift, Ben, his son, was in the car.
I knew of the party, I had decided not to go, I felt that there could be testing there, it was everywhere I was going. I had forgotten that Dave was the transport for me to go to the party, I was not keen to go to the party, I felt there would be more testing there, I told him this, he replied that it was Joss, Phil, David Shaw, and a few of the neighbours kids. Joss had seemed keen for me to come to the party, I thought a bit over keen, this had concerned me.
I stated that recent psychology testing had severely negated my mental state, I said that I was not keen to go. The testing was apparent when I went to Norwich, there is knowledge there that I have a homosexual interest. My family there have this knowledge, I stated that this has made me very unhappy. I stated that I had a sexual interest in the colour black. David asked who was doing the testing ? and where ? I stated, on route to my Daughters, it was mostly amateur stuff, Social Services, with problem family people. I did not mention the in town testing, however, I stated that these people had really screwed my head up.
David Livingstone said, what are you going to do ? I thought for a moment, and then I said ok, I will come to the party, I said that I would have a wash, use my bike, buy a birthday card from the Rose Hill Coop, and see him at the party in about 45 Minutes. I asked David, I said, I hope there is not going to be any psychological testing at this party. David replied, It's just Joss, Phil, David Shore, and the kids, you will know most of the people there. The following statement shows the extent of my induced poor mental state. I said, I hope there is nobody dressed in red there. Note. Red, at the time was a sexually interesting colour for me.
As David Livingstone left by the back door of my house, he stood close to me, standing profile. David has a pony tail hair style, I thought test, game on, here we go, so I looked at the pony tail, I thought scruffy, I have seen a much better specimen. David Livingstone left.
Went to the coop, there could have been a few tests along the way. There may have been two tests between the coop and the house where Joss lives, I ignored all these tests. As I travelled down the side road to Joss'es house, there was a white top, black bottom, woman, sitting in a window. I ignored this.
As I approached Joss and Phil's House, her daughter Jxxxx ran down from the front door to greet me, she was wearing a black dress, I noticed a black girl sitting near the front door, I looked at her, surprised, Joss was in the door way, also black clad dressed, I thought test on, here we go. I spoke to Jxxxx first, then Joss. I did not speak to the black girl, or see her again. I stayed in the kitchen with Joss, Kim Friatt, the builders wife who lives near my eldest daughter, and near the Foxhall Newsagents shop, and David Shaw. For a while, we socialised.
After about ten minutes, I went in to the garden, I was asked to supervise a children's game. The children were there, + another woman, how do I look and react with children under such test conditions ? Phil had his back to me, cooking, I did not take much notice of him. Shortly after this I approached Phil, shook his hand, thanked him for his invite, then returned to the outside group. Dan the young computer technician was also there. Window cleaner Dave, was nowhere to be seen. Presumably an acting spotter hiding up the garden to see if I looked at Phil's posterior.
I went in to the house, Joss was standing profile displaying her pony tail, I briefly looked at it, Kim was behind her looking at me and quickly looked away after she had seen me look at the pony tail. I stayed for some time in the kitchen, the children came in and out, no problems there. W.D. David came in the room, I enquired as to where he had been, he said up the garden. About two hours in to the evening, Phil came in to the house, he kept moving about in the kitchen walking past me as I was seated, I was facing forwards as he passed me, I would turn my head away from him, away from his posterior, looking at the floor. Out of the corner of my eye I could see W.D. David Livingstone's hand move every time Phil passed me when I looked away from Phil's bottom.
I was looking near David Shaw. David Shaw moved his hand slowly across his lip and cheek, As he started to move his hand I thought, I have seen that one before, Seven years ago in the Neptune cafe and testers in the St. Clement's Mental hospital, ( why there, unusual. ) So I looked directly at David to make sure that what I was seeing was correct. This was repeated about five minutes later, I looked again, Failure of the test is to look with interest to the tester.
David had been taught very well. This happened on two other occasions, I ignored these later tests. In the St. Clement's mental hospital when I was there in 1996, after a similar failed hand movement test, one of the ward nurses, male, used to walk about with his shirt hanging out. Every time he passed me he used to lift it up. Nice One ! Lets kick the mentally impaired patient down mentally even further.
