Copyright (C) Anthony William Johns. Years 2002 To 2007.
34 Bishops Hill. Ipswich. Suffolk. IP3 8EN.
There is adult material on this page including foul language and explicit sexual details. You need to be 18 years of age or over to read this page. There are no links to visual imagery pornographic material: or pornographic sites.
Some of the writings on these pages reflect the adapted mental state to 1991, where the author rejected religion. The author has changed mental state again and now feels that religion and science will take this life-form forward to eternal life.
Note.
This log has been going on for 13 years. Over this period of time the
author has been almost daily sexually profiled virtually where ever he
goes in Ipswich for political reason. The effect of this is horrendous,
this causes displayed lewd behaviour as chronicled below.
The mental impairment caused by the realisation of many resultant false positives that are realised by the author: this causes all sorts of phobias and changed sexual interests to appear, the not looking at faces and looking down at female breasts, looking down at men's lower parts, the being attracted to the backs of heads of people, and the backs and bottoms of people.
This mental impairment, the brain sees as adult abuse, also drives sexual interest down to children. This has only ever caused self masturbation by the author if pubescent children have offered him sex. The Author has no interest in having sex with children. This will never happen.
There is reference to the bad police in some parts of this diary, there are good honest police officers and corrupt very bad officers. Bad police officers will do anything for money, some will do unlawful things like planting drugs or planting child porn on computers to remove a political enemy: anything to get up that ladder.
This diary in it's entirety is seen to be useful to psychologists in the many adaptations as recorded.
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My family names in this draft are as previously published in the
year (C) 1991 - 2000 book = Book-1, = Programming Basic For
Eternal Life.
The Authors Eldest Daughter - Dianne
The Authors Youngest Daughter - Clare.
The Authors Ipswich Grandson - Lynton.
The Authors Ipswich Granddaughter - Michelle.
All the dates in this part of the book are written from memory, they may not be exact, these dates need confirming, referring to from my data base to be eventually added. This book is a rough draft prior to editing and paper publication: if events take this course. The data for this book is collected from relationships and conversations and observations, ( assessments ), of and with people living in Ipswich Suffolk U.K. Places mentioned in this book are in Ipswich Suffolk, and Norwich Norfolk. The skating rink referred to in this book is in a different county.
In this part of the book the author refers to himself as, " The Author, I, Myself, He, and Me ". The tests referred to in this book refer to Sexual Psychological profiling, these are sexual psychology profiling tests: set up on the streets, in public buildings, in friends and relatives houses by professional and amateur psychologists. These tests ascertain peoples sexual interests, they are supposed to be covert: and the victim is not supposed to be aware of the test.
In the authors assessment, sexual psychological profiling tests currently set up by the statutory agencies should be absolutely covert and never be detected or published, the authors experience is that this is far from so. These agencies inform / use members of the public in their tests, they also inform management of businesses as to exactly what they are doing, demonstrate what they are doing, this opens the door to amateur sexual psychological profiling: that is usually pathetic. All test results are locally published by the professionals and the amateurs.
The amateurs and most of the professionals are morons, affectionately termed as such by the author: because their un-professionalism causes them to spend more time on the case than they need be. " More-On the case than they need be." Their moronic behaviour also induces a lot of psychological damage for the victim. In the authors assessment: there is not much difference between the professionals and the amateurs.
As described in the foreword, this sexual psychology testing business can be used to destroy people by inducing interest in different gender, and create serious paedophile interest. Such negativity: and publication of the adaptation causes serious credibility / character destruction: easily leading to suicide for the victim. Deliberately induced realisation of such testing causes extreme psychological damage: and further negative adaptation.
Realisation of being subjected to sexual psychology tests causes considerable mental impairment whilst the tests ensue. This often causes faults, false recordings, and serious mental corruption for the victim.
Sexual orientation interest as explained in the preface is by most scientists believed to be in most part caused by environmental programming, and is easily environmentally adapted. The author supports this view. This book is primarily written to highlight the alarming chronology of induced psychological sexual interest adaptation event for the author between July 1996 and August 2003. However, no unlawful sexual activity took place, there was no desire to enter in to unlawful sexual activity.Prior to July 1992, the author considered his sexual interests as normal. In 1992, he wanted a monogamous heterosexual relationship with a woman of about ten years his junior. In his assessment, at this time there was very little paedophile or homosexual interest, so negligible that the author was not aware of this. Throughout his life paedophile and homosexual interests had only surfaced the once, the opportunity for sexual activity at these times was there, but the author chose not to enter in to sexual activity in these areas.
I had the nervous breakdown in December 1988. It took a long time to return to good mental health. All brains are programmed differently, all nervous breakdowns, ( severe neural corruptions ), are different for every person. The healing / recovery, period is different for every person, some people never really fully recover to achieve good mental health, other people make a full recovery: sometimes to a better mental state than before the serious neural corruption.
It took me three and a half years to fully recover from the serious neural corruption, I wrote the book-1, Programming Basic For Eternal Life: that chronicles the nervous breakdown. Also this book describes as an autobiography how I worked out my brain program installed since birth: I finally discarded the religious programming after going through a period of religious mania. I read biology books, and I came to the conclusion that I still hold today after considerable research: that all evolved life on this planet is organic machine. Note. There is growing support amongst scientists for this discipline.
In April - June 1992, I became happier than at any time in my life, I was projecting good electronics art: I wanted to build up my television rental business and start an electronics business. I was looking at other business interests: I was professionally psychiatrically analysed, I was assessed by the psychiatric services as having, no mental disorders, conclusion, " good mental health. "
There was no apparent peadophile or homosexual interest, this is normal for me. I wanted a compatible brain program partner, I was looking for a slightly younger partner, with a face that I liked, with good compatible intelligence, good body figure, I wanted to build up my business, I was also looking at other business interests, I was very happy.
In 1992, Had a loving partner developed in my life, life would have been very good with my eldest daughter, and the grandchildren. I would have picked a partner that loved children, and I feel that there would have been more frequent visits to my youngest daughters and her family. I would have worked to provide income, my partner would have had to be equal in this respect, we could have had a good life, if we were compatible.
For fifteen years prior to 1992, I had enjoyed science reading, mostly electronic, also, listening to my determination of interesting lyric based rock / pop music, I also enjoyed sport. Sport was swimming, high board artistic diving, roller skating. I was always mixing with young people, teenagers, and younger children: this was good fun. I always mixed as an equal with youngsters enjoying the sport: having as much fun as we could.
The summer of 1992 was hot, I used the Broom Hill open air swimming pool in Ipswich a lot in the afternoons, I worked in the mornings and evenings at home. I was single, wife left in 1991, my children had grown up, and they had also left home. I was very vulnerable: the mostly sub conscious wanting of the replacement of the love programs lost. The children that I was mixing with, some of them knew that I was single, and I was offered sex from these pubescent children: I declined these offers.
This created a sexual interest in this age group: that prior was not apparent. I was attracted to a girl that I aged at 15, in conversation Holly stated that she was interested in science and music: the compatible brain program made us fall in love. Holly flipped my head, negated my prior pristine highly intelligent brain to absolute stupidity, I wanted Holly to be my lover and my best friend until she went to university. I wanted to do help Holly in any way that I could to get her to university.
I stopped the relationship before the relationship went to sexual activity: Holly was not a virgin. The science interest, my major, the reason why I fell in love with Holly: was a lie on her part. The whole phenomenal love program that I had for Holly: was built on her lies. My dominant interest in Holly was a surrogate daughter, I wanted to program Holly to university, in the induced corrupted mental state: I wanted Holly as my lover and my best friend, until she went to university.
After I stopped the relationship, I heard Holly had been raped, this was another lie on her part. I chased around trying to find Holly to make sure she was all right: I knew another girl that had been raped, this girl had committed suicide. I still had love for Holly, I was afraid that she would commit suicide. Holly knew of the lies that she had told me, she became frightened of me. A complaint was filed with the police, I was prosecuted for harassment.
I was fined 30 pounds sterling, ( 45 USD ), The case was published in the local newspaper, published as a sad case. It was a sad case all right, this girl had ripped a pristine brain to pieces with a lot of silly lies, also, destroying my local credibility. I lost business, I lost the interest to build up the business. I then spent the next three years in a poor mental state writing the science book: book-2, Surrogate Daughter published on my memetic1.com. web site.
Book Two. 1. That defines love and fantasy: the extreme protracted fantasy for Holly generated by the induced poor mental state. 2. Looks at the brain with analyses as a percentage calculating machine. 3. I principally published this book to protect men that mix socially with children, if you do this: it is so easy to fall in love with a child.