In conversation, David Shaw stated to Kim that he would be calling the next evening to see her husband, they have much in common, a mutual building construction interest.
On one occasion in the garden, W.D. David Livingstone walked from behind me, forward to the right of me, as I first saw him out of the corner of my eye, he was holding his nose, he then dropped his hand as he came further in to view. On another occasion, David livingstone's son Ben stood profile, near me, I looked hard at his face for genetic expression, I could see the resemblance of his mother Jane, but not David. I could not behave normal, I did not speak to Ben. Normally, I would have socialised, asked how he was getting on ? how was school etc. You cannot behave normally in such realised test conditions. ( Realised Sexual Psychological Test Phobia ). Dan the computer technician did not appear to be participating in any of the testing, Thanks Dan. The only person not to participate out of an audience of every person I know. No tests in his computer shop when I visited either.
Joss had baked a cake, whilst I was eating it I remarked, "just like mother used to make: houses out of," we all laughed, there was a few jokes about the cake: I added that I was looking forward to tomorrow to the stress relief of a good cry as the cake passes through, David Shaw stated: watch you do not damage the toilet, The cake was very nice, " thank's Joss."
The party was light banter, and every person there enjoyed themselves. The children were quite well behaved. We all agreed the evening was good. Joss bent over the table in front of me exposing her bottom leg from a slit in her dress, she has a nice shape leg, I slightly moved my head and looked at her leg, a pleasing sight, I knew people were looking, I thought that must be a pass.
One of Joss'es children came in to the room, he kneeled on David Shaw's leg giving him a cuddle, he had white shorts on, I looked at his body, he was very thin, ( this is normal for this child, he is not abused ), he has an unusual face, I scrutinised this profile, he was smiling most of the time, I found out later that he was Cxxxxxx, he is a bit like Joss, we occasionally call her clown, she is a bit scatty, ( scatterbrained ), but you have to love her, fantastic personality. I think Cxxxxxx is like this, he is very likeable, I like him most out of all the boys, nothing sexual.
A short while later Jxxxx came in to the room and laid on the floor, she is a beautiful child and I like her. We all looked down on the floor at her as we were seated around her, black clad dress, she did not appear to getting any attention so I tickled her, she laughed, there was no sexual interest in Jxxxx from me. She is just a beautiful child.
As I was about to leave, I waited for Joss to join us, she was upstairs with the children, when she came in to the room, she bent over near the table, she had removed the pony tail, and brushed her hair, I looked at her long hair, fanned out across her back, it looked very attractive. Rear views with this mental corruption, now give me greater pleasure, I have always liked vaginal sex from the rear, this interest has been increasing, I never really did like faces. School playground corruption. With the general mental destruction since 1996, and the increased recent mental corruption, faces are now getting taboo for me, they are currently dying. However, I will look with interest at pretty faces displayed by woman.
It was time to go, a hug from all the kids, Cxxxxxx kissed me on the cheek as he put his arms around me, I reciprocated and kissed him on the neck as I gave him a hug.
Jxxxx, Gave me a hug, she is lovely, I find girl children more attractive than boys, I gave her a kiss on the neck as a hugged her, there were no sexual feelings. The other children I just hugged. As I left, Baby was at the front door with Joss and Phil, Baby thanked me for his present, a five G.B. pounds bank note, ( 8 U.S. Dollars ) with a smile that was almost a grin, he looked a picture.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
I returned to my house on my push bike, as I reached my house, I was on the opposite side of the road, there were two white clad people walking towards me, presumably mother and daughter, the daughter I aged at 14, she was an extremely attractive pretty child, I looked at her as we passed, she was beautiful. A fine product.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. Whilst viewing. 00 Days.
Overall it was a good evening, Phil seemed happy, he is not a socialite, the same as me. Joss was happy, lovely smile, she has a good personality, I like Joss as much as I like Phil. The only real negative of the evening was the amount of cigarette smoke in the kitchen, and the psychology testing. Phil mostly avoided this, he was either outside, or in the lounge most of the time. I managed to cough up plenty of phlegm the next day. I soon produce this from a passive smoking environment.
06-08-03 Wednesday.