This science book is set against a back drop of Ipswich Borough Council corporate corruption and lack of care for the public in Ipswich by swimming pool management, and pool attendants: never refer to these people as lifeguards. I.B.C. are aware that I want to enter in to an action as retribution, recompense for their harassment of me and other members of the public: as retribution when I called in the local newspaper to correct the dangerous swimming pool. This is part of the reason why I.B.C. and other local agencies do anything to discredit me to stop witnesses coming forward: and to build any possible evidence to discredit me. Local linked agencies, primarily the police, masons, I.B.C. do not want this court case.
I returned to reasonable mental health by 1995, the interest in 14 year old children was more prevalent: because of the offers of sex from 13-14 year old children. My credibility was gone, I knew that I would not be able to get a really decent equal aged girlfriend. This seemed to increase the interest in pubescent children, also, I wanted to write a play, this needed a young persons input.
The court case with Holly in 1993 killed the fun loving child like personality that had prior been for about 15 years, mostly at sports venues, mixing with adults and children. I wrongly felt that the sexuality law for children was outdated, I was angry that this law had stopped the relationship with Holly, that I could see nothing wrong with. I wanted to adapt this law, I did not want other men to fall in to the same trap that I had fell in to.
I was going to make it my personal crusade to try to get this law changed, I was interested in writing a play that ends in the death of an nineteen year old boy and a thirteen year old girl because of this law, the play was very humorous and very dramatic. The nineteen year old boy had been pestered by the thirteen year old girl until he finally gave in and dated her, they became lovers, were very compatible, fun loving, and very much in love. I started to write the play and create support marketable merchandise.
In may 1996, I was feeling a lot better, and I was interested in advertising for an equal age or slightly younger compatible brain program partner, as previously described. A little of the fun loving personality had returned, I was feeling happier mixing / playing with young children: no sexual Interest.
I spoke to a 14 year old girl in the Neptune cafe in Ipswich in 1996, she had lied about her age to get a job there, she had started working there at the age of 12, this was illegal. She had entered in to a sexual relationship with a thirty year old man, she terminated this relationship: and she currently had an eighteen year old lover. She stated that it was her 15th birthday, the next week: and that she was looking forward to it.
I stated, that I bet she would be more happy when she was 16 years old and then she would not be a child, her face changed, she scowled at me, and was very annoyed at what I said. Most 14 year old girls today, at this age: do not feel that they are children.
In January 1996 I wrote to David Ball, the leader of Ipswich Borough Council. I sent Ball a recorded delivery letter pertinent to my serious safety concerns at the Broom Hill pool: I.B.C. are the proprietors for the Broom Hill pool. I also complained at my prior harassment treatment by his management. On the 30th of May 1996 I called on David Ball at his home, the outdoor lido Broom Hill pool had just opened for the summer season: it was dangerous, and I wanted the danger remedied.
Ball stated," That he knew that the management of the Broom Hill swimming pool were trying to bring about the death of an unwary member of the public to close the pool indefinitely." This statement caused a very heated exchange between Ball and myself, I assaulted Ball, hit him, and threatened him with an act of terrorism: if somebody died in the Broom Hill Pool, because of his councils intent and neglect.
Ball was terrified, and filed a complaint with the police, Ball expected me to be remanded in prison until the case: he knew that I would not be able to prepare a good defence in prison. I was not remanded, I was bailed to appear before Ipswich Magistrates: a full chronicle of the whole amazing saga is chronicled in Book-4 Titled, " The Fiddle ", that is published on this site. The police prosecution destroyed my good mental state, I was very unhappy and psychopathic at a very high level.
The brain corruption was horrendous, David Ball was also a teacher at Copleston School in Ipswich. In a very poor mental state I became friendly with some 14 year old children, girls, over Holliwells park Ipswich, the park is near my house: these girls attended Copleston High School, they knew David Ball, they did not like him, they said that he was an idiot, they were right in this respect. These girls were good for me, good fun, I enjoyed their company: this helped reduce the psychopathy aimed at Ball and his crooked council.
I was collecting data of the time period to write in to the play. I was using the park quite a lot to help reduce the recently induced psychopathy. I mixed with these children a lot, this helped reduce the psychopathy induced by the David Ball disclosure. We were compatible in that the girls loved the Broom Hill Swimming pool, they wanted it safe: and they wanted it kept open.
I had different percentages of love for all the girls, all the girls said they were aged 14, they looked and acted about this age. I did not like one of the girls who was trouble. One of the girls Cxxxxxxxx, I was slightly more attracted too, she had a drama interest, I needed help from a person with a drama interest with the play, I saw the girls on the hill one night near my house, they were drunk as usual, they jumped in my car, we chatted for a while, most youngsters do drink or drugs, I needed a drunk scene in the play, I had no intention of driving anywhere. I did not criticise the drinking.
I had no intention of taking the girls out. One of the girls said, " take us for a drive Gary ", I found this statement very humorous, I thought this is going to be a riot, so we went for a drive, there was lots of talk of sex from the girls with some very humorous statements. I had often moved the girls in the area by car. I dropped them off, they asked if I would move them later, I agreed to this. I was not sexually aroused in the girls company.
When I went to collect the girls, a police car waved me down, the police officers asked what I was doing, I told the officers I was transporting some girls, I often do, I was a writer, and I was interested in the girls for this reason. The officers checked the car, and stated: "we want to know about drunken teenagers, you let us know if you meet any more ". The police officers left. I returned home. I saw the girls the next day in Holliwells park, they were abusive, I did not feel that I deserved that, so I was abusive back.
This event upset me very much, caused rejection by the girls, and rejection by the girls that worked in the Neptune cafe, that I was using daily, the incident appeared to upset a lot of people. Roena, Northgate School Psychology student, one of the cafe waitress girls, started setting up psychology tests in the cafe, I was usually punctual in arriving at One O,clock, I quickly realised what Roena was doing and started to make notes on my computer of the tests.
Shortly after this, I would say this was late July 1996, The first serious mental corruption occurred from a psychology test at the Neptune Cafe. I do not think Roena had knowledge of this test.
Throughout this book, chronicled in small tables, is the authors: " Sexual Interest ", for specimen encountered people that are set up for sexual psychology profiling tests. These published tables also highlight the psychological damage caused by such realised tests: termed as, Mental Corruption ", caused by the authors assessment of a failed sexual psychological profiling test. The last part of the table records the number of days that the mental corruption ensues: termed as, Days Affected ". This data could not easily be displayed in graph format, so a simple scoring table format is used for each chronicled test: the specimen table is displayed below. All marks / points, are scored up to a level of 10.
Sexual Interest, XX Points.
Mental Corruption, XX Points.
Days Affected. XX Days.
Note. Sexual Interest. at a points scored / recorded level three, is very slight, a very low level of sexual interest. Level five, is a slightly higher sexual interest. Levels seven/ eight is a strong sexual interest. Level ten is a very strong sexual interest, if a sexual encounter happened at this level: this would lead to multi orgasmic sex at a very high level.
Note. Mental Corruption. Level three, would be a slight induced level of corruption. Level six, is very mentally impaired. Level 10, so mentally impaired that I go to bed for the day.
Note. Days Affected. This is the recording of the number of days affected.
Note. Mental corruption. With the maximum mental corruption, the author usually goes to bed, stays in bed for a number of days: very upset. The induced emotions / modes, can be singular, or a mixture of the following,
Angered.Enraged.
Psychopathic.
Unhappy.
Depressed.
This corrupted mental state by a failed sexual psychology test is usually worse on the first day, and then slowly getting better on subsequent days.
In the summer of 1996, I was having lunch in the Neptune Cafe. Some people took up a position near the side access door, this door has access to a road connecting the dock to the main road. In 1996, cars often came along this road fast, any person stepping out of the door without first looking could be killed. A girl child bolted for the door: and ran straight in to the road, I shuddered with shock at the point where the impact would have been. This was repeated with a boy child, the effect on me the second time was not so great.
I went outside, there were people there with the children. I knew that this was a psychology test, The effect of this test was to make me very psychopathic, I laid in the bath daily for two days psychopathic and depressed re,heating the bath water, I did not use the cafe for a few days, this absolutely screwed my head up.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 10 Points.
Days Affected. 06 Days.
The street psychology testing started, I have a highly
investigative brain, with such testing it is difficult to set
the test up so it looks absolutely natural, I was noticing
these anomalies, inquisitively looking, and failing the tests.