I started typing the event as from 30-07-03
until 06-08-03 starting at about eleven A.M. I took an hour
for lunch, and I have rested at two hour intervals to keep down
the stress levels. The time is now Six Thirty P.M. During a
rest period in the morning, as I closed my eyes images would
appear of men in shorts either front facing or profile Chris
and Martin these two men have helped me the most in the last
two years, with the minimum of psychological damage to me.
This was not sexually arousing, this also happened for a short
while in 1988, after my mother died with a different male skater
from the skating rink. This has never caused sexual arousal.
The above indicates the considerable mental damage that I have
incurred of late, My brain is seriously corrupted.
06-08-03 Wednesday,
I stayed at home all day and night, I did not want to go out.
07-08-03 Thursday.
Over the last seven years I have been slightly sexually aroused
by men that have helped me, this has never lead to sexual
masturbation fantasy or wanting to have a male sexual relationship.
Sexual fantasy without masturbation for a male had only happened
once, as a dream, as I awoke. This was in 1991, again, as always,
induced by poor mental
state. This event I
am pretty sure is chronicled in the book, Programming Basic
For Eternal Life. Since 1996, only one female seemed to want
to help me, and wanted me to be successful, this caused a
slight sexual interest in the older woman at the time, there
was no fantasy masturbation.
I have had two offers of sex from middle aged men since 1992, I have had three offers of sex from pubescent female children, I have declined all of these offers. There was fantasy masturbation for the sexually active attractive children that offered me sex: My last physical sexual contact was intercourse with a 20 year old female in 1993. I am concerned about sexually transmitted diseases, also, a heterosexual pair bonding relationship at the moment would interfere with my work. For these reasons: I do not look for sexual contact. However, I do like looking at young pretty women: particularly if I think they are part of a psychology test.
I had decided to stop taking event notes this day but the events of the testing made me carry on.
My eldest daughter telephoned at about 11 AM, she sounded happy, she had returned from her holiday, we quickly discussed the holiday, and the kids, she invited me to hers in the afternoon. I rang her at about five P.M. to say that I would be about an hour. Had a bath, left the house at about Six Fifteen P.M. I did not want to go out, I was concerned for further psychological damage. I took a deep breath, left the house, but relaxed and felt happy as I stepped on to the footpath of Bishops Hill.
As I walked down Bishops Hill, there where two teenage girls sitting on the wall near the bus stop, I quickly looked at them, I walked in to Cavendish Street. At the junction of White Elm Street, there were some men, I could see them out of the corner of my eye, I felt relaxed. I did not think there would be any violence, there has not been any yet, I did not bother to look at these men. A car pulled in front of me, I quickly beckoned the driver to go, he quickly went.
I walked on, crossed the road. There was a white clad attractive woman walking towards me, aged 30 ? she turned and went up the footpath of a house in Cavendish street where the occupants had been used in many tests. The woman had a pony tail, now there is a surprise. I Walked up Devonshire Road, this is a steep hill, I heard a vehicle burning rubber screeching up the hill behind me, I took no notice of this, I thought someone is angry, the temperature is rising. I felt this was one of the men from the group that I had just passed, I had took no notice of them. I was not happy at this display of anger.
Went to my eldest daughters, Michelle came to the door, she was not as happy as I would have expected, I had not seen her for a week. We walked down the corridor to the lounge, Michelle got on the floor back, towards me, and started to watch television. I looked at her and thought, unusual, Lynton was in black pants, the kids moved about the room a bit, after a while Michelle came and gave me a cuddle, I was laying back on the settee, Michelle as she laid on top of me began to move her hips up and down quickly as though she was having intercourse with me. I thought, unusual, I was not happy with this, after about thirty seconds, she got off.
After a few minutes Michelle started to gyrate her hips, standing in front of me. My Daughter said I have let my hair down, she turned her head displaying a black band. She then started to move about, brushing her hair with her hands, brushing her arms with her hands, moving her legs, sometimes in a circular movement. I thought, she is dancing again, just like the bad old days in 1996 when she caused the greatest psychological damage to me, greater than the sexual tests set up by my best friend, and the eventual loss of this friends friendship.
My daughter stood up, and lifted her skirt up and down a bit moved her legs about, ran her hands though her hair, It was not as bad as 1996 when she also used to rub her breasts and her genital area, at one stage she bent right over so I could see up her skirt to her bottom. There was no reaction or movement from me to this silliness, and no perceived sexual interest.
My Daughter said there was a repair in the bathroom, the shower rail, we both repaired this, there was a bit of bending over, at one stage she stood in the bath brushing her hair with both hands, a return to the bad old days. As we walked through the house Lynton was sitting on the settee, I think he had changed to black shorts, he sat there with his legs open.
I remarked on the Job, Perfect, of course I was referring to the testing. At one stage Michelle was moving about up the table, I took no notice of this. A failed test is to take interest. I asked if Lynton was to old to kiss, he laughed, we had a kiss goodbye, I cannot remember if I kissed Michelle, I was a bit confused. ( Realised Sexual Psychological Test Phobia ). It was unusual to see Lynton sitting in the lounge, not appearing to do anything, including watching television.
In the middle of my visit, My eldest daughter asked if I would go to the paper shop, as I left the house, there was a black elderly couple walking towards me, the woman was nearest, she looked hot, tired, and not very happy, I felt sorry for her. Paul the builders lorry moved off, Kim the spotter, his wife, was on the other side of the road walking towards the shop with her children. I felt that there were tests at Wellesley Road fish shop as I passed.
Near the Foxhall News Shop was the proprietor with his wife, the proprietor looked very happy. His wife went in to the shop. I entered the shop, Kim the spotter was standing near the counter, not looking at me, there was a woman standing near the counter being served, I spoke to Kim, asked if she was all right, she replied yes, I looked down at Kim's children for about ten seconds, I did not know what to say or do, I just stood there bewildered: looking at the children. ( Realised Sexual Psychological Test Phobia ).
I turned away from Kim to find myself looking at the black clad profile head of a woman aged about thirty, surprise, with a pony tail, I immediately looked down, the woman quickly moved her hand along her arm and back, I felt that this was a normal response for a failed test. Responses from testers vary when they ascertain, get the required positive result: most people show an emotional response when they win.
I thought, give me a chance, I hardly looked at you. The proprietors wife served me, I returned to my eldest daughters. Later as I left my eldest daughters, to return home, a woman was walking on the other side of the road, I quickly looked at her, surprise, it was one of Kim the spotters friends, with a pony tail. I just laughed, and walked on, it seemed all the woman currently on display are displaying pony tails.
There was a test at the crossing, near the Foxhall Road Coop, with a skinny scruffy teenage female child, I ignored this, went to the coop, there was no tests there, returned home, in quite a happy mode.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. 00 Days.
08-08-03 Friday,
I spoke to my eldest daughter on the telephone,
and the children, Lynton seemed happy, my eldest daughter was not
happy, Michelle was not happy and did not give me a kiss over the
phone as we stopped talking.
I am disappointed with the psychological damage currently caused to my grandchildren, However, this was inevitable, the recent publication of the ipswichswimmingpools.com site about two months ago, with the reward page, has just brought this psychological damage forward for them. The people in this town would have published my corrupted mental state to the children anyway as they were growing up, this is very sad.
Regards just standing in the shop and looking for about ten seconds at Kim's children, bewildered, ( Realised Sexual Psychological Test Phobia ). Before the mental corruption started in 1992, I would have picked such children up, played with them, bought them some sweets, and just loved to see them happy. My current brain program bears no resemblance to 1992, or May 1996. The adaptation is unbelievable, I am surprised that I have survived it. The bewilderment was exacerbated by the test conditions.
My eldest daughter telephoned at about 5PM. She said the children were going to stay with their grandmother for the evening, this meant not to call at the house.
I intend to litigate for extreme harassment against the Fore Street shop, ( Janet the proprietor ), and the Foxhall News agents shop, the proprietors, and some other named people in this book as specimen cases, if I can find a backer to fund and take a supervisory interest in this litigation. This sexual psychological profiling is a very dirty business. There is further text with reference to this litigation and hopefully a profit for the backer further on in this book.
The proprietors of the Fore St. Post Office, and the proprietors of the Foxhall Newsagents as well as Kim Friatt will be subpoenaed to court to agree the text in this book. Denial of any of the test evidence published in this book, if later proved to be incorrect: this is perjury. If perjury is entered in to, by any of the named people in this book, these people being subpoenaed to court: prison sentences and the loss of their property will be asked for in a later case.