Most of the tests were for homosexuality interest, ( males bent
over displaying bottom, to look at the males bottom is a failed
test ), four apparent anomalies are,
1. Single people standing still in unusual
poses, this makes you look inquisitively to ascertain their
behaviour.
2. People appearing to talk to each other, one of
the people is looking at you.
3. A person bent over, whilst the spotter is looking at you.
4. A person standing still on a path with their back to you.
It does not take long to realise what is going on, however because of the highly inquisitive nature of the author, this did not stop him looking. I quickly learnt that the tester usually moves after concentrating, when the test is failed, this of course is mentally destabilising for the tested person with the awareness of this, the authors brain was becoming more corrupted, psychopathic, with this new induced negative fault activity.
I failed many tests, hundreds of them, to learn the art, I knew there would be lies and dirty tricks. I deliberately ogled a girl, say 15 years and 11 months old, good figure, big breasts, still technically a child, at a sports venue, the tester got so exited: she danced and did a pirouette. I found this highly amusing.
One favourite test to produce an engineered crooked pleasing false positive result for the unethical tester is to have a person slightly bent over looking through a chain link fence at a piece of waste land. As the male person being tested passes in his car, if he is investigative, he will wonder what the male person is doing, " what's he looking at ", in such an unusual pose. He looks at the person intently to see what the person is looking at, this is a sure bet failed test: this can be supported by covert video evidence, " Nice One " !!!
Similar tests can easily be set up with children on the streets and in public meeting places, shops, supermarkets, libraries, etc. to ascertain a paedophile interest
I was regularly using the swimming pool in Felixtowe, I felt there was a test there, the psychologists filed past me going in to the pool, one of the woman looked at me, and patted her mouth, indicating boredom, and that I would exhibit perfect behaviour. In the pool there was a girl child, tall, aged about thirteen standing still looking at me, she was a beautiful child, a credit to her family, I thought why should I not look at her, I don't want to have sex with her, I was becoming rebellious: so I looked at her for about ten seconds, I thought " fuck you," referring to the psychologists.
About this time the first indication of an induced mental impairment occurred, I knew that I was being sexually profiled in many places that I went: I decided to act in my assessment of what I thought was normal behaviour for a single male as he walked in public areas. Note. All animals will change their behaviour if they know they are being watched.
I thought that it was normal to look with interest at pubescent 14 - 16 year old female children as they walked with parents, I thought it was normal to look at shapely attractive women. I thought it was normal to look at shapely women's posteriors as they were bent over, there seemed to be a lot of these sort of sighting's develop. I now behaved in my assessment of what I thought was normal behaviour.
This was the start of the recording of the false positives, a false positive in a positive result that the tester wants, however, the recording is incorrect: because the victim behaved deliberately in a different manner to his normal behaviour. The victim / the author: in this case, is highly investigative, and any event that appears that is new to him, he will fully investigate.
There were numerous tests set up to see if I had care for children, I got annoyed with these tests, so I let a child run out of the door of a chemists shop on to the forecourt near a busy road, another person ran and got the child, this put a stop to those tests, Had the child been killed, this could have destroyed me. I thought, not much care was shown by parents at the Broom Hill swimming pool, there was only one person that cared for the children there, and did something about it, called in the local press with a published article, called in the H.S.E. remedial notice issued, published article: yet there were hundreds of adults using the pool. None of these people took caring action.
There was a test set up to see if I had care for the elderly. I knew that this was a test, however, I was too mentally negated by all the testing to respond in the caring manner that I would have normally displayed. An old computer was put in the back of my car by an unknown person, this made me paranoid in case it was on a stolen list, a dirty trick to discredit me, I quickly had to dump the computer. This made me very paranoid and angry causing further mental destability.
There was an attempt on my life, a car tried to run me down, I felt there was another car with young men in it that wanted to attack me, this was because of the published joy ride with the children. I felt the car occupants were waiting for the right opportunity to attack me.
I started looking at men's faces on the streets, I wanted to see faces to try to remember them if I was attacked, people started brushing their hair, and the sides of their faces as I looked at them, I became very interested in these people, I was trying to remember their faces in case I was attacked. More and more people started to brush their faces and hair with their hands, eventually hundreds of people were doing it, ( I did not know that to look at a person brushing their face or hair: was a sexual interest response ), this display was mentally destabilising. The psychology testing in the Neptune Cafe increased: causing further mental destability.
The dirty tricks started, as I went past the Save Garage, on Bishops Hill a car horn sounded, I looked, looked away, the horn sounded again, all I could see was a bottom sticking out of the car, I was straining my neck to see who was in the car, this was repeated at several locations. I soon realised that there was probably a video camera in the car, the horns sounding could be edited off the tape, and a different background recorded. This event on the video tape would appear that I was very interested in men's bottoms. This increased the psychopathy and paranoia.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, incrementing.
One day at my usual time, on my normal route from the Neptune Cafe: whilst driving to a junction, I found myself facing a child aged 9 ? bent over, the top of her head was in a mans groyne, I looked, I thought what is going on, then I saw a camera held above the girls head, pointing at me sitting in my car as I was looking at the event and the girls bottom. I was starting to get a small amount of abuse on the streets, and a lot of dirty looks in the cafe. My mental state was deteriorating fast.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, incrementing.
Time was moving on, could be October, the police raided my house took my computers under the Obscene Publications Act. This further mentally negated me. The computers were returned six months later, no prosecution, no apology.
I borrowed a computer, I typed notes on this of the test events as they were happening, the testing, the unhappiness of the girls in the cafe, the abuse by some girls. The extreme mental negation caused by young females started to create a slight homosexual interest, I typed this in to my computer, the next day what a reception I got in the Neptune Cafe, people everywhere, some smiling, some laughing, some holding their noses, some bent over displaying their clothed bottoms, I looked at all the bottoms smiling, I thought the people bent over and the people smiling were supporters.
Most people seemed happy, I was happy, for about a week I would smile at the people that were smiling as I looked at the displayed bottoms. My head was really screwed up. This created an element of happiness for me, with the assessed support, from interest ensued in displayed men's bottoms.
From there on I could not stop looking at displayed bottoms, mostly men. A lot of people seemed very happy at this. At about this time some people started holding their noses as they passed me in the street. I was looking at all the people brushing their hair and faces. At this time I realised the computer was bugged, I realise now this was the police, I feel that MI5, would not have locally published. Realising that your computer, telephone, car, house is bugged is very mentally destabilising
There was a very mentally destructive test at my best friends house. His wife did a bottoms test, she was kneeling on the floor sand papering a skirting, board. Someone spoke to me from another room, I talked back lifting my head, it was facing directly at her bottom, the spotter who was in the garden who could not hear the conversation, she just saw me looking at my friends wife's bottom. I had seen my friend and family weekly for a few days per week for ten years, this test was very mentally destructive.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 10 Points.
Days Affected. 05 Days.
As my mental state seriously deteriorated, I wanted to cuddle two men, I had never wanted to cuddle men before, a man that was my eldest daughters boyfriend Mick, he was fantastic with the grandchildren, always cuddling them, and playing with them, I wanted a cuddle from him as well. There was a slight homosexual interest towards him, I mentioned this to my eldest daughter, She said, " don't mention this to Mick, this will screw his head up." As the tests advanced round my daughters, at times, I just wanted a cuddle.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
This also happened with my best friend, he had become a father figure, when I was in his house often alone, it would feel like home, I asked him for a cuddle, there was no sexual interest. He interpreted this as a homosexual advance, I told him I did not want sex, I just wanted a cuddle, My mental state was very seriously deteriorating, I overheard him later talking to another friend, he stated, I have known this guy for 10 years, I did not know that he was a homosexual.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, incrementing.
I was beginning to feel quite alone, every brain stability program that I had, ( friend relative ), was in fault, the mental corruption was horrendous. This induced sensuality for almost every male / female friend that I had at about level three. The isolation and loneliness was so great that often as I walked the streets perhaps a person on the other side of the road would lift his arm to hold his nose.
I would immediately turn to face this person, as soon as they started to lift their arm I would turn hoping that this was a friend putting his arm up to wave. I became very attracted to the colour black, I was still very attracted to men's bottoms and their back views, I was becoming less attracted to faces, although I continued to look at fronts and faces: in case there was violence.
Often, A black clad male would be bent over on the other side of road. ( A black clad man: is a black clothed man ). As soon as I sighted this person, I would turn, cross the road and walk towards the black clad displayed posterior: I was not aware of sexual interest in displayed bottoms. I had become the local freak show, this is what a lot of people wanted, they were very happy.