Witnesses will also be subpoenaed to court to tell the absolute truth about this matter, this court case will be funded by the backer: If a backer can be found. Also, a complaint will be filed with Ipswich police for unjust police harassment: compensation will be asked for.
I Went to see my neighbour Pat, I could see her door open, the time was about 8PM. I went to see Pat about signing a paper for a neighbour. Pat was in the garden, she had a blue dress on she looked well dressed as normal, and quite happy. I felt there was a slight amount of unnecessary movement, legs, putting her hand through her top and massaging her neck, she went and bent over a few feet away from me, I realised that I was looking at her bottom, I looked away. I stayed about 45 minutes, Pat offered me a cup of tea when I arrived, I declined the offer as I had just made a cup of tea to drink upon my return to my house.
One of things we discussed was my mental corruption on the skating rink that started with a bottoms test, I believe in the first quarter of 1998, this may have been 1999, the test was a bottoms test that I failed with Lloyd, I had no sexual attraction for Lloyd. However, this incident caused phenomenal mental destruction by reaction and abuse on the rink.
I asked Pat if she had received any feedback from her son Martin about what people thought of me at the skating rink. Martin and Chris provide transport for me. She said, the only feedback that she had received was the people thinking that I am odd. I stated, I know, I now always sit on my own. I further stated, my general behavioural pattern since 1992 has become odd, and since 1996, very odd. Induced by the continuous sexual psychology testing.
09-08-03 Saturday.
My sisters birthday, I phoned her at 10 AM,
she sounded happy, many of her friends had phoned her, she had
received the birthday card that I had sent her, she liked the
card very much, I wished her a very happy day.
1 PM, I phoned my eldest daughter to see if she had remembered my sisters birthday. The children were not aware of their Aunties birthday. My eldest daughter had sent a card from herself and the children. I asked if the children wanted to go over the park, Michelle came on the phone, she sounded different, she asked if we could go over a park with a swimming pool, I suggested Holliwells park see you at 4PM. I thought nice one, home ground, this should be interesting.
I wanted to fail every test on the park so Michelle could see the display of a pervert, a repeat of the pattern of deliberately failed tests, to bring this testing to an end. The mental impairment was immense, it had reached unbearable proportions. I wanted to throw in the towel, ok, you win. I cannot handle any more. I could not do this, I was very unhappy with Michelle's display of the tests.
There were tests on route to the park,
I ignored all the tests in the swimming pool area, there were a few people sitting in the shaded area. I sat away from these people in the sun, It was still very hot at 5PM. It was nice to lay in the sun. A man paraded a nude child, walked the child around near me, I was not interested in this display.
We went in to the children's play area, I sat away from the bare topped young teenage boys that were sitting and standing near the swings. I sat on a bench about 100 feet away from the boys. Laid back, relaxed, and enjoyed the hot sun, I took no interest in any of the silliness that was going on in the play area, or the pool area.
The tests that my Granddaughter performed were particularly mentally destructive for me, this made me very unhappy. She joined me on the bench seat, sat close to me, took sun cream, rubbed it on her arms, face, legs, very close to me, when she had done this she asked if there was any sun cream on her face, I looked, there was a spot of cream just below her lip that looked like sperm, I told her to remove it. Michelle held my hand as always as we left the park, I loved this, she is very loving, I love her very much.
We left the park and went to Johnson's Newsagents, and confectionary shop in Cliff Lane, Mr. Johnson, used to be the proprietor of the Save Garage at the bottom of Bishops Hill near my house, where most of the psychology testing with black clad, black suited, males, happened 1996 - 1998. I felt that these tests were set up by police psychologists. When we arrived at Mr. Johnson's shop there were test all around the shop with teenage and young children, and in it, I ignored all this silliness, we returned to my eldest daughters.
I left my eldest daughters house at 6.30 PM, returned home, returned to my eldest daughters just after 8PM, tests in both directions. Joss popped in wearing attire that she does not normally wear, this attire looked common, ( tarty ). My eldest daughter said, you old slapper. I thought Joss looked better at the party, and this was not because she had a pony tail hair style at the party.
Lynton was upstairs, Michelle, stayed down stairs watching television, Dianne said you are quiet, I replied, I am depressed, and I was very depressed with the days events. Dianne left to go out for the evening, It was arranged for me to look after the children. Michelle stayed down stairs watching television, Lynton was upstairs. I laid on the sofa depressed, looking up, listening to the Phil Collins music that was accompanying the television program that Michelle was watching, this music, Phil Collins, as usual, for my music taste, was very nice.
If I did turn towards Michelle, she usually started to move about, to look at her jiggling about would be a failed test. So I turned back to watch the ceiling. There was a banana test with Michelle eating it, this did not interest me. Michelle asked if she could eat another banana, I said no, she was eating too much. The sad thing is that I was so mentally destabilised, I did not speak to Lynton, I just told Michelle to go to bed and ask Lynton to turn off the computer. Michelle went upstairs, and I unhappily went to sleep on the sofa.
General Observations of recent event. Dianne, my eldest daughter and Lynton and Michelle were very confused this day. I feel this was because of the tests that were being set up. Dianne had left her purse in the car, Lynton was confused over the recall of a fishing incident. Michelle was very confused. Lynton passed by the television a few times, I turned my head away from his bottom as he passed, Dianne's hand moved as I moved my head. This day there was testing in the Foxhall road coop shop, and testing outside the Foxhall road newsagents shop.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 08 Points.
Days Affected. 02 Days.
I am again getting more attracted to backs, bottoms, and the backs of heads as my mental state starts to deteriorate again, as the need to blank out faces increases because of the serious recent corruption by people of what was my stable brain program. This is as expected. As the mental deterioration increases, the interest in backs will increase, sexual interest in my grandchildren will increase if they continue in a provocative unnatural manner. This happens because of the loss of the love stability programs and the unnatural behaviour. As the corruption advances, a re:run of the 1996 corruption. Interest increases in the obviously sexually displayed, offered, body parts.
Over the last few weeks my poor, now induced, deteriorating mental state has made me very confused, particularly in the house, I lay objects down, put objects in places where they do not normally go, this has caused serious paranoia, this made me think that a person was coming in the house moving articles around to further confuse and corrupt my brain. I was very concerned that this person was accessing my computers. It is very unlikely that a person is entering my house. This follows the same pattern as events in 1996. If you badly destabilise a brain, negativity creates negativity, forgetfulness, and serious paranoia can soon set in.
10-08-03 Sunday 6am,
I awoke early, this has happened more since
I stopped taking the medication, However the weather has been
very hot, the temperature at night has been very high, this
could easily cause less sleep. I was staying overnight at my
eldest daughters, my eldest daughter came very quietly in to
the room from the kitchen, she made me jump, she was black clad,
in conversation, she brushed her hand across her face, I quickly
turned my head away to stop incrementing sexual interest, my
reaction would not have been such, a few weeks ago.
Her activity of late with the sexual displays, that is not natural between father and daughter, has further broken down the father daughter sexually blocked barrier. My sexual interest in my eldest daughter has correspondingly slightly increased. There is no fantasy, or masturbation. If the testing and sexual advance stops, the natural non sexual interest daughter program should slowly build up again. When Dianne brushed her face, I turned my head away quickly, I did not want any new determined by me as sexual advance gesture event to increase the very low level of sexual desire for my eldest daughter: that has been induced in me by her.
All of the tests yesterday, on the streets, in shops, Saturday 9th, July were carried out by ordinary people, I felt there were no professionals involved. These ordinary people will lie and exaggerate in the transmission of their analysed results.
It is easy to create what I call psychological field testing mania, where the victim feels that he is being tested wherever he goes. Tests that I have recently failed, that I am sure were tests were,
1. In June 2003.
There was a test for a stationary woman, black
clad with a black clad child aged eight ? at the roller skating
rink, in the ground floor refectory / cafeteria area. I
deliberately failed this test to find out who was doing the
testing, spot the spotter, this was fruitless, however, abuse,
shouting came from a group of friends later, " Wanker, Pervert,
etc. as I was skating, Chris, Martin, Tony, etc. This abuse could
have been directed to another person. However, I think that this
abuse was directed towards me, my friends were the spotters,
this seriously negated my brain.
Later that evening, as I was sitting at a refectory table, " Chris and Martin asked if they could join me, I replied yes," Kirsty, Steve and Alan stood by the table. The three people standing were smiling, Kirsty was grinning like a Cheshire cat. I obviously did not look happy, Chris asked me " if I was ok, I replied no, my head was absolutely fucked up. " There was a bit of further conversation. Then I resumed skating.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 08 Points.