The David Ball court case was being put back, it should have been heard in September, time was now moving on towards Christmas, I wanted the case over, so I could get on with my life, I was being followed about, continuously harassed, psychologically tested where ever I went, I was becoming very exhausted, depressed, psychopathic: and suicidal.
There was no local support for me, there was a lot of abuse, There was psychological testing where ever I went, about ten to twenty per cent of analysed testing is a natural fail, the realisation of this: is very mentally destructive.
My eldest daughter started to make sexual gestures, massaging her face, shoulders, One day when I was at her house this activity carried on for most of the day when I saw her, she also massaged her breasts and genital area, also brushing her hair back and forwards with her hands. This particular day, I felt this did not cause any sexual interest: I was pleased with this, however, when I urinated there was seminal fluid first, this made me unhappy. This meant that I had been sexually aroused, by this event.
I never got an erection, and never masturbated thinking of my daughter, Over a short period of time this continuing behaviour broke down the prohibitive sexual barrier that was there with my daughter, I generated a sexual interest for my Daughter at about level three. The psychological damage of the realisation of the mentally destructive testing considerably reduced the volume of the bonded love program that I had for my eldest daughter.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 5 Points.
Days Affected. Indefinite.
The psychological damage imposed by my eldest daughters sexually provocative displays: I was fully aware that my daughter was seriously corrupting my brain, this made me very psychopathic. When I visited my eldest daughter, I wanted to attack her: beat her severely, this feeling was very strong, however, I controlled this urge to attack her, I suffered in silence.
Another mental flip at this time, I was at the top of the stair case, holding my three year old granddaughter Michelle in my arms, I wanted to throw Michelle down the stairs killing her, to screw my daughters head up, the equaliser. Immediately after this thought I held Michelle close to me, hugged her, took her down to the ground floor placed her in a chair, kissed her and told her that I loved her, the corrupting thought to kill her never returned.
The psychological testing, and failure, where ever I went, reduced the percentage of all the stability love programs that I had. My nervous system started to react, and I started to move in sympathy with the body movements that were made near me.
This body movement disorder was realised where ever I went, and people started body movements near me. This caused reciprocative body movements by me, many people were amused, the Neptune Cafe was always full of interested psychologists, they were setting up movement tests, I could not help but respond with reciprocative body movements. I tried to fight this reciprocative body movement, this was difficult to control. At the Neptune: with interested psychologists, their publication of analyses, business was booming. All of my stabilising love programs were corrupted, this was devastating.
Note. Refer to the scientific analyses section in part 4 for the explanation and the analyses of this induced movement disorder mental condition.
In the unbelievably poor mental state at some time in the late autumn of 1996, I was baby sitting the grandchildren, Michelle at this time was hypomanic, and one day she moved up and down on my groin as an adult woman may do during intercourse, I felt that I was starting to get an erection, I told Michelle, that I was going to wash up, I stood up, went in to the kitchen, washed up, the erection quickly went away, this erection problem never happened again, there was obviously no sexual fantasy for my granddaughter.
Time was moving on, it was November 1996, I felt the court case was being dragged, there was a general election looming in the following year, the case could be used to sway the general election, I did not feel that was appropriate, one rotten council is not indicative of them all. I also felt that new labour might be a better government, I had not researched the relevant data, I was not in a position to assess which government overall would be better.
I felt that if the pending case was used as an instrument to sway the general election, the political freak heads, people suffering from political mania, would be after me. Many people would see the case as a scam, a fast one. I would be beaten up or could even be killed, I was not happy faced with this new situation. It was now mid November. I was in a very poor deteriorating mental state.
A car had moved in to the car park behind my house, I normally started typing at about ten AM. The car was always there, it was cold, the engine was running all day, I looked over the fence, there were two occupants in the car. I assumed there was a transmitter in my computer, the car was picking up the signal, and was monitoring what I was typing. I felt that there were now two agencies monitoring the data.
I thought it's time to stop this court case, two of the girls that I was friendly with over Holliwells park, had sexually teased me, one of the girls had teased me by pulling her black bra strap down exposing part of her young breast on two or three occasions, this sort of teasing by a fourteen year old girl will make me fantasy masturbate, ( " Here Is Your Love, Come And Get It "), this masturbation for this girl, happened once. Another girl had very nice firm looking large breasts, she wore very low tops, liked showing her breasts off, and often displayed them very close to my face, I interpreted this as a tease, this made me masturbate once. ( " Here Is Your Love, Come And Get It ").
The third girl, also aged 14, had an interest in drama, I was very interested in perhaps an introduction to an older girl through this girl, perhaps a friend that had a strong interest in drama, the play that I wanted to write was a drama. I was not interested in having sex with this 14 year old girl, she was very small, I was not interested in having sex with such a small girl, also, I also felt that she was a virgin, and very immature.
In conversation the girl had stated that she had enjoyed oral sex with a younger boy, she stated that she liked men up to my age, The girls had taken my phone number to ring me if they spotted any thing dangerous at the Broom Hill pool in the summer. This girl had phoned me to take her swimming in the summer at Felixtowe, she knew that I was banned from the Broom Hill pool. She had phoned me at 10AM one morning, I thought that mixing with any of the girls singularly in my poor mental state could lead to inappropriate sexual behaviour. I declined the offer. I thought that this girl was interested in sexual contact, ( " Here Is Your Love, Come And Get It "), this made me fantasy masturbate producing imagery of her pony tail moving up and down as she had oral sex with me, as I was laying in bed at home, this happened the once.
I eventually decided to type this masturbation data in to the computer, to stop the court case. As I started to type in the data the revs started to increase from the engine of the car outside. By the time I had finished typing the car engine was revving quite loud. I did a bit more typing, the car revs started to decrease. I switched the computer off, and thought that's the end of that, goodbye everybody, no court case, I went to bed.
The next day I walked to the Neptune Cafe about half a mile from my house. There were some very strange looks from a lot of people, I could not stop laughing, the disclosure was very bizarre, all I could keep thinking of was goodbye everybody, go away, no court case, I can now quickly recover, and get on with my life.
Later in the day, in Ipswich I walked down Norwich Road, there were three people standing outside Cleopatra's, this is supposed to be a massage parlour of disrepute. I was told, " best blow job in town ". One of the woman said " pervert ", I nearly replied, " had a hard morning girls, have we just left off work." I decided it would be wise to say nothing, and I walked on.
The abuse level increased by a small amount, I was still being ridiculed, still looking at predominantly men's bottoms as they bent over, I now could not stop this poor induced mental state. I was still being followed around, when I stopped the typing: the car behind the house left about two weeks later.
The harassment carried on, I wanted to die, I did not have the will to commit suicide, I saw my G.P. Dr. Haas, Derby Road Surgery I told him that I was suicidal, and psychopathic, I wanted to go in to a mental hospital, I wanted the staff at the hospital to kill me, I had suffered enough. Upon entering the hospital, ( I was paranoid and scared of collusion at the mental hospital ), I asked a nurse who was escorting me upstairs, I said, I hope that there will be no violence, he stated, " no violence from you, and there will be violence from us."
In the hospital I made a dramatic recovery, within a couple of days, away from the phenomenal harassment, the psychopathy rescinded: this was helped by the induced effect of the administered stabilising drugs to reduce the psychopathy.
I masturbated once in the hospital, in the bath, I wanted to know If I had become a homosexual, I created various mental images of men's bare and clothed bottoms, I could not get aroused to orgasm. I created brain imagery of a sixteen hear old child that had lifted her pretty lace patterned black bra up, showing me her breasts: indicating that she wanted to have sex with me, this quickly produced orgasm and ejaculation. There had been no sexual activity from me with this girl.
One evening there was a black quite good looking female nurse in the small glass clad office aged about 30. I was sitting on a chair facing her about twenty feet away, the lighting was very subdued. Three months of serious psychological damage had made me forget to cut my toe nails, they were very long and hurting. There was a basket at the side of me on the floor, I ripped the overgrown ends of the very long nails off one by one placing them in the basket beside me, moving and changing positions to service both feet.
This took about ten minutes, after this I got up and went and sat near the other nurses. The black nurse came over and said talking to the other nurses, " we must be so happy now that we have relieved ourselves." This angered me, I nearly stood up dropping my trousers to show that my pants were not wet, and that I had not masturbated. As always, I suffered in silence, my usual pattern.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 06 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
I thought, psychiatric assessments, do they ever get it right ? I use brain imagery, recalled in my brain for masturbation, I do not use incoming data from the external senses. A few days later, I considered, was this incident noted as part of my brain program record ? I saw the black nurse with her young daughter in Staples stationary shop in Ipswich about a month later, I said Hello, she replied, and quickly moved away.
About my reciprocative body movement disorder, a male nurse stated to another nurse, looking at me, we have had them in here much worse. The nurses let me do the washing up, and lay tables, to keep me part occupied, I am grateful for this.
Another nurse, another day, stood near me, and said, " you can always tell, not many relatives." There were movement tests in the hospital, and there was knowledge there of my homosexual interest, One of the male nurses there always walked about with his shirt hanging out, as he walked past me, he used to lift the rear of his shirt up and then down, I was displeased at this unprofessional behaviour, particularly as I had not had a homosexual relationship, mutual masturbation, since I was a child with a child, and as an adult: I did not want to enter in to any homosexual behaviour.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 02 Points.
Days Affected. Whilst I was in the hospital.
My mother had moved to a residential home in Ipswich in June 1996, time had now moved on to December, I had seen my mother daily, there were many psychology tests in the home. Tests everywhere: causing me serious mental corruption. About ten to twenty per cent of tests are a natural fail, awareness for this is very mentally destructive. I went daily from the hospital to see my mother, I felt that there was a small amount of testing from my mother, but not enough to corrupt mothers love stability program.
Whilst in the mental hospital, I conferred with my solicitor, David Ball, the leader of Ipswich Borough Council, had dropped the serious complaint that I had threatened to petrol bomb his house, Ball had avoided the scathing cross examination that would have seriously negated the credibility of Ipswich Borough Council. I was not fined, I was given a probation sentence for a period of six months.
I was very concerned at seeing a probation officer, because I felt there could be collusion with Ipswich Borough Council, I was still in a very poor mental state when I met Chris Schulz my probation officer in February 1997. Chris Schultz was a fantastic sympathetic man, there was no collusion. Chris did not like Ipswich, he had moved here like myself. Chris also did not like the regime at St. Clements mental hospital, he thought the hospital was very poor.
I am very grateful that the Ipswich probation office has such caring understanding professional people there. Chris said that he could probably get me seen at the Norvic Centre in Norwich for mental health: he thought this unit was far superior to St. Clements. I decided to keep with the St. Clements hospital. The probation period was not long, I did not have to attend St. Clements mental hospital after the six month probation period, there was five months left.
I was very unhappy with the psychiatric report, the report was
prepared by Dr. A.J. Byme. Consultant psychiatrist. The relevant
points that Dr. Byme raised in his report were,
1. This patient was admitted as an informal patient 26 11 96. His G.P. had asked for an urgent psychiatric assessment.
2. That in the patients assessment: he was ill when he entered the hospital.
3. The patient believed that safety measures were being withheld at the Broom Hill pool to kill a member of the public to close the pool to the financial benefit of the council.
4. The patient asked to be discharged, 05 12 96. The hospital felt it was not possible to detain the patient under the mental health act.
4. The patient is assessed as suffering from paranoid schizophrenia.
4. This man will require a drug therapy for at least 18
months.
Whilst I was in the mental hospital, I was in such a poor mental state I kept talking about the children that wanted to have sex with me, particularly Holly: and that I felt that the current sexuality law was outdated. Most 14 year old children are sexually active, many of these children have older lovers. This was an incorrect mental state: I did not see the scientific evidence until 1999, that proved that older men that have sex with such children, often impair the children's mental state for life. The scientific evidence is presented at the end of this book in the analyses section.
Byme had stated in his psychiatric report: that I was preoccupied with thoughts of sex with underage females. His note that the hospital could not detain me, I interpreted that: the hospital would have detained me if they had the power to. The Judge for the case read the report, Byme knew the judge would read the report: I feel that Byme's psychiatric report was biased to try to get the Judge to imprison me. Fortunately for me the Judge, H.H. Judge Beddard, Ipswich Crown Court, was a very fair man.
I left the hospital a very unhappy man, my credibility had been destroyed in Ipswich by,
1. The publication of failed psychology tests.
2. The transmitted published sexual fantasy of the pubescent children that had sexually teased me: and offered me sex.
3. Very conveniently, the incorrect assessment of paranoid schizophrenia, negated, disqualified all my work, my allegations, and books, that I had written.
Byme's assessment for paranoid schizophrenia: the basis for this was that I.B.C. would not try to engineer the death of a person to close the Broom Hill pool, therefore, this had to be delusion. When I entered St. Clement's mental hospital, and when I stayed there: I was fully aware that my induced poor mental state had caused,
1. Extreme Psychopathy.
2. Serious Nervous Exhaustion.
3. Depression.
4. There had been no delusion at any time since since. 1988 / 1989
I did consider perhaps Byme was a Mason: and his assessment of serious delusion was the product of a Masonic meeting with I.B.C. hierarchal management. Byme had seen evidence of the H.S.E. and local newspaper involvement that made Ipswich swimming pools safer, these agencies had been contacted by me, he knew this, to make the Broom Hill Pool Safe.
A very alarming aspect of my stay in the St. Clements mental hospital, kept in a locked ward, ( kept as an inmate ), was that as a non smoker who does not enjoy watching televised killing films, soaps, game shows or most of the force fed rubbish that appears on television that most people like to watch. The television room at St. Clements was always full of cigarette smoke at the time, and the viewed content that most people enjoyed did not interest me in the slightest: so I kept out of this room.
There was not much on offer in the way of reading material to interest me, I was not allowed to use the hospital library, I was not allowed to use the gymnasium. As a caged animal with nothing to do, I did what all caged animals with nothing to occupy their minds do: I just walked up and down the long ward for hours on end day after day, I feel that my displayed behaviour, that this was incorrectly analysed as psychopathy and psychotic behaviour.
The testing ensued at a lessor level in the Neptune Cafe. In the summer of 1997 Roena, aged 16, and a girl friend were standing alongside me at the service counter in the Neptune Cafe, Nick the proprietor was facing me, looking at me across the service counter, I glanced my eye down to Roena's nearest breast, and then back up to Nick, I said to Nick, " was that a pass," he replied, " yes," He then stated, " however, I will mark you down for a fail, " Nick could see by my face that the anger was dramatically rising, he turned, reached over, and placed a large kitchen knife near his side, I could appreciate the failure of equal competition, and went and quietly sat down, the anger slowly subsided.
I overheard Roena, ( a psychology student ), say, " If somebody gets in your way, Screw Their Head Up."
Sexual Interest for Roena, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 06 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Days.
The relationship with my friend David Miles failed shortly after, I believe this failure happened in early spring. I transported David to Chelmsford to a computer fair, a mutual interest. There were bits of pattern that were unusual in chat, we passed a wooded area on the A12 south of Colchester, David Said " I bet you would like to take a little girl in there," I immediately retorted, that this was not the case. This made me very angry, psychopathic, I terminated the relationship with David Miles shortly after this event, I changed my telephone number and I did not let David have the new number, David, prior to the incident with the Holliwells park girls, had always been helpful to me, this was a great loss, however, this loss did not make me ill enough to go to bed.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 08 Points.
Days Affected. 90 Days.
At this point I will state the assessed percentages of the mental corruption to my stability programs from the various friend / relatives / businesses, programs loss.
Neptune cafe. 22%
My best friend Victor, his family,
and my other best friend.
David Miles. 22%
Eldest Daughter. 30%
The home where mother was. 15%
Others. 11%
There was testing daily, 1996 to 1998 in the Neptune, some of this testing I failed, this is normal for psychology testing. This aspect of failed testing is very mentally negating, disturbing. Nick the cafe proprietor, loved his amateur psychology tests. One day two of the girls aged early twenties with good body figures, that worked in the Neptune cafe were deliberately leaning over the deep kitchen sink, bottoms up, I had seen this before, and I did not have much interest in it. I looked over the book that I was reading and saw the girls,
I thought, where is the proprietor, Nick the spotter, my head was still, my eyes moved from side to side up and down scanning everywhere for about thirty seconds, where the bloody hell is he ? I eventually looked to the right hand side of me, there was Nick parallelled, crouched down looking at my head, he could not see my eyes moving, scanning about, he stood up and walked towards the girls, he thought that I was ogling their posteriors, as always, I suffered in silence, the mental damage was horrendous.
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Mental Corruption, 10 Points.
Days Affected. 05 Days.
The suffering in silence pattern stemmed from my childhood days suffering in silence, the abuse on the playground. I have always followed this pattern, until I would erupt in violence, I could not do this, to erupt in violence, the testing could be denied, in court, found guilty, penalty imposed. The Judge, if he saw fit, with a psychiatric report of mental impairment, serious delusion, the Judge could order me to be indefinitely detained in a mental hospital.