Days Affected. 04 Days.
2. In early July 2003.
My Grandson, standing profile, black
trunks, it is quite rare that he displays trunks. I looked at his
penis area to see if it was a suitable size to please the ladies,
I would think that most parents look at their male offspring to
ensure themselves that their offspring is going to be adequate. I
am pleased that my grandson appears adequate.
3. In early July 2003.
My granddaughter displaying her vagina,
looked good to me that's were the babies come from, A great grand
child, I hope. There was no sexual interest. Regards babies, I
always thought their bottoms were cute, I think that most people
like babies bottoms, there is now in this year, 2003, thank
goodness, nothing sexual in my interests in live nude or diaper,
nappy clad children.
4. In early July 2003.
There was a test at the Felixtowe Swimming
Pool, with a female child, aged 9 ? the tester was very
professional, I failed the test, this was not deliberate, I felt
that a few years ago, Summer 1998, that I would have looked at
the child for twice as long, I felt that I was getting better,
getting over this problem. The girl was wearing a bikini style
bathing costume, such children have only recently started to wear
such swim-ware, I was slightly attracted to this. Unusual event
attracts. I doubt that I would have failed this test in the late
part of 2002.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
5. In mid July 2003.
At Felixtowe swimming pool, there was a boy
aged 15 ? that appeared to be almost dancing around the pool with
his equal aged girlfriend in his arms, moving around in 1.5 metres
of water, I thought that this was beautiful. They looked and were
so happy, moving, dancing and pirouetting around. They often did
this for long periods of time, I watched them, it was beautiful
to see such a display of happiness, this made me happy, they were
so happy. I was slightly attracted towards the girl, she had the
breast shape that I like most.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. Whilst viewing.
6. In July 2003.
At the roller skating rink, I know every adult skater on the
rink, and how they skate, My friend Martin skated off
the rink slowly from the centre, he never skates very slowly on
his own. I looked at him as he slowly skated off the rink, I
thought, that man had great respect for me a few years ago. I
watched his rear side vertical profile exit, there was no sexual
interest, a short while later when I saw him, he saw me, and
started to act out the running away from me for a short distance.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
The above is typical of the ten to twenty per cent of psychology tests that are in fault, and are very mentally destructive in awareness for the victim, if they are failed. I feel that all my friends are setting up tests, this is further mentally destabilising.
The last time that I went swimming at Felixtowe with Michelle, I let her go off with her friends, she soon makes friends, she is a strong swimmer, and I thought it would be nice to sit in the viewing area in the future, reading, while Michelle swam and enjoyed prime time with her friends.
6th July 2003.
Returning to my deteriorating mental state, the
hard drive had failed on my best computer. I believe that this
hard drive was destroyed by a computer killer program, I had
accessed an internet site to seek help for checking out what I
thought was a virus attack on this computer. I gave this site
my fax number program. I suspected that a computer killing
program had entered the fax program on my computer killing
it. This event seriously mentally negated me. I replaced the
hard drive with a spare drive that I had, and I was setting up
the hard drive as I wanted it to be for my use, and
re:installing the computer programs that I use.
Days Affected. 10 Days.
I was carrying on writing this book on my old spare computer. The dos word processor that I use, called Smart, will work on any old computer up to twenty years old, I have used this word processor program on many computers for 15 years, I am used to using this program, it does the job, there is nothing wrong with this text you are reading, it is produced by using the Smart word processor, this whole internet site was created by the author using this Smart program.
My old computer started to behave in an odd manner, spurious erroneous computer generated code was turning up on computer disks, some of the files were hidden files, and I could view these files in an old dos computer programmers program. My new computer had swapped files, and created spurious directories ( folders ) before the hard drive failed. It appeared to me that the computer killing program had infected my old machine. I was very alarmed at this and was trying to sort this problem out when the hard drive on the old computer failed, also for technical aficionados the bios on the computer was compressed, my old machine was destroyed.
This was the first time in fifteen years that I find myself without a computer, I was devastated, I normally get up in the mornings, switch on the computer, have breakfast, and then start work using the computer. I was becoming very paranoid, I also felt that a person could have entered my house, placed a program on the accessible floppy disks that I use for storage, this program would have migrated to my machines destroying them.