I went to Asda, one day, August 1997 ? I do not know when, there were about twenty black suits, people, walking across the front of my vehicle on the other side of the road, about fifteen feet away, one woman turned, she faced me, and brushed her face with her hand, I deliberately showed interest by turning my head, at the time, I did not know if this was a pass or a fail, I felt that this was a government funded psychology team moving on.
There were tests in 1996 / 1997, at the Save Garage in Bishops Hill Ipswich. I felt that these tests were set up by police psychologists. These were black clad men with bent over bottoms displays, as they were putting petrol in their cars, and men standing, backs towards me wearing black clad suits. These tests also ensued on the streets at the regular times that I walked. The interest in black clad suited backs, was quite strong, In many cases with the mental destruction, I was preferring to see peoples backs.
Sexual Interest, 02 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. 01 Day for every test, 40 tests on different
days.
In August 1997, the stress levels for me were so unbearable, with all the testing, plus I had not taken the medication ordered by the court, St. Clements mental hospital were aware of this event, there was discussion as to whether I should be taken back to court as taking the medication was a court order condition. I started taking the anti psychotics, I knew that these were good for stress, and they certainly helped to reduce the stress.
At times in a very negated mental state since 1996 there has been slight sexual interest in the grandchildren, I have absolutely kept this under control, there has been so sexual behaviour with the grandchildren, no sexual fantasy masturbation. In an induced poor mental state there has been similar sexual interest in many other people and children by me of both sexes, there has been no interest in having sexual contact and no fantasy masturbation of these sightings. The imposed mental impairment, causes increased sexual interest across a broad spectrum, to want love, to replace the corrupted brain programs, ( " Here Is Your Love, Come And Get It ").
This book is written as testament to the adaptation caused by this sort of mental corruption. As an Author, I am concerned that this sort of mental corruption / adaptation, could cause an increase in active paedophile behaviour in other people. I find the speculation of an increase in this sort of behaviour alarming. Also, paranoia, is increasing in western societies,
I can foresee this amateur psychology testing adding to this general percentage increase in.
1. Personal Paranoia levels.
2. Paedophile Interest.
3. Pervert Behaviour.
4. Mental Illness.
I discussed, a possible sexual problem arising with the children, with my eldest daughter Dianne in 1996. I stated that if there was a problem: I would tell her and we would have to sort something out. By this I meant that if I felt at some time that I could enter in to sexual behaviour with the children: then I could not be left alone with the child that I had the problem with. I think she fully understood this conversation.
Love for my youngest daughter who lives in Scotland, has lessened over the years, however, I still love her a lot. Her family is complete, I cannot help in any way, her husband is fantastic, the kids are great, complete, I am no use there. Had the business ventures that I have tried to create have been successful, I would have gone to Scotland to see my youngest daughter and her family, I have not gone, I cannot afford to pay my way, meals out, shopping, good clothes etc. There is also very little for me to occupy my time at Clare's. I need to be busy, and I always try to pay my way.
I used to enjoy going to Lincolnshire to see Clare every summer, when she lived there, however, I did feel that there were minor psychology tests there.
The suits and the bottoms tests at the Save Garage finished in the late summer of 1997.
I do not know when I finally left the Neptune, it could have been the summer of 1988. I had hung in, abused and ridiculed, almost daily by amateur psychology testing. The last day at the Neptune I looked up from reading to see four men in line, bending over, with their bottoms facing me, Nick was standing alongside the men and started to laugh at me. I got up and quietly left. I never returned.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 07 Points.
Days Affected. 07 Days.
My Mother Died 02 December 1997, My reaction to this was not what I expected, In a way I was glad that she would not live to get feedback to my publications, she would not understand these publications. I knew that publication feedback would make her unhappy, I did not want this. Mothers death was not the shock that I would have expected. I cried a bit, but the shock and loss was not comparable to my fathers death. All my brain programs were corrupted, Mothers support program for me although decreased to a lower level had not been seriously corrupted.
Mothers death was to have very serious consequences, Mother was the highest percentage positive future pure mental stability brain program that I had. Ten weeks after mother died in the February 1998, the school children's holiday, I was attracted to a child aged about 12 tall, lovely curly blond hair, walking west along Norwich road, she did not have a coat on, and it was apparent that she was very flat chested, I knew that I had never been sexually interested in an absolutely flat chested girl, I was sexually interested in this child, this was very unusual, The interest ensued with other such children, I would think aged down to about ten years old.
Sexual Interest, 04 Points.
Mental Corruption, 00 Points.
Days Affected. 00 Days.
The psychologists soon picked this up, they moved in: in droves, like locusts, I could not control the looking with sexual interest at this age group of children. The psychological damage was horrendous, some people, particularly woman were holding their ear lobes as I passed them in my vehicle, some were making a gun sign of their hand, and pointing the gun to their throats. Some were holding their hand across their mouths, some were holding their noses, I was often called a pervert, as I travelled, particularly on foot, I could see and hear this new event daily. This was very mentally destructive.
I had not been called a pervert before at this level, this was very mentally destabilising, The destability lasted for about three days: often I was called a pervert just as I had got over the previous abuse. This caused psychopathy and depression.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 05 Points.
Days Affected. 3 Days.
This new mental impairment caused by adults increased my general sexual interests, but the alarming and disappointing factor was this new very heavy psychology profiling activity by adults and abuse by adults forced my sexual interests down lower, extending to a much lower age group.
Authors Note. People looking at you holding an ear lobe or pointing to the neck with a hand shaped like a gun in Ipswich Suffolk is to display the presence of a paedophile. Holding one's nose is indicative of being in the presence of a homosexual.
I only read science books and journals. If I looked in a science book, I became sexually attracted to pictures of young children, this had not happened before, females and males, and over the later few weeks this sexual interest dropped right down to pictorial imagery of babies in nappies, ( diapers ), the attraction was mostly pink skin. This new attraction disappointed me very much, this made me very unhappy: in the awareness of this new attraction.
Sexual Interest, 05 Points.
Mental Corruption, 03 Points.
Days Affected. When Viewed. 00 Days.
Tests were set up on the streets to monitor my interest. There was no masturbation created from this new interest or generated from the pictorial imagery. Twice weekly masturbation ensued by the personally reproduced brain imagery and circumstance of pubescent children, that had previously sexually teased me: or offered me sex.
I could control this new interest to a certain extent, but I was failing many tests, eventually I decided to fail every test hoping this would eventually get rid of the psychologists. To a certain extent, in such a poor mental state, I started to enjoy being the centre of attention. The tests were at my regular times on route to my eldest daughters, and in the Foxhall Newsagent shop.
Note. Most people like new, like to ride in a new vehicle, I have extensively researched the male, men sexually interested in female pubescent children. There was not one male over Thirty years of age that said there was no sexual interest in shapely pubescent young teenage children aged Thirteen to Fifteen. The only woman aged Thirty that I researched, said; " that she was sexually aroused by some teenage boys when she visited a school to take her children there.
However, we all agreed that to enter in to any sexual contact with such a child was taboo because of the mental damage that can be inflicted upon the child for life by such casual sexual activity.
Further phenomenal mental destruction happened, I think this was February 1999, I was roller skating, I noticed a bent over person in a public viewing area as I passed, black clad bottom, I looked at it, as I passed I could see it was Lloyd one of the large male skaters on the rink, Lloyd is also an associate, a friend, that had respect for me. I certainly had no sexual interest in Lloyd, I did not want to have any sexual contact with a man. As I passed the point again, out of the corner of my eye I could see Lloyd shaking hands with a man, the word got round the rink that I was a male homosexual, that was interested in bottoms, I had known many people on the rink for 20 years as friends, I would say that I knew half the people on the rink. This was, and had been a fantastic support stability program.
Nearly everybody on the rink started to hold their noses, as I passed them, some males and females were shouting pervert, the disk jockey started to announce almost weekly, we have some lovely bottoms in here tonight. The mental destruction was unbelievable, the interest in the colour black rose dramatically, and I found within a few weeks, I am a fast skater, I was skating only from male / female, black clad person to black clad person. My whole prior skating program had dramatically changed. The viewing area in the bar soon seemed to fill up with interested people.
Sexual Interest, 00 Points.
Mental Corruption, 06 Points.
Days Affected. 04 Days.
Note. At the time I was skating only once every 14 days, so the mental corruption was four days out of 14. This was my only recreation. I really enjoy roller skating, the enjoyment outweighed the mental corruption. Also why should I stop doing a sport that I liked, I was not going to give up: I was not going to let these people win.
For people interested in fast roller skating technique, my prior skating program was to skate near every person on the rink that I knew was a good skater, passing from good skater to good skater, I knew all these people, and their skate habits, and this made for safe skating. It is very rare that an approached known good skater will act unpredictably, and will suddenly change direction causing a collision.
The dirty head arrived soon after this new mental impairment, a new thought pattern started, this shows the extent of the mental corruption. Every male friend / associate that I thought of, it did not matter who it was, and for whatever reason, when I first thought of him, the first thought would be followed by thoughts of his posterior, this would soon clear, and then I would carry on normal thoughts for this person.
The same happened with all females, I would think of them, then their genital area, or their breasts, then followed by the normal thoughts, this being the reason that I thought of them in the first place. I.E. If I thought of a friend to help me, the dirty thought would be quickly followed by the thought of why I needed them in the first place, or needed to see them. Often in male or female company, I now wanted to touch the person sexually, primarily their legs, inner legs, this had not happened before: I was not happy with this new induced mental state.
At this time all interest in woman's bottoms, breasts, increased, particularly black clad woman, black people, black children, there was no fantasy or fantasy masturbation. There was considerable reaction from black people in the area near where I live that had noticed this, they were holding their noses, holding ear lobes, dirty looks, abuse from young black people.
This activity made me so psychopathic that one day I nearly attacked a woman that was walking towards me holding her ear. When the woman got very close to me I could see that she was holding and using a skin coloured mobile phone.
This almost hitting this woman alarmed me, I went to see my G.P. Dr. Goodwyn. Dr. Goodwyn seemed understanding: but thought that I had a delusory mental problem. Dr. Goodwyn asked me if I would see a community psychiatric nurse. I agreed to this, and an appointment was set up to see C.P.N. Bev Spurling at 1 P.M. 19th May 2000. At Arlington House, Woodbridge Road Ipswich.
I went to see Bev Spurling, I outlined my theories as all life on the planet as organic machine, I outlined the problems with Ipswich Borough Council, and my unhappiness with St. Clements Mental Hospital. I outlined my induced mental problems, the colour black, the induced paedophile problem, the problems that I was getting on the streets with people gesticulating and abusing me. I stated that I was so angry: that I wanted to kill people. I stated that I did not want to see a consultant at the St. Clements Mental Hospital.
C.P.N. Bev Spurling recommended a change of medication and a referral to see Dr. Solomka, Consultant Forensic Psychiatrist, at the St. Clement's Mental Hospital. I thought about this for some time, I was very concerned at seeing a Consultant Forensic Psychiatrist. Particularly at ST. Clement's. If a Consultant Forensic Psychiatrist assesses that you are a risk to the general public: then he has the power to have you sectioned under the mental health act. Locked up: Goodbye.
I telephoned C.P.N. Bev Spurlings office, Bev was not there, I spoke to a colleague, I said that I was not keeping the appointment at ST. Clements, the colleague found my file and said, you are very ill Mr. Johns, you should keep the appointment at ST. Clements. I then stated that my decision was final, I asked him to thank Bev Spurling for her help, said goodbye and put the phone down. I then telephoned St. Clement's and cancelled the appointment that Bev Spurling had set up.
I could not see DR. Goodwyn, I saw his colleague DR. Hague, we discussed the situation. DR. Haig assessed that I had not been in any serious trouble in the past, he asked me if I thought that I was likely to be violent, I replied that I did not think so. DR. Haig stated well, you have been with us for a long time without any serious trouble, and as far as he was concerned: that was the end of the matter.
I went home and thought about the whole situation, I spoke with a friend, he said the problem you are getting on the streets, they are winding you up, they want you to be violent: then they can lock you up, you will have to ignore this problem, it will eventually go away. I heeded the advice, not long after this, strangely enough, much of the harassment just faded away. At the time I felt there was a link between Bev Spurlings office, ( this is close to the area where I live ), and the people that were harassing me. Linked ST. Clements - Social Services, Masons, Police, Ipswich Borough Council. However, it may have just been that the harassing people could have found a new victim to torment.
Tests on route to my eldest daughters - in and outside the Foxhall Newsagents shop, tests since mid 1998, until the year 2000 the mental destruction was so great, that I developed electronics projects as a focal point, ( a concentration ), to minimise suicidal thought level, I would spend up to eight hours per day developing electronic products. Nearly every time I went on the streets to go to my eldest daughters, there was testing and abuse. Much of the electronics design, cannot now be used, this is / was a lot of time wasted.
Mental Corruption, 05 Points.
Days Affected. 2.5 years.
I slowly made progress to better mental health from the middle of the year 2000 to September 2002. At this point I was reasonably happy. There was still a little gesticulation on the streets and I was occasionally called a pervert, I however had got used to this, this now only caused mild annoyance and depression.
The induced paedophile interest for children below the age of 12 had completely gone by December 2002. There had never been any sexual fantasy for this age group of children. There was still a slight sexual interest in female children above this age, this is quite common, however: such urges have to be kept under control, and most people adhere to this. The sexual interest in 13 to 15 year old good looking female children displaying good body figures was,
Sexual Interest, 03 Points.
Such a fourteen year old child of sexual interest at level three,
my low level sexual interest in my current adapted mental state,
the child image is displayed below. Such a child easily gains
access to night clubs, drinks alcohol, she usually has older
boyfriends, and she is usually a young woman enjoying her new
found sexuality.
I feel that this young teenage sexual interest was still exacerbated by the prior adult corruption. The sexual interest in good looking woman displaying good body figures between the age of 20 to 30 was far greater, and was,
Sexual Interest, 06 to 08 Points.The sexual interest in men had gone, I was not now sexually interested in men bending over, I was not sexually interested in black men or black children, I was however still sexually attracted to black women particularly good lookers 20 to 30 years of age. The interest in the colour black had reduced to a very low level.
Although I was still sexually attracted primarily to older female women, still attracted at a higher level than that which I feel is normal because of my still slightly corrupted brain, I did not want a sexual bonding relationship with any person male or female at any age. I now had no trust in people: and I just wanted to get on with my project work that I felt long term would help a lot of people. I only wanted to help people remotely, there was no trust in any direct communication.
The image displayed below, was first viewed 03 02 04. At the time in my assessment: after a few minutes careful scrutiny,
Sexual Interest, 08 Points.I was looking through the images for inclusion on this site, 09-03-04 when I unexpectedly came across the image again, this was the first time that I had viewed this image since early February, my first impression was to exclaim, shit ! this was not a derogatory statement: the exclamation was for surprise. In my assessment for the first three seconds, this got to level ten,
Sexual Interest For The First Three Seconds, 10 Points.
I published the ibcrscum.com web site in December 2002, and locally promoted this publication. The ibcrscum.com web site was very similar to this site without the publication of this book. I wanted to bring an action against the people that had harassed me, principally: the business people that had allowed sexual psychological profiling to take place in their businesses, and had been party to the amateur psychology testing.
Between September and December in the year 2002, I was becoming more and more aggravated by the fact that the police had adapted my mental state to a serious homosexual interest, and that the overall effect of the psychological damage from their testing, this had produced a serious paedophile interest to occur after my mothers death: and it was very likely that I was now legally registered as a homosexual and a paedophile on police and home office data bases. This made me very angry.
I decided to do something about this, so I published the data below as a separate web page on this internet site; I offered a reward for information to bring legal action against the businesses where the bulk of the profiling harassment took place. This was to have disastrous consequences, I stirred up a hornets nest. The psychologists came back with a vengeance.
Authors Note. The publication below that proceeds to the end of this part-2 of this book is referred to in latter parts of this book as: The 2002 Reward Publication.
Gone is the sugar beet factory that used to emit a horrid repugnant smell
in the winter that used to settle on and in Ipswich in Suffolk England.
Unfortunately the smell from the sewage plant on the outskirts of Ipswich is
prevalent in the town in the summer. But nothing matches the overpowering stench
from the often arrogant and socially superior field psychologists that
proliferate the area in the spring and the summer as they pour out of their
offices to the warmth in competition to conduct and promote their dirty
business.
Your brain will adapt as your life takes it's course. Stability sets a good path for life unless a major brain corruption takes place. If you are male and you had a loving caring mother, your ideal in a heterosexual relationship will often be in the image of your mother. If your mother was fat then there is a greater chance that you will be attracted to fat women. If your mothers stature was child like, you will probably be attracted to petite small slim women.