Well, I did upset everybody with my publications, The church, women, women with the lying graph, the local government, the government, local police, the local psychologists, there has to be an element of return fire. I could often hear abuse outside my house, shouting by teenage girls, this had increased recently, I was becoming slightly more alarmed at this, another new negative event.
I was not a happy man, the psychological testing had increased between 30-07-03 - 10-08-03. My internet site had been hacked. My computing machines destroyed. My friends and relatives at Norwich had knowledge of my recently induced homosexual and paedophile interests. My main concern was that future phenomenal daily testing would seriously corrupt my brain to a serious neural corruption, ( commonly known as a nervous breakdown, where hospital treatment is required ).
I also felt that what I was typing was being monitored by an agency, was this data being locally published ? was the results of failed psychology testing being published ? I was unhappy, angered, and very paranoid. I had now been forced to stop work, ( work is my stability program ), I did not know how I could easily sort this mess out, what a mess.
6th August 2003 - 13 August 2003.
In this week my mental health
started to seriously deteriorate, particularly with paranoia, I
knew that I was being psychologically tested wherever I went. I
bought a second hand computer, although I could have used my new
machine. I had repaired it by putting a small capacity hard
drive in it. I was concerned that I would infect the new machines
replaced good hard drive by using my floppy disks with it.
I re:formatted the hard drive on the second hand machine that I had just purchased, to clean it, it may have been infected with computer viruses. I was installing software on this just purchased machine, and still installing software on my new machine, however, my new machine I was having problems with. The new machine was not responding well to installing the hardware drivers programs. I knew that I would have to get an expert to attend to the new machine to repair it. Good computer experts that come cheap are very hard to find.
I consulted with computer consultants, they had never heard of a program entering a computer via the fax program destroying the machine. The paranoia level increased dramatically, I was concerned that a person had entered my house and placed a keylogger transmitter in my computers, I became very concerned to go out of the house, I felt that spread malicious rumour had endangered my life
I typed data in to the computer that I wanted to go in to Ipswich and kill as many people as I could as a test to see what would happen. That evening as I returned from my Daughters to my house, near my house a large police van that was stationary moved and tracked me for a short distance. Because of all the psychology testing that was going on by amateurs, I felt some of their publications could be lies, these lies would be very negative as far as I was concerned. Because of this: I had not used the park behind my house for recreation.
I was afraid that I would be attacked on the street as I walked about. This paranoia increased to such an extent where a friend came to see me, and I was afraid to go out in to my garden for fear of being attacked by other people entering my garden and attacking me. I was in such a poor mental state that I told the friend that I felt that I could not be trusted as far as her children were concerned.
I felt that if her children came to my house at that time, her daughter is 12, The last time I saw her daughter, she was being severely bullied at school, she was in my assessment psychopathic, and in a very poor mental state, certainly not very happy. At that particular time I wanted love so much, that if the girl in her poor mental state was the same, wanted cuddles, love: sexual activity could have taken place. I was warning my friend to warn her children to keep away from me.
My eldest daughter came to see me at my house after being made aware of my paranoia, she stated, take your tablets, I want you to see a G.P. or I will have you committed to a mental hospital, I was petrified of being committed to a mental hospital. I was ignorant of the change in the law, so was my eldest daughter. There are a lot of people that would like to see me in a mental hospital, I felt that once I was in there, it would be very difficult for me to get out. I found out at the end of August that a nearest relative cannot now commit a person together with a G.P. ( U.S.A. M.D. ) to a mental hospital. I researched the current legal position for this matter. Legally, it takes the interest of two G.P's and a social worker to detain a person in a mental hospital against their will.
13 08 03 Wednesday.
I did not sleep very well the night before.
I decided to go and see my sister at Norwich. I wanted to take a
July copy of all my work of the last fifteen years on a C.D. ROM
to place with an agent, I wanted this back up copy of my work
archived in case my house was broken in to and my work stolen.
I went off to see my sister at Norwich, who could see that I was
very upset, I felt there was a test at Ipswich Station, and a test
on route to my sisters at Norwich. The only way that anybody could
know that I was going to Norwich, was a telephone or house
bugging.
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