There will be many physical attributes passed from your childhood loving carers that will interest you in a possible partner as you pass through puberty. I.E. eye colour, hair colour, leg shape, breast shape, etc. If your brain is corrupted by false data from a new partner you have chosen, your brain will adapt if it finds such a fault. I.E. If your chosen partner had blue eyes and you were attracted to blue eyes by prior environmental programming, if your new partner corrupts your brain by dishonesty; then you have a higher chance incidence of adapting to a new attraction for a different eye colour.
Therefore, it follows, that,
1. If tall does not work, adapt to small.
2. If blue eyes do not work, adapt to a different colour.
3. If blond hair does not work, adapt to a different colour.
4. If white skin does not work, adapt to brown / black,
5. If heterosexual does not work, adapt to homosexual or lesbian,
6. If adults does not work, adapt to children.
Of course all of the above can be reversed or presented in any order, and adaptations can take many paths. Corporates can take advantage of the above in that a corrupted brain can be easily adapted by field psychologists to almost any displayed pattern that is desired. The victim can be easily driven to suicide !
Note. Field psychologists can be a group or a single person that sets up a test in the street or on a collusive interested business premises whereby the test can indicate a particular interest by the victim.
To, say, test for homosexuality, the tester could walk towards the victim rubbing his inner thigh, or touching his own genital area, or lightly massage across his lips, If the victim shows an interest then many adaptations of the above by different testers and individual psychologists can prove a homosexual interest. None of the above proves the victim is an active homosexual, it just proves there is a homosexual sexual interest: only absolute proof of same gender sexual activity provides the fact.
New Scientist. 17 November 2001. Page 6.
Worldly wise. Intelligence
depends upon the environment.
New Scientist. 26 January 2002. Page 13.
Daddy's girls. A hint of your
father turns a perfect stranger in to an ideal mate. Closest relative in your
formative years causes sexual selection later.
New Scientist. 2 February 2002. Page 26.
Like Father Like Husband.
Closest relative in your formative years causes sexual selection later.
In 1996 because of the physical assault by the author on the Ipswich Labour Council leader David Ball, the assault and the pending criminal court case that would be very scathing for the Ipswich Borough Council, there were many politically driven agencies / people that had the knowledge of this event and were very interested, some were very alarmed.
The Ipswich police had seized the authors computers under the Obscene Publications Act, following a complaint from the local newspaper, the Evening Star's Editor, Nigel Pickover. Pickover sent material to the police after I had threatened to sue his newspaper for libel over a published article. The police analysed the data on the authors computers, there was no obscene material, no police prosecution, the computers were returned, there was also no apology from the police.
Because the books on the computer where so unusual, my brain program 1946 - 1995, ( Autobiography ), the author feels this data was unprofessionally circulated by the police to interested psychologists: psychology groups in the Ipswich area. There was particular interest in the author by teams of field psychologists in the way his brain program had adapted / was adapting to the negative by the mental corruption of the David Ball disclosure and thereafter circumstance: and pending court case event.
This was in the time period 1996 - 1999. This adaptation for the brain of the author, and this adaptation data recorded by the interested psychologists, and locally published, was to the negative. There was and still is a campaign to negate the authors mental state and credibility by some agencies.
Field psychology tests were carried out by psychologists on the author between the summer of 1996 to 1998 in the Neptune Cafe in Fore Street. In in 1996 to 1998 at the Save Garage at the bottom of Bishops Hill, and in the summer of 1999 at the Foxhall News Shop Foxhall Road, and on the streets. The locally published psychologists interest causing harassment for the author caused further negative mental adaptation of the authors brain.
The new negative adaptation caused by the psychologists caused still further psychologists interest in the authors further mental demise / corrupted negative adaptation. It takes hundreds to thousands of such tests to build a complete psychological profile.
The author does not believe it is possible to build a complete psychological profile in such a way. The victim because of the extent of the psychology testing realises he is being tested / observed, this causes corruption / adaptation to the victims brain. Results after corrupting the victims brain are therefore absolutely flawed.
The author feels that these engineered psychology tests were political to stop the global publication of the book and the data on this site. There seemed to be a competition between a politically blue psychology team and a politically red psychology team to capture the authors negatively adapted brain program. If this was the case, reds were more persistent, they had more to lose, in this case reds won.
This culminated in inducing such a negative suicidal state for the author that he decided to fail every psychology test at the Foxhall News shop in the summer of 1999 to finally get rid of these field psychologists. This made and kept the author depressed and psychopathic.
This psychology testing also had severe repercussions in the year 2000 and 2001, and still presents harassment and at times psychopathy problems to date for the author. The author feels that a photographic image of him was displayed in the year 2000 in the locality near where he lives, photographs displayed to the local populace at their homes, this together with the local publication of the negative psychology testing results from the Foxhall News shop.
The feedback the author received in the year 2000 on the streets was abuse and gesticulation from many people that he had never met and did not know. The result of this new induced mental corruption to the author made him fantasise when he awoke daily for self harm, plunging a kitchen knife through his stomach in to his heart. This self harm fantasy went on for six months.
The author did not complain to the police whilst this psychology testing ensued as he felt there was a covert field psychology team mentored by a forensic psychologist at the Civic Drive police station. The author felt that this covert psychology team had played a large part in his mental demise.
The overall effect of this psychology testing has been very detrimental upon the long term mental state of the author, this action has also delayed the publication of this site and book. The author feels the objective by some of the psychologists was to negate his mental state as such so he committed suicide, or to be negated to such a state to seek asylum in a mental hospital; or if he lost control and physically attacked a psychologist / the psychologists: the psychology testing would be denied and he would be detained in a mental hospital as violently deranged.
Fortunately, such event never happened, and the authors brain was also not negated to delusion throughout this very negative for him depressing and angered time period. This whole event has left the author with serious mental impairment, long term mental depression.
There is a reward for information pertinent as to who organised these psychological tests, and what was the information in the much locally published results ? Did the police unprofessionally distribute the authors books data ? The author feels the publication of adverse data, caused by the mental adaptation; caused by the psychologists: endangered his life. There were / are people that wanted him beaten, or beaten and killed, to stop this internet site and book publication.
The author feels there could have been a college / university, or a home office team amongst the many psychologists teams, also possibly linked to social services, and politically interested agencies. The author would like to sight relevant data from any persons that have any knowledge of such.
I stopped
at this garage punctually at mid day, daily on my way to the Neptune cafe 1996 -
1998. There were usually psychology tests set up at the petrol pumps and in the
cashiers shop. This garage is now closed, the site was re:developed for
housing in 2004 and is now a small block of say forty flats.
For our victim the incremented primary sexual interest colour is say, black. Adults then ridicule and negate the victims mental state by holding their noses when they see him, or bending over, or making sexual passes, this negates the victims interest in adult faces so that the victim prefers to see the backs / bottoms of people. This also causes an subservient / inferiority complex, the victim with this new brain program prefers to walk in a subservient manner behind people usually looking at the peoples posteriors.
If you ridicule the victim enough this corrupts his normal interest in adults, adults are then reduced to a percentage of sexual appendage / appearance / colour, sexual percentage accentuated interest. Such negation can cause an induced serious paedophile interest in children to appear down to any child's age even babies in nappies / dipers. All of this new interest is tabulated and published locally and at further afield social functions that the victim attends. You want the victim discredited, beaten / killed as a totally discredited pervert / freak / moron / nonce. The victim often encounters ridicule and taunt, being called a *anker or a pervert on the street near where he lives and wherever he goes.
Fortunately, the victim in this case with his induced corrupted mental state: although the increase in sexual drive and the need to hold / love / cuddle somebody was phenomenal; he never entered in to a heterosexual - homosexual, or any paedophile behaviour. The victim with his peculiar brain program sees anal sex as unnatural, such activity would have caused the victim further long term mental negation, but he realises there are probably about fifty percent of females out there that would definitely disagree with him about this matter.
It has taken the victim three years to return to a better level of mental health, most of the at the time induced dominant sexual interests have now been reduced to a much lower percentage, however, the victim knows that considerable mental damage / adaptation is permanent, his local and general credibility is gone, this is very depressing for the victim.
If the corporate is a political party, many agents will want to see the victims demise, many agents can be employed / will have the active interest to achieve this.
Only the victim if he survives the ordeal can then work out the adaptation to his brain. Only the victim can then publish the ordeal and the adaptation. Only the victim can transmit the trials, the cause, and the personal effects. Many psychiatrists / psychologists, or as they like to call themselves now psychotherapists, the author sees and interprets these people as psycho-the-rapists, only the victim can search for the evidence for the being of the people that bullied and raped him in the hope that a prosecution for harassment for the rapists will stop this usually political perverted corrupting street / business psychology testing practise.
Please proceed to the next part of this book.